A glance at the city-Star essay

When Qin Qin woke up the next day, he saw a lot of missed calls on his mobile phone. He just wanted to call there when he called again. Wei He asked him:

"Have you read the script of Anderson's new play?"

Qin Qin rubbed his sore head, his voice was a little hoarse:

"No, it's finished?"

"Then do you know what subject you are picking up this time?"

Qin Qin smiled suddenly, a little surprised:

"You just know?"

Wei He was silent for two seconds before speaking:

"You know that since Tang Li's incident, the industry has been extremely sensitive to this aspect. You just took this kind of film when you came back? I don't doubt Anderson's talent, but you know that homosexuality is unexpected to you. What are you wearing?"

Qin Qin clamped the phone on his shoulder, stretched out his hand to squeeze the toothpaste, with a casual look:

"I know, I think it's good, the opportunity is rare, isn't it?"

Seeing that he had made up his mind, Wei He stopped persuading him, but asked him to check his mailbox later, and the script had been sent.

After washing up, Qin Qin cooked a bowl of dumplings for himself, and then slowly turned on the computer and opened the script. The title of the play is "Nong Ben Passionate".

The first sentence is:

Cong Xia, I never thought that one day I would miss you so much.

This grief seems to be born with me, and I know it can never stop.

Qin Qin raised his eyebrows and continued to read.

The hero An Lusheng in the story is a dissolute and sentimental character. When he treats people well, he can't wait to praise them to the sky, and when he turns around and leaves, he is even more chic and neat.

He doesn't believe in love, nor does he believe in the word long and long, so he always lingers around beauties of all colors and styles, and leaves before he gets tired.

The other male protagonist, Cong Xia, is a sad person. Both of his parents died when he was a child, and he was sent to and fro by his relatives, but he arrogantly turned everyone's sympathy into disgust. On a rainy day, An Lusheng saw his inferiority complex hidden under his haughty appearance.

The two got acquainted in this way, and no one could refuse An Lusheng's gentleness. His careless care slowly permeated Cong Xia's life, until Cong Xia couldn't avoid it, and began to communicate.

Cong Xia seemed to have given An Lusheng all the stingy feelings of his life. The gloom in the corners of his eyes gradually faded, and the darkness between his brows gradually brightened. Letting himself accept that loneliness, he regards An Lusheng as his life.

At the beginning, An Lusheng was satisfied with this change. He enjoyed the feeling of being trusted and attached to others, but he was never a long-term lover, and finally he got tired of it.

He turned his attention to another strange figure again. When he was about to break up, Cong Xia injured his leg because of a car accident while delivering him an umbrella.

An Lusheng chewed the words several times but swallowed them down. He began to take care of this thin and thin child, and in this short period of time he felt sickly happy, as if he had returned to the day and night before his mother left to take care of her in the ward. During those years, the relationship between the two became harmonious and intimate again.

An Lusheng and Cong Xia have been together for four years. They have been warm countless times. They tied each other's ties in the morning when the sky was full of snow. They quarreled countless times. At dawn, An Lusheng was extravagant and lustful in the feasting and feasting entertainment place, but even so they never separated.

An Lusheng felt that Cong Xia was like a devil weaving a net, imprisoning him in the abyss of pain. He wanted to leave him countless times, but he had no choice but to choose to come back. An Lusheng said that he did not love him.

After the sixth year, Cong Xia left. He dragged his suitcase and stood outside the door looking at An Lusheng, who was kissing a strange woman in the elevator, with a calm expression.

It was only then that An Lusheng realized that his gloom had returned at some point, which did not match the vicissitudes and burnout of his age. An Lusheng felt relieved at that moment, but immediately followed by a feeling of bewilderment and unconsciousness. In pain, Cong Xia stepped forward and kissed the corner of his cold lips, and then said:

"Goodbye, Ah Sheng, I can't always lie to myself."

Cong Xia walked out of An Lusheng's world. Qin Qin felt that the script was over for a moment, but continued to read after seeing that there were still half of the pages left.

An Lusheng didn't feel that there was anything wrong at first, he just lost a person in his unfamiliar family, but gradually he finally felt lonely.

Loneliness is pervasive, drunken nights, unfamiliar streets, the sunset in the wheat field and the heavy rain in early summer. Standing in front of the crossroad one day and seeing that familiar face passing by with a distance of a shoulder, he suddenly felt My heart ached, and I went from silent to hysterical in the crowded streets.

It turns out that some pain can't subside silently with the passage of time, it will hide in the dark corner, and give you a fatal blow when you are most defenseless.

But those beautiful pictures of the past are now like an executioner cruelly scraping bones and flesh. The last second before coma was when the sun was shining that year. Cong Xia broke his self-esteem and pride, and dragged his tired body step by step. Go home, he loved him so much...

When he woke up again, it was a white and flawless hospital, closer to the time of his death, surrounded by the smell of disinfectant, he nestled on the window sill and watched a few children in hospital gowns playing happily in the distance, they were like The threat of death is not yet understood by the younger self.

His father left his mother for this reason, his mother left him for this reason, and he pushed away his love for this reason.

Cong Xia, I miss you.

If the only reason for me to forgive this ill-fated life is to meet you.

