Heart fire

The searchlight above the head and the light from the reflective strips on the clothes kept flickering in the smoky space. Two people and a dog, relying on their own strength, pushed through the ruins bit by bit. The heavy wine cabinet was raised.

The bright yellow color blocks on the heat-insulating boots were particularly conspicuous in the scorched waste. The moment he saw it, Zhou Tong's heart seemed to be pinched and exploded, causing blood and flesh to fly all over his body. The blood all over his body rushed to the top of his head , There was a "buzz" in my head, and I almost collapsed to the ground.

It's Xi Yang!Even though the buried body was only wearing the same fire extinguishing suit as the others, curled up on the ground with one hand covering its head, and couldn't see its face clearly at first glance, Zhou Tong knelt down immediately Get down, quickly clean up the last bits of residue and debris on his body, turn over his body carefully, and while looking for his breathing and pulse, call out loudly: "Instructor! Can you hear me? I'm Zhou Tong, Yang Yang! Yang Yang!"

No, nothing, can't feel anything, his skin is as cold as frost and snow, the arteries on the side of the neck seem to have no blood flowing at all, without a sound, a small arm is detached from the joint , paralyzed by his side like a puppet with a broken string, his five fingers clenched tightly, facing a direction that does not conform to normal physiological bending, a large amount of blood on the knee of his left leg seeped into the training uniform inside and the fire extinguisher outside. The clothes, together with the thick cloth, have been baked dry and stiff by the fire.

It's him, it's my him!The silent, gentle, affectionate, strong him, he who used to be unrestrained on the stage, the fearless him who walked against the crowd to the fire, is lying motionless on the ground at this moment, like a bird caught by someone. The doll that was accidentally lost, covered in ashes and stains, was bruised and bruised but still beautiful, still so quiet and flawless.

"Yang Yang, the pain is bad, right? I know that Yang Yang is actually the most afraid of pain. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's my fault, I'm late..." Zhou Tong's heart was already numb from the pain, and his hands Trembling so badly, he could hardly hold the breathing mask on Xi Yang's face. "It's okay, I found you, rest, I'll be with you. It won't hurt anymore, don't be afraid, with brother Tong Tong here, I won't hurt you again."

There were so many wounds that Du Wei couldn't even do first aid. He didn't dare to touch the countless shards of glass that penetrated the fire suit and stuck into Xi Yang's body, so he had to take off his gloves and wipe his face. Tears, picked up Xiao Bian, put it back into his fire extinguishing suit, pulled out two usable wooden boards, simply fixed Xi Yang's injured forearm and left leg, and forced himself to calm down, already in a trance , but still persistently calling Zhou Tong said: "Think about what the trainer taught us, don't give up, there must be salvation, go, go first."

The hull tilted more and more seriously, and it was really impossible to go if I didn't go.Looking back on this experience many years later, Zhou Tong also had to admit that if there was no Du Wei, he might have died in that yacht with Xi Yang long ago.

From the moment he found Xi Yang and held him in his arms, Zhou Tong had already settled down and was ready to face death.

It should be said that from the moment they fell in love with each other, they had already made a promise of life and death.

This is probably what people say, not to live together, but to die together.As long as he is by his side and can go with him, Zhou Tong is not afraid, because he has always believed that even death cannot really separate them.

Their love is a continuous output of energy for each other, it will be attached to different substances in different forms, and it will never disappear.

However, the real and palpable Xi Yang is so beautiful and precious, which makes people have more weaknesses and desires for no reason, which makes Zhou Tong reluctant to part with him anyway, wanting to hear him say a word, see him again Hold him longer, hold him longer.

"I may...have no way to be as brave as you."

"I love you so much too. The you who were one three hundred millionth of a second ago, and the you who will be tomorrow, also want to live an ordinary life with you, and watch you through the rest of your life."

"I'm very tired. I can't walk here anymore. I want to take a rest. Can you carry me on my back again?"

"Zhou Tong is great."

"I'll wait for you here, come back quickly."

