Stubborn illness

July 14, [-], in the afternoon, by the way, went to check, downstairs, I bought a watermelon, carried upstairs, just stepped out of the elevator door, heard the voice of Dr. Yang, so loud, so familiar .

I walked over quickly and knocked on the wooden door. "Please come in." "Wow, Xuhua is here." "Wow, you've lost weight." "Wow, you're dark again." "I think he's more energetic now than before." They are all here, and everyone meets Very happy, after a while of greetings, Dr. Yang, Dr. Deng, and Manager Li, who runs the business, are the best at talking.

"Where do you work now? What do you do?" Greeted like this, everyone exchanged pleasantries, and then quieted down, "Come on, let's check it for you first." It was still the anal peep prescribed by Dr. Deng: "It's okay, it's fine, it's smooth."

"When was the last checkup?" Dr. Yang asked.

"On March [-], [-], the drug was stopped for half a year, and the test results were fine."

"Oh, it's been more than a year, it's okay, it's fine, come down."

I tidied up my clothes and went out to the outhouse to chat with everyone. Dr. Deng asked, "I won't be looking for such a person now, will I? Are you planning to find another woman to marry?"

"Hehe, the woman will definitely not look for it again, and she won't leave when she looks for it."

"Hey! It's better to go back to a normal life and not go to these people." Dr. Deng said earnestly.

Following Dr. Deng's point of view, Manager Li first told me that their business was very good last month, and there were many people who basically had to wait when they came. Then he told me: "Oh, Xuhua, you are really liberated." , it’s best not to engage in these things in the future, you don’t know, a businessman came here recently (the background of the character is fictitious, don’t take it for granted), the business is very big, the family is very rich, and has several properties , Because I saw this on the Internet, imitating others who engage in homosexuality, and got this, but ah! This person is more painful, because he also got AIDS at the same time, alas! It is estimated that his wife has already been infected, but he still dare not tell. It's really miserable!"

Manager Li shook his head while talking, and repeated: "It's better not to do these things, and live a normal life. If you want to find a woman to marry, quickly find a woman to marry."

Dr. Yang was standing at the desk, holding a signature pen between the index finger and middle finger of his right hand, playing it back and forth, not talking, and I didn't know how to answer the conversation, standing in their position, of course, they were out of kindness , which is understandable.

At this time, a woman in her 30s and 40s came in, and then a man in her [-]s and [-]s came in. They both came to dispense medicine. Dr. Yang and Dr. Deng changed into white hangers, put on gloves, found the medicine from the visitor, and started busy.

I think of a sentence I wrote: Sometimes, indeed, sex is like a poppy, and sometimes, indeed, curiosity killed the cat.Although studies have emphasized that homosexuality is partly related to genes!

But I think it is not ruled out that some patients were just out of curiosity before getting sick, just as Manager Li said, "Because I saw this on the Internet, I am like others who engage in homosexuality." Secular pressure, just like homosexuals marrying heterosexuals, just like gay marriage, just like the successful businessman said with some evasion: "Because I saw this on the Internet, imitate others who engage in homosexuality." If he is a 30 A successful adult over the age of [-], if he is a homosexual, then, "Because I saw this on the Internet, imitate others and engage in homosexuality." This sentence should not come out of his own mouth!

Pressure, distortion, social environment, and the direction of public opinion are often the minority individuals biased towards the majority group.

I remembered that I went to Foshan Hospital of Traditional Chinese Medicine for the second time to prepare for an operation. Zhao Xin went with her. She was outside and I was inside. In the outpatient office of Dr. Deng Xxiong, the doctor was writing a medical certificate. Nipple hyperplasia, talking about rectal genital warts, talking about homosexuality, like facing all the doctors after being sick, it is natural, I said that I am a homosexual.

The doctor looked up: "Are you married?"

"married."

"What about your wife?"

"Just outside the door, oh, we're divorced."

"Divorced?" The doctor was surprised.

"Yes, I'm divorced. The divorce certificate was issued in April. In fact, she knew about my sexual orientation a few years ago." Maybe the speed of my words and expressions in front of him showed a kind of logic that did not conform to the logic of real life. childish pride.

I saw him look up again, as if looking at a monster, with a bit of contempt: "The other homosexuals are hiding themselves well, they are very taboo, why do you seem to be very happy?"

From the disdainful glance that leaked from the corner of his eye, I stopped talking, and I stopped talking, and I was no longer like a mimosa plant that wilts when touched.I'm a gay man, why hide?Why should be abandoned?Why is it like the pantothenic and whitened oil slick in the hog bucket?

Hehe, I’m sorry, but I felt a sense of confrontation again. When I wrote down this title, I knew that I was going all out. What’s more, I used the No.1 name for the emotional record.

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Doctor Yang and the others finished their work, we chatted, and after a while, another person came in, a middle-aged man, I heard that he was a chief doctor (the background of the character is fictitious, so don’t take the exact number), and he worked in a tertiary hospital in the city. Rectal condyloma acuminatum, come here to apply medicine, it can be cured but not self-healed!

The patients came one after another, and our chats were intermittent. I stood up and said, "You guys are busy, I should go."

"Sit down for a while, there is water there, and the paper cup is on top, may I pour you a cup?" Manager Li hurriedly greeted.

"No, I have to go, I have to drive a car, and I have to go to Boluo Shiwan to see my father. He and my brother are working there."

"Oh, come and see us when you have time." They said in unison. "Don't buy anything next time." Dr. Deng took off his mask, quickly added, put on the mask again, and found the person's medicine box.

"Well, okay." I lifted my backpack and prepared to leave, watching the two doctors and the patient enter the compartment.

Not long after, "Ah! Ah! Ah!" There were bursts of hissing in the plywood room, that kind of hissing, like the low buzzing of insects in the haystack in the distance, was forced by some disorderly things like spider webs. repressed.

I stepped out, lightly covered the wooden door, stood outside the door, clasped my palms, and raised them to the center of my eyebrows, softly, trying to say to the patient inside: "Okay, don't cry, be stronger, bear with me, It's okay, it's going to be okay, it's okay!"

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A note on same-sex marriage:

Some people compare marriage to a besieged city, others to a grave, but I hope that marriage is like a fenced yard.There are mountains and rivers in the distance, rivers and mountains nearby, tall buildings and low houses, and courtyards in the community.

Around the yard, there are lush green grasses and vegetables, coquettish and colorful flowers, and golden ears of grain hanging down. The cold wind blows, the dead leaves fall, and the ice and snow are white and crystal clear.

In the yard, there are not too many subjective and objective constraints. He and her, he and him, or she and her, he (she), when alone, can be free, lazy, and exile thoughts; Casual, embracing, letting go of the body.Is the approval of others so important?Is a paper certificate so important?Of course, when they are directly linked to the interests and dignity of one or two people!

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Looking forward to a comradely feeling:

Maybe it's a bustling city, maybe it's a remote countryside. After many years, in a certain corner, he gently patted his shoulder: "Hey, I've been looking for you for a long, long time!"

He raised his neck unhurriedly: "Oh, I've been waiting for you for a long, long time!"

It doesn't matter if the fingers are intertwined, it doesn't matter if the eyes are connected, the indelible tenderness is like a sentence, it seems to come from a poem, it seems to come from the title of a book, I like it very much.

As you walk, the flowers bloom!

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