Heart fire

Listening to his tone, and looking at his movements and expressions, Xi Yang can basically confirm his guess: "Zhou Tong, don't make it up, why didn't you tell me?"

As expected of a trainer, Zhou Tong had no choice but to give up his denial, and sat down obediently on the chair, stuffed a piece of braised pork into his mouth, and confessed honestly while eating, trying to be as innocent as a puppy. Eyes to win her boyfriend's sympathy and forgiveness.

"I was wrong. I didn't mean to lie to you. You only go home for a few years. I want you to spend the New Year with peace of mind. Don't worry about me..."

"Uncle Yao has to go to the company to condolences to the officers and soldiers. Aunt Xu took Sister Lulu back to Jiangzhou. They asked me to go with them, but... her family has a lot of people, so I don't think it's convenient."

"Don't be angry." Zhou Tong became more and more proficient at looking at his face and acting like a baby. "I'm fine by myself. I'm well fed and warmly dressed. Look, there's a red envelope from Aunt Xu!" After speaking, he smiled shyly: "One thousand, I'm sorry."

Yes, it’s pretty good. On New Year’s Eve when the family reunite, in an empty room that doesn’t belong to me, cook by myself, eat with myself, facing a photo, that’s right, that panic Xi Yang also saw the photo frame turned upside down and placed on the chair.

This stupid kid doesn't even know how to hide better.

Xi Yang was silent all the time, watching Zhou Tong explain in the video uneasily for a long time, seeing that he was really anxious and a little overwhelmed, so he said to him: "Eat it when it's ready, or it will be cold. I'm going to eat too."

"Oh, okay." Zhou Tong seemed to relax a little, but soon continued to observe Xi Yang's expression anxiously. "and you......"

"Hang up first, my hands are so cold, let's talk later." Xi Yang stood up, hung up the video, put his phone in his pocket, and walked back to the hotel across the small bridge and rockery.

When he entered the box, he heard his sister-in-law asking his mother: "Are you really not going? The weather is the most suitable now, it's not that hot."

The dishes were already served, and my mother first complained about why Xi Yang ran away for so long, and then she replied to my sister-in-law: "Forget it, forget it, my son finally came back, why should we run away, there will be plenty of opportunities in the future."

...

At eight o'clock in the evening, CCTV's Spring Festival Gala began. Zhou Tong took out a bottle of white wine from the cabinet, first filled the two empty glasses placed in front of the photo frame, then poured himself a glass, and held it up to half-empty: "Grandma, Dad, Brother, it's Chinese New Year."

The wine is so spicy that it makes people's eye sockets and heart sockets hot together.Zhou Tong drank another glass and then said, "Dad, I'm going to report after the Chinese New Year. Don't blame Uncle Yao, he can't do anything with me. I will try my best to make you and my brother proud of me. "

"Brother." He touched the cup opposite him and stared at the face in the photo that looked similar to himself. "I... I'm a little embarrassed to face you. But... anyway... anyway, you know it all, you must have seen it, right?"

"I like him so much. I used to think that your aesthetics and taste were poor, and the clothes you bought for me were ugly, but now I don't think so, besides, brother." Zhou Tong raised his head and drank the wine, using it to cheer up Gained courage: "Thinking about it carefully, I am really happy to fall in love with the same person as you."

"I just don't know if I can be worthy of him. I'm working hard to become as good as you. Just leave him to me, okay?"

"You...don't worry..."

I didn't eat a few mouthfuls of food, but I drank a lot of wine one after another.The party program was noisy, someone was singing some ugly song, Zhou Tong's eyelids were getting heavier and heavier, and he fell asleep drowsily on the dining table before the hour.

He had a dream. In the dream, he heard the sound of firecrackers and the familiar alarm bell. He dreamed that he was a member of the secret service and went to the police with everyone.The place where the fire broke out was a fireworks processing factory. When he arrived, the night sky was lit up by gorgeous fireworks all over the sky. It was so beautiful that he couldn't remember what to do next.

Later, when he was awakened by the vibration of his mobile phone and realized that it was just a dream, the zero o'clock had already passed.There was indeed a sound of firecrackers outside the window, but compared to the dream, it seemed too deserted and imposing, and even Xi Yang’s voice on the phone couldn’t cover it, because he could clearly hear Xi Yang saying to him: “Idiot, hurry up!” Open the door for me, it's cold outside."

Wait, the dream... isn't it over yet?

