A glance at the city-Star essay

He rushed to the place the person said without stopping, closed the door and got off the car. Looking at the slender figure of the person in front of him, Gu Qing suddenly had the feeling that time had cut the distance between the two of them. Recalling the past, several years have mottled the vertical and horizontal shadows, but they can't erase the memories of the past. The two have always stood at the closest place to each other.

Stepping forward step by step, the man tidied himself up very cleanly, but his pale face was full of gloom that could not be erased, but the moment he saw Gu Qing, his brows and eyes curved down softly, as soft as water.

As Gu Qing expected, only herself was in her eyes...

Gu Qing didn't know what to say, they have always been dominated by Qin Qin, even if they didn't say anything, they never felt embarrassed, but this time Qin Qin didn't speak, he approached Gu Qing, and dropped his hand More than half of the cigarette butts in the room, the cigarette butts are wiped out in the bitter wind, bringing all the past back and forth in front of the eyes, like a revolving lantern, immersed in the bones for a second, and a glance is a lifetime.

He saw the concern and eagerness in Gu Qing's eyes the moment he got off the car and sank the moment he met his gaze. He couldn't see what was in those dark pupils, but he felt tacitly that there seemed to be a monstrous emotional cohesion A storm that filled the sky lingered around the two of them, it was a kind of oppressive, heavy and uncontrollable despair, and suddenly speaking out would destroy the world and destroy the earth.

He wanted to tell him frankly that he loved and wanted to break this person's wings, and that he would be the only one in the future world, but in his mind, he recalled that hateful look at the end of autumn that year, which made him feel pain. Heartbroken, at a loss.

Love cannot be loved, and forgetting cannot be forgotten. If love is a double-faced word, has he missed the beauty of the beginning of the midsummer and drank the bitter cup alone?

Qin Qin pulled out a smile, looked at the man in front of him and said with a smile:

"Come here?"

Gu Qing stepped forward and grabbed Qin Qin's arm a little excitedly. He had countless things to say, but when he reached his mouth, he said faintly, "Yes."

The distance between the two of them was extremely close, Qin Qin could kiss Gu Qing's lips just by lowering his head slightly, he tilted his head slightly and turned at an angle, the bridge of their noses was almost a centimeter apart, even breathing seemed to be from the Passing each other's mouths, the ambiguity burns like sparks, flowing between the two.

Qin Qin took a step back at this time, Gu Qing had let go of his hand at some point, he clearly heard Gu Qing's sigh of relief when he withdrew, then Qin Qin turned and walked into the room, Gu Qing Qing looked down and saw that his trembling hands followed suit.

Gu Qing is more familiar with this house than his own, so he didn't make a sound when he watched Qin Qinyue go directly to the cubicle on the second floor. There was no light in the cubicle, and Gu Qing had slight night blindness. Qin Qin's footsteps falling on the steps, even though he couldn't see clearly, he still groped for the handrail and walked up. I don't know if it was because he didn't sleep well recently or because he was afraid that his footsteps would be vain. He accidentally stepped on a step and Gu Qing body If it is crooked, it will fall down.

Unexpectedly and within reason, someone grabbed him. Qin Qin grabbed his waist with one hand and grabbed his arm with the other. The distance was getting closer. Gu Qing even heard the sound of a rapid heartbeat. He was not sure whose it was. .He raised his hand and grabbed Qin Qin's arm to stand still. He felt that Qin Qin also adjusted his steps. He seemed to hear a sigh in a trance, and then...

Click! ! !

a faint but bright fire,

Warm, small, but dispelling the darkness of the room, Qin Qin stretched out his hand to pull Gu Qing with the lighter in his hand, his face under the firelight was unreally gorgeous:

"I've been thinking maybe it will come in handy the next time you're scared."

Gu Qing was confused for a moment, so he understood Qin Qin's meaning only after seeing the faint fire light. He didn't know how to continue, so there was only silence. Qin Qin stood on the steps above, his expression gradually dimmed, and he turned around. At the same time, he grabbed Gu Qing's wrist, Gu Qing looked up for a moment, Qin Qin just moved the lighter to the side to let Gu Qing see it better, and said lightly: "The ground is a bit messy, don't step on it. .”

"kindness."

When the door with a height of more than one meter was opened, a strong wind rushed in instantly, and the fire of the lighter was also extinguished in an instant. After disappearing without a trace, Qin Qin walked out first, Gu Qing looked back, it was only a few steps, how could it feel so long?

There is a vast rooftop outside, and a blue sea can be seen from a distance, Qin Qin turned to him and asked, "Gu Qing, do you still remember the first time you came here?"

"Remember, it was your birthday." Gu Qing nodded. It was not long after the second album was released. Qin Qin told him that day was his birthday, so he took an exclusive interview and came here with Qin Qin. Zuo mysteriously brought him to the rooftop, where a few candles stuck in a small cake were chased out by the wind, and beside him was a swarthy dog ​​of unknown breed running back and forth cheerfully, and then it was the one that looked like it was stuck. Gu Qing ran to the hospital to get a rabies vaccine for the dog that could not work. After seeing the dog, he became very flustered. Now that he thinks about it, he finds it ridiculous.

I remember that when I was bitten by a dog, I was so shocked that I couldn’t believe it, I even forgot to shake it off, it was Qin Qin who got the wine from downstairs and kicked the dog away in a panic when he saw it, and went to the hospital at that time On the way, Qin Qin seemed to say in his ear:

If you are crazy or stupid, I will support you forever!

