A glance at the city-Star essay

Yuan Jie had something to do, so he left first, and asked Gu Qing to contact him. Gu Qing tidied up the room, but there was nothing to clean up. He thought about it and thought it was boring, so he planned to go out after saying hello to the assistant. walk around.

It was only when I went downstairs that I saw the bustling market. Gu Qing didn't take a few steps before he saw the models taking photos on the street. The camera moved forward and backward, and the girl with a graceful figure changed her posture incessantly following a series of words that Gu Qing couldn't understand.

This is unprecedented ease, here you are the star of all eyes, you don't need to pay attention to whether your every move is caught in the camera hidden on the street corner, Gu Qing took off the mask and stuffed it into his pocket as he walked, It was no longer raining in the dark sky, and the ground was still a little wet in the evening. The gray and hazy sky under the Tudor-style buildings was not depressing, as if it had been covered with a thin layer of sand. Gu Qing's eyebrows and eyes unconsciously Softened, the whole person is relaxed and peaceful.

This may be the eye-catching effect of being in front of the spotlight all the year round. As an artist, you must improve your presence. Even in a large crowd, you must learn how to steal the spotlight. It is in their own temperament, just like killers, they will try their best to hide their sense of existence, and artists need to try their best to show their sense of presence. For Gu Qing, this is something that goes deep into the bone marrow, and it is already an instinct .

Even though it was an ordinary gray T-shirt and cropped trousers, this oriental man soon attracted the attention of passers-by. His expression was so relaxed, as if everything in front of him was the best. Westerners who have been there have long been accustomed to everything in front of them, so when they see someone admiring this place with such a happy expression, they still stop their eyes for a while.

"Gu Qing?"

Some uncertain voices came from behind, Gu Qing turned his head suspiciously, the voice was too unfamiliar, he didn't think he would meet someone who knew him here, it was a man in a wheelchair, a little thin His body was still wearing long-sleeved trousers even on such a hot day in July. His face was slightly surprised. After seeing Gu Qing's turned face, the man confirmed his guess with a gentle smile:

"Why, you don't know me anymore?"

Gu Qing frowned slightly thinking about the familiar face of this person, his memory of people was indeed not very good, suddenly a flamboyant face flashed in his mind, Gu Qing looked at the warm face in front of him with some dumbfounded Man, not so sure:

"Tang Li?"

"You finally remembered, hehe, long time no see, you look changed a lot?"

He was referring to Gu Qing's breakthrough from the previous style this time, and Gu Qing also wanted to say that you look more changed, but he still couldn't believe it, the charming and flamboyant person in his memory couldn't be combined with the gentle and quiet man in front of him .

Gu Qing never thought that he would be able to see this person again. Not long after that incident, he suddenly disappeared. At that time, the hospital did not make any statement about his condition. Gu Qing did not have a deep relationship with this person. Friendship, most of them are just a few casual greetings at the backstage of award ceremonies or some activities. The only private communication was with Qin Qin. Bring up the topic:

"Gu Qing, why are you here, what performance is there?"

Gu Qing shook his head thoughtfully, he saw the ring on the man's hand, there was no extra embellishment, just a simple circle:

"No, it's a good time to take a rest these two days for shooting a set of commercials."

Tang Li pointed to the front: "I've opened a small restaurant in front, do you want to support it? It's really glorious to have Gu Qing come to our small restaurant."

"Well, well, do you want to help?"

"No, this is intelligent, otherwise a person can't move."

Tang Li smiled and refused Gu Qing's offer to help push the wheelchair, and then showed Gu Qing the various advantages of the smart wheelchair. Gu Qing no longer insisted, and slowly followed the man forward. road:

"you are married?"

The person in the wheelchair turned his head and smiled at Gu Qing, then raised the hand with the ring and shook it:

"You said this, yes, the year before last, Canada allowed same-sex marriage."

Gu Qing looked back at him with some surprise. He remembered the cruelty and despair in his eyes when he saw this man that year, but now he was filled with happiness and satisfaction from head to toe, presumably his wish was fulfilled.The two chatted while walking until Tang Li said something, and then Gu Qing saw a dessert shop opposite. At this time, a man came out of the door. The crowd was bustling, and there were vehicles passing by between the roads, but the man did not hesitate at all. Just saw Gu Qing's side, or Tang Li next to Gu Qing, so determined, even if there are thousands of passers-by, only you are shining in his eyes.

It is a clean and elegant shop with unique decoration. Tang Li helped Gu Qing order some special features of the shop. The two of them chatted one after another. The man from before helped them arrange the seats and told Gu Qing that A few words and then busy.

Gu Qing is not a talkative person, and the socializing these years has only taught him to avoid the unspeakable embarrassment, but now he is facing someone who he hasn't seen for many years and is not familiar with him, unexpectedly, he does not feel embarrassed and boring , In the just right silence, there is a relaxed and comfortable feeling, like an old friend for many years.

