Released

What the hell?

This word is too unfamiliar to Zhou Xi, so unfamiliar that he will not be able to react for a while. What kind of existence and identity should this be.

It was the first time I saw such a strange scene after growing up so big.

A stranger suddenly appeared and told him with a long way to go that we are a mother-child relationship where blood is thicker than water.

Zhou Xi sneered.

absurd.

"I don't know you." Zhou Xi said, "What can you do with me?"

Xu Qin raised her eyebrows, and she smiled lightly.

"It's normal that you don't know me." She said flatly, "Because Xu Ruyi didn't tell you."

Xu Ruyi is Aunt Xu's name.

The woman who came here should be a few years younger than Aunt Xu.The figure and appearance can be regarded as outstanding and exquisite.Although her youth is gone, her face still has a lot of amorous feelings that haven't faded away, and Zhou Xi's eyes and mouth are more or less her shadow.

It's just that her expression was very calm, and she didn't have the excitement or exaggerated sadness of the rumors.Her eyes were as light as mountains and waters, without even the slightest shock.

It's as if this happened for granted and rightly.

"How do you prove it?"

Zhou Xi thought it was a bit funny when he asked this sentence, it was similar to - I want to prove that my mother is my mother, an endless loop and endless paradox.

"I don't think you would believe anything else." Xu Qin's fingers wrapped around the elastic band of the mask twice, and after thinking about it, she said slowly, "There is a mole in the middle of your neck at the end of your hair. It was a fortune teller. The old blind man told me that this is called hiding gold under the house—it’s a pity.”

As soon as these words came out, Lu Xiangyang suddenly took a deep breath.

She recalled seriously, twisted her fingers back and loosened them again, and her dark eyes passed Zhou Xi's suddenly constricted pupils: "I'm not wrong, son."

When Zhou Xi was a child, he actually thought of countless times of lost and found scenes.

In the dream, there were countless crying, embracing, questioning, scolding, hoarseness, pushing and smashing—these were all like flowers in a mirror, and Xu Qin just said a word, and they were all gone. crushed.

She was more emotionless than any deduction that Zhou Xi had ever thought of.

This kind of calm and indifference is like some kind of speechless poison, swallowing him like drowning, his chest and lungs are filled with snow, and gradually frozen with frost, he can't even say a fierce cry not out.

Zhou Xi couldn't even find a reason to ask her why she left me back then.

Lu Xiangyang watched Zhou Xi's slowly clenched fists and gradually trembling shoulders from behind, and took a step forward to stop him behind him.

"Don't touch me."

Zhou Xi kept his voice low, his voice rolled in his throat, suppressing the despair that was about to growl.

Lu Xiangyang let go of his hands cooperatively and retreated.

"Again, I don't know you." Zhou Xi's brows and eyes were as dark as Xu Qin's, with an unfathomable black color, "What do you want from me?"

The sun has been strangely out of the head today.The clouds were piled up so high that they hung up to the horizon in long stretches. At first they were just gray and white floated without pain, but in a blink of an eye they were pressed down black and heavy, with sparse raindrops.

It's raining.

Xu Qin looked at the gradually falling raindrops from the sky, and silently twitched the corner of her mouth.

This woman's talking habits are very bad.Take turns around and around, and sometimes even answer questions that are not asked.

"Do you think we abandoned you because of eye problems?" When Xu Qin looked at her son, she blinked very slowly, like a close-up in slow motion, gentle and nostalgic, "Actually It's not like that, do you want to hear it?"

Zhou Xi blinked uncontrollably in the splashing raindrops.

Maybe it's because they haven't met each other before, maybe it's because they can't get used to it, maybe it's because of resentment and sadness... I don't know.

There seemed to be a thorn growing between him and her, as long as he took a step forward, the sharp blade would directly hit the other person's heart.

The rain mixed with fallen leaves and soil, tangled into a turbid color that cannot be seen clearly, regardless of you and me.

"Let's talk in the room if you have anything to say." Lu Xiangyang said suddenly, "It's going to rain heavily."

Thin glass blocks the pouring rain outside the window.

Zhou Xi vaguely remembered that night when he was abandoned, the yard of the kindergarten was full of flowers, in that dark and hopeless childhood scene, the sky was bright and the moon was thousands of miles away, and the fragrance of flowers was overflowing under his feet.

Life is so ironic.

Now his confession scene is delicious again.The high-temperature baked bread exudes a full-bodied wheat aroma, and the aroma quickly fills the whole room.

