"Tutor" The Natural Volume of the Master's House

"I……"

Ze Li opened his mouth, wanting to defend himself, but couldn't say anything.

I can't think of any excuses to justify myself.

For a moment, Ze Li couldn't tell whether he liked the man ten years later, or the young and fearless boy in front of him.Or is it that they are one person from the beginning?

It's moving, not love.It's moving, not love.Ze Li told himself over and over again, but still couldn't stop feeling sad.It was like returning to that dream, she was sinking and sinking in the icy sea water, the coolness penetrated the skin and penetrated into the bone marrow, the sun shone far away on the water, but she was getting farther and farther away from the light.

Don't be greedy if you are destined not to get it, don't want it.She said solemnly to herself.It doesn't hurt if you don't move your heart. Stop being greedy. This young man has a future beyond your reach.

Tsuna, you will have a better future.Thinking of this, the grievances that boiled over here were also extinguished.It doesn't matter what I do, the point is that you are fine.

Ze Li silently looked at the boy's childish face, at the thin bangs and tightly pursed lips, and at the look of determination in the brown pupils that couldn't be more clear. "Gangji, don't act like this."

"What else can I do!!" The young man raised his voice very quickly and replied, his voice trembling slightly.

It is said that a good-tempered person can set off a fire that makes people overwhelmed.Zeli looked at the young man who used to be gentle and smiling, looking mad but only felt a little sad.

The young man stared at her, the pupils in his soft brown eyes trembling slightly, his lips turned white from being bitten by his efforts to control, even when he was almost out of control, he was still trying to control himself.

So what are you mad about?Gang Ji.Is it disappointment with me, sadness at not being strong enough, grievance at what you want, or helplessness at the progress of the situation?

Such a trivial and happy daily life is still in sight, how could we become like this, Tsunayoshi.

What else can we become, Tsunayoshi.

Ze Li softened his expression somewhat helplessly, the boy's eye sockets turned red instantly, she was a little stunned, and saw a tear rolling straight out of his eye socket.Ze Li was taken aback, and reflexively reached out to wipe it off, as if nothing had changed if he wiped it off.He stretched out his hand, but froze in the air.Because the boy ran away in panic.The young man froze for a moment, as if he was also frightened by his avoiding movements and tears, he hurriedly wiped her with the back of his hand, pursed his mouth with a stubborn look, and then turned his eyes away from her.

The outstretched hand froze in the air, unable to retract or reach out.

Gangji, what else can I do.

Don't expect too much from me, okay?Gang Ji.

The words are on the lips, but can't come out.The reluctance in my heart is so clear.

Why would you be reluctant?Ze Li was taken aback for a moment, but was covered by another slightly sad question.When was the last time she saw him cry?

In the gorgeous dusk like a dream, pink smoke exploded everywhere.I was in a mess, but the young man who rushed into her arms hugged her tightly without hesitation, his neck felt moist and warm and fainted. He said that next time I will definitely protect you, as if he was the most important person in the world. oath.

Why do this.Why protect me.why me.

Ze Li felt that he was almost overwhelmed by all kinds of rhetorical questions that popped up in his heart.

Gang Ji, why do you say you like me.

But what if you get the answer?

Knowing that she can't give him and herself any more expectations, and knowing that it's the most correct choice for her to get rid of the relationship now, she still can't help it, and wipes the pimple under his eyes with trembling cold fingertips. red.Slow down to coax him softly.

"Gangji, can we not quarrel?"

The boy turned his head to avoid her touch, she leaned over persistently, and touched the boy's cold face.The boy's tears fell one after another, he and she were both stunned, the boy opened her hand.Bury your head in your palm.Ze Li hesitated to put his hand on the boy's soft head, and the warm temperature was conveyed to the depths of the body through the hair and skin, "Can we not quarrel..." she said again.Is it because of the soothing tone or the touch, the boy's furry head trembled slightly under his hands, and after a moment's pause, when he suddenly raised his head, his eyes were so reckless and determined.

The boy leaned forward, put his hands through the long hair and clasped the back of her head, and kissed her rudely.

There is no skill to gnaw, softly pried open the white teeth and drilled in.Without the cautiousness of the past, and the tenderness and love that ran through the past, the hair was entangled between the fingers and was pulled painfully.Ze Li was so dazed by the kiss, he just felt like a surging sea tide, a big wave was coming, and it was going to submerge him completely.

His body was powerless because he hadn't recovered yet, and he was easily grabbed by the wrist by the young man.Being crushed on the bed in a whirl, the young man held her hands on both sides of his head, stood up and looked at her, hot tears dripping down her face.

The sadness and grievance are so clear in the brown pupils.The words he blurted out were vulgar and reckless, hysterical, and completely devoid of his usual gentleness.

"Arguing? I don't want to! But if I don't do this, when will you listen to what I say?"

"Is it true that you will be obedient and obedient if you are really fucked up!"

"Zesang, tell me what to do so that you won't leave!"

You are endless, how long are you going to be stubborn!

Dazed by the stimulation of the young man's unadorned words, this sentence almost blurted out, but was swallowed by Ze Lishengsheng.A scene that was already out of control couldn't be made worse.But Gangji, I don't know the answer myself, how do you want me to answer you?

