[Zhongyingmei] dishonest love

Silence lasted for a while.

"Emergency meeting in the afternoon?" Happy, who was gradually immersed in his own thoughts, was startled by Tony's sudden voice.

"Uh, yes, the emergency meeting announced by the Secretary of State requires all the Avengers to be present..." Harpy responded immediately with his consistent professionalism.

"Yeah." Through the thin fabric, the photos in his pocket seemed to weigh heavily on him, making him a little out of breath.Tony raised his hand to look at his watch, and finally adjusted his state a little bit. The news of the Niarax incident is bound to spread with the statement of the King of Wakanda. After that, the pressure he will face will only be more. Unexpected circumstances affected him, and he could only grow stronger.

Frowning, he looked at the watch. Tony made some improvements to the watch, and even added an attack mode to the one with Janie... He naturally knows what the watch can change into. Right now, the watch is worn on his wrist perfectly, but Tony Feeling that the weaponized watch was firmly clasped in his hand, as if it was about to sink into the flesh, he had an illusion of pain, so he hurriedly untied the watch and threw it aside.

Noticing Happy's worried gaze, Tony picked up the watch uncomfortably and put it on slowly, not knowing who to explain to: "It's too tight... By the way, I haven't explained to Jane how to use this watch yet. It seems that I don't have time on the weekend, and I have time to convey my apology to her." He probably won't be able to get rid of these chaotic emotions in a short time.

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The brief meeting broke up unhappily. Happy didn't know the content of the meeting, but he knew that there was absolutely no consensus. It could be felt from the tense atmosphere of the two groups of people in the meeting room.

"The situation is troublesome, isn't it?"

"Do I look like I'm not bothered about it?"

Happy hit a nail that was neither hard nor soft, so he didn't go to talk again, and silently watched Tony go back to his office.He thought of Tony's series of strange behaviors, and felt that he couldn't just leave him alone. He opened the phone's address book, and his finger stayed on Pep's name for a long time before giving up. Swiping up, Happy saw Jenny's name and sipped it. Pursing his lips, he made up his mind and made a phone call.

Happy's thinking circuit is very simple. After so many years of companionship, Pep has long had a family-like friendship with Tony, but the boss and Miss Pep are currently in a state of breaking up. It would be self-defeating, why not find Mr. Stark's real family members, who else is more legitimate than Jenny Lovech?

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Tony's office.Walking around the office irritably, Tony's inner irritability can be seen from his expression.

That meeting was not just bad at this level. The Secretary of State made a proposal, but it was obvious that the Avengers didn't intend to accept it. The whole meeting, except for the last stop and postponement, Tony didn't say a word. Not to mention, in the face of an obviously unfavorable agreement, he was actually thinking about a proposal that might split the Avengers.Is it his problem?What happened to Charlie Spencer affected the way he thought. After all that had happened, it was almost impossible for him to think in the same way he had when the Avengers started.

The Great War in New York, Sokovia, and now Nyalax, how many times in the future they will face these catastrophic and dangerous events that will cause great damage. Every time these things are solved, they will inevitably be accompanied by sacrifice and destruction. , just the ones that are not related?For example, Charlie Spencer, I am afraid the answer is no, Tony’s memory is not bad enough to remember the consequences of the Ultron incident-Pietro, Wanda’s brother died, another life that is different from Charlie but equally young ...

All the traces of the battlefield have been erased by time, he stood here and looked down to see where there was still a trace of the life that was burnt.Even those who witnessed the scene of the alien invasion could hardly discern the tragedy of that time from the calmness of today. All the bad effects of the war seem to be silently being erased little by little, but there is still a difference .In his heart, in the hearts of those who lost loved ones...

How many nights did he dream that he was rushing towards the black hole with a nuclear bomb on his shoulders, and how many dreams ended in him not coming back?He woke up in a cold sweat and anxiously, beside the bed was a pile of armor parts.Tony didn't count how many difficult nights he watched the moon set and the sun rise with the support of coffee, tirelessly creating new armor and immersing himself in his own world, as if he could tell himself with peace of mind that there was nothing to be afraid of, anyway He didn't have much to lose either.

The ever-expanding Mark series still reminds him from time to time that all anxiety and fear are not imaginary... He is a mortal, he will be afraid, the more he knows how vast and mysterious this universe is, the more he knows his own powerlessness; The more you lose, the more afraid you will be alone in the end.

He had done his best, but the uneasiness was only gradually increasing.The Ultron incident only made him feel more and more wrong, all those lives lost because of his fault...what will he pay back?he doesn't care?How could he not care!It's just that his caring can't make up for anything, he's just a... mortal after all.

Didn't that situation seem to have changed for mortals? Tony thought of a certain god brother inappropriately. The reason is that he is not strong enough, maybe too strong?Maybe it's both, he's not strong enough to protect everyone when facing real danger, and for ordinary people, the abilities of the Avengers need to be restrained by fear.

