blue marshmallow

I cried for a while and felt better, so I dragged him into the room. He was taken aback when he saw the things on my desk and bed, and asked me what was going on with his eyes.

"My mother asked me to go back with you tomorrow," I whispered with my head down.

"Really," he suppressed his joy, pulling me to sit on the bed.

I still felt that I couldn't lift my head up, so I just nodded slightly, feeling that he was looking at me all the time, and his burning eyes made my heart burn.

"Xiao Xiang, aren't you happy to go back with me?" His voice was somewhat disappointed and hurt.

"No," I quickly raised my head and shook it desperately, "No," I don't want him to get hurt again.

"Then why are you crying? Are you reluctant to leave home?" He looked at me with concern and gently embraced me.

"No, I think I lied to them," I began to choke up again, I hated myself for being cruel and selfish, and hated myself for the way I am now.

"I'm sorry, Xiaoxiang, it's all my fault," he put his arms around me and shook me gently, "Don't worry, I will treat you well,"

"A Zheng," I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. It was he who made me give up my freedom and choose to wait for someone alone. It was he who made me believe that I could have the courage to pursue my own love. But, "How long can you love me?" ?”

He looked into my eyes sincerely and firmly, "As long as you agree, I am willing to love you for the rest of my life."

Looking at his talking eyes, listening to his gentle and sincere words, my heart is drunk. I never expected to be alone for the rest of my life. Even if he is just talking about love and deceiving me now, I am willing to believe it. What he said was true.

"Xiaoxiang, are you willing? Can we be together forever?" He hugged me in his arms.

"But, you are not gay, how can you..." Intoxicated is intoxicated, the words must be made clear, I will not look back after this trip, then, please give me a reasonable reason.

He stared at me for a moment, smiled self-deprecatingly, let go of my body, only held my hand, and looked into my eyes calmly, "I don't know if you believe me when I say this, but I am indeed not gay. At that time, when the sea confessed to me, if it wasn't because we were iron buddies since we were young, I really wanted to beat him fiercely, and I never ignored him, haha, "He smiled and looked away, as if through the time tunnel to return Arrived once upon a time.

"Later, because I was young, I couldn't bear the stimulation and temptation, so I followed him to wander around. To be honest, I also felt very excited and exciting, but I was not addicted." He stopped, thinking about his words, "Until I When I met you, I admit that you are handsome," he smiled and pinched my face, and I responded with a smile, encouraging him to continue, thinking that he skipped the marriage part, but I didn't want to hear it either.

"In the beginning, your handsomeness and innocence attracted me. You are completely different from the homosexuals I have been in contact with before. You are very sunny, full of vigor, and never hide your feelings. Every time you look at me, you tell me that you appreciate me and want to Me, that makes me not feel disgusted, but has a kind of warmth and sweetness that is needed by others," he took my hand and put it on his lips and kissed it.

"Until that day when you stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows and cried alone, you were so beautiful and so real, I didn't know that you were lonely inside, you hid a lot of things with a happy appearance, that moment you opened your heart to me, you told me Your fragility and fear, I said to myself at that time, I want to make you happy, make you happy, from that moment on, I really like you, fall in love with you." My eyes are wet, and I put my head on his chest.

He put his arms around my waist, "I don't know if falling in love with you is homosexuality. During the time you left, I also thought about it seriously for a long time. Dahai and my friends also reminded me to think carefully," he lifted me up. Looking straight into my eyes, "I think it through, I don't care if I'm gay or not, I just want to live happily with you, Xiaoxiang, would you like to?"

What else can I say, tears and snot can't wait to run down my face, I nodded desperately, I am willing, I am willing, as long as I am with you, I am willing to do anything.

I thought of the red envelope and asked him what was going on, he said that since he decided to be with me, my parents are also his parents, although I can’t make it clear now, but those who should be filial must be filial, so he gave it to me In the name of giving out red envelopes to honor my parents, I have mixed feelings when I see him thinking about me like this. After thinking about it, I still haven’t asked him about his marriage. I’m worried that if I tell the truth, our fate will be over. I'm terrified of losing him now.

He hugged me and sat for a while, then let me go to bed early, saying that I had to hurry tomorrow, don’t be too tired, I was reluctant to let him go, but after all, my parents are still downstairs, so I have to restrain myself no matter how reluctant Well, let alone he can hold back, I can't be too ashamed.

The next day, my parents inevitably asked again, and insisted on packing several boxes of fruit for us, but I was determined not to do so, so they said it was for the leaders and scolded me again.

He and Dahai politely bid farewell to my parents, telling them not to worry, they will take good care of me, seeing the figures of my parents gradually going away, and my own home getting smaller and smaller, I feel unspeakably uncomfortable .

How long shall I lie to them?Are you going to lie forever?Maybe it won't be long, if Ah Zheng gives up our relationship, will I be able to return to a normal life, I subconsciously look at his side face, my thoughts are running around uncontrollably.

I also have a characteristic, that is, when I am determined to do a certain thing, my head will still think wildly, imagining countless possibilities, the best and the worst, but this will not happen at all. Disrupting my prior plans, I just explain that my brain is too developed to do something else, so I never control my wild thoughts, and they don't affect me anyway.

He noticed my gaze, turned his gaze to me, and asked for my consent, lovingly hugging me into his arms. The sea was driving in front, and we hugged tightly in the back row.

He kissed my cheek, I glanced at the sea in the rearview mirror, he was wearing a pair of big sunglasses, which almost covered his whole face, I couldn't see his expression, only noticed the corner of his mouth The smile was fleeting.

"Xiaoxiang,"

"Ok?"

"I still think the green beans you made are delicious,"

"why?"

"Because there is love in it,"

"It's really meaty!"

"You go back and make it for me to eat, okay?"

"Think beautifully!"

"..."

I don’t know who is smiling so beautifully in my heart...