"Zhou Tong, follow me closely, you must live."

"Tongtong, if you want me, kiss me."

And what else did he say?Zhou Tong knelt on the ground and rubbed his face helplessly, remembering that Xi Yang had kissed his stubble and told him the last time we parted, don't forget to shave this time when you go back, shall I help you?

Okay, let's go home, I'll take you home clean and decent.

Carrying the wounded is one of the most important training contents of the intervention team. With the assistance of Du Wei, Zhou Tong helped Xi Yang up as carefully as possible, put his upper limbs on his shoulders, hugged his waist with one hand, and Holding up his thighs and buttocks, he made a judgment based on the environment at the scene: "It's too late and impossible to go back the same way. Find a way to break the window and call the sea for them to respond."

Seeing that Zhou Tong finally cheered up, Du Wei followed suit and started to act immediately. First, he reported their situation through the intercom and asked for support. The demolition tool smashed a whole piece of tempered glass in a few strokes.

"Take the instructor and go first!" He put the only life jacket that was still usable in the cockpit on Zhou Tong's arm, but before he put it on, his feet suddenly shook violently. The power burst out from bottom to top with a "boom", breaking all seven decks in an instant!

Ten minutes ago, when the security officer issued the explosion warning, Pang Hui led eight soldiers and approached the yacht in a motorboat under the cover of water cannons. He successfully hung the ship's side with a foam hook gun to cool the engine compartment and put out the fire. Unfortunately, the fire was too fast and the explosion was inevitable.

Amidst the bang, the ships that were waiting for rescue regardless of their safety, and everyone on the pier who was retreating, just watched Du Wei flying out of the front window of the cockpit with a life jacket in his arms, with a heart-piercing cry. The lung-cracking cry ended all hope.

"Zhou Tong!"

Howling sea wind, raging fire and thunder, half of it is red flames, half of it is bottomless cold and dark, just like the suffering and loneliness I have suffered in this life, I hope it will end here, and there is no world to hold me back, but only you , It is light, it is heat, it is the vast sea of ​​stars, it is my eternal love.

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Fire trucks, police cars, and ambulance sirens blared, followed by more than a dozen cavalrymen who cleared the way, ignoring the traffic lights and galloping all the way, breaking through the twilight, appearing in the sight of dozens of doctors who had been waiting for a long time outside the gate of the theater general hospital middle.

"The injured person suffered respiratory and lung inhalation injuries, was in a deep coma, was punctured by sharp objects in many places throughout his body, suffered a comminuted fracture of his arm, suffered a blunt trauma to his left knee, the wound was five centimeters deep, his ligaments may have ruptured, and his joint capsule was damaged... ...."

"Call the blood bank to prepare blood, and operate immediately!"

"Dexamethasone 20mg intravenous push."

"Ready to defibrillate!"

"one two Three!"

"boom!"

"di"

"One more time! Get ready!"

"one two Three!"

"boom!"

"Beep, beep, beep, beep..."

......

Night comes unknowingly, and quietly leaves unknowingly.The time has been unprecedentedly long. Nine hours have passed. Yao Hongwei is still pacing back and forth anxiously outside the emergency room. I emphasized to the other party again and again that we must do our best to treat him at all costs.

With his gray hair overnight, he looked no different from any ordinary father in the world. He said, please, that kid just turned 28 two months ago.

On the bench in the corridor, Tu Ke gathered the coat that was draped over Wen Yue's body, and straightened his back as much as possible, so that he was still wearing a diving suit, his fingers were white and wrinkled by the sea water, and he could not recover for a long time He slept better.

Yu Di and Liang Xi waited until Wen Jinbao and his wife arrived before returning to the bureau with Huo Ci to make notes.The parents who are also firefighters, with their comfort and company, Xi Yang's parents barely cheered up a little bit, and began to ask about the situation of the soldier who rescued their son. No matter what the result was, they wanted to ask him and his family The family expressed their gratitude.

no parents?Dad sacrificed?Brother also...sacrificed?Xi Yang's mother seemed to remember something in a trance. "how so......"

