our psalms

He has never forgotten that promise, the only promise that can be called eternal for him.That seems to have become a symbol in his life - only those who like him will wear cloth shoes for him.The story behind this is sour or sweet, bitter or happy.Only he himself can experience it.What does Lao Jiang's existence mean to him? Putting on the cloth shoes that symbolize eternity in his mind with the same posture is breaking himself out of eternity, or is it a last resort?This young man named Xiaodong has endured too many things that he should not have endured at his age, so he has become an appearance that he may not even recognize himself.

Lao Cao once said that as a man, the most important thing is to learn to be strong.For a man, being strong should be a gesture, or an attitude from the heart that is not afraid of anything.When my consciousness woke up from the daze, what I saw was not Lao Cao's simple face, but a ferocious and terrifying face, and I immediately sat up from the bed quickly.

"What are you doing?" I looked at Lao Jiang with a smirk on his face.

"What do you think?" He looked me up and down, and my gaze followed his gaze to see myself. It turned out that there was only a pair of underwear left on me.I immediately grabbed the quilt and covered my lower body.

"You're still pretending to be innocent, don't you know how many times you have been fucked by the old policeman?" His rude words made me extremely angry, but at this moment I knew that I was in a situation where I couldn't help myself, and of course it was inconvenient to confront him head-on.I looked at him in fear and asked, "Who the hell are you, Xiaodong?"

"You are not a good person!" I remember what he said before, and I remember that Lao Cao said it before. Whether it is Lao Cao or the man full of despair in front of me, Lao Jiang, I can't understand why they came to such a conclusion. .

"What the hell do you want to do?"

"Why don't you ask what your good brother He Dong is going to do?"

"What does he want to do to me?"

"Sorry, you are already a victim of this gamble!"

"Hehe." I smiled faintly. At this moment, I suddenly realized that I had experienced too much in such a short period of time, and I had lost too much of myself. I began to get used to accepting even inexplicable things.

"What are you laughing at?" He asked in surprise.

"So you won? I'm the trophy?"

"No, I lost. Or rather, I lost."

"You guys are interesting."

"You are also very interesting, you know, he has to pay the price, and that is you!"

"I don't understand at all, but I can see that you don't have much feeling for me. You love Xiaodong!"

"Why are you so sure, look, isn't it hard?" He suddenly took out his erection and shook it in front of me.

"It's an illusion." I still pretended to be calm, even though his sudden appearance of that thing really shocked me. "It's just an impulse, but it's not love."

"You little brat knows what love is, come on!" He shouted, "Today I just want to let him know that I, Lao Jiang, am a man of my word!" As he spoke, he suddenly threw himself on me .

At that moment, a long series of old Cao's shadows flashed in my mind, and I began to struggle desperately, but his strength was much stronger than I imagined, and a mouth full of tobacco smelled indiscriminately on my face. Kissing, for me, the same smell on Lao Cao's body is wonderful, but he makes me feel inexplicably disgusting.

"Let go of me, please, don't do this!"

"If you want to blame it, blame your good brother, he is the one who pushed you into this pit!"

"don't want……"

Despite my best efforts, he, who had already fallen into a state of madness, seemed to ignore my begging at all.At this moment, the outside door was pushed open, and Xiaodong quickly ran in and grabbed Lao Jiang's clothes, shouting, "Let him go!"

Only then did Lao Jiang regain his sanity, looked proudly at Xiaodong in front of him, and said, "I knew you would come back, after all these years, I know you!"

"Let go of him first!" Xiaodong shouted, "I promise you!"

"Are you finally willing to part with the living dead?"

"I told you to let her go!"

Lao Jiang slowly got down from me, patted Xiaodong on the head, and asked him: "For this, the kid you have only known for a few months? Give up your old driver who loves you so much?"

Xiaodong looked at him indifferently, "Can you go out first, I have something to tell him!"

"Willingly!" Lao Jiang only said these four words, and then walked out of the room slowly.Xiaodong immediately walked to my side and asked with concern: "He didn't do anything to you, did he?"

"I just want to know what you're going to do to me?" I asked him angrily, still in shock, with beads of sweat that hadn't fallen off my forehead.

"Do you know, you are the most innocent person in the world!" Xiaodong said, "I used you from the beginning, but you are so stupid that I have no mood!"

"So, this is your purpose?" I began to understand that Xiaodong and I became friends, and it was not as simple as I imagined at the beginning.

"I only have one purpose, which is to let my father live and be with me well!" Xiaodong's emotions began to lose control, and his voice became louder and louder.

"You're talking about the taxi driver, but he's dead, isn't he?"

"No! I lied to you!" Xiaodong opened his eyes wide, "I deliberately caused that car accident. I just want everyone around him to disappear, daughter, wife! Everything! As long as there are those people Now, we will never be together, do you understand, do you think that everyone is as carefree as Director Cao, and can love you wholeheartedly?"

"You're horrible, but I'm sure it will make him hate you even more!" I said.

"Yes, you're right, when he came out of the car unharmed and crying, he slapped me hard, never before. But in the end, he still couldn't make up his mind to slap me. I sent him to prison and he committed suicide. He jumped off a cliff. You know, he should have died a long time ago. But I can't live without him, even though I know he's going to hate me forever, and I'm going to save him. When he fell to the ground with only one breath left, Lao Jiang helped me. He has a lot of money, a lot, can you imagine. The best doctor in the world, the best medicine and equipment. Live him from hell Lila came back, but his brain has never been normal since then. He has become a fool, at least much better than a vegetable, he can move, and he can touch my head and smile at me!"

"You lunatic!"

"You don't understand what love is at all. Do you think it's all about being in bed with your dad every night? That's why you're so naive!"

"I won't believe your nonsense anymore, He Dong. I really regret that I didn't listen to Lao Cao and stay away from you!"

"Whatever! You go, before I change my mind!" He pointed at the door and shouted at me, "Go!"

I stood up uncomfortably, straightened out the messy clothes that Lao Jiang had ripped off, and walked towards the door.Xiaodong turned his back to me and remained motionless.I suddenly hesitated, stopped and asked him: "I still want to know why you brought me here and then let me go?"

"Because Lao Jiang loves me deeply, even though his ways are abominable." His voice slowed down, becoming wistful and melancholy, "That's why he did so much for me, whether it was causing that car accident or helping me I treat Lao Xie and everything. However, I can’t promise him. I can only get rid of him by finding a better boy than me to attract his attention. And you are the best candidate. From you, I can't find any flaws, whether it's appearance or inner world!"

"Impossible, he is the same as you, if he likes you, it is impossible to change!"

"Brother Zicheng, you are still so naive until now, how can this world be so simple!"

"It's because your thinking is too complicated. Do you think it's worth it for you to do so many things?"

"It's worth it! For Lao Xie, everything is worth it!"

Looking at his determined expression, I thought I had no ability or qualification to reverse his worldview and values, so I turned around and continued walking forward.But many strange thoughts and ideas flashed in my heart. If I really leave, it means that everything he has done is in vain. He still has to give up his old Xie, and Lao Jiang will really have he.But I still can't understand why he gave up the last step for me.