The last flight on New Year's Eve landed in the early hours of the morning.He left in a hurry without any luggage, Xi Yang only wore a windbreaker that wasn't warm enough, and stood in the snow for a few minutes, his hands and feet were so cold that he couldn't feel it, but Zhou Tong finally answered the phone and went downstairs quickly , After pushing the door open, I was stunned for a few seconds, then rushed to Xi Yang, squatted down, and hugged him high.

The corridor is warm, and Zhou Tong's breath is warm with a slightly intoxicating smell of alcohol.

After entering the door, Zhou Tonglou pressed the person against the wall and kissed him fiercely until Xi Yang's cold lips regained their temperature and blood color, and kissed him until he was as dizzy as when he was on alcohol a few hours ago. Only after he woke up did he dare to believe that everything in front of him was not a dream, and that his boyfriend really came back. For him, he came back with frost and cold, wearing stars and wearing moons.

But he still wanted to ask, and he still wanted to hear Xi Yang tell him: "Why did you come back?"

Xi Yang tore off Zhou Tong's ugly apron, lifted his top, put his hand in, and pressed against his waist and back to keep warm.

"I'm not full, and I want to try your cooking, so I came back." He said in a flat tone, seemingly casually.

Zhou Tong's body trembled from the coldness of his fingers.

"Which one to try first?" He propped his hands against the wall, struggling to maintain the last point of useless distance. "Dish, or me?"

Xi Yang's hand went down inch by inch along the tense muscles, and hooked a piece of metal buckle that was as cold as his fingertips.

"Of course it's you." He stood on tiptoe to bite Zhou Tong's chin, lightly and then hard, as if he loved and hated but couldn't bear it: "If you try something new first, you may lose your eyebrows. Ask brother to feed me."

...

The logistics were out of service during the Spring Festival, and the baseboard heater was delivered after the Lantern Festival. There was no one in Xi Yang’s house, so the neighbor’s aunt helped to sign for it. Link to purchase.

Mrs. Xi was in Koh Samui, enjoying the hotel's five-star service and the cool sea breeze, so she simply gave her son's phone number to her aunt and asked her to ask for it herself.

It will be cold for a while after the beginning of spring, and the two daughters of the aunt are not around. She is eager to buy and immediately dials, but there is no answer on the other side.

"Your phone is ringing, brother, do you want to listen?" Zhou Tong leaned close to Xi Yang's ear, and bit his earlobe after asking.

His tone was extremely gentle, and he bit his teeth carefully, as if he was afraid that his teeth would hurt Xi Yang, but the lower body hidden under the quilt hit him deeply and hard, fast and hard, without any pity or compassion at all. restraint.

Compared with some kind of intense, rude, rhythmic slapping sound, as well as suppressed gasps and groans, the ringtone of the mobile phone is particularly abrupt, boring, and monotonous in the spacious space.

The ringtone was cut off, but the others continued.Time is too precious, and nothing else is important enough for what you are doing.

One morning passed, Zhou Tong woke up in the finally quiet room, kissed the person who was still sleeping next to him, lifted the quilt and got out of bed, went into the bathroom to wash, then returned to the bedside, and began to pack his backpack .

His luggage is basically the same as when he went down to the company a year ago, except for a few clothes and a table tennis racket, there is only the "A Brief History of Time", and now there is an additional "Intervention Action Manual" without the author's signature.

There was also the recording bear, the previous birthday greeting was washed out, and replaced by a voice that had just been recorded and could not be heard by anyone but him.

It was almost noon, and Xi Yang hadn't woken up yet. Zhou Tong, who was already fully dressed, got into the quilt again, trying to wake up his boyfriend who was still lying in bed with his favorite, the gentlest and sweetest way.

Xi Yang didn't want to move, just raised his eyelids wearily, hooked Zhou Tong's neck and pulled him back to his face, ten thousand people begged him reluctantly: "Don't go, sleep a little longer, hug me again I."

"Can't we wait until the official start of school in the fall?"

"I regret it, I don't want you to go, brother Tongtong don't go..."

"Okay, don't go." Zhou Tong's heart melted when he heard it, and he lowered his head and kept kissing Xi Yang, comforting this person who was trapped in the quilt and was lazy like a cat, but when Xi Yang woke up, he put the Zhou Tong pushed away from him, as if nothing had happened, and said to him calmly: "It's almost time, I'll go wash up and take you to the station."

Zhou Tong didn't know whether to laugh or cry, lying on the bed with his arms pillowed on his head, looking at the watery figure under the flower through the blurry glass, like looking at flowers in the fog, looking at the moon in the water, at the end of a layer, and occasionally thinking insatiably, It would be great if this person could always be as delicate and self-willed as he was under him.

Only those who have witnessed his strength will appreciate his softness.

