"Tutor" The Natural Volume of the Master's House

Sakata Zeli knew that he couldn't act, let alone facing this person.

I once read a sentence, those things that happened, the unforgivable behavior, the pain like hell, as long as you deceive yourself and whitewash the peace, it will be completely erased, and life will move forward smoothly again, and there will be various reasons to convince myself to forget about it. *1

She didn't have so many things to forget, and she didn't have so many things to be responsible for. She was just persuading herself to hide a mood.

"Who do you say you don't want to see?"

"I said I don't want to see you, Yin."

Yinshi, I don't want to see you.I don't miss you.In the past seven years, I have lived happily.Now that I am back here, I don't feel happy at all, but I just feel sorry that I can no longer live there.

Ze Li raised her hand to cover her eyes, she didn't want to cry, but tears flowed from her fingers.

There was silence in the room, and after a while, there was the sound of the door and the sound of approaching footsteps.Zeli thought maybe it was Yamazaki who backed out, because she could hear that it was Gintoki walking towards her.

Do you miss him so much?Zeli couldn't help but want to laugh a little. Seven years later, she could still clearly distinguish the sound of his walking.

"Yin Sang, I'm a very busy person. It's useless for me to stay here every day. Hearing you say that, my heart is going to be broken into strawberry biscuits." A deep voice rang out coolly above my head. In the seven years since she saw his situation, she had imagined countless times, but none of the scenes looked like this. "So, if you go to treat Yinsang to me for a sundae now, then Yinsang will reluctantly forgive you."

Ah Yin, why are you being so nice to me?Don't do this to me.

In the darkness, Ze Li tried his best to suppress his sobs.Thin sunlight sprinkled every corner of the room, but she only felt chills from the bottom of her heart.

I remember that I once said that I would always be by your side, Ah Yin, I'm sorry, I can't hold on anymore.

"Sakata Yinshi, who do you think you are?" Ze Li cried so hard that he kept wiping his eyes with the back of his hand.Sakata Yinshi wanted to laugh when she pursed her lips and said harsh words. If she hadn't been seriously injured and lay on the bed unable to move, he would almost have thought that she would stomp her feet angrily like the two quarreled before.

She seems to have changed a bit, she never played such a clever trick before.This fool obviously didn't want to say that, but he didn't know why he did it.

Really underestimate Yinsang, Yinsang is a man with piercing eyes!

Tears were clouding his eyes, and Ze Li cried so badly that he couldn't finish wiping them off, so he simply covered his face with his sleeve.

She obviously didn't want to cry in front of Ah Yin, she wanted him to see her progress and to be more proud when looking at him.

But it doesn't work.

The play is so bad, will he believe it?

In the past, Ah Yin was a big scum with no morals, no lower limit and no motivation. In the original group of four, he was the only one who was fooling around all day long and couldn't even pay the rent.However, he looks like a scumbag while picking up integrity while walking forward, but in fact, he is a little subtly proud in his bones.

If she said that, he would be angry.Thinking of this, Ze Li wanted to cry even more.

Ah Yin, I asked you a long, long time ago.If I do something wrong and stick out my tongue to show off, will you forgive me? *2

Your answer is, of course, it depends on Yin-sang and my mood at that time.

At that time, I never thought that one day in the future, I would be like this, and I must make you angry by following behind you all day.

I once had the realization that I would go through fire and water for you without hesitation, but I never thought that one day I would have to do this.

I don't know how long the silence lasted, only Ze Li's intermittent sobs were heard in the room.For a long time, Sakata Yinshi spoke slowly, his voice was indifferent, and he couldn't tell if he was angry. "Zeli, the consequences of angering Yinsang are very serious. Hmph... well, whatever you want, Yinsang, I won't bother you from now on."

Angry?Ze Li just breathed a sigh of relief, but he stretched out his hand to remove her hand covering her eyes, raised the corners of his lips to her crying face, and stared at her motionlessly with red eyes, as if mocking. "Do you want to hear Yinsang say that?"

Seeing her cool red eyes, Ze Li's heart instantly turned cold.

In seven years, when will her favorite person become like this?She had never seen Ah Yin with such a mocking expression before, nor heard him say such a thing.

Most of the time he has a lazy expression of no energy, only when he is serious or sees sweets, he will be more energetic, when did he learn to speak like this, is this what he wants to tell her?

