As a white moonlight, I understand the rules

The night is deep.

On a cold, windy winter day, City A is a veritable prosperous city that never sleeps, and the bustling neon lights are printed on the faces of passers-by.

The heater was turned on in the car, and when I got out of the car, I couldn't help shivering uncomfortably, gathered up my coat, and after the ultimate joy, my body was lethargic and exhausted.

A little dim red under the street lamp in the distance, flickering on and off.

As soon as the wind blows, the strong and choking smell of smoke immediately floats along, mixing in the cold air and spreading recklessly into the lungs.

The person who just got out of the car covered his nose and coughed twice, half of his face was exposed from his coat, and he frowned and looked at the guy who didn't go home in the middle of the night and was smoking on the side of the road.

He had a lot of dissatisfaction in his heart, but he didn't want to cause trouble, so he could only look away cowardly and hide his face in his coat.

"Shi Qi."

Another person got out of the car, holding a crutch in his hand.

Shi Qi reached out to take it.

"Shall I take you up?"

"It's all at the entrance of the hotel, I'll go on my own." Shi Qi covered his mouth and yawned, and seeing Sun Chang staring at him, he put down his hands and said politely: "Thank you tonight, everyone had a good time." happy."

"Small matter." Sun Chang raised his eyebrows and didn't take it seriously, but he put his hands in his trouser pockets, and he really didn't intend to leave.

Shi Qi looked at his posture, thought for a while, although it was unlikely, he still asked: "Could it be that you... want me to invite you to sit up?"

These words are too suggestive among adults.

Sun Chang didn't mean that at first, but he couldn't stop thinking about it after listening to it, so he stood with a different center of gravity, coughed and said vaguely: "That's not the case! Besides, how can you use your feet. I just want to ask, you With Feng Zhengze, he... broke up?"

Shi Qi asked back: "Do you think I talked to him?"

Sun Chang was stuck for a moment, but quickly said: "Whether you talk about it or not, you two have been together for so many years, and he nodded and agreed to let you go?"

"Of course, he is my brother now!" Shi Qi looked at him with a candid expression, and looked at him with disgust, "Dirty adult, can your mind be a little cleaner?"

Sun Chang understood and smiled, "So you are single now?"

Shi Qi didn't deny it and hummed.

"Can that dirty adult chase you?"

Shi Qi paused, looked at Sun Chang again, and saw his subconscious micro-reactions, such as his eyes were focused but he wanted to turn away nervously, his throat was rolling unconsciously, and his hands in his trouser pockets were restless. moving around.

Shi Qi said very seriously: "Not very good, I am very serious about relationships, I don't want to play."

"Why do you say I want to play?"

"You're going to get married."

Sun Chang frowned.

"Sun Chang..." Shi Qi was small, leaning on crutches and standing on tiptoe, he barely hooked Sun Chang's shoulder, "Do you still remember..."

Looking at the picture from a distance, it looks like Shi Qi is struggling to hook someone's neck on tiptoe and offer a kiss.

Feng Zhengze dropped the cigarette butt.

A few sparks popped out of the dark red, and were finally run over by expensive Berluti's handmade custom-made leather shoes.

Sun Chang slightly turned his body to listen to Shi Qi's words, and unintentionally wrapped his arms around Shi Qi's waist through his coat, so that he wouldn't have to stand too hard, but the street lamp in front of him suddenly pulled a long figure over.

The leather shoes made a clicking and clicking sound when they stepped on the ground.

Not tight, not slow.

But for no reason it was a little breathless.

Sun Chang looked up, and when he raised his head, he was almost scared out of his wits, and almost pushed Shi Qi away who was still talking in his ear!

Shi Qi was pushed and pulled by this, he reacted, and turned his head to look at the person coming.

Feng Zhengze was wearing a gun-gray Armani haute couture suit with a hairstyle, showing his full sky and deep facial features. With one hand in his trousers pocket, he looked very formal, as if he had just left some high-end banquet. seat.

If only the smell of smoke wasn't so heavy.

If the street lights were not so bright, so bright that people could clearly see the gloomy and angry emotions in his eyes...

He is really like a king with extraordinary demeanor.

Shi Qi let go of Sun Chang's hand, and Sun Chang also let go, and the two of them silently opened up a distance of less than half a meter.

"Brother Ze, Brother Ze." Sun Chang was embarrassed, his tongue was tied, and he felt guilty that he tried to seduce his sister-in-law while his elder brother was away, but was caught on the spot. In winter, cold sweat came down his back, "You Why are you here?"