The high-speed rail station in the evening is as crowded as it is in the daytime, and the train timetable in the center of the square is full of people waiting for the train. It is difficult to get a closer look.When queuing up to enter the station, I ran into a few children who were going to other provinces to join the army. They looked like they were only seventeen or eighteen years old. Reach out to help other travelers in the line, elderly people with heavy loads or mothers with children.

How time flies, and the new year's winter conscription begins again.

With the high-speed rail and bullet trains, the station will no longer provide platform tickets.Zhou Tong did not expect that Xi Yang would ignore the public order and station management regulations in public, "abuse his power" without changing his face, and directly showed his police officer's card to the ticket inspectors, and sent him to the platform.

There are still 10 minutes before the departure of the train. After putting away the luggage, Zhou Tong jumped down and walked back to Xi Yang. Since there were too many people around, it was not easy to hug him and kiss him, so he quickly squeezed his hand. He scraped the bridge of his nose very awkwardly, and asked him in a low voice: "Is there anything else to explain? Let me give you a hint, for example, don't look at other men?"

For more than ten days, they have been carefully avoiding, forcing and deceiving themselves, thinking that this is just a short separation, Zhou Tong is just going to a certain place to study for a few days, just like a husband and wife will also travel alone , or leave home for a period of time because of work needs.

However, when it is time to face it, the fragile lies are revealed, making the pretended strength vulnerable.

For a moment, Xi Yang's mind was blank. During this time, both he and Zhou Tong learned to use their bodies instead of words to express to each other, and they expressed it all the time, but what they really wanted to say always seemed to be in their mouths. On the side, in my heart, I will never find a perfect way to interpret it.

Wearing an olive camouflage winter jacket, Zhou Tong looked handsome and upright. The extremely short shaved hairstyle made his facial features more prominent, and his contour was as deep as a sculpture.Looking at him at this moment, I realized that he has really changed a lot in this year. His skin color is darker than before, which is the imprint left by going in and out of the fire scene several times. His eyes are more determined than before, which is faith The traces of seeds were planted in his heart, his back became wider and stronger, his limbs became stronger, it was a flesh and blood body polished by sweat and pain day after day, Xi Yang wanted to touch his head again, Feeling the itchy feeling transmitted from the palm of the hand to the heart, but his Tongtong suddenly became too tall, but his eyes clearly still carried the inexhaustible childishness, as clear as when they first met, making Xi Yang You can clearly see into his gentle and sincere heart.

What more can I say, I love him so much already.

"Is there? Huh?" Zhou Tong was still eagerly waiting to hear something from Xi Yang. "Tell me."

Xi Yang raised his head to meet Zhou Tong's eyes, with something in his eyes that was pouring out over and over again, but finally said to him eagerly and cautiously: "It's okay to hug once, let's hug again."

Zhou Tong opened his arms, embraced Xi Yang like everyone who was saying goodbye, buried his face in his scarf, and asked again: "What else?"

"Also, study hard."

Zhou Tong laughed with a "puff": "No more? How do I remember that someone told me not to leave in the morning and stay with him?" He patiently coaxed Xi Yang: "Say it again, baby, I love it so much."

But Xi Yang played Lai in a low voice: "You are dreaming."

"Then let me dream again, this time I won't wake up."

"Having too many spring dreams is not good for your health."

"What are you afraid of with you by my side?"

"I don't care about you."

"You just can't bear it."

"Fool, let's go, the car is about to start."

The train was about to leave, and the conductor was holding up the horn for the third time to remind passengers to hurry up and get on the train.Zhou Tong returned to the car step by step, sat down by the window, raised one hand, and put his palm on the car window.

Xi Yang crossed the yellow line and interlocked his fingers through the glass.

What to do, Zhou Tong thought, why is his hand still so cold.

He is so beautiful.

But I can't see clearly.

There were tears in their eyes, so they couldn't see each other clearly.

But they also have light in their eyes, illuminating each other's journey even brighter.

The train started slowly, and soon they could no longer touch each other, nor could they grasp the remaining warmth in their palms.

Zhou Tong changed one car window after another, but his Xi Yang gradually disappeared.

Xi Yang chased him to the end of the platform, but his Zhou Tong gradually disappeared.

In front of the orbit is the distant horizon, with sunset glow, sunset, layers of clouds, flying birds and waiting figures in the distance.When everything turned into a fuzzy black spot and disappeared on the edge of the horizon, Xi Yang's tears finally rushed out, and finally opened his mouth belatedly, choked up, and repeated over and over again: "Zhou Tong, don't let me go!" Walk."

"You son of a bitch, don't go, don't go."

don't go.