"Yes, God is too cruel. That child is smart, sensible, and capable. He is a good friend of our Yueyue. From now on, we will be his parents, the same, the same."

"Yes, yes, they are all good children, the same..." Mother Xi had a sore nose, turned around and held her husband's hand, and tears fell down again uncontrollably.

My child, it was the parents who made the mistake of making you suffer so much alone.As long as you live well, it doesn't matter whether you dance or not, serve as a soldier or not, who you like to be with...

Thirteen hours later, the lights in the emergency room were finally turned off silently. The doctor opened the door, wiped the sweat from his forehead with the back of his hand, relaxed his shoulders, and nodded to the chiefs, soldiers and family members of the injured who immediately surrounded him. nod.

"Not out of danger, the risk of tracheotomy infection is high, but we kept him."

keep it!Mother Xi, who had been on the verge of collapse, burst into tears on the spot. Wen Yue turned around and hugged Tu Ke, wrinkled his collar into a ball, and wept with joy in his arms: "Master..."

"What did you call me?" Tu Ke hugged Wen Yue back, and twisted his ear hard. "Brat, if one day you dare to scare me like your trainer, don't call me master again."

"Let's go, tell Zhou Tong first, or wait any longer, I think he will drag the hospital bed and run over."

"Okay, but, did Brother Huo Ci take the key to the handcuffs?"

"Uh......"

"At my place..." Yao Hongwei took out the key from his pocket and threw it at Tu Ke.The doctor standing in front of him took off his mask and sighed helplessly.

"Chief, I can understand everyone's feelings, but look." He raised his chin at the standing, sitting, squatting, and sleeping firefighters outside the emergency room, and turned his head to look out the window. . "This is a hospital, and there are other patients. Your soldiers have occupied the corridors and the public space downstairs, which hinders our work..."

"Okay, got it, tell them to leave immediately." Yao Hongwei took out the cigarette and the lighter for the first time in more than ten hours, held it in his hands and walked into the fire escape, while giving Li Ang an ultimatum. "Did you hear that? It's all right now! Hurry up and bring your people back! What does it look like! If you don't go, I will cancel all the vacations this month!"

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Only one family member is allowed to visit the ICU once a day, and the stay does not exceed 10 minutes.Zhou Tong was embarrassed to take up the opportunity, so he could only wait for Xi Yang's father or mother to come out and ask them about Xi Yang's situation. At other times, he would sneak around the door secretly, causing his nurse in charge of the bed to be criticized several times. As soon as Hongwei arrived, he complained to him crying.

Yao Hongwei couldn't control it, so he scolded Tu Ke, thinking that this was his bad idea for Zhou Tong.Tu Ke died of injustice, thinking that this is not an armed police hospital, otherwise he would definitely find a way to put Zhou Tong in the ICU for a few days. After all, falling into the sea from a high altitude is not a joke, and it is his fate that he did not fall apart.

Everyone admired Zhou Tong and praised him as a child who grew up by the sea and knew how to swim. Only Wen Yue knew that he didn't even dare to sit on a boat and never liked to be near the sea.

Wen's mother changed her pattern every day to make delicious food, and sent it to the hospital to supplement Zhou Tong's nutrition. Xi Yang's parents gradually became accustomed to seeing Zhou Tong after watching their son. If they didn't know what to talk about, they just heard him talk about their son's training in the army. and everyday life.The days passed day by day like this. Three weeks later, Xi Yang was finally transferred from the intensive care unit to the intensive care unit. After another week, Zhou Tong removed the plaster cast, washed his face, put on clean clothes, and pushed Opening the door that had blocked them for a long time, he walked to Xi Yang's bed step by step.

In the past three years, time has not changed Xi Yang's appearance, but now in just one month, he has lost a lot of weight, and his sunken cheeks and lips have no color at all.Although the edema and infection period has passed, and the intubation has been removed, the damage to his lungs and brain caused by inhalation poisoning will take several months, or even longer, to recover.The nurse was not sure when he would be awake, so she only told Zhou Tong to try to talk to him more, but not to make him too tired, and not to let his mood fluctuate too much.