Feng Zhengze didn't answer, but said indifferently: "Thank you for sending Xiaoqi back."

Sun Chang hurriedly responded: "No hard work, no hard work!!"

Feng Zhengze no longer looked at Sun Chang, but looked at Shi Qi condescendingly, his eyes locked on him alone, "Did you have fun tonight?"

"Happy!" Shi Qi smiled, seemingly completely unaware of Feng Zhengze's dangerous depression, and asked with a particularly bright smile, "Brother, have you received your birthday present?"

Feng Zhengze looked at Shi Qi and didn't speak for a few seconds.

Sun Chang understood, and immediately said, "You talk! You talk, it's getting late, I'll go back first!"

After finishing speaking, he got into the car as if his butt was burning, and quickly asked the driver to drive.

Soon the shadow of the car disappeared at the end of the traffic flow.

"Birthday gift?" Feng Zhengze opened his mouth, his voice sounded hoarse, as if his throat had been smoked for too long, he took out his mobile phone and handed it to Shi Qi to look at, "If you mean this, then I received."

There is a video on the phone.

In the dimly lit box, Shi Qi sat straddling a man, looking from the side, their mouths were close to each other.

Feng Zhengze, who was kissed by Shi Qi, knew him.

Qin Zhengyu.

The one who was in the same car as Shi Qi, got into a car accident together, was rescued together, and went to the police station as a witness not long ago to bring down Su Qinghe's family...

The man he never put his eyes on.

Shi Qi's throat felt dry watching the video, he had no idea when this was captured, from the angle of shooting, it was not someone in the box.But when was the door of their box opened?

Feng Zhengze saw Shi Qi rolling his eyes in a panic, which was an expression of avoidance and evasion.

He frantically wanted to carry him on his shoulders, bring him into the hotel or take him to Jinxiu No. [-], he wanted to throw Shi Qi hard on the bed, and easily restrain him when he was in a mess, and then Handcuffed his hands to the head of the bed.

He wanted Shi Qi to stay obediently in one room and wait for him for the rest of his life, not to disobey him, not to make himself anxious and irritable.

It won't make him look like a lunatic, throwing away a well-prepared candlelight dinner in a rage.

He has become a beast.

Irrational, just want to dismantle people and eat them to relieve their hatred.

Silence spread.

The night was bitterly cold.

Shi Qi was so cold that his brain was sluggish, and he was a little unsteady. He wanted to stretch out his hand to open his coat, but he heard Feng Zhengze say in a low voice, "Selective amnesia, isn't it?"

Shi Qi looked at him immediately, a little surprised, "You..."

"Go upstairs and talk."

It was too cold outside, Shi Qi wore a lot of clothes and felt his limbs were cold, but it was much warmer in the hotel, and when the heating in the room was turned on, he seemed to come alive.

The blood started to flow again, Shi Qi took off his hat and coat and put them on the sofa.

Without the long hair to cover him, the roots of his ears looked very red under the bright light inside. In addition, his neck was also red, because he fought hard at night, drank a lot and lost a lot, and he was so excited until midnight. Sun Chang sent it back.

Feng Zhengze also took off his coat, and his sense of smell, which was paralyzed by the smell of smoke, finally smelled the smell of alcohol on Shi Qi's body.

"You'd better take a shower." Shi Qi wrinkled his face, and began to dislike Feng Zhengze, "Otherwise the smell of smoke is too strong, it's okay outside, but the room is too closed, and there is no air circulation system."

At first, he thought that he was going to grind his mouth with Feng Zhengze, but he didn't expect that the other party went into the bathroom without saying a word.

The patter of the shower was heard.

Soon it stopped again.

Feng Zhengze is not used to the supplies provided in unfamiliar hotels, even though it is a five-star hotel, but he has already lost the right to go out naked, frowning and smelling the smell on the bathrobe, he was a little surprised What he discovered was not an industrial bath essence, but a faint smell that was very similar to Shi Qi's body.

Feng Zhengze went out in his bathrobe.

Indoor lighting is bright.

Shi Qi fell asleep on his back on the sofa.

He was wearing a white round-neck sweater. On his upturned thin neck, there was an Adam's Apple that a young man should have. His left hand, which was red with cold, rested on his forehead, as if to cover the glare of the light.

The mouth is open, the lips are dry and slightly chapped.

A very beautiful, very clean, but also rough, very careless boy.

Feng Zhengze didn't wake him up, and didn't even go over to sit down, but stood far away.

