admire the ordinary

Mu Fan didn't know how he came to the hospital. When the fog in front of his eyes cleared, his dark eyes saw a motionless, emaciated face, his heartbeat seemed to stop, and the whole world seemed to collapse. hate her?But why, why is it so sad to see the person on the snow-white bed sheet?

The feeling of suffocation makes the head dizzy, the heavy feeling presses on the chest, and the thinking becomes sluggish. Is this the old woman who is always strong?Mu Fan's fingers lightly brushed over his already stiff face, and he withdrew his hand suddenly. Mu Fan's tears dripped down: "Why are you lying still? Mom? Didn't you feel fine a few days ago. How could it be..."

……

In the depths of winter, with snow all over the place, a tall and thin woman is struggling to hunch a chubby little boy on a bicycle. The boy's chubby face has big bright eyes twinkling, "Mom, I want to eat braised pork..."

"It's not okay to eat when you're so fat. It's tight at home recently... don't pick and choose." The woman who was panting heavily said angrily.

"Humph" the boy moaned angrily, and stopped talking in anger.The woman knew that he was a child at heart, so she didn't coax him after a while. The woman stared at the bicycle as hard as she could. This brat is getting heavier...

The journey home from school was always monotonous and tedious, after the boy was quiet for a while.

"Mom, look at that big brother over there standing up from his seat"

The woman looked back and said solemnly, "That's all crazy, and I'm going to die."

"Mom, you're so handsome, I want to stand up too!" The boy's face was full of envy.

"No, no..." Before the woman could stop the boy, he had already stood up. The woman panicked, the ground was covered with snow again, the car slipped, and the two of them fell out. The boy was so frightened that he burst into tears. She came over to hug the crying boy, but she didn't notice her bloody ankle was cut by the car...

"Xiaofan, are you okay..." The woman's voice trembled, the boy was still crying, and the woman hugged the boy tightly, "Xiaofan, don't cry, don't cry, it's because the mother is not good, she didn't grasp the balance, Xiaofan... Mom will buy you delicious food, where does it hurt? Where does it hurt from falling?" The woman's voice was full of tears.The boy cried and said in a muffled voice, "It hurts..."

The car chain broke that day, the woman parked the car at a colleague's house, dragged Mu Fan back with his bleeding leg, and went to the hospital to check that the boy was fine, but the woman got four stitches...

"You don't have to worry about my affairs, you don't need to worry about who I make friends with," the Qingjun boy said indifferently.

"I don't need to care? You are my son, I don't care who cares. If you say no, you don't allow it. You can't mix with that kid from the Lin family! You should study hard, do you know how messed up he is? He..."

"I do not want to hear."

"Beng" the woman's snarl was closed by the young boy.

In the evening, the young man opened the door to get up at night, but saw the lights in his mother's room. He was stunned for a moment and saw his mother's exhausted face through the crack of the door. Thinking of the pungent woman taking off her disguise and facing the photo of her dead father, "Old Mu, little girl... Fan has grown up, I can’t control him anymore, I should let him go, but I’m always worried if I don’t look at him, Xiao Fan is my pride, and it’s also my fate, after always hanging out with bad boys, someone will seek revenge What should I do, last time..."

"He was the kind of child who was sold and counted the money for others since he was a child. How can I rest assured..."

"Is there too much for me? Lao Mu, I miss you... If Xiaofan doesn't need me anymore, I'll go find you right away..."

……

The past was played back in my mind like a rewind, it clearly seemed like it happened last night... Mu Fan was sobbing and sobbing, and stretched out his hand to caress his cold face.

"Mom, do you still remember the time we fell? Actually that time I fell a little... also..." Mu Fan choked up, "It didn't hurt at all, how could it hurt if I wore it so thick... just... I was taken aback...it's just that you are so stupid..." "Seeing you in such a hurry, I feel very wronged... Actually, it was all my fault..."

"Mom, you have been so strong in your life. With my son, it must be... a failure. I have not become your pride..."

"I live in such...a disgraceful...do you want to throw up when you see me so dirty..."

"I'm sorry, until the end, I couldn't be with you...I used to think that there was still a lot of time, so don't worry, but..."

"Mom, my son is sorry for you, if there is an afterlife, would you still want to meet me... Would you still want to be my mother?"

"Mom, you...can you open your eyes and look at me again...can you talk to me again?"

"Mr. Mu, this is what your mother left for you..." Someone said on the side.

Mu Fan took the paper, his fingers trembling a little.

"Xiaofan, I should be gone when you see this thing, you should be crying right now...

I knew that since you were a child, you have shed tears over big and small things, but this time your mother died, so you should cry, so I won’t scold you Xiaofan, I have done many wrong things in this life, but you I know, mom is really looking after you. Although many times you do wrong things with good intentions, mom really wants you to be happy. Mom really wants you to grow up healthily...

Xiaofan, I'm sorry, I hope you don't blame me.

Xiaofan, if there is an afterlife, can you still be my son? Mom will get rid of all her bad habits and continue to love you well...

Xiaofan...you are the sustenance of my life, you are the pride of my life, Xiaofan, mom hopes you live happily ever after..."