How to answer, Ze Li didn't know.She closed her eyes and thought for a long time, then she turned her head directly, her eyes fell on the large sunny day outside, as if she didn't want to see him.

Ah Yin, what else do you want to tell me?

"Ah."

Sakata Gintoki actually laughed.

"Although I don't know what you want to do, but Sakata Zeli, you give me a little bit. Don't have messy thoughts, and rest at ease, Yinsang, I will come to see you every day."

Sakata Zeli.

He called her by her full name word by word.The deep voice made Zeli tremble.

Ah Yin had never spoken to her like this before, he would feel that many things didn't matter, and he was too lazy or even unwilling to make his own decisions.

Is such a person, but now he is ordering her?

He reminded her word by word, don't forget your last name.

Her surname is Sakata and her name is Zeli.The first name was given by Mr. Gui, and the surname followed him.

Sakata Yinshi turned and left. After closing the door, the room was silent. Ze Li pulled the quilt to cover his face, and heard intermittent whimpering in the empty ward.

I feel wronged.

How he spoke to her without any intimacy.Is it true that those days can never go back?

What is she regretting, isn't it something she gave up with her own hands.

But why does it have to be like this.

If you know from the beginning that you can't stay for a long time, then if you give up at the beginning, you won't be sad later.

In fact, you don’t need others to tell you about your physical condition, Ah Yin, I don’t have much time left, so don’t miss me.

Give up on me from now on, no matter what happens to me in the future, you don't have to be sad.

……

As promised, Sakata Gintoki came to see her every day.

When he came the next day, Ze Li's fever had subsided, so he looked much more energetic.Sakata Gintoki breathed a sigh of relief when he saw the unmoving food beside her bed.So he frowned fiercely, and it was just a sentence to cover his face. "Don't eat anything, do you want to die?"

Ze Li laughed, "How do you know?"

Sakata Yinshi was obviously stunned for a moment, stopped touching the fruit from the basket next to him, his lazy eyes gradually narrowed. "What did you say?"

Ze Li just laughed while lying on the bed, and didn't answer any more.

The fruit basket was brought by Tae Shimura. She learned the news of her return from Isao Kondo. She came to see her early this morning and brought a basket of fruit that was said to be sponsored by the great Shinsengumi leader.She sat down for a while and left, but Zeli still knew a very important piece of information. Here, in this big Edo with Ah Yin, she had only been away for more than three months.

It's funny, she left for seven years, and missed here and Ah Yin all the time. During the seven years, she has been outside and can't come back, but no one knows, and she can't tell when she comes back.

She had never thought about such a high-level issue as life or death, and seeing Ah Yin's expression, he seemed to have misunderstood it.During the seven years, she felt the despair of not being able to see Ah Yin many times, but she never thought about suicide.Zeli just felt that he was already consummated.Seeing Ah Yin, he also helped the young man, and he was lucky enough to do what he wanted to do.

Renzu said at the time that she would not live for two months, but all kinds of medicines and treatments kept procrastinating, and now it has been more than three months.Ze Li felt like he was picking up a big deal, and he made money by living an extra day, but he also felt that it would be okay to die tomorrow.

I used to think that committing suicide was a shameful thing when I was learning Ah Yin’s Bushido, but now that I think about it, it doesn’t matter. The reason why I didn’t commit suicide was just because I was lazy.

"Yinshi? He ran away because of my anger." Ze Li smiled with his eyes bent, "I heard that the deputy head of the Tangtang Zhenxuan team took me to the hospital, girl, I am really grateful."

"What are you talking about in an official manner in front of me." The dignified deputy head of Shinsenho Hijikata Shirōro stood in front of her bed in a very handsome uniform. Considering that she was a patient, he pinched off the cigarette end with a look of reluctance. But his eyes were full of anger and dissatisfaction.Seeing it, Zeli thought it was funny, so he really laughed out loud, in exchange for Hijikata Toshiro's faint glance. "you……"

"Mr. Hijikata, do you have any dissatisfaction? Then go to hell." Before he could say anything, Okita Sougo behind him quickly escaped from the rocket launcher, and before Zeli realized what was going on, he heard There was a deafening bang in my ears.

The bang was so familiar, it reminded her of the burst of fire in the vast sea of ​​stars when she went to fight with Ah Yin a long time ago, when he split a spaceship with his sword.

