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"Xiaoxiang, I want to talk to you." Ah Zheng and I helped me to clean up the dishes in the kitchen.

"Well." We are going to have a good talk, and there are too many doubts and emotions in my heart. I need to understand him, listen to him, and I need to make a break with him.

At dusk, I took him to the back mountain where I often watch the sunset. We sat casually on the hillside covered with golden fallen leaves and withered grass, silently looking at the blood-red setting sun in the sky.

"Xiaoxiang, what do you mean by "not leaving"? Then... where is Lu Youshan?"

"we broke up."

"Break up? Why? He doesn't love you anymore?"

"No, he killed someone and fled abroad."

"Oh." He stopped talking and looked down at the dead leaves on the ground.

"Why didn't you stop that day?" The thing about him speeding past me has been like a thorn in my heart. You don't need our relationship or me, but why can't you stop and talk to me?

"Ah..." He raised his head as if in a daze, looked at me blankly, and suddenly his eyes became brighter and brighter, as if he had made an important decision, "I didn't want to do that either, but at that time Ah Hang was hacked and injured. , my life is dying, I can't delay for a minute, I...I wanted to jump out of the car and hug you, Xiaoxiang..."

"Ah..." I didn't expect this to happen. I looked into his eyes in surprise. Now that I think about it, it seems that I didn't see Ah Hang sitting in the co-pilot seat. How to deal with Ah Hang, Fang Weichen also said that he would not just watch Ah Hang and Ah Zheng together, "How is Ah Hang?" Could it be that the reason you are not together is that Ah Hang suffered an accident and his back hurts? Breaking out in a cold sweat, I dare not think about it further.

"Because he was sent to the doctor in time, his life was saved, but..."

"What happened after that?"

Ah Zheng pondered for a moment before slowly speaking, "He disappeared after he recovered, and I don't know his current situation."

"Ah..." He disappeared again, and I couldn't help but think of the irreparable damage he caused to us last time, and I couldn't help but feel lingering fear.

There was an unbearable silence, "Xiao Xiang, I lied."

"Ok?"

"I didn't pass by on a business trip," he turned his head and looked at me seriously, "Since we separated from you, I have dreamed of you almost every night, but last night I woke up and couldn't sleep anymore, the desire to see you made me feel so strong I can't control myself. I want to be closer to you. Even if I look at your door, I will feel better. I drove here all night, but I didn't expect to meet you. I think God is also helping Me, Xiaoxiang, leaving you is the most difficult decision I have made in this life, and it is also the most failed decision. I regret it now, please forgive me." He looked at me with a helpless expression, I I really can't bear to see him like this, but reason reminds me that I can't be soft-hearted, and I can't go back to the past.

"Ah Zheng, that's all in the past. I didn't blame you. If it didn't exist, I wouldn't forgive you." I suppressed the excitement in my heart and said lightly.

"Do you know how much my heart bleeds before I tell you to love Lu Youshan." He hugged his head and buried it in his knees.

I know, how can I not know your suffering, you just want me to be happy, you don't want me to be bound by our past, in order for me to pursue a new emotional destination, you would rather drink sour wine alone Bitter wine, but you still don't understand what I want, and I can't blame you, because I didn't think about it clearly at that time.

"I'm in love with him." I'm still indifferent, it's a fact, I don't need to hide it.

He raised his head and looked at me blankly, "Then...do you still love me?"

I turned my head and looked at him seriously, "Love," I said affirmatively, with red eye circles, "Always love!" His eyes were burning hot, "But, we can't go back to the past." No Having the heart to see that beautiful flame go out, I turned my head to look at the sky that was slowly darkening.

"Why can't you go back?" He suddenly hugged me, this was the first physical contact after we met, I broke free like an electric shock, and he looked at me in embarrassment, with heart-wrenching injuries in his eyes.

"I want to live a normal life." Knowing that I would feel somewhat guilty, I said it loudly on purpose.

He looked at me puzzled, "Normal life?" He murmured and repeated, "Marry a wife and have children like your mother said?"

This... I haven't thought about it, at least I don't want to fall in love again, because the same will not have a good result, why bother to endure another heart-piercing pain? "Almost." I answered against my will.

"Xiao Xiang, I know you must still be angry with me, I swear I will never leave you again, don't be childish anymore, come back with me, let's start again." He stubbornly came to hug me again, Because of the previous lesson, he used all his strength, and I couldn't break free for a while.

"Please, be realistic, okay? Which of us is childish?" I looked at him angrily in his arms, my nose almost touching his nose, "There are some things that you can't go back just by saying." When will he Becoming so immature.

"I don't care. Anyway, you and Lu Youshan have broken up now. I'm not taking love with a knife. You also said that you have always loved me. I will be with you now. This time, I won't let you go." Isn't he playing tricks?I laughed angrily at him.

"Xiao Xiang, if you smile, that means you agree?" He blinked at me childishly, and I suddenly wanted to cry again, Ah Zheng, are you willing to bow your head in such a grievance only for me?

At the beginning, you gave up your self-esteem to please him in order to beg Ah Hang to let me go, but now you are embarrassing yourself in such a way to make me change my mind, such deep affection promises, why don't you let me flinch?

"Stop making trouble," I pulled out my hand to caress his face, "Go back and rest early, you have to go back tomorrow."

He withdrew his naughtiness, his eyes became stern and decisive, "Don't you believe what I said?"

Seeing him suddenly change, I was a little scared, "I believe it, but I can't accept it."

"Don't worry, I'll let you accept it," he regained his strength and looked at me confidently, "Let's go, go back and rest." He said and walked down the mountain first.