blue marshmallow

"Although we still lived together after the divorce, we were actually separated. I only told a few close friends. During the time of the divorce, I was very depressed. I didn't expect that my career would be successful and I would have everything. The woman betrayed me, and I was extremely depressed. In order to make me happy, everyone enthusiastically and actively accompanied me to have fun everywhere. After playing wildly and excitingly for more than half a year, I realized that this kind of life is meaningless and determined to cheer up again, friend They all started to introduce me to girlfriends again, but I haven't been with any girl for more than three months, and I don't know what's wrong with me. I just don't trust women. Their inadvertent glances, words, It will make me nervous, and it will touch the pain deep in my heart. In fact, at that time, Huijia, oh, was my ex-wife. I said no, it’s not that I’m not moved, it’s just that time has passed, and that touch can’t make up for the harm she once caused me.”

"Until the day I met you, your hot breath actually made me respond. The way you looked at me, you held my hand, and your bright smile, I will never forget it for a long time. I thought it was just a coincidence , who knew that we would meet again, I decided to give myself a chance to try, since I no longer trust women, can I still trust men?"

"I dare not tell you about my past. I am worried that you will not be able to bear the innocence and choose to leave. I want to wait until our relationship has stabilized before telling you that you will no longer be able to leave me. You should Don't mind my past, so I try my best to love you and influence you, but I always can't figure out your thoughts, I have been with you for so long, no matter how much I do to touch you, Even if you were moved to tears, laughed, and even worked harder to cooperate with me on the bed, you never took the initiative to say that you like me and love me, "I can only cry, what he said is the truth, my timidity Selfishness makes me stop abruptly every time I want to show my true feelings.

"Before the Spring Festival last year, your anomaly puzzled me for many days. It wasn't until Ah Hang brought the photo of you kissing Xiaorui that I realized that I am ten years older than you. You are so bright and beautiful. How could such vigor and vitality be possessed and monopolized by an old man like me? I am so confident and arrogant, but I still don’t want to give up. I deceive myself and think, maybe you are just looking for excitement because you are bored. After all I have to take care of the company and family, so I don't have much time to spend with you, and Xiaorui's conditions are very different from mine, I don't take him seriously at all, besides, I also have a past that I can't bear to look back on, young people will have a period In the period of confusion, after the frivolous and frivolous, you will know that I am the calm and warm harbor you have been relying on, so during the Chinese New Year, I will pick you up as if I don’t know anything, and then I will spend more time with you. Because of this, Huijia often quarreled with me, saying that I didn't give her a chance, I didn't care about Tiantian, I endured it, and I hope my dedication can win your heart," he looked at me and smiled, my heart All broken, I think of him dragging his tired body back at midnight, rubbing his sleepy eyes and leaving at dawn, tears falling down, and he gently wiped me dry.

"I was quite happy when you suddenly went crazy at work. If you spent all your time on work, you would have no time and energy to think about it. Until one time when I was looking for something, I accidentally pulled your phone away. drawer, I know you put all the money I gave you in the drawer, but that drawer was empty, and I realized the seriousness of the problem. Later, you said that you would go to play with your colleagues on the eleventh, and I didn’t do it until you came back. I doubt it, but when I saw the photo of you and Xiaorui traveling together in the mailbox, the clothes you were wearing happened to be the clothes you brought to Dali, I hesitated for a while before checking your whereabouts in those few days, Xiaoxiang , I really didn't find someone to follow you. I checked your whereabouts and found out that after you went to Beijing with Xiaorui, I endured it for a few days without telling you. I wanted to find an opportunity to ask you, but, but... ..." But just in time for Xiaorui's mother to be hospitalized urgently and I didn't come home all night. I caught up with you to pick me up from work and found that I was not in class. I just said overtime when I caught up with you. Hey, the ancients said that there is no reason to write a book without a coincidence .

I smiled and shook my head, "Zheng, it's all over, don't mention it again, I was also at fault, I shouldn't have not told you about Xiaorui and caused you to misunderstand,"

"Then," he looked at me earnestly and held my hand tightly, "are you still willing to accept me?"

"Ah?" My eyes widened in confusion, shouldn't it be me who should ask this question?

I wish Huihui happiness and peace!