After Qin Qin read the whole script, he saw that the dumplings in the bowl were already cold, and he didn't care about them. He lay back on the sofa, his eyes fell on the clean ceiling, and he reached out for a cigarette. I rarely smoke, and every time I smoke, it seems that it is not a good thing, maybe because this is a sad story, Qin Qin thought, this is really a sad story.

After a busy schedule, the filming of the new movie finally started. At the opening ceremony, the reporter asked why Qin Qin and a newcomer were selected in China. Anderson said two simple and direct words:

"Suitable for."

Because he has always had this attitude, and this young director has received numerous awards, the reporter did not dare to dwell on this issue, so he asked Weihui if he would be nervous working with an international director for the first time, and asked Qin Qin just took over this movie after winning the Golden Actor Award. Did he want to use this movie to develop internationally? Finally, he asked why Qin Qin decided to act in this movie, and was he not afraid of some bad influence?

It means that Qin Qin is not afraid of being biased by this drama, Qin Qin just said "No, a drama will not disturb my sexual orientation".

After the vigorous opening press conference, I had to rush to the crew the next day. When I got off the plane and passed the safe passage, I happened to meet Gu Qing. The two of them couldn't avoid it. Qin Qin greeted her generously. Also nodded slightly to him, the two were separated by bodyguards, Gu Qing's assistant was staring at him with a defensive face, Qin Qin was a little funny, fell silent for a while and then smiled at Gu Qing:

"I'm leaving first, Gu Qing, goodbye."

"Well, bye."

After settling the place to live, the filming will start tomorrow. After taking a shower, Qin Qin turned on the TV and dug out the script to take a look.

It was a variety show on TV, the host exclaimed exaggeratedly when the guests appeared, and the narration also played a series of surprises and bloody soundtracks. It was a young man dressed in fashion, with slightly long bangs covering his eyes, and a handsome face.

This is the champion of a popular imitation entertainment program this year. He is famous for imitating Gu Qinghou, and he has also accepted several endorsements. He seems to be a college student. According to the host's introduction, his name is Chu Nan.

The boy on the screen lowered his head slightly, his expression was indifferent, but his words were clear:

"Hi everyone, I'm Chu Nan."

This person is really too similar to Gu Qing back then, the tone of his speech, the movements of raising his hands and feet, and even his slightly youthful temperament. Qin Qin unconsciously shifted his gaze to the LCD screen, dying. Staring at the familiar face.

After the man finished speaking, he raised his head. It was like a slow motion in a movie. It was obviously a one-second movement, and it was divided into thousands of details in your mind.

Qin Qin unconsciously held his breath, and as the man gradually raised his eyelids, his emotions became tense for some reason, he longed to see those eyes, let him destroy unrealistic illusions, and was afraid of seeing those eyes, Let him quench his unattainable desire.

Two emotions raged in his mind, Qin Qin's whole body seemed to be split in two, his subconscious mind wanted him to escape as soon as possible, the sound was like the collapse of thousands of miles of mountains, rumbling mixed with huge rocks and snow, every part of his body A raging, overwhelming, deafening.

But Qin Qin couldn't move, he didn't make any movements, he looked straight ahead, his thoughts were spinning ten thousand points, and he paused for a second in front of the camera.

The young man on the screen had clear eyebrows and a light outline. He had a natural smile and the moment he lowered his head to speak, he seemed to be pouting and coquettish. This person was very much like Gu Qing. It was obvious that he would win the championship.

Even if he just stands there, he doesn't even need any way of interpretation to be recognized by most people. This person's facial features are as carved out of the same mold as Gu Qing from many years ago, and it has been verified that he has not undergone any plastic surgery If it wasn't for the fact that Gu Qing's parents had passed away long ago, it would be another piece of news that would explode the entertainment industry.

Qin Qin smiled slightly and fell back behind him. His laughter grew louder and louder. The joyful voice filled the room, as if something ridiculous happened. The bright light, the deep purple curtains swaying slightly, the boy in front of the camera has indifferent eyes, he replied to the host’s question in a calm and polite manner, Qin Qin smiled so much that his body was trembling, that was Gu Qing’s usual expression back then .

But ah...

But those eyes are not Gu Qing's. Even the plain eyes of this young man hide sternness and ambition. His eyes are full of small thoughts and deliberate indifference. Gu Qing, the one in Qin Qin's memory Gu Qing was never like this.

His eyes are indifferent, clear, and also clear and meaningless. They are the understanding and persistence after thousands of expressions, and the suddenness that never hurts thousands of people. It is his heaven and hell. Xiang Qinqin raised his hand and put the back of his hand on his forehead, and slowly stopped the lunatic laughter, he finally found that he still couldn't forget Gu Qing.

He could hardly hold back the pain, and the [-] bones under the skin were broken every inch.

Ah, Gu Qing

I used to think that leaving you was the most painful thing, but it turned out that it was the most painful thing if you didn't love me.

This makes me no longer have the only reason to comfort myself in the desperate and silent night, but who else can I fall in love with except you?

Qin Qin realized desperately and soberly that, apart from Gu Qing, he could no longer love someone so much, and this love would never stop and never be fulfilled.