miss [rebirth]

When Fang Zhi came home, Liu Chunhua was busy in the kitchen.

The door snapped open, and a daughter with red and swollen eyes rushed in, who had obviously cried a lot. Liu Chunhua was startled.

"What's the matter?" She threw away the onion in her hand, and walked over quickly, "Didn't you go to class? What's the matter? Did the teacher kill you?"

Fang Zhi shook her head vigorously, and asked her, "Auntie, is Chen Nian at home?"

"Yes." Liu Chunhua pointed to Chen Nian's bedroom door, "What about in the house? She said she was sleepy and went to sleep."

Fang Zhi walked over quickly. The door of Chen Nian's room was closed. I don't know if it was locked.

She put her hand on the doorknob, froze there for a moment, her impulsiveness seemed to be poured down by a basin of cold water, making her wonder whether the door should be pushed or not.

Chen Nian was rarely angry, let alone ignoring her like now, shutting himself in the room.

This is what Fang Zhi often does. At this time, she really wants to be quiet, but the time for quietness is limited, and Chen Nian must continue to pester her at the right time.

Then she will definitely forgive her.

But now, what is the right time for Chen Nian?Fang Zhi doesn't know, Fang Zhi doesn't know.

These years, Chen Nian has fallen behind her, always putting her first, so that she does not have such experience and opportunities.

Fang Zhi lowered her hands, wanting to cry again.

Liu Chunhua stood behind her, and asked in a low voice, "Did you quarrel?"

"Yeah." Fang Zhi nodded, "I did something wrong."

"How much wrong can you do, it's okay, it's okay. Auntie is making dumplings, and the dumplings will be cooked later, can you ask Niannian to eat?"

"Okay." Fang Zhi turned around, "Thank you, Auntie."

"Hey, tell auntie what thanks." Liu Chunhua grabbed her by the sleeve and pulled her to the kitchen to work with her.

Fang Zhi knew that she didn't want her to help, but just wanted to take the opportunity to chat with her and help her recover.

Fang Zhi felt even more guilty.

Obviously she was the last one to come to this family, but she has always been praised high above her. She is close to her for everything that is good, and supports her to realize all her wishes.

When the dumplings were in the pot, Fang Zhi said: "Auntie, I don't want to participate in the competition, can I?"

Liu Chunhua stopped stirring the dumplings, then turned to ask her: "Is it for

Did this quarrel with Niannian? "

Fang Zhi didn't know how to answer, Liu Chunhua lifted her chin: "Go ask Niannian to eat, this is something we all decided together, if you want to give up, you have to listen to everyone's opinions."

Fang Zhi nodded and walked to Chen Nian's room.

Auntie gave her a buffer time, and she has no reason to hesitate now.

The door opened with a slight push, and Chen Nianzhen was sleeping just like what her aunt said.

Lying quietly on the bed, quietly closed eyes.

Fang Zhi didn't know why she suddenly became extremely timid. She didn't dare to get too close, and she stopped when she was two meters away.

"Chen Nian, it's time to eat," she said.

After thinking about it, I felt that the address was too blunt, and said again: "Nian Nian, it's time to eat."

She rarely called Chen Nian that way, although everyone called her Zhizhi, but for Fang Zhi, it was a bit embarrassing to express intimacy bluntly.

At this time, embarrassment, guilt and nervousness, just saying this sentence, fingers grabbed a piece of clothes, almost torn apart.

Chen Nian opened his eyes and replied, "Yes."

She turned over and got up, her movements were not slow, Fang Zhi watched her get out of bed, put on her slippers, and walk to her side, without saying anything.

Seeing that the two were about to pass by each other, Fang Zhi hurriedly said, "I'm sorry."

Chen Nian was startled, stopped and turned to look at her: "What are you sorry for?"

"I... there is a little misunderstanding between us." Fang Zhi took a deep breath, not wanting to let those emotions torment herself, and simply said, "I misunderstood you, I thought you went to see Fang Zhizhi because you were partial to her. But now I I see, you are all for me, you are afraid that Fang Zhizhi's mother will hurt me. I was wrong, I shouldn't yell at you, and I shouldn't answer your calls or text messages. I'm too selfish, I I only think about myself, and don't care about your feelings. I won't participate in the competition, and I will stay far away from Fang Zhizhi and her family..."

