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Lao Cao drove the car without saying a word.I have also been sitting beside me blankly, pretending to be indifferent on the surface, but there is an indescribable chaos in my heart.There was another red light ahead, Lao Cao stopped the car, lit a cigarette, turned to look at me, then continued to look ahead, and said softly: "When did you hang out with him?" ?”

I looked at him inexplicably, and turned my head to ask him, "When did you hang out with him?"

"He is a frequent visitor to the police station!" Lao Cao said calmly, "Sneaking, kidnapping, fighting, fornication, MB will come for everything!"

"You mean Xiaodong?" I looked at him in disbelief.Lao Cao nodded, still in a very solemn and calm tone, "In short, you are not allowed to associate with him in the future!"

I still looked at him puzzled, and thought of Xiaodong again. I have known Lao Cao for almost a year, and Xiaodong even chatted with him earlier than Lao Cao. Of course, we are not that kind of relationship, just Just ordinary friends, but we both belong to the children who love the old, but I have never felt a trace of evil from that child, let alone what Lao Cao said, it is simply too difficult for me Accepted, but the old Cao in my impression is not the one who would tell lies to me, who should I trust.

I sat without saying a word, and the car started slowly again.I think of Xiaodong's desperate and deep words: There are few in this world who love with sincerity, and if there are, they must know how to cherish them.

Sometimes I think, is Lao Cao really a Clivia that grows out of the mud in this so-called chaotic gay world? Then I should really feel the kindness of God, so that I can meet him.But sometimes I also fall into conflicts, thinking that such an ordinary me, am I really qualified to let God give me such a good person as Lao Cao?Maybe, the reality is much worse than I imagined?

Some people say that conflict is the root cause of things moving forward, and the ordinary but sometimes ups and downs of life between the two of us will push Lao Cao and me into a future.

As usual, lay peacefully in his arms and listened to his snoring, ready to fall asleep.But tonight, I found it difficult to sleep.In my mind, Xiaodong was always looking at Lao Cao's back, his lonely and aggrieved face. I quietly removed his hand on my chest, walked lightly through the living room with bare feet, and walked to the opposite balcony.Gently dialed Xiaodong's phone number, but loud and noisy music came from there.

"Are you okay, where is this, so noisy?" I frowned and asked with a smile as much as possible.But he couldn't seem to hear what I was saying, so I amplified my voice again: "I asked what are you doing?"

"You are playing outside, and you, should you be sleeping with your dad at this time? Haha!" He still had that carefree tone.I thought to myself that it would be better to get straight to the point, so I asked him: "Xiaodong, tell me the truth, how did you and Lao Cao know each other?"

"Haha, Director Cao, you are such a good man!" He said to me while shouting: "Drink, do it!"

"What a good man, when is your kid still drinking outside, go home!" I yelled angrily.

"Just like your dad, he always meddles in other people's business, and he's quite exciting!" He said, and I could already feel that he was faintly drunk from his voice, "At that time, it was true, I It's not his baby. He insists on getting involved everywhere, which is completely beyond the scope of his duties as a policeman. I am annoying him, but it is for my own good after all. I should thank him, but now, no one owes it. Whose is it?"

I became confused when I heard it, and always felt that there must be some story between these two people, but I didn't think too much about certain aspects, but the hanging heart was getting higher and higher.

I didn't really understand what Xiaodong said nonsense, but the relationship between him and Lao Cao must not be as simple as that between the police and the people, whether it is out of curiosity or other psychological reasons Although I don't want to admit it, I decided to figure it out.

The second time I asked him out again in People's Park was on Sunday, and I saw him being sent by a silver-white Mercedes-Benz of the latest model. When the car left, he still waved and smiled at him.I began to have a clear change in my attitude towards this child, at least I no longer feel that he is naive.

I put a lot of things in my backpack that he told me about his favorite food. After all, we are still friends. I watched him smiling and eating potato chips while drinking Coke. It was really cute and cute, and my heart started again Contradictions arise, and I always feel that he should not be a child who will be tainted by evil.

"I know what you asked me to do, brother Cheng!" Sitting on the grass, he stared at the people walking in the park in the distance while eating, showing a mysterious and special smile, "Don't worry, Cao The director is not what you think!"

"What do I think, eat your food!" I impatiently pushed a package of food in front of him, he smiled and continued: "Actually, I feel very sorry for him, but seeing that he can have You are very happy together, I am relieved!"

"Xiaodong, tell me how you and Lao Cao met before and what happened. Of course, if you don't want to say it, my brother will not force you!" I was eager to know everything, Xiaodong also saw my thoughts clearly. He looked at me thoughtfully, sometimes frowning, as if his thoughts were trapped in a painful memory, but he quickly recovered. With the optimistic smile of the past, he decided to take me into a deeper world about him.

He said that it was a period of sinking years.Coming from the countryside, he came to work in this strange city early with his parents. He only had a first-grade education in junior high school, and he could only live and eat with his parents on the construction site. He was only 15 years old at the time, and he always It is responsible for many other workers to take care of some more cumbersome small things in life.Of course, there is also his mother. They cook for other workers every day and take care of some things in their lives, such as laundry, washing shoes and socks, and even underwear. In the labor group dominated by men, they belong to the labor group without any physical strength. able-bodied people.I only know how to work hard every day, and I don’t care about what kind of work I do. As long as I have food and shelter every day, and I can get some meager wages at the end of the month, I am already very satisfied.At that time, Xiaodong might be truly innocent and naive, he knew almost nothing, he only knew that he should obey his parents and do whatever he asked him to do when he was alive.However, there are always many nasty and stupid things that are not known about this group at the bottom of society, he said.Not long after, the mother had a relationship with another man who was on the same construction site, and the matter quickly reached the ears of his father, who quarreled with her woman in a slave, and even fought In the end, Xiaodong's mother hacked her husband to death with a kitchen knife. She was also covered in blood and was taken away by the police.

He went to the police station more than once and begged those policemen to let him see his mother, but every time he returned without success.But every time he never thought of giving up, even though the love of his parents seemed so vague and mixed in his world, the only family member in this world was his mother after all.With the grief of his father's death and the fact that his mother was arrested, he seemed to be a veritable orphan. Not long after, he himself was ruthlessly driven out of the work shed where he had been living and working.He was wandering in the streets, wandering in front of the police station, his dirty face was full of helplessness and fear.Tormented by hunger and exhaustion, he leaned against the wall at the entrance of the police station, still looking helplessly at the people passing by, hoping that a few coins or biscuits would be thrown down by kind people. For many days, He lives by it.

The first time Lao Cao saw him, he didn't pay much attention. The second time and the third time, he just acted like an ordinary beggar, thinking that he would leave soon.However, after seeing him for the nth time, Xiaodong finally caught Lao Cao's attention, and he slowly walked towards the hungry and dizzy child. To his surprise, when the child saw him in a police uniform Lao Cao rushed towards him suddenly, hugged Lao Cao's leg, and cried out heartbreakingly: "Uncle policeman, please let my mother go, I only have my mother, please You!"