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The speed of the descent slowed down, we landed lightly on the ground, the floor tiles above our heads were closed immediately, and the only light disappeared, I hugged him nervously and dared not let go.

"Well, let me think about it, where should we go?" He said to himself what I couldn't understand.

Suddenly there was a light around me, and then there was a sound, and a gust of breeze was blowing in my face. I couldn't help but let go of him and walked forward. My God, I seemed to be standing on the roof of a skyscraper, and the whole New York City was at my feet. , I opened my arms and turned around, surrounded by high-rise buildings, and the traffic flow under my feet. I looked up and the night sky was full of stars, and there were planes flying by from time to time.

"Chu Xia, how did you do it? It's amazing!"

"Do you like it? Dome movie, hehe, here, here is the remote control, you can set the scene you like as you like."

"Well, now I like this." I sat on the sofa and enjoyed the beautiful scenery in front of me, looking at the chaos and noise in the distance, but my heart was quiet and peaceful.

He opened the beer and handed it to me, and sat next to me, we drank beer slowly, silent.

I don't know how many cans I drank. I feel light in my head and feel very comfortable. I really want to talk to someone.

"Chu Xia, do you think people like us will have real happiness?"

"What do you mean by true happiness?"

"Well... Just like ordinary couples, live in peace."

"Do you want such happiness?"

"Of course I do, don't you?"

"As long as you think about it, there will be."

"Tch, it's deceitful, I wanted to be an astronaut when I was young, but look at me now, I'm not even qualified to fly a plane."

"That means you haven't thought enough, and your desire is not strong enough."

"Do you hate yourself the way you are?"

"Why do you say that?"

"I don't know, sometimes I think, if I wasn't like this, so many bad things wouldn't have happened."

"Xiao Xiang, there are countless choices in life that we have to make by ourselves, but we have no choice but to accept this matter. If we don't accept it, we will struggle like being stuck in a muddy swamp all our lives. Swallowed up by your own false consciousness."

"I also understand, but I just can't help thinking like this, especially when encountering bad things." I know that I am very fragile now, and a little alcohol will make me show my true colors.

He stretched out his arms to encircle me, "It's okay to think about it occasionally, just don't deny yourself easily, you are you, unique, and the best!"

"Well," I drank the wine and lowered my head, "You said... he will be fine."

"Well, it's hard to say, it should be fine."

"Have you ever loved?" What's wrong with me, do I want to find a bosom friend and seek comfort?While questioning his motives, he still wanted to know his answer.

"Ah, I think...it should...be...loved!"

I blinked my eyes and tilted my head to look at him, what kind of answer was this.

"Oh, he doesn't know I love him." He smiled at my doubt.

"Why didn't you tell him?"

"I think so too, but..."

"he has married?"

"No..." He lowered his head.

"why?"

"Dead, he died before I had the courage to speak out..."

There was a burst of heartache in my chest. I looked at his calm side face, and it took me a long time to say, "I'm sorry!"

"Nothing? It's been a long time ago. Thinking about it now, even if I tell him, I can't give him anything. It's better not to say it."

We fell silent again, drinking non-stop.

"Xiaoxiang..."

"Ok?"

"I mean...if...if Lu Youshan gives up, do I have a chance?" He looked at the lights in front of him and said softly.

My heart twitched and then let go, and I settled down, "There is no if," I thought for a while and added, "He won't give up!" Yes, he won't give up, I said to myself forcefully.

The evening wind blows, and the harsh foreign siren sounds from a distance, I seem to be in another space, and my heart is empty, without joy or sorrow.

"Are you sure you don't want to sleep with me?" He stood up and looked at me.

"Can I sleep here?" I patted the sofa under me.

"Yes," his shadow shrouded me under the night sky. I couldn't see his expression clearly, but I felt his eyes burning. "This is the remote control," he said, and a skylight opened above his head. When a suspension rope was hanging down, he looked back at me when he flew over, "I'm going out tomorrow, don't go out at home, call me if you have anything to do."

"Yeah." I nodded, the skylight above my head closed, and I was back in the night in New York.

Lying on the sofa, I couldn’t fall asleep. I started researching with the remote control. The surrounding environment changed according to my settings. Spring, summer, autumn and winter, desert jungle, seabed and sky, interestingly, the sound, temperature and smell will also change according to my settings. It's amazing to change with the setting and make people feel like they are there.

Turning around, I chose the underwater world, surrounded by small fish swimming, and a few small bubbles would appear from time to time, aquatic plants and corals waved their arms towards me friendly, I squinted my eyes, thinking of being with him Days and nights on the island, I pursed my lips and smiled sweetly. That night I had a dream. I dreamed that he was riding chasing wind with me and running along the seashore...