Mother Xi handed Xi Yang's mobile phone to Zhou Tong, got up to give up the stool, said she wanted to go back to get some clean clothes, and then left the ward.

Xi Yang's chest rose and fell with the frequency of the ventilator, and the appearance he fell asleep was the same as what he saw after waking up every morning in his memory, quiet and beautiful.Mother Xi would scrub him with a hot towel every day to keep him clean and tidy even when he was lying in bed. Zhou Tong sat by the bed and looked at it for a long time before he dared to stretch out a finger and lightly touch him. the back of the hand.

"Instructor...do you still hurt..." Until this moment, Zhou Tong realized that his heart was still with Xi Yang, and every day he was not seen, he was as if he had died.

"I miss you so much... miss you so much..." His voice was very soft, probably even awake people couldn't hear clearly. "Get well soon, look at me, shave me, if no one cares, I will become a stray dog..."

"Don't you like being hospitalized? I don't like it either. Let's go home quickly. I want to go home..."

After rambling on for a long time, Xi Yang didn't wake up.On the way, when the nurse came in to change the medicine for the infusion, Zhou Tong stepped aside and turned on Xi Yang's cell phone.

There are only two classified folders in the memo, one records work-related content, and the other is called "Tongtong". In addition to Zhou Tong's message and his three years in the Armed Police Academy, There is also a new file, which was created in the early morning of April [-]th. Zhou Tong was participating in a training camp that day, and he didn't have a chance to say happy birthday to Xi Yang on time.

The nurse changed the medicine and left, Zhou Tong went back to the bed and sat down, read the document seriously, word for word.

Sunny September 4

I can't sleep, and I miss him very much today.

It was just after twelve o'clock, and I was actually only 28 years old, but I always felt that I was no longer young.I really want to give him my young self, my best self, act like a baby to him, make him like it, and take away his whole heart.

What should I do?I only know how much I hated my childishness and self-willedness, and now I want to get them all back and stay in my body forever, if this is what he likes, as long as this is what he likes .

But I can't find it. I'm used to being who I am now, and it's unfair to him.

I often ask myself, how could he like me like that?But he really likes it, it’s true, based on the self-confidence that I don’t know, no, it’s from him, the self-confidence found in his liking, I’m sure.

It turns out that many things in this world are really different from what most people see and imagine.We are watching, listening, speaking, learning, accumulating, and exercising every day, trying not to be overwhelmed by any predictable and controllable things, like a system that is constantly optimizing itself, gradually becoming perfect, and gradually becoming unbearable Any deviation, or a small mistake, but he is the most meticulous and escaping element in this system, mastering all orderly laws, but always running in reverse, tolerant of me, and dependent on me , take me to find the balance in this world.

According to experience, our story should be more complicated, more tortuous, full of complete pain and misunderstanding, maybe falling apart, not ending well, it is he who rewrites and simplifies every established procedure, protects me, and what he gives me is always infinite possibilities and surprise.

He is like a star in the sky, sometimes twinkling innocently and romantically, an intangible fantasy, a fairy tale, sometimes distant and rational in the Milky Way universe, a rich, hot, burning substance.

What can I give him?Decompose me and my love into countless most basic particles, with the same energy and mass, even if the world is destroyed, it will not stop us from becoming a whole, interacting with each other, and entangled with each other.

I am no longer young, but I still want to give it a try.If you can't find your former self, give him your current self completely. Don't worry, neither the past nor the future exists. With him now, he will definitely find a way.

Separation does not seem to be so scary, he said that distant similarities will always allow us to find each other across time and space and among all things.

But I still miss him.

Zhou Tong rested his chin on the back of Xi Yang's hand, crying like a fool for the first time in his life, he almost didn't hear someone on the hospital bed complaining to him in a weak voice: "Tong...Tong... .....It's so prickly..."