blue marshmallow

I don't know how I got back to the hotel. I lay on the bed and cried a lot. I told myself that after crying this time, I can only smile in the future.

Calm down, I looked at the ticket in my hand, and forced myself to face the reality. I just told Ah Zheng that I want to be with Lu Youshan, and it was probably out of anger, but now I have to seriously consider this issue.

Do I want to be with Lu Youshan?Am I doing this just to get revenge on Ah Zheng?After carefully sorting out the experience of the past few years, I said that it is impossible to completely ignore the care and help Lu Youshan gave me. I can only try to minimize this impact.

In any case, when Ah Zheng chose to sacrifice our feelings in exchange for my freedom, our lives have already engraved different trajectories from each other, and we can no longer look back. There is only sadness left, please don’t just remember the final tearing and destruction, please remember the touch and the beautiful picture of the first rendezvous, when love finally comes to the chapter of breaking up, can you say goodbye? Let us Say goodbye well, and leave the last beauty in the final chapter of love..."

Zheng, no matter what you think, I will never break up with you in my heart. I am very happy to hear you say you love me again today. I am glad that we did not say goodbye, so our love will only be beautiful, and there will be no end chapter……

I can't stay in this city anymore, there are too many people and things that I can't face calmly, my practice is not enough, I can't live in a scene that can remind me of the sweet past anytime, anywhere, I have to leave , The farther you go, the better. I believe that as long as you plant the seeds of longing in your heart, they will sprout and grow wherever you go. Although they will not bear fruit, at least she is green and alive. She can bring me hope!

Of course, I can choose to go to other places, or go back to my hometown, but that would be too unfair to Lu Youshan. He has paid so much. Although he said he wouldn’t care, I can’t ignore it. Will be happy, but he will work hard, he will wait for me until three o'clock... Those words deeply touched me, he is a married middle-aged man, and the boss of a gangster, what kind of deep feelings made him treat me Saying those words, how many people can't get such affection in their whole life?

I have always thought that I am very greedy, wishing all the men in the world love me, such a deep feeling is in front of me, it is a 100% lie to say that I am not attracted.

I remember that when I was in school, many girls liked to read Zhang Xiaoxian’s novels. I was lucky enough to see a section of her exposition about love. Pick one to spend the rest of your life with.At that time, everyone agreed, but I didn’t take it seriously. At that time, I didn’t believe in love at all. Let alone getting two precious loves as a gay, I think it’s very difficult to get half of one.

And when I met Zheng, I believed in love, but I still don't believe that one person can fall in love with two people. I told myself that I only love him in this life.

So now what kind of mentality do I have to treat Lu Youshan? I can't treat his feelings vaguely, just as he said, I have to make a serious decision for myself and him.

I sat up and saw that the time was almost noon. I took some simple items and went downstairs to check out. The front desk only looked at my room card and told me that I don’t need to settle the account. I can use this room for a long time. I smiled helplessly. , I have to admit that Lu Youshan’s generosity touched me again. I still returned the room card to them. The waiter at the front desk told me politely that next time I only need to report my name and I can use this room for free indefinitely. I shook my head, at that moment I thought I would never come back to this city again.

I hailed a car at the entrance of the hotel, and when I got in, I realized that it happened to be the one I took yesterday. The driver obviously recognized me and greeted me politely. I ate something at the restaurant I frequented, and asked him to take me back to my original residence. I smoked a cigarette downstairs, looking at the familiar closed window, Zheng, are you still there?

The car kept going in circles in the urban area, every intersection, every street, every signboard had his lingering shadow, I clenched my right fist against my lips, bit my index finger knuckle tightly, greedily grasped Those clear images will be firmly remembered and engraved in my heart, Zheng, from now on you are in my heart, no one can take you away!

I arrived at the airport at 2:[-], and the man in black who kept looking for me at the entrance of the VIP room saw me for the first time, and couldn't hide his surprise and waved at me. I knew he must be waiting for me according to Lu Youshan's instructions.

After getting acquainted with Lu Youshan, I will always be deeply moved inadvertently, and the sudden feelings in my heart make me unable to calm down for a long time.

It's not that Ah Zheng has never touched me, on the contrary, it was he who gave me too many surprises and touches that made me fall into his arms without hesitation, and that made me fall in love with him with all my heart. I believe that there is beautiful love in the world. I believe that comrades can also get perfect happiness!

So what about Lu Youshan now, will I fall under the touch he gave?will i fall in love with himI have no idea.What will happen with him?This is a question that I was afraid of when I thought about it a few days ago. Now that I think about it, I don’t look back, I don’t think about it anymore. Bar.

Taking a deep breath, I strode towards the VIP room and followed the man in black to Lu Youshan.

"Brother Lu!" I was so nervous that I couldn't speak.

"You're here." Sitting on the sofa, he slightly raised his head and looked at me, with a hint of dignity in his quietness.

I knew he was waiting for my answer, and my arrival at the airport didn't mean anything, what he wanted was a clear answer.

"I admit that I still love Ah Zheng, and I will love him forever," I looked into his eyes and said sincerely, I can't lie to him, "But, I can try...to accept you, if... ...you will." I'm not sure he's satisfied with that answer.

We looked at each other like this, until I thought he had rejected me, I lowered my head, breathed a sigh of relief, and planned to turn around and walk away, he suddenly stood up and hugged me, and at the same time tightened his arms vigorously, then Then quickly let go, I looked at him blankly, not understanding what he meant.

"Come on, let's go home." He walked towards the boarding gate as if he wanted to cover up something.

I looked at his generous and straight back, took a deep breath, looked back at the city behind me, and smiled, Zheng, don't worry, you will not sacrifice in vain, I will live well, how long will I exist in this world, How long will my love for you last.