He and Xu Qin—this woman who should be classified as relatives and whom he should call "mother" are sitting face to face now, and Xiao Hua timidly walks over to offer two glasses of water.

Lu Xiangyang didn't take the disposable paper cups he usually used for entertaining guests, but replaced them with glass cups.

"When you were studying, I used to patronize the restaurants where you went to work, and I saw you serve water for others like this." Xu Qin picked up the water glass and said first, "It's just that I didn't recognize each other."

work to earn a living?

It was when he was studying abroad a few years ago, and he couldn't help being stunned.

"Are you in America?"

Zhou Xi was a little surprised, and it came from many aspects.For example, Xu Qin's understanding and intuition of him are inexplicably natural, he is like a transparent person under her eyes, naked and unobstructed.

The metaphysics involving blood ties may be true.

There were so many questions in his mind that there was no room for them to squeeze, and he didn't know which one to pick first.

"Always there." Xu Qin moistened her throat and said, "Do you know about stowaways? That's when they left you behind."

nonsense.

Lu Xiangyang was kneading the dough distractedly, but fortunately, he was good at practice and didn't need to think too much about the process, so he could keep his energy to listen to the conversation between the two of them.

Zhou Xi only stared at the water glass in front of him, and he blinked slightly.

"Go ahead." Zhou Xi sat motionless, leaning on the chair with folded arms, "I'm listening."

Xu Qin glanced at him, and she took a deep breath, as if she was about to tell a long story.

"Your uncle, that is, your father's eldest brother, was the first group to go out and gain a foothold. When he turned around, he wanted to drag the younger brothers out together, and they all agreed."

When Zhou Xi heard the word "father", goose bumps all over his body for no reason.

Some characters are so foreign to him that they are frighteningly foreign.

"And then." Zhou Xi seemed to be an adult, he calmly looked at the water in the glass without ripples, and said slowly, "What does this have to do with me?"

Xu Qin shook her head.

"We originally planned to arrive at the destination together and have a baby to get a green card. It's a pity that you came early." Xu Qin said, "I'm pregnant before your father left."

Zhou Xi stopped breathing for a while, and continued to raise his eyes to stare at her.

"At that time, travelers who went to sea had to find a reliable smuggler and pay a high labor fee. It took at least one or two years. They needed to travel to many places, deserts and oceans, and the casualty rate was extremely high." Xu Qin took a sip of water, and put the cup back again, "I didn't leave, I chose to stay in Miancheng. I wanted to bring you up by myself, and after a few years your father has settled down, and then we will take over." In the past. I am not wrong."

Xu Qin didn't have too many emotional ups and downs when she spoke, and her tone was very light, as if describing a history buried in the dust and gone far away after dinner.

The two sat facing each other, but they seemed like passers-by who had nothing to do with each other in their lives.

Zhou Xi blinked quickly: "Continue."

"But in less than half a year, your uncle suddenly couldn't contact anyone, saying that he was missing in a small border town, and his life and death were unknown." Xu Qin couldn't help but smiled wryly, "I'll set off immediately to find—I don't know. I am willing to lose your father. This matter is too dangerous, I can't take you with me, I will put you in kindergarten... But I never thought that it was you that we lost in the end. "

Zhou Xi slowly raised his eyes to look at her, there was a very dim light in his eyes, which went out bit by bit.

"Because you have to immigrate, you won't be able to return to the country for a short time." He gritted his teeth every word, trying his best to explain it to himself, "Afterwards, why didn't you come back to me?"

"I found it, it's too late."

Xu Qin turned the mouth of the cup as she spoke, and there were still some dry lipstick marks on it.

"It's been too long, and you have been adopted by Xu Ruyi. You have a home." The woman put down the glass heavily, and raised her voice, "I can't beat morality, and I can't beat the law. One year and three The legal deadline of six months is a death sentence for me in every sense of the word. I am disqualified from being your mother."

Zhou Xi probably knew why Lu Xiangyang changed the glass for him.

If it was a paper cup, he could crush several of them.

It's a pity that such anger has no meaning in the adult world.

"You lie. After so many years, I think about it every day... every second." He endured the trembling and said, "After Teacher Xu adopted me, she didn't even want to change my name. There is a chance to get it back."

"Yes!" The woman in front of him suddenly raised her voice, "I looked for it, I did. How good do you think she is? She's so selfish that she doesn't even dare to tell you that I showed up!"

