blue marshmallow

"Xiao Xiang," he sat in the corner, his handsome face hidden in the darkness, "I'm sorry!" He just said one sentence and stopped talking.

sorry for what?I'm sorry, let's break up, I'm sorry I lied to you, you fucking won't say it quickly, you still use slow knives to kill people!

Okay, fine, I'm sorry, I don't owe you anything!My hands were numb, and then spread along my arms to my entire chest. I stood up suddenly, no, I have to go out to get some air, I feel like I'm going to suffocate!

"Xiaoxiang," he rushed over and hugged me from behind, "don't go, listen to me,"

I quickly raised my head, tears had already rushed into my eyes, I couldn't let him see my weakness, last time on the top of Huangshan, he couldn't see it in the night, but the lights here are bright, I want to maintain what is left self-esteem.

"I knew Dahai was gay when I was in high school, and he liked me too, but I didn't accept it (damn, how could my childhood sweetheart miss it, let's talk about it when I get on it, idiot!), last time on the escalator, I thought you were very Special (I’m so handsome, why do you just call it special?) Later, he just told him as a joke (if you dare to laugh at me, you’re going to die), he said at the time that I should ask you for a phone call (tell me I also regret it), he can contact you (this choice is also good), until you go to my company for an interview, I meet you again, in the elevator, remember? (How can I not remember, I have a bad smell Khan) At that time, I was sure you were like the sea, and I knew you were interested in me (no wonder you laughed like that, you have ghosts in your feelings), but you didn’t come to work, I don’t understand (you want to understand me , let’s live in a few lifetimes, I’m not even sure what I’m talking about myself). When Dahai heard that I had your contact information, he pestered me to get in touch with you, but I didn’t agree, and I didn’t know what I was thinking at the time (There is something wrong with you boy, you ruined my great happiness, the sea is actually very good, at least I am the same kind, I am sad), and then he asked if I fell in love with you, and said that I refused at the beginning Him, it made him very sad, I didn't expect that I still have a man I can see, of course I can't admit it (Of course you don't have to admit it, how could you fall in love with me, you are a straight person, and that boy Dahai knows it, deliberately Shout out to you, idiot, I just found out today how fucking stupid you are) so he bet me if he could catch you (it turns out you're an idiot, and I'm an even bigger idiot than you) ", he hugged me and chattered endlessly, and I just thought about the lack of oxygen in my brain.

"I was worrying about how to contact you, but when I met you on the road, I wondered if we were really destined? Cook for you, you shameless liar)" Thinking back to the day I enthusiastically took care of him to take a bath, and cooked noodles for him, even though it turned into carbon sticks later, it was the first time in my life to cook for a man, okay? good?

"I deliberately stayed overnight at your house (ah, don't say it, it's a shame, the thing I've always been proud of turned out to be your plan, it's too damned), Xiao Xiang, thank you for that night, I'm happy, (I have nothing to say because I feel the same way)"

"Can you say something, Xiaoxiang?" He grabbed my shoulder,

"Let's break up," you asked me to talk, right? You asked me to say it, and I said it. Before the words fell, my tears could no longer be held back. I looked up and blinked my eyes desperately, but the tears still didn't stop His eyes overflowed with vigor, it's really embarrassing for his grandma.

"Xiao Xiang, I know you have reasons to be angry, I apologize to you, you can punish me however you want, but don't break up with me, okay?" He hugged me tightly when he said this, I could feel his The body is trembling due to excitement, angry with you, well, my strong psychological quality like Changbai Mountain is not enough, if I want to be angry, I am also angry with myself!

"I want to give it a serious try." He raised his head and stared into my eyes with such sincerity that one couldn't bear to refuse.

what is this?I suddenly wanted to laugh again, so I smiled with tears in my eyes, "Hehe, which one are you acting in? Why should I be serious with you? Why do you think I should?" I wiped away my tears , pushed him away, "Who do you think you are, yes, I admit that I'm interested in you, I'm gay, I just like handsome guys, what's wrong with me, I'm just playing with you, let's talk now, Everyone is just having fun, everyone is happy, what else do you want?" The more I talked, the more irritable I became, and I played Lao Tzu like a monkey, no wonder I met everyone on the first day and felt that they were weird, and I looked at my eyes with a kind of saying no It's so complicated, I dare you all to see my joke.

"Xiao Xiang," he jumped up and hugged me, "I'm not joking this time, I want to be serious once, I don't ask you to be serious to me, really, you can play with the same attitude as before, I Don't care, just promise me, don't break up with me."

"You are sick," are you blind? I said that I used to play with you and you really took it for fun. Could it be that when we were together before, I gave you the feeling that it was just for fun?Am I not serious?How the hell am I so unlucky, what should I do to be serious!Did I really not take it seriously?

I froze, did I never take him seriously?I was a little confused, but when I said the breakup, I obviously felt heartache, the pain made me want to bite my tongue off, what's wrong with me, don't I want to turn back?Why are you dissatisfied with him saying that I am not serious?What am I going to do?

"Xiaoxiang, promise me, okay?" He kissed my lips, my brain stopped working, he knew I couldn't escape this trick, he did it on purpose.

"Promise me, Xiaoxiang," he increased the intensity of the attack, no, no, I can't breathe, I surrender, "Woo, woo, I will listen to you, I will listen to you in everything."