our psalms

I once thought that after many years, I would be able to face the vicissitudes of the world, the ups and downs, the sky intertwined with haze and sunshine, and still be able to hold his hands tightly and tell him that I have always been there By his side, never leave.But at this moment, whenever I smile at every trace of his tenderness, behind every smile, I wash my face with tears, hiding the deepest despair in the abyss that no one can see.

I lay quietly in his arms and listened to him tell me that his arms are my eternal home.

When the breeze blows over his face and his blurred and deep eye sockets, when he wants to interpret eternity, I always silently cover his mouth with my hand.

I think he was angry, left in a hurry, turned his back to me and said: "You still haven't completely let go, aren't you so eager, what's the matter now, what's wrong?"

"Everything is fine now, Uncle, I am also very satisfied, I have never been so satisfied before." I got up and hugged his broad back from behind, tightly, not wanting to let go. "Don't lie to yourself anymore, this is not the world you want, and you can't have only me in your world. You are a great person, an admirable policeman, and your blood is burning deep in your heart. You Are you really willing to spend your whole life in peace for me like this?"

"Then what else can we do?" He finally cried out in despair, "Only the silent world can accommodate us, the place where I have worked hard all my life, where even the most authentic self has to be hidden, no one can understand and accept."

I looked at him speechlessly, at the way he growled, at the way he grabbed my hand, and told me the choice he had made, the choice of his life.

"Cheng'er, in one's life, there are always many things to give up. The key is to be able to measure what is the most important and worthwhile to the true self, and you are the most important and worthwhile to me."

I know, I understand.Why don't I have such an idea, such a desire.But I can only look at him in confusion, because I can't give him a lifetime.I tried to smile at him again, and that smile was full of recognition and empathy for what he said, but I couldn't let the person I love the most sink into eternal silence after a brief brilliance.He is not Lao Xie who doesn't understand anything, he is Lao Cao, a loving and righteous Lao Cao.

I can only do my best to pull him out of the abyss of despair a little more.

At this time, a police car had already parked in front of the uncle's house, and Lao Cao and I watched from a distance, but Lao Cao glanced at my face.I bowed my head and remained silent, knowing that he had understood.

"You told them?"

"They've already found out, and Ouyang Qing has already admitted it. You're fine, uncle!"

"I have something to do!" Lao Cao frantically pushed me away from him, "Wang Zicheng, you still can't tolerate me as an old man after all, right?"

"No, uncle, don't be like this, Ouyang Qing's slander against you has been cleared up, you don't need to carry all this and go into exile!"

"You know best, is that slander?" Lao Cao looked at me disappointedly, "You also know best what exile is!" After speaking, he walked over there silently.At this moment, I really want to rush forward and tell him that I did all this for him.

Walking towards Lao Cao was Lao Liu from their unit. At this moment, the small courtyard was already full of onlookers and a few uniformed policemen. When they saw Lao Cao approaching, they straightened They stood in a row and saluted him with a standard police salute.

"Boss, come back with us!" They shouted in unison, their thick voices were full of awe and guilt, "You will always be our most respected boss, Boss!"

"Go back, I won't go, I'm not your director anymore!" Lao Cao waved his hand weakly.

"Yes, you are indeed not their director!" Lao Liu walked over with a deep smile on his face, "Your promotion decision has been approved, and you are going to be the director of the division, Lao Cao. Congratulations you!"

"I've already resigned!" Lao Cao said, "Don't force me anymore, Lao Liu, I beg you!"

"You mean the resignation letter?" Lao Liu took out the envelope from his body and said, "No one will agree, and I will be the first to agree." After speaking, he handed the resignation letter to Lao Cao hand.Lao Cao looked at it and giggled wryly.

"Why is this necessary?"

Lao Liu didn't talk much. He took Lao Cao's uniform, police officer ID card, handcuffs and firearms out of the car and handed them to him, "We are waiting for you to come back to work, and the vacation should be over."

"Director, please go back with us!" The thick voice rang out from behind again.

Lao Cao didn't say anything, just sighed deeply. He turned his head and looked at me with a special look. I don't know whether the expression in his eyes is disappointment or helplessness.

The night in the country was still so quiet. After seeing off his colleagues, he returned to the house and threw the pile of things heavily on the bed, but he asked me in an extremely calm tone: "This is your choice. Yeah?"

I didn't speak, just looked at him.

"Cheng'er, I'm not forcing you." He slowly sat down beside me, "It's because you're older and sensible. Sometimes, the more sensible you are, the less sensible you may be."

I still look at him.

"If it's your choice, I have no complaints. I'll wear that and go back to being my cop. What about you?"

"I..." I hesitated, "I will go back with you, it will be the same as before, nothing has changed."

"Don't you understand?" Lao Cao's voice was a little louder, "After we go back, we must face the responsibilities this world has entrusted to us, whether it's you or me."

"I understand, uncle..."

"Then you still want to do it?"

"Yes!"

"Oh..." Lao Cao laughed silently, "You really surprised me."

The next day, Lao Cao still didn't have any plans to go back, even though he still said that, I knew he still couldn't let it go.Until lunch, at the dinner table, he suddenly laughed at me.

"What else are you hiding from me, Cheng'er?"

When I heard this question, I was surprised and scared.Sure enough, I still can't escape his eyes, but he is not so smart that he can guess everything.I deliberately pretended to be surprised and asked him, "What did you say?"

"It's impossible for you to do this without a reason." Lao Cao said with certainty, "You tell uncle, there will be a solution to the matter, okay?"

But he didn't know that death is impossible to solve.

I put down the bowl and chopsticks and ran away quickly.He didn't come after him because he was already lost in confusion.

I hid behind the room alone, quietly weeping again.I told myself time and time again in my heart, let him go, just let him go, and never come back.

I no longer complain about the injustice of God, and I also feel that what I got is enough to leave me satisfied.But I just can't let him go, what should I do, what should I do.I just want him to take back what belongs to him, and not to ruin everything for a person who will not live long at all, isn't that too unworthy.

The next moment, I decided to go up to him and tell him the truth about it all.No matter how he accepts it, it is the truth.

When I wiped away my tears and came out strong.Something unexpected happened to me. At that moment, there was a sudden strong shaking of the sky. I saw the high mountains in the distance, the houses on all sides, and the rocks and mud flying down.The house collapsed in an instant, the sound of heaven and earth cracking, and screams came from every corner.I looked up at the cloudy sky, heavy tiles flew towards me, and the next thing, the whole world was plunged into darkness