Tang Li looked at the person opposite him calmly. He was indeed not very familiar with Gu Qing before. He only remembered the cold and youthful figure at some awards ceremonies. At that time, Gu Qing didn't like to talk very much. Sometimes when others greeted him with a few words, Tang Li could see the alienation and incompatibility on his face from a distance. At that time, he thought this child was autistic.

Only once, it was a relatively important annual awards ceremony, and he saw a different side of Gu Qing.

At that time, he and Qin Qin were sitting in a row, and both of them won several nominations that year. At that time, Qin Qin didn't know what to say in Gu Qing's ear. He was slightly surprised when he saw Gu Qing whose eyes were always indifferent. She turned her head strangely, met Qin Qinrou's eyebrows and eyes, and suddenly smiled softly, even those indifferent and clear eyes were stained with a smile like a shocking cloud.

Later, during the period after he jumped off the building, he almost collapsed. He never thought that someone would come to see him. The afternoon sun was shining brightly all over his field of vision. Qin Qin said to himself He was talking, while Gu Qing was sitting on the side. He didn't speak, and he didn't show any expression, but his eyes were heavy with sadness, flickering when he looked at him unconsciously.

Before Gu Qing and the others left, he saw the intimacy and trust in the two people's every move, and suddenly felt a feeling of intolerance.

He stopped Qin Qin and said to him, "Be careful."

Then the handsome and feminine man froze for a moment, with a heavy bitterness on the corner of his mouth.

After that, it took him two years to heal his injury. He was glad that his determination to break the boat was in exchange for the sincerity of that person's lifelong stalemate. Is it worth it or not?

After thinking about it, I asked:

"How are you and Qin Qin?"

After speaking, he obviously felt that the face of the person on the opposite side darkened instantly, Tang Li understood, it must be a split!

That's right, it's hard for ordinary people to stay together until they grow old, let alone people like them, and the temptation of the entertainment industry is so great, who can stay the same for years?

Looking at Gu Qing's appearance, he didn't seem to let go of it. Thinking of this, he suddenly said a few more words, which can be regarded as the kindness of the hospital's visit back then:

"You don't have to think too much. The most unbearable thing in this world is time. When many people treat you well, they are really good. The moment they say it is true, it's just that many people can't stand it. The pursuit of fleeting years fades away, after all, life has to go on."

Gu Qing didn't understand what this meant for a while, and it took a while to understand and frowned:

"You think too much, we are not that kind of relationship."

"Puff... cough cough cough... cough cough..." Tang Li spit out a sip of water, coughed for a long time before he dared to answer: "What? You are not..." How is it possible?They are not a couple, so what was Qin Qin's concern back then?

He was obviously so scared at the time, otherwise he wouldn't have asked himself if he was afraid?Rather than asking Tang Li, he was asking himself, but now Gu Qing actually told himself that they are not a couple.

Seeing Gu Qing's clear and indifferent expression, Tang Li finally understood why he smiled so bitterly when he told Qin Qin to be careful.

No matter how much pain, no matter how much sacrifice, no matter how much love, if you don't love, what can you do?

Just don't love, everything is pale...

What he is afraid of is not only the harm of public opinion, but also the fact that no one will bear it with him.

Thinking about it like this, he didn't know what to say. If he followed his past temperament, he would definitely think that Qin Qintai was useless. After all these years, he still hasn't taken him down. He doesn't even know what he wants. It's a shame. He must be In the past, they ran and kicked a few times.

But after these years of peaceful life, his sharp edges and corners are slowly smoothed by the gentleness of a man for ten years, so he understands.

There are many things in this world that you don’t have to give others what you want. Many times you will never get what you want in your life, and feelings are the most unfair things in this world. What you care about is always dismissive of you. If you don’t take it I'm looking straight at you, but I'm still infatuated with you.

He couldn't say that Gu Qing was indifferent, because he never knew about it.

Then why did they make such a fuss?

"Then what are you doing now..."

Gu Qing didn't care about his abruptness. He had never discussed Qin Qin in front of others. In recent years, few people without eyesight would focus on this topic. Even Susu rarely mentioned it. When Li asked suddenly, he didn't know how to answer.

There are many things he doesn't understand, such as does Qin Qin like Chen Ke?For example, why didn't Qin Qin tell himself?And why isn't Qin Qin with Chen Ke?

He once resolutely left him, and there was no intersection for three years, why did he suddenly appear now?

"Is love important?"

Tang Li, who was wondering if he was talking too much nonsense, heard Gu Qing say this, his face was even a little dazed under the bright light, Tang Li nodded solemnly:

"Important, very important, it can make people reborn, and it can also make people beyond redemption."

"Better than anything?"

"I don't know." Tang Li shook his head: "Maybe, but I think maybe it's not love. For some people, the person you love is better than everything in this world. Gu Qing, have you ever loved someone?"

Gu Qing shook his head, then nodded again: "Before."

"How did it feel then?"

What does it feel like?

Gu Qing recalled that face that was already somewhat blurred in memory, what does love feel like?

