Me and Boss Bear

As if I had lost my soul, I walked alone under the dim street lights. The streets on both sides of the road were already empty, and the lights of the roadside businesses were dimly extinguished. The bustling scene during the day had long since disappeared without a trace.The empty streets can't help but make people feel depressed.

Autumn in Xiamen is really here!Walking in the row of sycamore trees, the autumn wind blows and the chill hits people.I wrapped my clothes tightly, put my hands in my trouser pockets, and walked on this deserted street.A gust of autumn wind blew, the leaves rustled, and the dead leaves fell with the wind in this mixed autumn... The neon lights of the opposite building kept flickering, and the lights reflected on the road ahead, which was very wonderful...

The night was very quiet, and the sound of the engine of the car passing by was faintly heard in the distance, and then disappeared.Walking slowly, my heart gradually calmed down, and the excitement and anger in the hotel just now were completely gone.I felt like my breathing was slowing down, and my mind was blank.

Before I knew it, I walked to the seaside, the sea breeze gusts, and a kind of invigorating coolness sweeps over every joint of the body, making people wake up.The sea in Xiamen, the place I yearn for the most, finally, I have stayed in this land for six years.Whenever I am alone, I like to sit by the sea. Only the sea can bring me enough peace of mind...

Walk to the beach, find a rock to sit down on, take out a cigarette, light one and start smoking.What a silent night!Although the sea breeze is blowing and the chill is pressing, I still want to stay for a while. "The autumn wind is bleak, and the flood is surging."I can't help thinking of Cao Cao's "Guan Canghai", but what Cao Cao thinks in his heart is completely different from what I think in my heart now.

The dark sky, covered with dark clouds, suddenly highlighted a kind of quiet and weirdness.I close my eyes...

"Don't lie to yourself anymore! You like men! You like your boss!..." Mr. Qian's words kept echoing in my ears...

Looking at the boundless sea level in confusion, he lightly puffed out a cigarette...

It was dark and starless.The sky was tightly covered by dark clouds, and only half of the bright moon was covered.The bright moonlight sprinkled on the boundless sea, and suddenly, a vast expanse of whiteness appeared in the eyes, like endless scales, exuding dazzling silvery white light.

I took a puff of the cigarette, then exhaled it lightly, and the smoke immediately drifted away with the wind.I can't lie to myself!I love boss!Slightly closing my eyes, the appearance of the boss immediately appeared in my mind.I like the charming face of the boss, so gentle and kind; I like his energetic eyes, every time I look into his eyes, I will be in a trance and forget everything around me; I like his light beard, I really want to get close to him Kissing his face, feeling his slight blue beard rubbing against my face; I like his broad and warm chest, every time I hug him, I don’t want to let go, I really want to stay in his arms and never separate... …I love him, really love him!As much as I tried to tell myself I wasn't gay and I couldn't be gay, I couldn't lie to myself.I really love him...

Open your eyes, look up at the sky, and what you see is still your appearance... Boss, I love you, I really miss you!Where are you now and what are you doing?Why do we have to fight, why can't we always be as good as before?I looked at the sea in confusion, and the dazzling light kept hitting my visual nerves.boss……

A gust of wind blew by, stirring the hair on my forehead.The beautiful sea, the bright moon, and the dark night hurt my deep pupils.I took a deep breath of the cigarette and let it out slowly, with a confused look on my face and pain in my heart.A drop of cold water slid from my cheek...

Um?It's raining?Yes, it's raining.The thick dark cloud finally couldn't help but began to vent.I get up and leave the beach.This is not a downtown area, and it is basically impossible to get a taxi at this time.It doesn't matter, it's not far from where we live.I put my hands in my trouser pockets and walked back... everything was quiet...

When I got back to my residence, my clothes were all wet, and I was shivering a little from the cold.He hurriedly took off his wet clothes and took a hot shower immediately.Streams of hot water from head to toe, slid over my skin and washed my soul.I wiped the foggy mirror with wet hands.Looking at myself covered in water from head to toe in the mirror, I realized how decadent, downcast, and confused I am now compared to myself more than a year ago.

He collapsed on the bed as if paralyzed, motionless.After taking a bath, the body feels relaxed, but the heart is extremely heavy.Thinking back to the first time I slept with my boss, I fell into his arms, how good it was!Is it just a memory now?

It was a little cold, I curled up and hid under the quilt.My head hurts a little, a dull pain. "Oops! I have a cold! I have a low-grade fever!" I said to myself.

Before I knew it, it was almost one o'clock in the morning.I called "boss" in a daze, and finally, I fell asleep...

The next morning, it was the alarm clock that woke me up.I tried my best to get up, but my head still hurts!I ransacked the house and searched around, but still couldn't find any cold medicine. Hey... my resistance is not as good as before... Forget it, it's not too painful, it shouldn't be a problem, let's go to work first!

I arrived relatively early, and basically everyone hadn't arrived yet, and of course the boss hadn't come either.I was not feeling well, so I sat in silence at my desk and finished the small projects I had picked up two days ago.

An hour later, almost everyone arrived, but the boss hadn't arrived yet, and a heavy sense of loss came to my heart.My head hurt more and more, and it felt like a heavy shot put.No, I really can't hold on anymore.So I packed my briefcase and prepared to leave.

"Manager!" I politely walked into the manager's office.

"Huh? Xiao Lin? What's the matter?" The manager put down the document in his hand and looked up at me.

"I'm not feeling well today, and I want to take a day off to go back and rest."

"Ah? Your complexion is indeed bad. Is there any discomfort?"

"It's okay, some minor problems, just take a rest."

"Well, okay, there is no big task now, you can go back first, pay attention to rest!"

"Well! Thank you manager!"...

After leaving the company, I went straight to the pharmacy to buy medicine. I had no strength to walk back to my residence, so I had to stop a taxi...

After taking the medicine, my whole body was paralyzed, and I fell into a deep sleep on the bed...

Not long after, there was a knock on the door.The person who knocked on the door was very hard and knocked very quickly, as if the door panel was about to be smashed, and he kept yelling outside.I was in such a hazy sleep that I couldn't tell who it was.Come to think of it, it's the beginning of the month again, the old woman from the landlord should be here to collect the rent, fuck me!Every knock on the door is loud! ...I dragged my heavy and exhausted body, and opened the door in a daze...

The moment the door opened, I was shocked and froze there.The person standing in front of me now is him...