"It's not necessary." Chen Nian finally said, she looked at Fang Zhi, her eyes that were shining before were less energetic, "There's no need to give up the game, just stay away from the bad guys."

Fang Zhi was a little dazed, and Chen Nian turned around: "Let's go, let's eat."

Fang Zhi hurriedly followed.

The problem seems to be solved, it seems not solved, Chen Nian seems to forgive her, and it seems

Not angry at all.

The three of them had an early dinner together. At the dinner table, she and her aunt asked Chen Nian questions, and Chen Nian would answer them.Regarding the competition, Fang Zhi mentioned it again, but Chen Nian's attitude was still that he could participate in the competition.

As for more, deeper, Fang Zhi didn't mention it, neither did Chen Nian.

After eating, Chen Nian went back to the house and said to do homework.

Liu Chunhua said: "It seems that I am really in a bad mood, Zhizhi, don't worry, Nian Nian is like this, and I will be fine after a while."

Fang Zhi nodded.

She went back to the house to get her homework, and knocked on Chen Nian's open door.

"Can I do my homework with you?" Fang Zhi made a clumsy excuse, "I can't do a problem."

"Yes." Chen Nian moved to the side, and even smiled.

Fang Zhi walked over and put down her things. Obviously, she and Chen Nian had known each other for so many years, but now she felt flustered when they were so close.

"Just... this." Fang Zhi casually pointed to a question.

Chen Nian turned his head and looked at the title: "You can do it."

Fang Zhi: "..."

Chen Nian: "In math class on Thursday, the teacher asked you to go to the blackboard to do this kind of problem. You used two solutions."

Fang Zhi: "..."

She pursed her lips, too embarrassed to speak.

Chen Nian said: "Hurry up and write, or you won't be able to practice the song in time."

"Yeah." Fang Zhi held the pen, her cheeks flushed, and she didn't look up again.

After finishing her homework, she left Chen Nian's room.

For the next few days, Chen Nian always had such an attitude, never rejecting her, not arguing with her, and even taking the initiative to talk to her and laugh with her.

It seems that there is no difference from those ordinary days in peacetime, but Fang Zhi knows that the difference is huge.

Chen Nian's eyes were not so bright anymore, and his smile was not so bright.She is always distracted, thinking about something, but she won't tell Fang Zhi what she really thinks about.

She didn't say anything, Fang Zhi didn't dare to ask again.She even felt that all this was punishment, punishment for her mistakes.

Fang Zhi is willing to be punished like this, willing to remember the feelings of every moment now, so as to alert herself, and never treat Chen Nian like this again in the future.

This continued until Friday, which was the last day for registration for the supernova contest.

Chen Nian and Fang Zhi as usual

They also packed up and went to school. Fang Zhi's schoolbag strap was pulled by Liu Chunhua. In front of Chen Nian, Liu Chunhua didn't whitewash her peace and asked directly, "Zhizhi, have you signed up?"

"No." Fang Zhi glanced at Chen Nian and said, "I won't report."

Liu Chunhua frowned: "You really won't report it?"

Fang Zhi nodded, very resolutely: "I won't report it."

"why?"

"It's the reason I said before." Fang Zhi felt that the conversations these days were always a cycle of identity swapping, "The entertainment industry is too complicated, and I'm not ready yet."

Liu Chunhua couldn't say much more, and she was also worried about Fang Zhi's participation in the competition.

"You..." Liu Chunhua looked at Chen Nian, "Think about it carefully, no matter what you choose, mom wants you to be happy."

"Yeah." Fang Zhi nodded, but Chen Nian didn't speak.

The two went downstairs, got on the bus, and staggered to the school. When they were about to enter the school gate, Chen Nian suddenly stopped and asked Fang Zhi, "Are you really not going to participate in the competition?"

