our psalms

Blurred, blank.No one will ask a person who turns back from reincarnation, with turbulence and surge, with passion and passion, with true feelings and eternity, what is the promise.

The breath of dawn, it calls a person to return from the dark night space and wake up from the boundless sadness.I opened my tearful eyes, and I couldn’t see the person I wanted to see. I wanted to continue to sleep, and sleep forever, but I was pulled back, to this world that people can’t see clearly .

The moment I opened my eyes, after that familiar and friendly smile faded away like a phantom, I didn't speak.But the desperation in his heart could pour out from those expressionless eyes, continuously pouring out.

Seeing my father nodding and smiling at me, I don't know what it feels like in my heart.Who is sorry who, subconsciously, I got the answer, I am sorry for him.But who was sorry for me and made me a sinner who couldn't fulfill the wish that all parents want their children to fulfill? Who is it, who is it?I have never wanted to know an answer so much, although I know there is no answer, but I still want to know.

My father didn't blame me, he didn't go crazy because his baby was gay, because he passed all the madness on to Lao Cao.He firmly believes that I will always be a child, and it is impossible to fall into such crazy and incredible feelings. He still does not want to believe that this is called love. He said in front of Lao Cao that this is called abnormality.

He thinks his baby is not a pervert, only Lao Cao is.When he was finally taken away by the police who came to pick him up, he still thought so, and he told me softly: "Uncle will come back soon, uncle will always be by your side, and will never be played by anyone again Deception." Looking at his firm eyes after he finished speaking, I couldn't help but wept again.

I don't have the strength to explain it, it's not playing tricks, let alone cheating, no one is perverted, it's real and existing feelings.But how many people in the world can really understand this powerless cry, how many people can really treat it equally, even the people surrounded by this kind of emotion may be struggling to resist and break free. So futile and pathetic though.I'm just a patient, all I can do is stare at the ceiling in a daze.

In the world of feasting and feasting, people who are sad and tired are always lost and crying.No matter how intense the rhythm of the music was, it could not erase the indifference and sadness in my heart.He thought that giving up like this was giving the world to the person he loved the most. He thought that only in this way could he play the melody of a person's life deeper and longer.However, when the alcohol stimulated his already fragile emotional nerves, he still couldn't open his eyes in pain.

He kept calling that name, Cheng'er, just like Cheng'er kept calling Yang Xing's name when he first met him.In front of Han Yongzhe, he forgot that he was Lao Cao, a people's policeman.He's just a sad man who really wants to cry.

"Please remember my name, my name is Han Yongzhe..." On that cold bed, being pressed under by Lao Cao, Han Yongzhe smiled. "You must remember, I am not Cheng'er..."

"Cheng'er, Dad loves you so much, loves you so much..." The old policeman who lost consciousness, everything in front of his eyes was blurred. Cheng'er to go.Han Yongzhe slowly dropped Lao Cao's heavy suit jacket, and he slowly closed his eyes at this moment.He didn't even ask himself why, he only knew that at this moment, there was a heavy and profound breath, nothing could be more suitable for something called love, surrounding him.Suddenly, I realized that I really wanted it, I really wanted it.

Lao Cao's strength survived Han Yongzhe's last trace of doubt.Han Yongzhe finally took a heavy breath, all the previous elegance and arrogance disappeared. "Yes, I am Cheng'er..." He said without hesitation, he lay down on the stomach, gently kissed Lao Cao's face, and slowly slid towards that private part, "That's Cheng'er Now, does he belong to me...?" Whether it was or not, it had already flowed deep into the throat of the big star who sang melodiously.Han Yongzhe closed his eyes in a daze, is this the free world he wants.With no time for more contemplation and feelings, Lao Cao's huge body slowly covered him, covering his last trace of bewildered eyes...

When I walked through the corridors of the hospital in the clothes worn by patients like prison uniforms, the abnormal cold all over my body suddenly made it difficult for me to breathe.I struggled to the door of Uncle He's special laboratory, but he was not there, only a few students in military uniforms were busy doing things there.It seems that they still haven't noticed my arrival, and they are concentrating on their work.

"Is this the potion that can make Wang Zicheng relieve the virus, but I saw that the preparation inside is full of toxins." A student said puzzled.Another boy who looked older and more mature explained: "Don't you know that this is fighting poison with poison? He still has those toxins in his body, so this reagent can work on him."