He remembered that he didn't have any extra communication and contact with Chen Ke at that time, but every time he saw her, he could make himself feel happy, and sometimes his heart would beat wildly. There are many people coming and going, they adore her, Gu Qing sometimes worries whether Chen Ke will fall in love with one of them one day.

Any of his feelings are unique, so he understands that if he gives everything to one person, there will be no others, so he never talks about love when he is uncertain, even if he understands, it is possible that in the end, he is ready Everything is fine, but Chen Ke doesn't care about her long struggle, but love is a personal matter, no one has to give the same emotional return just because you love.

But most of the time he is confident. He always thinks that the years are long and the twists and turns in the middle are not important. He will create the safest wall to protect this relationship, and finally become the person who is by Chen Ke's side.Tang Li felt a little unbelievable after hearing this. Gu Qing's love was for a lifetime from the beginning. He was so confident that one person would be a lifetime. He was resolutely moved by his loyalty, but it was even more ridiculous. He thought for a while and said:

"Have you heard of that joke recently?" Gu Qing raised his eyebrows, Tang Li smiled and continued, "It's about girls studying abroad, and boys sending countless text messages and phone calls every day, sending flowers and gifts to girls regularly, and guarding themselves like jade. Don’t be ambiguous with others, but the girl finally chose the courier to send flowers, the reason is that the girl said that when she walked out of school in the winter, the boy who waited for her to go home at the gate was not the boy who texted and called every day, but the courier..."

Tang Li said casually: "A lot of times, love is not deliberate. It doesn't mean that someone has to follow your plan after you plan it. You are good enough. You are perfect enough in everything from loyalty, status, and relationship, but In the long time, the one who accompanied her to cry, laugh and be happy was not you, sometimes what people want is not the distant future, but every day together."

After Tang Li finished speaking, he drank the drink in the glass in one breath, and came to a conclusion:

"Gu Qing, you love her, but compared to her, you love yourself the most."

Gu Qing did not refute, but silently propped his chin and turned his head to look outside the door. His face was a little gloomy, and it took him a long time to say calmly:

"You're right, she likes Qin Xiaoran."

"..." Tang Li was a little speechless, wasn't he?So bloody? "Then what? It's impossible for Qin Qin to like Chen Ke."

People come and go outside the glass door, under the huge gray sky is like a dark and indifferent painting, Gu Qing raised his eyebrows slightly and looked at Tang Li, half of his face was hidden in the gray darkness, half of his face was displayed in the bright room. Under the light, it was like his struggle and contradiction at the moment.

"I don't know, she's gone." He didn't understand, if Qin Qin liked Chen Ke, why would Chen Ke leave, and if he didn't, why would he lie to himself behind his back.

Tang Li understood after thinking about it, but he never thought that Qin Qin would use such a stupid method.

Some people choose to let go not because they don't love enough, but because they don't want to.

I can't bear to lose, and I can't bear to hurt.

He thought about Qin Qin's bitter smile, thought for a while, forget it, let me help you, thinking of this Tang Li suddenly said:

"Why don't you ask, maybe the truth is different from what you imagined."

Gu Qing didn't speak, he asked, but Qin Qin didn't respond, Tang Li continued his efforts:

"A lot of times lies because of deception, sometimes because of protection, since you still haven't let go, why don't you just ask, no matter what the truth is, at least it will make you feel at ease, won't it?"

The atmosphere was a bit dull. At this time, the man who had been busy in the kitchen came over. He was a very outstanding man. Even standing in this warm and sweet cabin, his thin face could not conceal the coldness that could not be concealed. He was as sharp as a blade. Putting the dessert in his hand on the table, he nodded to Gu Qing.

"Try it quickly, the desserts made by Ayan are super delicious."

For Tang Li's strong recommendation, Gu Qing really couldn't imagine that the cute dessert on the table was made by this man, but looking at this cold-eyed man somehow found it pleasing to the eye, and after taking a sip, it was sweet but not greasy. The faint mango smell was fragrant, and he raised his head to indicate that it was good. The man raised his eyebrows and said nothing. Tang Li saw the silent dialogue between the two, and knocked on the table unhappy.

The man glanced over indifferently, his cold brows and eyes softened slightly, and Tang Li blushed suddenly due to the inexplicable warmth. His face was not considered young anymore, and there were fine wrinkles at the corners of his eyes, but at this moment it was still the same as before. , I was moved by this man's words and deeds.

Gu Qing looked at the reborn Tang Li, and continued to eat without expression, but his brows and eyes softened in invisible places.

When Gu Qing got up to leave at six o'clock in the evening, Tang Li refused Gu Qing's act of paying the bill, saying that he was invited. Gu Qing was obviously not very good at dealing with such situations, and he didn't know whether to stretch out the wallet in his hand or retract it. , standing there in a daze, until the man named Ayan nodded casually at him, then he put down his hands.

Before leaving, the two exchanged numbers. There was a lot of traffic outside the door. Tall buildings towered over the endless street. Pedestrians hurriedly passed by Gu Qing's side. Gu Qing thought for a long time and asked again. ?