Fang Zhi has been asked so many times, and now she almost subconsciously shakes her head: "I won't participate!"

Chen Nian stared blankly at her: "For me?"

"No, I'm seriously considering..." Fang Zhi stopped here.

She has said this set of reasons many times at the family dinner table, and she almost believes it herself when it comes to it.

But the truth is not like this, Fang Zhi suddenly felt that if she wanted Chen Nian to tell her what was in her heart, then she had to be honest with Chen Nian first.

Although love and trust can be obtained unconditionally, they can only last for a long time if they are exchanged with each other.

Compared with this, shyness, shrewd maneuvers, vested interests in language, are not important.

"I..." Fang Zhi looked at Chen Nian and squeezed his hands tightly in his pockets, "It's because of you."

"Participating in the competition makes you unhappy, I don't have to participate."

"Use Fang Zhizhu's name to make you sad, and I will never mention this person again in the future."

When she said this, she was frank and enthusiastic, with the stubborn and desperate impulse unique to teenagers.

Chen Nian looked at her, feeling more glaring than the summer morning light.

She lowered her eyes and stopped looking at Fang Zhi: "I don't want to go to school today."

Fang Zhi was a little nervous: "What are you going to do?"

"I want to watch a movie." Chen Nian said, "Suddenly want to watch a movie."

"OK

. Fang Zhi immediately said, "What do you want to see, let's go together."I asked the teacher for leave. "

Chen Nian: "I'll go alone."

Fang Zhi was stunned.

Chen Nian: "Please help me ask for leave, or not."

After speaking, she turned and walked out, back to the bus station.

At this point, there is an early rush hour, and all the cars are delayed.

While Chen Nian was waiting for the car, someone came to her and stood quietly.

It's Fang Zhi.

She doesn't speak, doesn't fight, doesn't get angry, just stands beside her so quietly, doesn't even look at her.

The two watched the traffic flow, one after another, the school bell rang, and the students hurried to the school, only the two of them, like two stupid wooden chickens.

Another bus came, and Chen Nian got on the bus.Fang Zhi followed behind her buttocks, separated by two or three people.

She just followed Chen Nian, backed a bus, and got off the bus.

Chen Nian went to a private theater. At this time, there were very few private theaters, and it was rare for such young children to go there.

When Chen Nian was paying the bill at the front desk, Fang Zhi tied it tightly, for fear that he wouldn't be able to follow.

But fortunately, Chen Nian did not refuse her to follow.

The two entered the room, the lights dimmed, and there was an old movie on the projector. Chen Nian sat upright and watched it carefully, as quiet as in a crowded theater, as if he had never seen this movie before. Same.

Fang Zhi watched it with her. The movie told the story of a girl full of dreams, how to realize her dreams step by step, and how to indulge in her desires step by step.

The beautiful heroine has money and honor, and many men surround her, letting her choose.

She sacrificed a lot of things for a higher position, and then one day when she saw a dress, she suddenly wanted to pull away and stay away from it all.

But things didn't go as expected, and a huge network of interests engulfed her, turning her departure into a war.

The heroine fought hard, and when the dawn was approaching, she was hit to death by a car that suddenly appeared in the street, and the blood flowed all over the ground. The posture of the heroine tilted her head just enough to see the skirt.

That was her original dream, the beginning of it all.

She lived for it, died for it, and when she closed her eyes, she smiled softly.

When the movie ended, Chen Nian broke down in tears.

Fang Zhi held her tightly and leaned on the back of the chair

hand, constantly comforting her: "It's okay, it's okay, it's all fake..."

"It's all fake." Chen Nian's hands were shaking, and her heart was shaking. She turned to look at Fang Zhi, "Do you think it's all fake?"

Fang Zhi pursed her lips: "Do you want me to tell the truth?"

Chen Nian stared at her blankly.

Fang Zhi: "I will not become like her, I will control my desires."

"I will not become like her, I have something more important than dreams."

"I'm not going to be like her, she's desperate because that's all she has, and I always have more choices."

"As long as you are by my side." Fang Zhi said, "I can choose to participate or not."