As a white moonlight, I understand the rules

Feng Zhengze sat on the bed in the dark bedroom with no lights on, supported Shi Qi's hip with one hand and put the other on his back, listening to him cry.

Knowing that he had endured it all night, he didn't coax him, let him go, until he was tired from crying, and his sticky face was rubbed against his neck, and he couldn't help saying: "It's so dirty, go take a bath."

As he spoke, he picked up the man and walked to the bathroom.

"I don't want to wash."

Shi Qi's voice was very hoarse, all his strength was hanging on Feng Zhengze's body, he was motionless, breathing against the man's neck, and said hoarsely: "Feng Zhengze, I don't want to take a bath."

Feng Zhengze stopped and asked, "Then what do you want to do?"

"I want to...cry."

"You'd better take a shower."

Feng Zhengze hugged Shi Qi with one hand, turned on the shower, and said, "Your place is too small, go live with me, there is a big bathtub."

Shi Qi didn't speak.

Feng Zhengze was not easy to operate with one hand, but Shi Qi remained motionless with a wooden doll who was being manipulated by others, so at least it didn't cause any trouble.

So I got wet first, then applied shower gel, wiped out the bubbles, rinsed off, wrapped it in a large towel to absorb water, and finally took it to the bed to blow dry my hair carefully.

It was still dark in the room.

Feng Zhengze gently rubbed Shi Qi's short, fluffy hair, which was blown hot, and asked in a low voice, "Is that so disappointing?"

What he said was disappointment, not grievance.

I saw it as soon as I entered the door, those emotions were all written in Shi Qi's eyes, it was clear at a glance.

"Um……"

Shi Qi's nasal voice was heavy, and he buried Feng Zhengze's chest in response.

Yes, he is disappointed.

He was disappointed that he always messed up things and that he always brought bad endings to those around him.

Also disappointed with the boss Du Fei and the others.

People are emotional and impulsive, but after so many years of friendship, they should not convict him and punish him the most painfully after they understand the one-sidedness of the matter.

Even if there is even the slightest bit of trust and respect for him, he should be given a chance to speak, explain and even save him, instead of disbanding the team directly and then collectively violent him.

They don't need the truth anymore.

They just need to vent the negative emotions that come with the consequences.

So they stab him with words, lash out at him, hurt him with what matters most to him.

Things can no longer be resolved by clarification or explanation.

The rift between them comes when Su Qing and Design steal their game.

Liu Lan said that everyone's hard work for more than a year was gone because he offended Su Qinghe, and none of them said anything against him.

Yes, they didn't say it, but the seeds of resentment had already been planted in their hearts, so even though they didn't say a word at that time, when they had no scruples and needed to vent, they completely exposed their hatred.

They called him gay, thought he was fostered, called him disgusting.

This is what they really think.

In the past, they endured it because of the "friend" relationship, but now that the team is disbanded and the company is cancelled, they can finally obey their hearts and express their contempt and disgust unscrupulously.

They are a group, only he is a misfit outsider.

Should have known.

They used the same body wash, but Shi Qi felt that Feng Zhengze's body smelled better, and the dry temperature would make him feel at ease. He stretched out his arms and hugged Feng Zhengze's waist tightly, pressing against the strong and generous chest in front of him. Taking the temperature, said: "There is nothing to say."

"You can tell them what happened to your mother."

"Let them pity me?" Shi Qi laughed at himself, "Or are they laughing at me?"

Feng Zhengze was startled.

He never thought that Shi Qi would have such an idea in his heart.

In the past, he thought that the child in his arms was just a coward, and he didn't dare to fart outside, but when he went to Hongri alone, he fought with Sun Chang and confronted Su Qinghe, the child was bold There are so many, so many that I don’t know the heights of the sky and the depths of the earth.

They also don't know how to weigh interests and care about gains and losses at all.

Just reckless.

How could it be possible to be sensitive enough to consider these aspects that most people can't think of?

Feng Zhengze didn't know that what Shi Qi showed was the body he used to protect himself.

A person who has been pointed at and scolded by everyone around him as a "sangmen star" for [-] or [-] years since he was a child has only lived a good life for two or three years. Where do you expect the sunshine in his heart to go?

Shi Qi advocates force and likes to use fists to solve things. That's because Lin Chengtian interspersed with his fists and kicks throughout his childhood, which made him subconsciously think that the way to vent his anger is to beat people, and whoever has a harder fist has the right to speak.

His heart is dark, dirty, messy and disorderly. No matter how bright he looks outside, he deliberately acts like a god in front of Feng Zhengze, but in his heart he is still the drunk Lin Chengtian cringing and crying in need of his mother's protection. child.

He has nothing.

So when Feng Zhengze put on a straight face, he never dared to overstep the rules, and when Feng Zhengze was angry, he always bowed his head first.

He didn't even dare to go to bed too early.

Not only because there is a program to write, but also because I am afraid that the night is too long and I will cry when I dream about the past.

He can usually pretend to be a normal person, but when he falls asleep, those fearful memories in the corner of his heart will dominate him.

So the more domineering he is, the more out of control he is.

The calmer he is, the more inferior he is.

Time will heal him.

But these short two or three years are far from enough.