"But if ordinary people use this, they will be poisoned, and their lives may be in danger!" A girl suddenly said solemnly, "Professor He has been experimenting with his own body, so won't he be in danger?"

"The professor is measured, he knows how to contain it."

"But that's too dangerous, isn't it? Who will that Prince Cheng belong to?"

"Maybe, maybe even an illegitimate child, haha!"

"Fuck you, talk nonsense, you are not allowed to insult our Professor He!"

"In that case, why not inject Wang Zicheng directly?" said the oldest boy, "Why is the professor still worried?"

"This is obviously a very poisonous thing, so of course you can't try it lightly. Moreover, the poison in Wang Zicheng's body has not been fully detected, so it should be unclear."

"Well, the poor professor has tried so many times himself."

I stood silently behind them, floating past like a weightless ghost.When they turned around and saw me at that moment of astonishment, the expressions on everyone's faces became stiff, and everyone didn't say a word.It's just that it's awkward and unnaturally looking at me.

"Okay, can you give me the bottle in your hand?" I pointed to the bottle in the hand of the person holding the test tube and said, "That's it!"

Those with stiff expressions fixed their eyes on the bottle, and everyone shook their heads in unison.

"No, I'm sorry, the professor said that I can't give you this!" The girl replied.

"Is that so..." I smiled regretfully, then turned around.I didn't think I'd just give up, it was the only way I could get back to the way I was before, and when I got the news, I didn't even care if it was dangerous or safe for me.Now my biggest wish is also my lifelong wish, that is to return to the past, to return to the ordinary and comfortable happy life with Lao Cao, and it is my only hope, I know, I want to change back to the past, First of all, I have to start with my appearance!

Everyone freaked out when I jumped up in a frenzy, and I ran right up to the guy with the bottle and punched him hard in the face.This crazy and eye-popping scene undoubtedly shocked everyone.I snatched the bottle of blue liquid and looked at it firmly.Then, several people in military uniforms rushed towards me...

I stumbled up from the ground.All of this happened so suddenly. Looking at the people around me who fell to the ground, I couldn't believe that I did all of this.They looked at me in pain, and some of them were already picking up the phone to call for help.I knew it was not suitable to stay here any longer, so I got up exhausted.Staggered out of that laboratory!

The sunshine in winter always gives people a gentle and peaceful atmosphere.And I got out of the taxi in a daze, and when I walked to Lao Cao's residence, I felt cold but more and more dignified.It was Cao Wenxi who came out of the stairs first. She looked at me with no expression on her face, just looked at me so contemptuously, a scarred person, weakly holding on to the wall, and I stood in front of her.

"Let's go, what do you use to fight with others, don't torture yourself anymore." Cao Wenxi's words made me turn pale. I looked at her in surprise and ignorance.At this moment, that noble and mysterious woman appeared from behind. She looked a bit like Cao Wenxi. I subconsciously guessed her identity quickly. She was Lao Cao's ex-wife and Cao Wenxi's mother.However, how could she appear here, standing in front of me in such a puzzling posture.

"Go away, perverted GAY!" When she said this, it was completely difficult for me to connect her image and temperament with his words at the moment.Why would she say such harsh and vicious words? "What right do you have to fight with me, you ugly bastard. Even if Brother Yong wanted a man, he wouldn't want an ugly bastard like you!"

"Please speak politely!" I didn't want to face the current situation with this kind of confrontation, but she quickly broke the limit of my patience.Cao Wenxi looked at her mother indifferently, and she also felt that her mother at this moment suddenly became so strange and scary.

"For you, an ugly GAY?" Cao Wenxi's mother sneered evilly and darkly, "I can crush you to death with one finger, now, Brother Yong can't like you anymore, all those games are over , you should obediently find some self-esteem for yourself and disappear from here!"

"I don't believe it... You asked him to come out, I want him to tell me himself!" I am still insisting, because I know, I am sure, what she said is completely false!

However, when that familiar shadow really stood out, my firm gaze suddenly became weak and powerless.Lao Cao's expression was in a trance, and he didn't even want to look at me in a trance. Behind him was that big star, Han Yongzhe.

"You go..." When he said those three words, said those three words to me, three simple words, my heart was completely broken