our psalms

"But this is just the beginning of a long, dark night," he said.A few times, he would suddenly stop and look at me in the middle of his words. When he saw that my eyes were so sad and regretful, and he didn’t appreciate this bizarre and rare story like a spectator, he smiled firmly. I smiled, maybe because I didn't want me to be sad because of the misery of this story.Tears kept rolling in my eyes, almost falling down a few times, and Xiaodong, who was so calm and free from the beginning, his numbness began to shock me.

"That person has a strong sexual desire, and he came here many times in one night." Xiaodong said without changing his face, and even showed a disdainful smile occasionally. "Soon, it didn't take long, I didn't take it seriously. I don't know why, but after a long time, it really feels very exciting and comfortable. He's not too bad, at least he will give I have some money, although it is not much, but it is enough for me to eat something to fill my stomach every day. Since then, my life has become hiding in the corner of the park during the day and going to him at night. He It’s the security guard in this park, a middle-aged man in his 40s. I don’t know if it’s a deal, but at least I can feel a special kind of happiness at that time, which I’ve never experienced before. When I thought I should be content, fate came to play tricks on me again.”

"Do you want to make more money, Brother Xiaodong?" One night, the man suddenly asked him.

"Of course I do." He replied without thinking.

The man smiled sinisterly, smoking a cigarette while pressing Xiaodong's head against his own...

It was a chaotic and gloomy world, and Xiaodong didn't know what the man was thinking.The last time he saw that person with a mysterious smile get into a taxi and walk away, his heart began to fluster again.

Sometimes, he himself asked himself suspiciously, was he really forced.It seemed that he also gradually felt that maybe he was born to belong to this world, even though this world was always full of smog and chaos.

It was an unusual bar, and Xiaodong's job was to serve as MONEYBOY for the male customers here.That is the legendary MB.

Xiaodong said that from the first time he picked up a guest, he didn't feel anything, not even a single tear.He was just looking forward to those guests, and finally dropped the money and walked away with satisfaction.He is almost never lost, he just feels that life is telling him that this is the way to survive.

But he never forgot the hatred, hated the world, a world without any fairness; hated the men, especially the one who had brought him fear for the first time.

From MB's work, he began to deal with some so-called underworld figures. He frequently contacted them, whether it was for business or certain interests. They began to call each other brothers, as if they had established an invincible friendship.In fact, Xiaodong has always understood, and he can see, that all of this is just a means for him to live a more stable life.

Finally, there was a day when he was "full-winged". After a lot of thought, he finally waited for the opportunity to be able to "revenge".

That day, he brought a large group of people to the park where the man he hated deeply was, because he was the security guard there. Xiaodong remembered that dirty uniform, which was deeply distorted in his mind. And ugly face.

At the gate of the park, the man looked at Xiaodong in surprise, but there was an incomparable anger on Xiaodong's face that he felt a little familiar but couldn't remember anyway.Maybe this is the retribution this man will get after all. Those people suddenly rushed towards the man in the security uniform. Before he could react, he was already pressed to the ground, and countless fists were aimed He waved around his face, and countless feet kicked and trampled on him.

At this moment, Xiaodong, with the corners of his mouth slightly upturned, looked at the man who was being tortured on the ground, showing a satisfied and wicked smile.

He began to beg for mercy, shouting hoarsely: "Please forgive me, please!"

Xiaodong walked over and grabbed the man's hair, his face was covered with blood, he finally recognized Xiaodong at that moment.

"It's you?"

"Do you know, this is all thanks to you!" Xiaodong said fiercely, "I will do it one by one, so that all those who owe me will get the retribution they deserve!"

"Cough```cough... you..."

"Me?" Xiaodong looked at the sky and laughed wantonly, "Hahahaha, I should thank you!" As he spoke, he pulled up the trash can by the side of the road and slammed it on the man's head .

Soon, the siren of a police car came from a distance, and seeing the dying "enemy" Xiaodong lying on the ground satisfied, he motioned for the others to disperse, and he walked out the door calmly.

Everything seemed flawless, and Xiaodong, who had come out alive from the darkest side of society, seemed to be numb to everything.He walked gracefully on the sidewalk, watching rows of police cars passing by, he still smiled.

"You must be very surprised that I am such a person!" Although Xiaodong in front of me has never shown that kind of creepy state, his words don't seem to be made up at all.I looked at him blankly, he was still smiling, but he couldn't see any trace of evil.

"I'm afraid it's inevitable to see Director Cao again." He said, "The police are not free, but they can't do anything to find me. It's just that after facing Officer Cao again, he started to haunt me like a lingering ghost. I."

When confronting the scarred security guard at the police station, the man gave up because of cowardice.

"not him!"

"really not?"

"It's really not..."

Xiaodong smiled expressionlessly, but when he was about to leave the gate of the police station, someone stopped him.

"He Dong!"

When he turned his head and saw Lao Cao's serious old face, Xiaodong still only used a smile to cover up his complex heart at that time.

"Director Cao, don't come here without any problems." The maturity and sophistication suddenly shown by Xiaodong, who hadn't seen him for a year, did not make Lao Cao feel relieved. Lao Cao, who had worked as a police officer all his life, immediately realized that there must be something wrong with this child. Many unimaginable things have happened.

"You still remember me, which proves that you are not completely hopeless." Lao Cao walked in front of Xiaodong, and he found that the simple and innocent child's face had become weather-beaten, vicissitudes and mature.He stroked Xiaodong's long hair lightly, and asked with pity: "Tell uncle, what have you been doing this year?"

"There's no need for that, Director Cao!" Xiaodong's astonishing words surprised Old Cao.

"What did you say?" Lao Cao said angrily, "Do you know that you are alone, why don't you know how to be responsible for yourself?"

"I think you must have misunderstood. I am fine now. I am fine. Thank you for your concern. If there is nothing else, I have to go!" Xiaodong turned around impatiently. His heart was not as indifferent as it appeared on the surface. He could already feel his hands shaking.

"Stop!" Old Cao called to him, "You think I can't see why you came to this place today? The victim named you by name at first, but now he suddenly changed his mind. You really think I can't see come out?"

"If I'm not wrong, the police need evidence!" Xiaodong said with his back to Lao Cao.

"Now I'm not going to hold you accountable, kid, I'm just trying to help you!"

"I said, no need!"

"Tell me, what happened to you!" Lao Cao roared angrily, grabbing Xiaodong's hand, "If you don't make it clear today, I won't let you go!"

"I can complain to your Police Officer Cao!"

"Okay, just go! I don't believe there is a child I can't handle!" It was the same simple sentence that never changed, "Either you don't know me, as long as I know you, I won't let you do whatever you want!"

Before he finished speaking, Xiaodong opened his mouth and bit Lao Cao's hand fiercely.

"Ouch!" Lao Cao shrank his hands in pain, and Xiaodong ran away in a hurry.He chased after him, but the child was nowhere to be seen.Looking at the endless stream of pedestrians and vehicles on the street, Lao Cao sighed deeply...