"Hey Okita Sougo, this is a hospital!!"

"So what, I will write your name on the compensation bill, Mr. Hijikata!"

Zeli never thought that there would be someone other than Gintoki to visit the doctor, although Hijikata Toshiro and Okita Sougo came to visit the sick because Zeli changed the ward.She was going to sleep that night, but she heard rustling sounds and saw someone crawling in through the window.

She was a little surprised, she thought it was a thief who climbed over the wall, but found that the person who came was actually an acquaintance again.

After I came back, I was always in a good mood except when I saw Ah Yin, isn't it too extravagant.Ze Li raised his hand stiffly to say hello, smiled and gesticulated unceremoniously. "Mr. Gui, you come to see me too. Well, since you're here, please peel an apple for me. I haven't eaten, and I'm a little hungry."

"I'm not Gui, I'm Kotaro Tezuka...Forget it, why don't you eat?"

"Because... because I have my own reasons. Mr. Gui, hurry up, I'm so hungry that I can't sleep."

Picking up an apple and rubbing it on his clothes, Gui Xiaotaro was peeling the apple while instilling great principles into Ze Li as he did in the past.Ze Li laughed as he listened, and for a moment he felt as if he had never left.

"Zeli, if you live alone in this world, you must know what you want."

She sat up with difficulty, looked up at the clean ceiling and thought for a while. "Mr. Gui, I don't want anything right now."

"How could it be, man..."

"I was injured so badly, and there is said to be a very powerful poison in my body. I haven't died yet, and I am very happy to be alive."

"...That's all. It's fine if you feel happy."

Gui Xiaotaro said that he still has important things to do, so he will leave after sitting for a long time.Before leaving, he pretended not to care and asked her, "I heard you had a fight with Yinshi? What's going on?"

"I was just waiting for you to ask this." Ze Li laughed, thought for a while, then restrained his smile, and looked at Gui Xiaotaro with a serious expression.

"Mr. Gui, I have been thinking about a question during the time I left. If I have to leave one day, will it be easier to give up everything from the beginning?"

"I like Ah Yin very much, he is my favorite person in the whole world, but I won't live long, so I don't want to make him sad."

"Mr. Gui, do you think it's right for me to do this?"

If I hadn't been tempted by Ah Gang from the beginning, I wouldn't feel so uncomfortable now, and I wouldn't be like this now.

Ze Li wanted to laugh, but suddenly found that he couldn't.

It can't be like this, and Mr. Gui can't be worried.She hooked the corners of her mouth stiffly, and pulled out a smile that couldn't be any uglier.

"You child, you are still so stubborn..." Gui Xiaotaro saw it, sighed, and raised his hand to touch the top of Zeli's hair. "Why didn't you tell him the truth?"

"I miss him very much, but he doesn't seem to miss me," Ze Li closed his eyes a little aggrieved, pouted his lips, and couldn't help laughing while talking. "So I don't want him to know... how shameless it is to have a spineless obsession with someone. Ah Yin will laugh at me if he finds out."

"He misses you very much too, but he doesn't know how to express it." Gui Xiaotaro hesitated for a moment, and said this. "You were seriously injured and disappeared, and he was the one who was most anxious. He didn't say anything on the surface, but he was in a panic in his heart. He still laughed when he drank too much that time. What's the matter? He couldn't find anyone who lost his family."

Outside the window is the sky full of stars and thousands of lights, the light is reflected in Gui Xiaotaro's black eyes, and there is a flash of light in the deep pool.

"I said I wanted to leave him so that he wouldn't be sad, but you regretted it after doing it, right? You don't know what to do anymore. It's okay. I'll help you make a decision. I'm not Yinshi, so I won't ask you to do it yourself. What."

"You don't know what kind of person he is. Well, don't lose your temper. Cry if you want to cry, and apologize when you cry enough."

After he said this, Ze Li realized that he was crying again.

Are you going to apologize?Are you going to confront him?Want to go back to the old days?want to?

Zeli tugged at Gui Xiaotaro's sleeve and sobbed.After a long time, she nodded.

The author has something to say: *1 from Ah Qian’s May Tide

*2 from the Internet

I was dizzy when I wrote it, and I feel that the update is quite fast hahaha, does anyone praise me~~

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