Heart fire

After the beginning of autumn, a belated rainstorm finally drove away the autumn tiger that had been entrenched for many days, ending the humid and sweltering dog days.

The night became long without knowing it, and when I woke up, I was surprised to find a mottled frost and dew faintly condensed on the glass window.The orioles and cuckoos that often come to play in front of the window are nowhere to be seen, and only Xiao Bian is left wandering alone in front of the door, leaving behind a string of wet paw prints, like blossoming red plums knocked down by rain.

In autumn, more and more people come to the beach to fly kites. Standing in the camp and looking up, you can always see many colorful and various paper kites swaying with the wind in the blue sky. Migratory birds compete with each other.

Under the azure blue are the golden-red fallen leaves and the withered growth all over the ground. Walking along the way, the crisp sound of leaf veins breaking can be heard endlessly, accompanied by the rustling autumn wind and full of troubles.

Wen Yue brandished a broom that was half the height of a person, and sang along with his old comrade Fang Jianhua.

"Wind, wind, please give me an explanation, does she also cherish and miss this relationship?"

"Wind, wind, don't go in such a hurry, please ask her name for me..."

Cotton bobbing, tobacco leaves turn yellow, and it is the harvest season of the year. Even the green radish soaked in the yogurt bottle has grown a few inches long, and the humble love buried deep in the heart without water is like malnutrition. The delicate rose of thorns has yet to wait for the flowering period and the fruit.

He is so good at growing flowers, when can he give me one?

...

The summer flood control work has come to an end, and the secret service has also lifted its preparations for several months and entered the winter training period.After the party and group activities every Wednesday afternoon, the original entertainment time was changed to going out in groups, just like the detachment and the subordinate squadrons, to familiarize themselves with the roads and water sources near key units in the city.

It has been more than half a year since he joined the army. This is Zhou Tong’s second year in the north. He still hasn’t adapted to the dry autumn and winter climate in the north. He often has nose bleeding while eating and walking. Many, woke up at night, the air was filled with a faint smell of rust.

After a summer of overgrown vegetation, he is more than a little stronger than when he first joined the army, his physical fitness has been fully stimulated, and his performance in every training and written test is outstanding, which impresses everyone. We look forward to his ability in the province's firefighting system at the end of the year In the competition, we will add a little bit more, give the detachment a little more color, and stabilize the special service's king rank.

The formation of water rescue and search and rescue dog squadrons has also started.Fang Jianhua traded a small space behind the cafeteria with Tu Ke for a kennel for Xiao Bian. Tu Ke pulled out all his small tomatoes that never yielded fruit, and built a row of grape trellises for three days. Another crabapple, two magnolias, and a field of yellow tulips were planted.

On the day of grafting the grape seedlings, Wen Yue, a young apprentice named "Wangli Baitiao", who came to help out, applied to his master to join the water rescue squadron.

Zhang Siqi, who had gained a lot of weight, finally returned to the team. Upon returning, she announced her wedding date to everyone, and even showed off her wedding ring proudly, talking about her marriage proposal experience. Unexpectedly, she was caught on the spot by Team Tu passing by and sent to the small garden Weeding, catching insects, watering and fertilizing, and helping Lao Fang for a period of one month.

Until Zhang Siqi resumed training and lost the extra two catties of flesh, Xiang Yu still has not returned without any news.No one in the team dared to ask, no one dared to ask, for fear that if they accidentally exposed the illusion created by that layer of goodwill, they would have to accept a fact that no one wanted to face.

Other than that, everything is as usual, and it seems that there is not much change, but under the calm, there is a small undercurrent lurking and surging.The information on the bulletin board has been updated several times, and Chenchen's paintings are still there; the lemon sandwich biscuits have never been out of stock again, and the trainer is still its most loyal and only customer.

Zhou Tong often recalled what Xi Yang said to him that night, especially in the late night when he couldn't sleep, he thought and pondered over and over again.

