blue marshmallow

In the end, I still didn't go to Lin Qian's funeral. A few days later, I asked Chu Xia to take me to her cemetery to offer a bouquet of lilies.

We walked all the way down the mountain, looking at the yellow, green, orange and red, and realized that it was late autumn in a blink of an eye, and a year has passed like this. From the beginning of the year to here, so many changes have happened in a few months, I suddenly feel that life It was really hasty, there was no time to catch my breath and turn around, so I sighed unconsciously.

"What's the matter, what are you feeling?" He stopped and looked at me.

I was tired from walking, and seeing him stop, I found a rock and sat down, pointing to the scenery in front of me, "Look, autumn is here, can winter be far behind?"

He smiled and sat beside me, "I can't see that you are a poet." He took out a cigarette and handed it to me.

I wanted to refuse, but after thinking about it, I took a deep breath, lowered my head, and looked at the busy little ants under my feet, "What do you think of Lin Qian's death?"

"That's her life, she has the right to decide what kind of life to live, it has nothing to do with you and me."

"But don't you think such a sacrifice is meaningless?"

"Is it meaningful? Only the person concerned has the right to speak. From her point of view, she must think it is worthwhile, so she will do this."

"Then why doesn't she consider the feelings of the people around her? Xiaofeng will be sad if she loses her sister, Big Brother Lu will be sad if he loses her, and I... I will feel guilty too. Why doesn't she think about these things?"

"If she has time to think about this, it's not her life. This is the result she wants, and she doesn't need to think about anything else."

"If it were you, would you do this?"

"No!" He replied emphatically.

"why?"

"no value."

The same thing, some people think it is very meaningful, some people think it is worthless, if Ah Zheng and I were switched, what would I do?I don't know the answer.

"I think life is like an exam paper. I always encounter a question that I can't do and skip to the next one. But now I have to wait for others to give me the answer to this question."

"Sometimes the process is more important than the answer."

"What if the answer is wrong?"

"There are also process points. Don't forget, the answer is only one step, but the process has many steps, so most of the points can still be obtained."

"But what if this question is not an essay question but a multiple-choice question?"

"Xiao Xiang, what exactly are you trying to say?" He stubbed out his cigarette on the rock, squinting at me.

"Chu Xia, do you know about me and Ah Zheng?"

"Aaron told me something, what's the matter?"

"Do you think he did the right thing?"

"Of course he did it because he thought he was doing the right thing."

"But don't you know right or wrong after things have happened? At that time, you thought it was right to do it, but after the fact, there were many cases where it was wrong. It seems that when we look at history now, many decisions that were considered correct at the time seem to be wrong now. It's ridiculous."

"That's his exam paper. Of course, he has the final say on whether the result is right or wrong. For the same question, your answer and his answer can be different."

"But shouldn't the lives of two people who love each other be connected together? They should take a test paper together. If his answer is [-] points, but I think it is [-] points, then on average they will fail. "

Chu Xia saw that I didn't express my opinion for a long time, and suddenly smiled, and patted my head, "Xiaoxiang, I know, even if Lu Youshan gives up, I won't have a chance." What he said was really inexplicable. Looking at him, "You have really grown up, you already have the answer to this question yourself, so don't ask me any more."

I raised my head and looked into the distance, Lu Youshan, please give us the answer to this question as soon as possible, I don't want to fail again.

It was already evening when I returned to the urban area. I said that I wanted to see Brother Long, because I didn't know when I would leave. Let's see each other more while I have the opportunity now.

Chu Xia asked them to meet at a western restaurant. It was obvious that Brother Long and Chu Chu were very happy. I asked him if he knew the news about Lu Youshan. Brother Long said that considering that the bloodshed happened at their wedding, he would publicize it to the outside world. It wasn't very appropriate, Chu Chu's father stepped forward to suppress the matter, and the police are currently stepping up their investigation secretly. There are also Long Ge's people in the police team. There is no news about Lu Youshan's whereabouts. He said that no news is good news, so I don't want it In a hurry, he said that Lu Youshan had gone through countless dangers and dangers in his life, and in the end he turned the crisis into safety. He is a lucky star.Hearing him say that made me feel more at ease.

After dinner, Brother Long and Chu Chu left first. Since I hadn't come out to relax for a long time, Chu Xia drove me outside for a drive.

When passing by a financial business district, the crowd on the side of the road suddenly dispersed, and some people screamed. He parked the car instinctively on the side of the road, and saw a man stumbled out of a building. Most of the side was stained red with blood, and there were several men behind him with machetes in their hands, chasing after him.

When I saw the person in front of me clearly, I couldn't help being taken aback, hesitated for a moment, opened the car door and was about to jump down.

"Xiaoxiang, try not to cause trouble at this time." Chu Xia grabbed my arm to stop me.

"I have to take care of this person." I shook off him and rushed out.

I sprinted for a hundred meters, and I stopped the man who was chasing after him and started to fight. After holding back for so long, today is just a good time for me to stretch my muscles and bones. It's just that I haven't learned enough from Ah Wei to fight with empty hands. The victory lies in the word "courage". Luckily, Chu Xia followed closely to help, otherwise I would be able to repel them by myself, but I might have to pay some blood.

Looking at the backs of them being beaten and fled, I couldn't help but nodded gratefully to Chu Xia, ignoring the man who fell on the ground and followed him straight back, thinking that although his injuries were serious, it would be okay to go to the hospital by myself problem.

"Why save me?" Fang Weichen stood up unsteadily, clutching his stomach.

I stopped in my tracks and didn't look back, "Ah Zheng won't want to see you busy."

"You... still love him?"

"..." Still in love with him?I never didn't love him, he didn't want me anymore, he didn't want our love anymore.

"I figured it out, as long as he lives well, it's more important than anything else," Fang Weichen approached me and patted my shoulder, "He's not with Ah Hang, he always only has you in his heart."

I was hit with a sap on my chest, I swayed and stood stiffly on the ground, took a breath and violently shook off his hand and walked towards Chu Xia who was leaning against the car door, why did you tell me this, since you know Ah Zheng and I will never go back to the past, so why let me know such a cruel result.

"Can you tell me... his name?" His voice trembled with unconfidence.

I raised my head and glanced at Chu Xia who was looking at this side with a complicated expression, and then looked back at Fang Weichen who was a little embarrassed and full of expectation, "His... is called Chu Xia."

"Thank you!" Fang Weichen smiled at me and turned away.

Looking at his lonely back, I suddenly lost my hatred, everyone is not easy, why do men make things difficult for men!