[HP] The Tweed River flows

"By the way, there is one more thing." Grandfather seemed to suddenly think of something, "Helena is not young anymore, it's time to think about where to send her to school."

My heart skipped a beat, and my hand holding the fork shook, and the fork fell into the plate with a bang.

"Yes, I'm sorry," I muttered to my plate, pretending to be calm and picking up the fork, pretending I didn't hear anything.My grandfather frowned and glanced at me, said nothing, and continued to look at my mother.

I randomly picked up something and put it into my mouth, trying my best to hide the tension in my heart.In fact, I started worrying about this problem a long time ago.The only wizarding school in Britain was founded by my mother. Before that, magic was taught by parents or completely taught at home, or a few, like my mother, traveled thousands of miles to foreign countries to study in order to pursue more advanced magic.

What about me?How will they arrange my fate?

You probably think that it was a matter of course for me to enter the school founded by my mother, but in fact it was not.From a very young age, I dreamed of entering the school called Hogwarts founded by my mother, escaping this prison-like home, being with my adoring mother, and getting rid of those disgusting eyes and shame. past.In a place where no one knows that I am an illegitimate daughter, I walk with my head held high and I breathe freely.But I am very worried, I am afraid that this beautiful picture is just my unrealistic fantasy.No one but the Ravenclaws knows of my existence, and no one wants to believe that the great Rowena Ravenclaw has a shady illegitimate daughter.The prestige of the family, the reputation of the mother—any of them are far more important than me.How could I have walked out of the Ravenclaw gates?Maybe I'll just live forever in the Ravenclae mansion, forever under the shadow of shame, let a very reluctant uncle teach me magic, until one day marry a foreigner I've never met , leaving this sad but only home forever.

"It's too early to start thinking about it now. There are still two years left!" My grandmother glanced at me and said, but there was a hint of worry in her eyes.

"It's not too early," my grandfather said in a deep voice, "This issue is a bit troublesome, and it must be considered earlier."

"Don't you want to go to Hogwarts?" The little uncle said in surprise, "Didn't Rowena already run a school?"

"Alger, what are you talking about? We can't send her to go to school outside. It is enough for the little girl to have a mother to teach. If Rowena is too busy, anyone can teach her." Uncle Rex To put it lazily, it seems that this is the most obvious problem.

"But she will be an adult one day. What should I do then? The Ravenclaw family can't just have one more person out of thin air," Uncle Harris said bluntly, frowning, shaking the fork in his hand.

"This is indeed a problem!"

I stared at my plate, munching on the tasteless food, pretending it had nothing to do with me.I have no right to speak.I know it, and so do they.So they discussed my future in front of my face, and even directly expressed their disdain and dissatisfaction with me.

"What do you think, Rowena?" The grandfather kept looking at the silent mother.

My heart was pounding.

"I don't think it's appropriate to discuss this at the dinner table," my mother said, wiping her hands with a napkin and looking down at me. "Helena, go to bed early if you're done eating."

I nodded stupidly, put down the knife and fork and left the seat without hesitation.A misty picture seems to emerge in front of my eyes, and the infinite possibilities of the future unfold intricately like a spider's thread.I don't know what's the worst I can bear, and I don't know what the best expectation is in my heart.There are thousands of possibilities in the future, but I have no control over them. I can only let others make choices for me and determine my destiny, as if I am just a thoughtless puppet, or an emotionless beast.

It was the most uneasy period of my life, and I always felt that they were whispering about my future all the time.Because some heated whispered discussions always stop as soon as I show up.But even so, I still heard a lot of news.

My uncles proposed to send me abroad directly, and it would be best to marry a foreign wizard directly after graduation, so as to completely get rid of this embarrassing burden for my family.

My grandmother firmly opposed it. She believed that my mother had already suffered a lot abroad, and I must not be allowed to make the same mistakes. Moreover, Hogwarts had already been established at this time, so there was no need to study abroad.

My grandfather was very hesitant, neither wanting me to stay at home all the time, nor wanting me to study in England.What kind of identity should I appear or disappear so as not to shame the family, probably this is the crux of the problem.

Mother never commented.To be precise, she didn't even participate in their discussion.Maybe she already has her own ideas, maybe she hasn't had time to think about these little things.I don't know, all I can say is 'maybe'.

I only dared to share my worries with the Muggle boy in the village, who just gave me a strange look after listening.

"So you're choosing between going to school abroad, going to Hogwarts, and homeschooling?"

"It's Hogwarts, and they make the choice, not me," I corrected with a wry smile.

"Don't they ask your opinion?" he said angrily.

I just shook my head.

"So what are you thinking?" After a long silence, he looked at me cautiously and said.

"Of course I want to go to Hogwarts, so I can get out of this damn place." I sighed.

He let out an "oh" in disappointment, "So you want to leave here."

In that split second, I suddenly became aware of an impact I hadn't been aware of.If I do leave here and go to Hogwarts, then we won't see each other every day.I don't know why, but I was suddenly a little lost. It seems that the Tweed Valley is not useless, at least there are still some good things worth nostalgic for.

"I'll be back," I pulled myself together to look positive, "I'll have a vacation, you know? I'll be back when I'm on vacation." I gestured in the air with my hands, and then I suddenly lost my temper. "And I might not be able to go to Hogwarts."

My matter has been up in the air.Just when I was still uneasy about my future, another major event happened that completely disrupted the development track of the matter, plunged the entire Ravenclaw family into huge chaos, and also caused my family, including me Everyone inside has forgotten such little things as my going to school...

That was my grandmother's funeral.