Stubborn illness

"Hey, are you coming back for dinner tonight?" It was my mother's call.

"Well, maybe I won't be able to make it back in time, you guys eat, I'll go back after eating."

"Oh, then I won't wait for you." Within half a second, the call was hung up, and there was obvious resentment in my mother's words. She blamed me for being too indifferent to Zhao Xin, and she blamed me for not following others. MLM (direct marketing), she complains that I don't listen to her more and more now, that kind of resentment can be heard and seen at a glance from the words and expressions.

Actually, I could rush back to eat dinner that day, but I didn’t. After all, I took the opportunity to study and relax. I wanted to indulge. I wanted to find a park and find a fellow.

As night fell, I got off at XXX and walked. In front of me was XX Park. The park was not big, but there were many people resting and playing here, most of them were elderly people, children, and some middle-aged women.

I carried the canvas luggage bag and walked directly to the toilet. The ground inside was wet and the pit was filthy. I stood on tiptoe, cautiously, and stood by a urinal, far away, elevated, and let it spill far away .

In such an environment, I think no one would want to come in, if it wasn't really urgent.

I sat on the strip stone slab beside the fence of the park, watching the old people playing chess on the slate table, watching the children playing in the dry concrete low-lying area, beside me, a middle-aged woman was knitting a sweater wholeheartedly , I glanced in the direction of the toilet from time to time to see if there was any unusual movement.

He was pushing a broken permanent brand bicycle, looking around in front of the toilet door, maybe he saw me, and his eyes met. The intuition and sensitivity from comrades made him stand upright for a moment, pushing the bicycle, and walking towards me Come on, stop, kick, bang, put the car aside, on the bench, next to me, sit down.

"Come on, let's go play." His directness made me very ashamed.

"playing what?"

"That, that...," he was speechless, his eyes bewildered.

"How to play?" Of course I understood, but I pretended to be ignorant.

"I'll blow it out for you." He moved a little closer to me and whispered.

"..." Without words, still extremely ashamed.

"Where? Here? So dirty."

"No, I know a place not far from here. There is a forest, soft green grass, and when night falls, people often have sex there. I often go there to watch other people have sex." Speaking of this place, he seemed excited Even the two black eyeballs are glowing.

However, at this moment, I personally feel that the corners of his mouth are distorted, the corners of his eyes are distorted, his description is distorted, and his psychology may be distorted, because at the same time, I smell , There was a strong smell of alcohol in his breath, the smell of shochu, it was just pointless to interrupt him.

"Oh, is it? Exciting?" I still pretended to listen with gusto, at least it wouldn't disappoint him.

"Yes, yes, let's go, let's go."

"Now? It's not completely dark yet." I shrugged.

"It's okay, soon, it will be dark soon, let's go, take my bicycle, I will drive you."

"What do you do?" I wanted to make sure that he was mentally healthy.

"Transfer."

"Oh. Help others unload? Which factory?"

"I didn't enter the factory."

"That……."

"I'm waiting for a call, someone who needs to load or unload cargo will call me."

"Mobile moving?" I suddenly became a little interested in him, because the porters in the company are really difficult to handle recently. "Can you find someone? Suppose I have a truckload of cargo, and it takes five or six people to unload it."

"What goods?"

"Bulk DDGS, container, forty foot container."

"This one, yes, I haven't unloaded it."

"Well, if I need to, I'll call you, what's your phone number?"

"Let's go, go there." He told me his phone number, and immediately changed the subject, urging.

"Let's go." I stood up, as if I had used a lot of strength and made a big decision.

He pushed the old Forever bicycle in front, and I followed behind, walked out of the park, and crossed the bustling road, jingling, jingling, "Come on, come on."

I supported his body, jumped up, sat on it, looked at the busy traffic around me, watched the lights in the distance ahead, jingling, jingling, but also felt a little bit comfortable, I hugged him The waist is iron-like and strong.

On the upward road, he pedaled vigorously, and I leaned my body forward slightly, close to his back, to reduce his strength, "Hurry up, hurry up, just ahead, we'll be there soon." He There is a cheerful smile in his words.

After a T-junction, he introduced me. "I live here, and there are many of my fellow villagers."

"Oh, do they also carry it?"

"Not all of them. Some collect waste products, some do transportation, and some do small businesses."

"Oh." I turned my head to look, and there was a narrow old alley and a row of low gray-tiled old houses. This is a village in the city.

"Is it still far away?"

"No, it's here, it's here." He kicked hard a few times and stopped at the edge of a small forest.

When you stop, there will always be worry, curiosity, fear, and excitement.The sky has completely darkened, and the horns of cars on the road in the distance sounded, and a torch-like light flashed across, cutting the night like a large curtain.

"Come here, sit down."

He chose a place, in the middle of the woods, spread a woven bag on the ground, and motioned for me to sit down. I looked at his face, his whole body, sat over, lay on his back, and spread his arms. "What's your name?"

"My surname is Xu."

"Is the wife here?"

"I'm not married."

"Oh, you..., have you always liked men? Don't you like women?"

"Yes."

"How old are you this year?"

"43."

"Aren't you going to get married?"

"Still married? I'm old, I have no money, and no one wants me anymore." He sat down next to me, with his right leg crossed over his left, his hands in front of his crotch, fingers interlocked, tightly held, stiff.Open it slowly, put it on my chest, lower abdomen, navel, crotch, tentatively.