Can explanations really make a difference?I don't know how I can trust you completely.I can trust that you won't do anything to hurt me, but what I can't believe is your desire to be with me.Ten years later, you will approach me for various reasons, and will you completely like me?

How long do you like it?What is like?

Have you persisted until now because you are not reconciled to what you can't get?

Ze Li fell silent, the boy bent down and kissed him again.The force that restrained her hand became stronger and stronger, and the boy's kiss fell on her lips.tip of the nose.earlobe.neck.clavicle.He used his fangs on the side to bite open the buttons of Zeli's loose T-shirt worn by Takeshi Yamamoto ten years later. His two imprisoned hands were buttoned together, and the free hand cautiously reached into the clothes. Gently rub on the sensitive skin on the waist.

A white light exploded in his mind, and the messy thoughts were tied up. Ze Li was shocked, and there was only one thought left in his mind, and he couldn't go on like this...

"Stop... Tsunaki!"

The young man ignored her, Ze Li threw off the restraint vigorously and stood up, slightly distanced himself from the young man. "Gangji, you are enough!"

"That's enough..." The young man half-kneeled in front of her, smiled with a lonely face, found hers with his warm fingers, and interlocked them leisurely. "If this goes on, the knot will never be untied. I won't let you escape again, Zesang."

What do I have to say to you to understand?No, actually I don't understand it myself.There are too many things intertwined, all kinds of liking, using and being used, uncertain intentions and expectations, even I have no patience to unravel, how long can you hold on?

If we have to be separated sooner or later, it is better not to be together from the beginning.Do you think this is the truth?

Enough is enough, Tsunade.Let's call it a day.

Ze Li pushed the boy away forcefully, staring at him with piercing eyes.Her chest rose and fell due to gasping for breath, she wiped her lips hard with the back of her hand, and tried hard to let the uncompromising anger show in her eyes with a sullen face.

I've had enough of my own duplicity.And can you hear what I really want to say?

Gang Ji.

"Enough——, get out!!"

The boy was really taken aback, his warm orange eyes were full of grievances.After hesitating for a moment, he didn't explain anything, but raised Zeli's hand that was intertwined with him, and slowly and delicately kissed each fingertip.

The warm feeling was transmitted to the heart through the fingertips, and the warmth rose little by little. Zeli closed his eyes, suppressed the churning emotions, and shook his hand vigorously with a sullen face.

She turned her face away, closed her eyes and raised her finger to point in the direction of the door.

"The door is there, don't send it."

He didn't dare to open his eyes, his eye sockets were already wet, and seeing the young man's soft expression, he would definitely collapse completely.

You can't always pamper yourself.Since there will be no future, don't be greedy now.

Tsuna, even I don't know how long I can live, how can I give you a future.

Ze Li made an angry expression, the fingertips of the raised hand were so cold that they were about to freeze, her arms were sore, and her whole body was tense, she didn't dare to move, for fear that she would be sad in the next second will cry out.

I don't know how long the stalemate lasted, I felt the bed beside me lighten, and then heard the sound of the door slamming.

Ze Li opened his eyes and saw the empty room, feeling miserable and sad, raised the corners of his mouth and smiled, and raised his hand to touch the corners of his eyes.

I thought I was going to cry, but there wasn't a single tear.Have you cried too much and have no more tears?Or is such an indifferent self the most real?Zeli laughed again, and when he heard the sound of the door opening, he was taken aback for a moment, grabbed the pillow beside him and threw it over forcefully. "What are you doing back here!"

The visitor grabbed the flying pillow with one hand, supported the door frame handsomely, and then revealed his deep eyes and pale complexion.

"KUFUFU, I'll come back to see how you're doing~"

One red and one blue pupil stared at her, with a mocking smile on the corner of his mouth.

Ze Li's face turned cold, she had no good thoughts about Liu Dao Mu at all.After thinking about it, he pulled out a perfect smile again, his black eyes looked over with a smile, and his hands were clenched tighter and tighter by his side. "Then are you satisfied with what you see?"

"Barely. You still don't want to believe me?"

"I told you, I won't believe a word of your words."

"Oh, that's really a pity." Liudao Mu frowned, but there was no trace of regret in his tone.He bent down and took a closer look at her, the mockery and schadenfreude in his eyes were so clear. "You look bad."

Zeli was still smiling, "I don't need to worry about my affairs."

"I can't do that, I feel uncomfortable. You really like King Pengelie X very much, both adults and children~"

The little feelings that had been carefully hidden all the time were spread out under the light, Ze Li turned cold, snorted and stopped, silently thinking about what to say now, Liu Dao Mu suddenly stretched out his hand, squeezed her chin and forced her Turn back to look at him.

Zeli's heart trembled.

Under the fluorescent lamp, Liu Dao Mu's skin became whiter and whiter, and his deep eyes were fixed on her, his gaze was too sharp, as if he could see through everything she was hiding.It was almost materialized, and the place he was staring at seemed to be burning, scorching hot.

"Sakata Sawari, what do you want to prove?"

What is she trying to prove?

Ze Li looked at him expressionlessly, seeing the slightly unpleasant look in his eyes, the fluorescent lamp above his head suddenly burst.It was dark in the room.

The author has something to say: College life is so difficult. . .All kinds of tears were tossed, but I couldn't cry. . .

I really want to go home.

2012.10.17