He has been convinced that his heart was secretly moved at an inadvertent moment. From the initial ignorance to the later bewilderment, there were countless confusions. He didn't understand why such feelings arose, whether it was reasonable or should Should, and dare not judge whether the other party can understand and accept, and whether they also have the same heart-wrenching feeling for themselves, but in the end they did not shrink back because of this, followed their inner feelings, worked hard to get closer, tried, and expressed their feelings clumsily and bluntly, until Being pushed away, being politely rejected, the loss outweighs the gain, and nothing is gained.

But he is still convinced that this feeling has been uncontrollably rooted and sprouted in his heart, unilaterally longing for the nourishment of the sun and rain, even if there is no nourishment, the growth is rapid, and he crossed the barrier almost overnight. The high wall of taboos spread to the unknown depths.

He thinks he doesn't have Zhou Yi's deep sense of morality, responsibility and ambition, and he doesn't have the spirit and awareness of a soldier to forget his personal emotions in the face of his mission and responsibilities.He is not noble enough, great enough, decent enough, he is ashamed, self-reproached, and ashamed, but none of these can restrain him, and cannot extinguish the hot flame in his heart, what he longs for day and night is still to see more of him Just one glance at the sweetheart, and staying with him for a while, even just for a moment, just for a moment, is enough to temporarily appease the passion and desire that are driving him crazy, and can't be suppressed no matter what.

Obviously, we have had so many emotional moments of life and death with him, and lingering and ambiguous moments.Every time we look at each other, every time we stand side by side, every time we suffer and wait for each other to return, the endless trust and dependence, admiration and respect in the eyes are better than a thousand words, better than everything you have heard, seen and met A tasteless vulgar love.

After that night, Xi Yang really fulfilled his promise, and began to treat Zhou Tong with a strange, distant, brother-like serious attitude, as usual, accompany him to learn and train him, and let him Chasing after him without knowing how to advance or retreat, but refusing to give even the slightest warm response, always walking with his back in a hurry, never looking back for him, and never stopping for him.

He changed back to the taciturn instructor again, he didn't eat human fireworks or fish soup and rice, he just ate clean from his own bowl, and never deliberately left two ribs, two shrimps, or even a few A piece of green pepper and vegetables that he doesn't like, together with his willfulness and playfulness that he never dared to show others, secretly gave it to Zhou Tong.

However, he doesn't know that no matter how decisive he is, how impervious he is, all the appearances will only make Zhou Tong feel more distressed, and forbearance is just a temporary connivance to him, and he is not willing to make things difficult for him.

Except for Wen Yue, Zhou Tong has almost no other friends to talk to and ask for advice on emotional problems.Regarding the ability and understanding of love, he has neither his parents as role models, nor a brother who is good at expressing and can share his experience with him as someone who has experienced it. Not stupid, reliable and strong enough.

He was not ready to confess everything to Wen Yue.It's not that he didn't dare, but seeing that Wen Yue was too busy to take care of himself, but he couldn't help him, he didn't want to add trouble to him at this time.

He began to read books desperately, looking at behaviors and philosophies about love that he was not interested in before, and wanted to use the consistent learning method to verify Wen Yue's words from other people's records and descriptions, and get a glimpse of the truth and answers.He was afraid of making a mistake, afraid that his every move would make Xi Yang escape further, so he put away all his frankness and enthusiasm, even though Xi Yang once said that he liked that kind of himself very much.

Until one day, he saw a newspaper clipping in the pages of a book that he hadn't read for a long time, which even Xi Yang couldn't remember.

It was a colorless photo. The paper had turned yellow after several months, but it still exuded a faint smell of ink.Zhou Tong looked at himself who was ignorant but hit by mistake at that time, and realized that a long time had passed, and he had already been moved a long time ago.

However, the person on his back in the photo was once so close to him. At this moment, he is sitting across the desk from him, but it seems to be thousands of miles away, and he can no longer feel it.

He closed the book and looked up, almost instantly confirming that the person opposite was afraid.