There is no doubt that the Avengers have saved the world, and there is no doubt that they need a certain amount of restraint, with such great power in their hands, sometimes, they have to be vigilant and questioned.Tony secretly had an answer in his heart, but this answer could not free him from the predicament. Perhaps this answer would only push him into another predicament, and he had no hesitation.

The office door was pushed open, revealing a silly smile on Happy's face: "Mr. Stark, Miss Lovech is here." Tony was a little confused by his jumping.

"It's school time, why did you come here?" He really couldn't take care of the child now, and the appearance of Jane made Tony a little annoyed.

"I, I saw the news on TV. I don't know, I just think I should come." Jane was a little nervous, Tony's serious expression made her even more uneasy, and she walked slowly to him, her expression It's not much easier than seeing the dean, "Is there anything I can do for you?"

"Thank you for trying to do something for me." Tony patted her on the shoulder and went straight past her to sit back behind the desk, "Although I don't need it. Anyway... go back to class, good kids shouldn't miss class." He The back of the chair was turned to face out of the window, and the whole person exuded an aura of rejection.

Tony used to have a morbid aversion to being alone. Before the palladium poisoning was resolved, any noisy and manic occasion could miraculously soothe his anxiety. At the time of PTSD, it was the opposite. On the one hand, he hoped that someone would never leave him. Looking at himself, but on the other hand stubbornly refused to tell anyone his hope, human nature is really complicated.While he was feeling in his heart that he could still clearly recall what happened a few years ago, he felt a subtle disgust, of course, towards himself.

Tony felt as if he was thinking too much. Generally speaking, he didn't want to know himself so well, and he probably had more emotions than he could handle.After admitting this to himself frankly, his self-awareness improved a little.

"Maybe you need someone to talk to you, or a simple listener?" Under the careful questioning lay Jane's real question—does he need her company?

Janie can't remember a time in her past life when she wished she had heard that from someone else, maybe when she was alone eating a cake she baked and watching The Little Mermaid, maybe it was When she took Kikyo to visit the grave alone, maybe when she was watching other people in pairs in the corner...

Not once, not once when she was so lonely that she was disgusted with herself, someone reached out to her and asked if she needed company. One of the reasons might be that she didn't even have a possible candidate around her, but this time, there was Stark Isn't it sir?Although the situation is reversed, she doesn't mind being the one who reaches out, as long as he...

"No, I'm fine by myself." Tony turned around, "Happy, take her back to school." To be honest, the normal situation is fine, the more sensitive the moment, the more Tony cares about his private space , he doesn't want to show his weak side in front of anyone, even Pep, he doesn't accept the signal from Janie, he just doesn't want to, even if it means hitting this shy and timid girl .

"Yeah." Jenny hung her head, "That's good, I'm really worried that what happened with Niarax will affect you. I think, as a family..."

A certain tense nerve was touched, and Tony interrupted her with inexplicable anger: "Stop! This is not something you should care about, go back to your class, and don't disturb these things, okay?!"

The expression on Happy's side is already stunned, and Janey's back is facing him, so Happy can't see her expression, but just from the thin and small back, he seems to be able to imagine that the girl with shrunken shoulders must be at this moment. It's a face about to cry.

"I'm sorry, I crossed the line." Jenny's eyes were a little sour, she was sure she had crossed the line now, she should learn to be smart, if someone warned her not to approach, she should obediently walk away, Jenny's head was blurred A stubborn face that belonged to the story flashed vaguely, "The last question, does being a hero always mean paying a price? Or is it like this for all people?"

Tony leaned back in the chair, heard Janey's slightly choked voice, and regretted his tone, he was just not good enough, and everything was getting worse.The voice of the answer carried his own unbelievable depression: "I'm afraid, all people are like this."

Jenny walked out of Tony's office with her head down and her feet lightly. There were moments when she mistakenly thought that she and Mr. Stark were very close. They played games and ate fast food together, including him helping her with lessons. Take her home when they are on their feet... She thought so much, they got closer step by step, like brothers and sisters, like uncles and nephews, even like father and daughter... She has no experience in this new family experience but Overjoyed, she had higher expectations for the word loved ones for the first time.

As it turned out, that was just her wishful thinking. For Mr. Stark, Jenny Lovech was obviously not that important.She used so much courage to walk to him, only to find that she had been isolated from his world, that invisible barrier had always existed, but she was overwhelmed by the desire for family affection , foolishly turning a blind eye.

She and Mr. Stark are separated by the distance between summer and snow and winter and flowers. No matter what method you use to make you see flowers in winter and snow in summer, it is not in line with the laws of nature.

When everything has an end, her expectation——

ends at this moment.