our psalms

In fact, sometimes I think about it, even if I live like this for a lifetime, what is wrong with it?I don't understand why I care so much about what I look like. When I think back to Lao Cao's time, he was as strict as before with tenderness and longing. Even though he knew that I had become like this, he still didn't change anything.But I can't believe this fact that has been seen by my eyes, why I am so contradictory, I want to torture myself, and when will he be.

When Uncle He woke up from the bed and looked at me with a smile in his eyes, I also looked at him with that kind of grateful eyes at the same time, but I began to understand more and more why God arranged so many things in my life. People who are good to me, why put me at the beginning of their tragedy.

"I'm fine!" he said with a smile.The physical changes have indeed returned to normal. He even joked on the bed and gave me a military salute, "What's the matter, what's the matter?"

"Why are you so stupid?" I questioned, "You don't have to try it yourself?"

"I just want to keep my promise to you, kid!" he said firmly.

"How much is the promise worth?" I know I'm saying this, and I'm actually surprised even by myself. "There are many things that don't need to be so persistent?"

"Yeah..." He took my hand and was not angry because of my brashness, "There are many things that don't need to be attached to, but why are you so attached?"

"This is different, Uncle He!" I tried to calm down my emotions, "You know it's dangerous, I don't want another person to be hurt because of me!"

"That policeman is being hurt because of you, do you know?" Uncle He's words made me silent.I stood up and walked to the window. On the windowsill were a lot of herbs planted by Uncle He, emitting a strange smell.My mood began to fluctuate.

Uncle He touched his forehead and said with a smile: "It's better to be younger, I didn't expect that I will look like that when I get old."

"You won't, Uncle He." I said, "You have your own children, even if one day you are really old, they can still be by your side."

"They won't forgive me!" Uncle He looked at me in a daze, "Am I actually a very irresponsible father, and even more so, an irresponsible husband?"

"Why?" I just noticed that after knowing him for so long, I don't even know his basic situation. I only know that he has been alone in the army and lived in a small apartment , I don’t know anything about the two-point and one-line life trajectory of the school and the army, and his family.

"I haven't been home for a long time, and the relationship with my wife has always been very difficult. She always said that I am a complete workaholic..." He sighed.

"I think so too!" I smiled, "It's better to take some time to go back and spend time with your family, after all, they need you the most!"

"I can't see that you are still very sensible sometimes!" Uncle He said mockingly, "Hehe, after all, you are too young to understand many things at all. Although you have indeed experienced more things than ordinary people, but , that doesn’t push your outlook on life and the world to a mature point, do you understand?”

"You are justifying yourself!" I don't want to listen to people's reasoning at all now, "Okay, I'll go first, and I will see you in the evening, now you need to rest, don't force yourself to go to work. You know, You have been in a coma for a few days!"

When I picked up my satchel and was about to go out, Uncle He called out, "Aren't you happy at all?"

"What are you happy about?" I looked back at him.

"I succeeded, which means you are saved."

"But I don't need to get any older, do I?"

"Fool, as long as I use the opposite potion formula to mix another completely opposite potion?"

"really?"

Looking at my excited eyes, Uncle He was not as excited as I imagined.

"But this medicine is not mature. I only know that it is a mixture of many kinds of drugs. It is very dangerous. I am starting to be blind. What should I really do? If Uncle He can't help you, will you blame Uncle He?"

"Are you saying that you will become addicted, or are there other side effects?" My curiosity and surprise have not diminished at all, "I should have thought earlier, you must have a way, you can make yourself old, and you can also make yourself Young. Isn't it?"

"Don't be so naive, child!" Uncle He sat up from the bed, "I just want to tell you some facts, you may not be able to change back for the rest of your life, or you may have to rely on drugs for a lifetime, or there are other side effects, or even Threat to life. Are you not afraid at all?"

"I'm not afraid!" I said firmly, and walked back to Uncle He's bed again, "Thank you, Uncle He. I need it!"

"At first, I just thought that using it might be able to suppress the toxin of that drug, but I never thought that it might cause other harm?"

"As long as it can change me back to before, I don't care about anything!"

"Is it worth it?" Uncle He looked at me in surprise, "Just for that policeman?"

"It's worth it, you won't understand!"

"..." Uncle He was silent for a while, and then he sighed, "Maybe one day I will understand, but before that, I still have to be responsible to you, these medicines are not mature, unless I'm sure I will use it to treat your injuries only after it is completely safe."

"What if it's never possible?"

"Then it will never be given to you!"

"Really, so you try the medicine yourself?" I turned and walked back, "Even if I am covered in bruises, I don't want anyone to be hurt because of me. You can give up helping me forever, but I hope you don't do that again." Silly!"

Seeing my leaving back, Uncle He lying on the bed fell silent. What kind of child is that?A huge question rose from his heart, and it was also the beginning of his endless pain!