Zhou Tong has always believed that the reason why the girl who was willing to go to the sea of ​​flames with Zhou Yi to escape and not face the fact that her lover has passed away is definitely not because she is ungrateful.It is not easy to carry such a heavy past. She is just timid and afraid. Such escape should be tolerated and forgiven. She should also forget the past and start a new life.

He thought Xi Yang was the same, he was strong on the outside, but inside he was still a child who was afraid of getting hurt.

What are you afraid of?Zhou Tong thought.Is it the reasons he guessed?

Afraid of gossip, fear of worldliness, fear of not being recognized and accepted by family members, fear of insulting this uniform?Or is he too considerate and understanding, afraid that Zhou Tong will not be able to bear all this, or is he afraid that Zhou Tong will abandon him and choose to be a deserter?

But how could Zhou Tong be willing to let him get hurt.To some extent, although no one is willing to sacrifice, it is true that Zhou Yi failed that girl, left her alone in the world, was trapped in his heart during his lifetime, and only left her with a heart full of unwillingness and regret after leaving. remember.

For Zhou Tong, as long as he is given a chance, he will do his best to catch him and stay by his side. His full enthusiasm gives him a sense of security and makes him happy.Even if time is running out and paper is short and love is long, I still want to kiss him thousands of times.

In the book, what is love?Three meals a day, daily morning and evening, beautiful scenery on a good day, I will marry you.

He thought he could not ask for so much.

In the sea of ​​flames, if you can hold your son's hand, share the same robe with your son, you will have a life and death agreement, and you can talk to your son.

...

It was rare that there was no police report for more than half a month, but the stable days were broken one day not long after the bidding announcement was issued.

One week before the Mid-Autumn Festival, the newly transferred deputy captain finally took up his post. On a drizzly morning, he appeared on the training ground of the Provincial Fire Special Service Brigade in full costume.

Accompanying them were Xi Yang and Chief Secretary He Lei. Dao Xu and Yao Hongwei also came, but Tu Ke disappeared as expected.

The resumes of the new deputy team can be regarded as well-known in the entire fire protection system, but what is more talked about is that Tao Xu's preference for him is even more than Yao Hongwei's for Xi Yang.

Tu Ke didn't understand and didn't bother to understand, but Xi Yang had heard about this 20-year-old young soldier who had made meritorious service and joined the party when he was in Chonghuai, and later heard some news that he climbed up to the in-laws of a certain chief after receiving the commendation , got married at the age of 26, and since then his official career has been magnanimous. He is the same age as Tu Ke, but he eats better than him.

In this way, from the Provincial Fire Rescue Corps to the Provincial Special Service, it was considered decentralized for him.

Still under Tu Ke's command, even Tu Ke couldn't figure out why he was willing.

Once the autumnal equinox is over, there will be an autumn rain and a cold.The soldiers had only changed their autumn and winter training uniforms a few days ago, but the new deputy team was still wearing a short-sleeved shirt. He looked like a tough guy with strong muscles and bones and was not afraid of the severe cold. There is no sense of kindness and kindness in the room. Seeing people are a bit sinister and suspicious, and there is a tendency to set the whole camp on fire. Before Xi Yang can speak, he introduces himself: "Zheng Jiang, former Provincial Fire Rescue Corps Captain, you are here to take over Xiang Yu's position as vice-captain."

"My working method is relatively strict. I don't like unorganized and undisciplined troops, and I don't like free and undisciplined fighters!" He maintained a relaxed posture, with his hands behind his back, and his chest kept rising and falling with his confident voice.

"Since we have to get along for a long time in the future, I won't say much else. I hope you can adapt to my rhythm as soon as possible!"

It wasn't until the soldiers of the six squadrons reacted and collectively shouted "yes" that he nodded in satisfaction and turned to look at Xi Yang.

"Before I came here, I heard that the Provincial Secret Service is a rather special place." A smile of unknown meaning suddenly appeared on the corner of his mouth. "Directly under management, but it's like stocking up. To put it bluntly, it's called modernization and humanization. To put it bluntly, it's just a group of people who enjoy privileges and don't do business!"