"Feng Zhengze, I don't want to say it."

The voice from Zifeng Zhengze's chest was muffled.

Shi Qi stuck to his chest and said, "I don't want to say that the village chief called me and told me that Lin Chengtian was going to beat my mother to death, and told me to go back quickly. I don't want to say that when I went back, I found that my mother had hanged herself and almost couldn't save her." gone."

"What's the use of telling them that?"

"I'm so upset that I don't dare to think that if I arrive one step later and kick the door open later, I will never see my mother again. I don't want to talk about such things everywhere, I feel uncomfortable."

Feng Zhengze stroked Shi Qi's back comfortingly, and remained silent.

Shi Qi slowly raised his head and asked him: "Feng Zhengze, do you feel afraid afterward?"

In the dark bedroom, only some light from the living room came in, so Feng Zhengze could barely see Shi Qi's face clearly, and see clearly that there were tears in his eyes.

I'm afraid...

What was that like?

Feng Zhengze didn't know, but he thought it shouldn't be worse than what he felt recently.

Upset, restless, uncomfortable...

All kinds of negative emotions, as long as he thinks of Shi Qi ignoring himself, he will be impetuous, and it is not pleasing to anyone.

It's not that he didn't feel sleepy, but he never showed it, let alone let it affect his work. During the period of Shi Qi's cold war with him, his emotions were affected, and it also seriously radiated to his daily work and schedule .

Shi Qi said: "It reminds you, and then you can't help but make some terrible assumptions. You can't control yourself at all, and you can only experience that fear again and again."

"Okay." Feng Zhengze interrupted, grabbing Shi Qi's slender neck and pinching, "You said everything is just a hypothesis, nothing will be worse than what has already happened, control yourself not to go Just think about it."

"I can't control it at all!"

"If you can control it, baby, if you can't control it, it must be because you don't have enough self-control."

Feng Zhengze approached him and said, "Do you have that feeling of fear now? It must be because you've been thinking too much recently. Let's have sex. When you feel good and tired, you don't have the heart to think about it. Do you want it?" ?”

Shi Qi pushed him away a little, "I don't think so at all."

"Okay." Feng Zhengze's tone sounded a little disappointed, but his expression remained the same, he pinched Shi Qi's nape gently, and continued: "I saw a little girl downstairs. "

Shi Qi froze slightly, but soon relaxed.

"She looked like she had been crying and her makeup was all over her face. Maybe she wanted to come up, but when she saw me, she turned around and left."

Shi Qi didn't say a word.

"It's your colleague." Feng Zhengze further said, "I met once in the company last time."

Shi Qi replied in a low voice: "Yes."

"It's about her, isn't it?"

Shi Qi was silent for two seconds, then suddenly said, "None of your business?"

Feng Zhengze raised his eyebrows.

Where did the kid get this hostility, and he foolishly exposed himself.

So, with some displeasure that he didn't realize, Feng Zhengze grabbed the back of Shi Qi's neck again, and said in a low tone, "Oh, it's none of my business. Don't you look at what you've been bullied into?" It’s like this, but she still wants to be a gentleman and a flower protector, do you think she appreciates it, huh?”

"What about that!"

Shi Qi was provoked by his hidden angry tone, and his temper suddenly came up. When he sat up, he was still uncomfortable because he was drunk and light-headed. Double push out, let them point the finger at a girl? Besides, it was my fault!"

"Where did you go wrong?"

Shi Qi shouted: "Because I'm with you!!"

Feng Zhengze paused, then hummed softly.

"So you know it too."

Shi Qi breathed very quickly, because no one was arguing, and gradually calmed down.

Then he smiled bitterly.

I didn't know it at first, but when I was drinking and getting drunk, I couldn't figure out why Qin Shuang hated himself. Then, while drinking, the past scenes flashed one by one, and finally he found the key point of Qin Shuang's attitude change—— —After Lin Chengtian came to the company to make a big fuss.

Lin Chengtian made only one incident, saying that he was gay and that he was being taken care of by a rich man.

He's gay, which, while unusual, isn't hurtful.

Why did Qin Shuang hate him so much that he used such a thing to take revenge?

Qin Shuang has a good personality and a beautiful appearance. She is the belle of the School of Computer Science and has many suitors. Why should she hang around these few computer geeks?

Is it really just to do a project together?

In the beginning, Pang Xiaoming, Ge Jing, and Du Fei were always joking, and even the boss beat around the bush when he saw Qin Shuang, saying, "Thanks to Xiaoqi, we can see beautiful women every day."

He knew why, because he had saved Qin Shuang.

When he saw Qin Shuang being forcibly asked out by some malicious dandies, he went up and fought with them without saying a word, beat them all to the ground, and sent Qin Shuang back to the dormitory safely.

It was just a small matter to him, but Qin Shuang obviously cared about it, and came to the club to bring them milk tea and snacks from time to time.

Then I just joined the club.

He thought Qin Shuang was grateful.

But it turned out that it has already evolved into liking.

She liked him for more than two years, but after being exposed as gay, he told her that he was with Feng Zhengze when he was a freshman.

In Qin Shuang's eyes, is this teasing and betrayal?

Or, he's still a nasty, emotional manipulator who deserves to die.