At that time, I only thought he was joking and gave him a punch, but now that I think of that person's eyes at that time, they were so serious. Gu Qing looked at Qin Qin, and the person seemed to have thought of this and looked back, his eyes were overwhelming Gu Qing watched affectionately, almost out of breath, the smile on his face faded, when Gu Qing wanted to speak, Qin Qin turned his head again.

The sound of sea water beating against the rocks could be heard from a distance, wave after wave, hair was blown wildly by the wind and hit the face, Gu Qing's clothes were violently lifted and fell down heavily, the man turned his back to him, The background is the interface connecting the sea and the sky, Gu Qing can't see the expression of that person, but can feel that the person's emotions are undergoing earth-shaking changes.

Qin Qin finally turned his head after a long while, the khaki windbreaker was blown by the wind on the roof and made a noise, like a blue bird soaring and dancing, and then he opened his mouth and said:

"Gu Qing, I'm leaving!"

Gu Qing was taken aback, but he was not surprised. He had expected that Qin Qin would come to him to say goodbye: "Where are you going?"

The person on the opposite side seemed to be thinking about whether he should say it. The Ling Lie wind blew his hair on his forehead, his beautiful eyes became sharper, and his feminine face smiled like a devil:

"New Zealand, I heard that women in New Zealand are very open, haha... you will forget me too, Bairan is a very good woman, in fact, I have nothing with her, she likes you, you will definitely, definitely will be very happy."

Gu Qing stared at Qin Qin's face in disbelief, Qin Xiaoran, do you know what expression you have now?

The haggard face under the sun was pale and almost transparent, the despair and pain in his eyes pulled his smile to pieces, Gu Qing had no doubt that he would collapse in the next second, Gu Qing began to feel an inexplicable sadness , a piece of his heart seemed to be peeling off quietly, slowly he finally felt the pain,

Quiet, violent, gentle, brutal...

The pain could penetrate all internal organs, and even his breathing was covered with a sticky smell of blood. He wanted to say something, but his throat was terribly dry, and he couldn't make a sound after being hoarse for a long time, so he was as silent as he was many years ago. Quietly looking at the man in front of him, those indifferent and clear eyes are full of trust and softness, which is Qin Qin's heaven and hell.

Qin Qin's smiling mask, which was already riddled with holes and vulnerable to any blow, collapsed into pieces in Gu Qing's eyes.

He stepped forward, the lingering wind was stirring in the windbreaker, and the corners of the coat were flying upwards. When standing beside him, Gu Qing could even hear the fierce heartbeat. All the suppressed emotions burst out at this moment, and the hissing Screaming little beasts surrounded the mountains and plains with despair filled with blood mist, Qin Qin raised his hand along his cheeks to caress Gu Qing's cold outline by the sea breeze, and then slowly and carefully touched Gu Qing's already messy face blown by the wind. hair.

In the next second, he hugged the person in front of him in an imprisoned position, with such strength that Gu Qing even felt his bones were being squeezed and creaked. The breaths of the two were entangled, conveying a strong feeling of being at a loss. With unspeakable emotions, Gu Qing felt the trembling of Qin Qin's body. He lowered Gu Qing's head and buried it deeply in the socket of his shoulder, even his breathing was cold:

"Gu Qing, you can't forget me...you absolutely can't forget me...please...don't forget me..."

Gu Qing closed her eyes, and murmured impossibly: "How could I."

The eyes became warm and some liquid kept pouring up, which was suppressed by him. Gu Qing raised his arms and hugged the fragile man back, comforting but painful.

The wind from the roof surrounded the two of them, blowing their messy hair on each other's faces, and the warm sun in early summer couldn't melt the icy cold and despair. They hugged almost greedily, and Gu Qing even heard each other's love in their ears. He moaned in uncontrollable pain.

After a while, Qin Qin let go of his hand, and lowered his head to patrol Gu Qing's face. He leaned forward as if wanting to kiss him. The other's breath was close to the corner of his lips, and that area caused palpitations due to numbness. Gu Qing even He smelled the faint smell of tobacco touching the tip of his lips, but Qin Qin slowly moved away. He let go of the hand clasped around Gu Qing's waist and brushed away his messy hair, revealing a smooth forehead and light outline, slightly Lowering his head, he pressed a kiss on the forehead almost piously.

Gu Qing suddenly felt an overwhelming sadness, just like that year when the autumn wind blew up, the swings dangling under the trees, the dilapidated old wicker chairs in the yard, and the eyes of the old man who didn't open.

He clearly understood that he was going to lose this person.

"Gu Qing, goodbye."

When he opened his eyes, he saw the khaki-colored fabric passing by, but Qin Qin had already let go and turned to leave.

If he didn't get it, why would he ruin that person's life? Like the boy in Gu Qing's MV, he didn't dare to touch the woman under the umbrella in the end, not because he was timid, but because he couldn't bear to be hurt.

He had thought about destroying Gu Qing countless times, but in the end he still chose to destroy himself.

The wind on the sea is always stronger than other places, the wind is salty, Gu Qing looked at the direction where Qin Qin left, tightly clenched his fists and lowered his head, the boundless sea surged like bats coming out of a nest With the turbulent tidal roar, the emotion in Gu Qing's eyes was about to be exposed.

He looked at Qin Qin's disappearing back, came over for a long time, and said in a low voice:

"give me some time."

Firmness that cannot be ignored.