The corner of the woman's lips twitched, revealing a sad smile.

"It's because she didn't give me back her own son! How much money did she spend, she went to a lawyer to file a lawsuit, and completely took you as her own? What kind of a good person do you think she is?"

Xu Qin let out a breath, and she raised her voice and shouted: "The person who made you homeless is obviously her!"

Zhou Xi couldn't breathe, his ears rang a little from the scream.

Those words poured into his ears one by one, making him feel cold all over.

"Have you said enough?" Zhou Xi calmed down and breathed calmly. He raised his eyes and stared at the woman he had never met before in memory, "You are the one who left me, and you are the one who never asked, disappear It was you who disappeared. Do you think that anyone can be worthy of being a parent?"

"I was lost when I was young. Teacher Xu lost his voice because he yelled at me, so he was so scared that he held me and cried all night." Zhou Xi took a short breath, "I have disappeared from you for so many years, when did you Did you call me back? When you were in the United States, no one stopped you, so why didn’t you find me? You never thought about asking me back—because I no longer mean anything to you.”

Xu Qin looked at him speechlessly, and she had no choice but to nod.

"Yes, I don't deserve it anymore. You should be angry with me. I gave up on you first." The woman lowered her head and smiled bitterly, her eyes resting on her skirt, her voice gradually weakened, "I just... ...I just don't want you to feel that we deliberately abandoned you because of a minor illness."

The heart knot that has been fettered for many years is so pale and powerless when it is untied.

"The result is already like this." Zhou Xi twitched the corner of his mouth mechanically, "...how it started is not important anymore."

"I... recently inquired about Xu Ruyi. She said that she was ill, a serious illness." Xu Qin swallowed the latter words and went back, "If you can't bear it anymore, I can give you a way out. Your father's side Everything about the economy is pretty good, big cities abroad are much better than a small place like Miancheng, and you don’t have to worry about food and drink.”

"She's fine." Zhou Xi took a sip of water with great difficulty, and he heard his uncontrollable low smile squeezed out from his chest, "Forget it, even if Teacher Xu told me personally, I would won't go with you."

He paused for a moment, and his peripheral vision flickered past Lu Xiangyang: "You had the right to choose back then, and I have the right now. I will not leave this small place."

There are too many things that can't be done.

Born, abandoned, adopted, and forced to accept the life experience and family... even the blood relationship and so-called family relationship that are engraved in the genes and cannot be separated for a lifetime.

How can this be decided by children.

In his vaguest memory, the mother who has hated countless times has the same warm eyes as his.

People are so ridiculous sometimes.

Zhou Xi laughed until his lungs throbbed. He covered his heart and leaned back, cold sweat dripping down his face.

"It doesn't matter if you don't recognize me, the fate is over, and I am the one who made all the mistakes." Xu Qin looked at him, her eyes were red after all, and tears fell like broken beads, "But your father can't wait. Come on, after all these years, give him a chance."

"boom--"

The glass broke with a loud sound, and Zhou Xi's glass was easily smashed on the table, falling to pieces all over the floor. Pure warm water flowed out from between his fingers, bringing out a scarlet color. The tip drips down.

The rolling thunder roared and exploded along with the lightning, the white light tore the sky, and the torrential rain violently shook the entire city.

Lu Xiangyang quickly pulled Xiaohua behind him.

He saw that the brilliance in Zhou Xi's eyes had disappeared, and they were pitch black without any color.

Lu Xiangyang had never seen him look like this before. For a moment, it was like a basin of cold water was poured from head to toe, and his back felt cold all of a sudden.

There was a silent roar of anger in the man's eyes.

"I've waited for 23 years." Zhou Xi stood up before the table was full of mess. He stood upright with difficulty to keep himself as calm as possible, "What chance did you give me?"

"But you're still alive, you're all still alive." Xu Qin couldn't help crying, choked up in the glass debris on the ground, and the crying made her brain swell and ache, "Your father, he, he will immediately I can't live anymore... Zhou Xi, please save him."

The author says:

The tomato fat beef rice noodle that I ate today sucks.

The tomato thick soup base is really delicious word oh my god, I was holding the bowl and sipping it all the time, excited.jpg

(Question: Why don’t you use a spoon to drink soup?)

(...I don’t know what a good question. I glanced at the neglected spoon.)

PS: Boss Lu!Brother Xi's hand! ! !