There is no moment when Mu Fan understands better than now, really, really, what has left him forever, and is a person who loves you forever and never asks for anything in return, maybe she once hurt you for loving you, but, You will always be her one and only...

"Mom!...Mom!" Mu Fan hugged his already stiff body... crying a bit terribly...

Two men outside the door looking at the scene inside the house

"You shouldn't have given it to him..." the indifferent man said

"I thought you would like to see his grief-stricken expression..." Gu Jing seemed to speak easily... When she turned her head, her face was a little dull...

Did you just die like this?Shouldn't this woman who has ruined all my hopes be happy?Why is there still a little bit of congestion?

Obviously it was this woman who killed all his childhood hopes.

Mu Fan finally fell asleep crying tiredly, leaving Lu Yunzhong and Gu Jing walking into the ward and looking at each other, the two people looked at each other for a long time, finally Gu Jing found a bodyguard to send Mu Fan back... Gu Jing turned around and left, Lu Yunzhong looked at the person beside the bed, felt a pain in his heart, suppressed the urge to hold that person in his arms to comfort him, gritted his teeth and turned around to leave.

Sensing the two leaving, Mu Fan quietly opened his eyes, and touched something under the mattress with trembling hands...

The next day, his mother's body was about to be cremated. Mu Fan never thought that those two people would want to hold a mourning ceremony, and of course he didn't bring it up.For those two people, it may be considered as the utmost benevolence to be willing to pay for their mother's medical treatment.

The driver, Lao Yang, leaned against the car door and recalled that on the way back yesterday, after Mu Fan woke up, he begged him to buy an urn for his mother. After hesitating for a long time, he still didn’t dare to make a claim, so he called Lu Yunzhong to ask. , after the man agreed, he didn't know why he was also relieved, and bought an extremely ordinary urn with Mu Fan...

Looking up, he saw Mu Fan walking slowly with the urn in his arms...

"Mr. Mu, Young Master Gu and Young Master Lu are already waiting for you at the crematorium... Please hurry up..." Lao Yang said eagerly. When the haze dissipated, Mu Fan still smiled gently as always.

"Then hurry up...don't make them wait..." Mu Fan said while hugging the urn tightly.

After Mu Fan got into the car, he was still silent as usual. Mu Fan didn't often talk to people other than those two people, because they didn't like it, so Mu Fan tried not to do it, otherwise he would suffer in the end.The begging that day was nothing more than going to the doctor in a hurry.He wants to grab a straw, otherwise he really doesn't know how long he can last in that whirlpool...

Encountering a red light on the way, Lao Yang saw Mu Fan's seemingly bored look from the rearview mirror. When he met those black velvet eyes, that person was as gentle as ever, but for some reason, he always felt that those eyes But there seemed to be some inexplicable waves. He opened the lid of the urn from time to time, opened and closed, opened and closed... At one time there was only porcelain in the car, and at another time there was only the cold sound of porcelain colliding...

"Meow" a low meow.

Lao Yang hesitated, where did the meowing sound come from?He suddenly understood what had happened before he turned his head, a tie was placed across his neck, the urgent force made him feel suffocated, he saw the eyes of the people behind him from the rearview mirror, he was determined and a little flustered, he used A tone of indifference that he had never heard before: "Drive, go to the bank..." He said with a slightly lighter hand...

When he arrived at the bank gate, Mu Fan took out a rope from the urn and tied Lao Yang's hands and feet. There was a hint of fatigue and sadness on his young and handsome face.

"I'm sorry, I must not fail... I'm really really sorry..."

Lao Yang watched Mu Fan get out of the car with the cat in his arms, and then looked at the slipknot that Mu Fan tied, sighed softly, "One day your kindness will kill you..." Then he chuckled again "However, fortunately, you met me..."

He hurriedly ran into the bank and took out all the cash in it, which was about [-] yuan. Although it wasn't too much, it was enough to hide for a while.

I took a taxi to the department store, sold a wig, a women's autumn sweater, and a well-ventilated bag, then went into the dressing room to change the clothes, put on the wig, and looked in the fitting mirror. With a figure, a fair and handsome face, and long straight hair, she could be seen as a beautiful young woman at first glance. Mu Fan hugged Lulu who was staring at him dumbfounded. Mu Fan looked at the fitting mirror with panic in his heart. He knew that the two men had been very slack in guarding him recently, thinking that he had been used to being raised in captivity, and he had no money, so where could he go?But Mu Fan was really not sure if they sent someone to follow them.

So, he is betting, fortunately, his luck is not bad, he won the bet... The prize is a rough trip that he does not know how long...

Mu Fan rubbed his face against Lulu's smooth fur, "Lulu, I'm very scared, very scared, but this is the only chance, you absolutely must not scream in a while!" Mu Fan stared at Lulu .

"Meow, meow~" Lulu stretched out his tongue and gently licked Mu Fan's cheek, as if answering, Mu Fan patted its head, put it and the money into the bag, and made sure that Lulu would not suffocate.Get up and walk out of the fitting room...

Mu Fan tried his best to go out in an open and aboveboard manner. Guilt and fear made him want to go to remote places, but he also knew that the more dangerous the place, the safer it would be.He clenched his fists to cheer himself up, and the sharp nails pricked his skin to vaguely resist the uneasiness in his heart.