As soon as these words came out, someone in the team immediately lost their temper. They clenched their fists and looked at the trainer standing aside, only to find that he, like Yao Hongwei, did not show any special emotions.

Zheng Jiang went on to say: "Presumably everyone is very aware of their own shortcomings, the gap with the provincial team, and why the superiors transferred me here. So from today, within a month, I will personally rectify the internal affairs, supervise the training, I hope everyone will cooperate and get rid of the bad habits and styles of the past as soon as possible!"

"Survival of the fittest, one month later, as a prerequisite for the establishment of a new squadron, fighters who do not meet the requirements will be transferred back to the original jurisdiction!"

...

Turning this year, it has been nearly two years since the establishment of the provincial special service.All fighters are elites drawn from ordinary squadrons in different cities and different jurisdictions, and there are not a few of them who have made great or small military exploits.

In the past two years since I came to the Provincial Special Service, no matter among the soldiers, or with Uncle Tu, the instructor, and Teacher Xiang, they have long been like a family.The three of them have their own characteristics and methods in managing the team, but they are equally ruthless and unrestrained. He also has the habit of strict self-discipline, knowing that the freedom given by the leader must be exchanged with self-esteem, self-love and self-consciousness.

He Lai said freely and loosely in that population.

A simple welcome ceremony was held in the cafeteria that afternoon, but Deputy Team Zheng left in a hurry after only showing his face, without even glancing at the snacks specially prepared by Lao Fang, as if to draw a line with his subordinates.

A group of people dispersed without interest.Before leaving, Yao Hongwei went to the office alone with Xi Yang, and told him to keep an eye on Tu Ke in this matter and do more of his ideological work. Finally, he handed him a transfer application and explained to him: " I thought about it, and put that kid in the team. Let him take whatever exams he wants, and I'm always worried about staying in the front line, and I can't explain to his father."

He lit a cigarette, got up from the sofa, and walked to the window.

"Think about the countermeasures and communicate with him. If there is no problem, sign and let him go. I will arrange the rest."

Only when he realized the parting did he feel the difficulty of parting, but Xi Yang had no choice but no reason to refuse, so he could only hold the application in his hand tightly and nodded silently.

...

According to regulations, recruits do not have a holiday in their first year of enlistment, but three days ago, with a wave of his hand, Tu Ke decided to give Zhou Tong, who has been outstanding recently, a day off. Some things to see former teachers and classmates, spend a Mid-Autumn Festival with them.

However, Zhou Tong didn't want to play at all, and he didn't want to disturb anyone, and he didn't want to see other people's family reunion, and he was alone, pitiful and redundant.But he didn't want to refuse Team Tu's kindness, so he could only accept it with a strong face and joy. After thinking about it for a long time, he found that he had no choice but Yao Hongwei's house, and couldn't think of a better place to go.

Then let's go to Uncle Yao's house, the festival is second, the main reason is to meet his daughter Yao Lulu.

A few years later, Zhou Tong's memory of Yao Lulu still stays in the time when she and Zhou Yi were in junior high school together.

Where should I ask after meeting?Zhou Tong sat on the steps in front of the office building, looked up at the sky full of stars, and said to Xiao Bian who was lying beside him sticking out his tongue, "It would be great if I could ask the trainer."

"Asked me what?"

Xi Yang appeared behind him holding a stack of documents, his T-shirt was dazzlingly white in the night.

"Ah, I..." Zhou Tong stood up quickly, rubbing his nose and scratching his head, his heart was beating very violently like every time he saw Xi Yang.

"Team Tu gave me a day off, I... have nowhere to go."

Xi Yang hadn't looked at those star-like eyes for a long time, and his heart skipped a beat for a long time. His fingers holding the document curled up gently, and he clasped the hot application form hidden inside.

Seeing that several days had passed, he still hadn't spoken, hadn't signed, and even though he hid so hard, he wasn't ready to send Zhou Tong away.

"Team Tu will be here tomorrow." Zhou Tong heard Xi Yang, who lowered his head, suddenly say in a hurry: "If you don't mind... I will take you out for a walk."