Selective amnesia.

The doctor said that it is a symptom of forgetting some things, people or things that people do not want to remember or escape after being stimulated or brain bumped.

From a psychological point of view, this is a defense mechanism built by the brain itself.When a person suffers a huge blow, is repeatedly pulled by extreme emotions, and tends to collapse, then the brain will form an idea of ​​trying to forget.

Once this abnormal subconscious appears, the patient is prone to the symptoms of "selective amnesia" after suffering a major stimulus.

Under strong mental pressure, patients will not only have the idea that something has never happened, but also fabricate another situation in their minds, supplement logic, and perfectly practice self-deception.

When Feng Zhengze entered the room, he saw that there was a small wine cabinet in the room. The red wines on the minibar were all low-end and low-end cheap brands, and he didn't even take a second look at a bottle that cost a few hundred dollars.

Tonight, he took a wine glass, opened a bottle, and sat on a high stool to drink alone.

In fact, Shi Qi's amnesia symptoms are obvious, but he is preconceived, cares about it, and ignores those abnormalities as nonsense.But if selective amnesia is what the doctors say it is, then...

I saved you five years ago, so you fell in love with me.

——I saved you five years ago and fell in love with you.

You couldn't love me, so you found Su Qinghe and a bunch of substitutes.

——Although I got you, I found that I was Su Qinghe's substitute.

……

Before Shi Qi finally made the overseas call to him, Su Qinghe and Sun Chang had just gone to Jinxiu No. [-] and said a lot of irrelevant things.

But Shi Qi didn't believe it, but called him instead.

Before that, Shi Qi's spirit was already on the verge of collapse.

Shi Qi lost the game project he had worked so hard for during his entire college years, and lost all his friends who worked together. He was decadent, frustrated, and lost his luster. He didn't even want to open his laptop. In just a few days, he lost more than ten years of weight. Jin, like a lonely soul.

On the surface, he took Shi Qi to Jinxiu No. [-] for the convenience of taking care of him, but what he didn't want to admit was that he was afraid.

He was afraid, so he wanted to lock up this crumbling person with a prison of his own peace of mind.

But even under such circumstances, Shi Qi did not express the doubts and accusations he received from others, but asked him carefully in the extremely humble way.

Ask him if he likes it.

How did he answer?

He had obviously been patient with Shi Qi for so many years, but when Shi Qi needed it most, he spoke coldly and pointedly at each other.

Perhaps Shi Qi knew about it earlier.

That's right, the kid is so smart, how could Su Qinghe not be aware of the fact that Su Qinghe repeatedly came to find trouble and provoke demonstrations after returning to China?Sun Chang and those bastards stood by Su Qing again and again, teasing and ridiculing at every turn, didn't Shi Qi show the same disgust and alienation earlier?

Feng Zhengze poured a glass of wine.

Shaking the wine glass, the rich aroma of low-quality wine was swayed out.

He raised his head and drank it in one gulp.

He used silence to acquiesce that Shi Qi was his own, but in the eyes of others, he just labeled Shi Qi as a small stand-in, and equated it with money transactions, not even belongings and lovers.

Feng Zhengze can't drink too much alcohol.

Not a physical problem.

He knows why better than anyone else, just because he was drugged by Feng Zhengjun back then, and almost died by the knife in the end, so he had an instinctive resistance to drinking, and he didn't tell anyone about it, just After experiencing a near-death catastrophe, there are still a lot of sequelae: cleanliness, insomnia, over-protection and so on.

He lived a torment until he found the long-lost sleep and peace in Shi Qi.

He was bewitched by the children who sent him to his door.

Lost in the turbulent, naive but frank and strong love and good sleep.

Unconsciously, I drank a few glasses of wine.

Unsurprisingly, his head began to ache.

Feng Zhengze thought drowsily: Shi Qi will give him a massage.

After knowing that he would get a headache from drinking too much alcohol, Shi Qi went to some professional masseur to learn acupoint massage techniques. After two days of learning, he dared to try it on him as a test subject for practicing hands, but he also succeeded. Became Shi Qi's only guest.

But now history has forgotten.

Before amnesia, the child was trapped in blind emotions by that unusual accident. After amnesia, he is free. Whether it is Qin Zhengyu or Sun Chang, he has the right to choose independently.

It just couldn't be him.

Feng Zhengze thought.

What am I?

Drunken with a splitting headache, he collapsed on the counter, closing his red eyes.

——I was just lucky, a poor ghost who happened to be rescued by him six years ago.