silver sea

Bai Yanhui laughed dryly: "Wen Xia, I still think that there must be some kind of misunderstanding in this. What kind of things can we talk about face to face? When are you free recently? I'll..."

Hearing this, Wen Youxia simply hung up the call and threw the phone aside.

The whole conversation was heard by Qiu Sheng, he hugged a cushion, his hands and feet were tucked in, like a cat with his chin resting on the tip of the cushion, he raised his eyes to look at Wen Youxia.His actions were full of impatience, Qiu Sheng's eyes moved slightly, and the silence in the small living room was like the sea water not far from the window, gently surging.

Although Qiu Sheng didn't intend to speak for a while, he was not quiet.His eyes told Wen Youxia everything, and at this moment their hearts couldn't maintain a normal state, Wen Youxia even felt Qiu Sheng's breath trying to suppress the restless rhythm.

Qiu Sheng couldn't help but connect these scenes and words with those four years ago. He was the one who experienced it first-hand. Every sentence he said with Bai Yanhui back then gradually recovered as the tone of the other party's words changed.Even though Qiu Sheng tried his best to forget, these pains buried deep in the sea of ​​consciousness still spontaneously put together a complete shape.

"It's better to be a favor..."

"Even if you win, it's not worth the loss..."

"You are Wen Xia's boyfriend, should you protect him once?"

"Let's sign an agreement..."

"I would rather destroy him than leave it to others."

Qiu Sheng gasped, as if he had woken up suddenly, he held Wen Youxia tightly with his backhand, absorbing the body temperature of his palm, the not-so-soft but warm touch made him feel Wen Youxia completely, his pulse was a little bit Nervously speeding up.

So those words, Qiu Sheng thought, he remembered clearly.

But up to now, Wen Youxia has not been destroyed by anyone, and no one can destroy him.

"Why didn't you just listen to him?" Qiu Sheng heard himself asking uncertainly, with a pretended relaxed tone, "You don't want to hit him again in person?"

Wen Youxia shook his head, got up and went into the work room, and took out the hard disk and laptop after a while.

He looked as if he didn't want to have anything to do with Bai Yanhui anymore, but they were all so concerned about looking for clues about Bai Yanhui's past.This is a pair of contradictions, as if they shouldn't do this, Wen Youxia has a persistence beyond Qiu Sheng's imagination, and he promised Qiu Sheng, "I will get that song back."

Wen Youxia put on the earphones and listened to the audio in Anton's hard drive one by one.

Although it is not too old, it is something fifteen or sixteen years ago. Some are recorded by tapes, some are recorded by mobile phones, and some are synthesized with unknown equipment, mixed with chaotic electrical sounds.It's not too detrimental, but it still makes people uncomfortable after listening to it for a long time. Qiu Sheng only insisted on one song and couldn't stand it.

Wen Youxia believes that Bai Yanhui has inherited Anton's melodic characteristics to a certain extent. He has been listening patiently these days, picking up the score and analyzing the structure of the song. He wrote a stack of A4 paper and marked it with three-color pens. Anton.

Living underground, music is underground, even if he is cared about, he is just a bass player who appears like a shooting star.

Why is Bai Yanhui able to live at ease until now, but no one mentions him?

Qiu Sheng was suddenly upset by this bassist whom he had never met.

He read a few lines of Wen Youxia's score, turned his head, and couldn't help but stared at Wen Youxia.Qiu Sheng was attracted by the seriousness of the other party, especially at this time.

During the daytime during the holidays, Wen Youxia sat on the small platform and listened to the demos with her laptop in her hands.When there is sunshine, his shoulders and slightly long hair are dyed a layer of fluffy gold, and when he frowns, a small shadow appears in the corner of his eyes; on a cloudy day, Qiu Sheng will turn on the light, and only The breathing of the two people, as the work slowly progressed, they gradually reached a frequency.

Qiu Sheng didn't want to admit it, but when Youxia came back to him, the nightmares and bad emotions that had plagued him for many years were like encountering a scourge.

Perhaps, possibly, occasionally, Wen Youxia is a tranquilizer that only works on him.

This day was the last evening of the first month holiday, two hours after hanging up Bai Yanhui's phone, Wen Youxia took a sip of the boiled water at hand, raised his head: "I found it."

Seeing that he was in a daze, Qiu Sheng didn't hear the first sentence, so Wen Youxia handed him the earphone directly.

It was a basically formed demo, and it was placed at the end of the folder. After listening to it for 30 seconds, Qiu Sheng was basically sure that its melody was almost exactly the same as "Anthony".Maybe it was because of the day when Bai Yanhui was sure that this song would never appear again, or maybe it was because Bai Yanhui was not proficient in these things for the first time, so he could only simply change a few chords.

But the melody, including the arrangement ideas, all follow Anton's finished product.

There was a small "click" in Qiu Sheng's ears, as if a closed door was opened, and the darkness that bound him rushed out from the door, and he was able to breathe smoothly all of a sudden.

The dense but not intense bass outlines the main riff, struggling, and letting go midway, as if a light suddenly leaked from a narrow cave.But then, not only did the rhythm not speed up, but it became silent all of a sudden, the sound of the keyboard flowed in, and the sticky glide of the bass immediately dragged people into the initial deep sleep.

Sombre and gentle, he somehow felt that this song would combine two extreme emotions.Even though it was just a prototype, it was already handled very harmoniously. Bai Yanhui only learned superficially in the later song, which is incomparable at all.

The date is June 2002, and Anton died in July.

When he realized this, his throat hurt for a moment, and Qiu Sheng asked, "What's the name of this song?"

Wen Youxia lowered her head and read out the name of the file: "EscapetoYangon."

Qiu Sheng didn't hear clearly: "Huh?"

"The last time I saw Camel, he told me that Anton's wish is to earn enough money to take his mother to Yangon. The cost of living is cheap and the weather is good. His mother is seriously ill. I don't know if he is still alive." Youxia talked about these things with a heavy tone, it was clear that not much time had passed, but everything was irreversible.

Qiu Sheng's lips moved, because of the soreness, his trachea was dry and hot like being burned, and his voice became hoarse: "It's not for me... Anton, there are many others, how can he be so unscrupulous -"

"I understand." Wen Youxia said, staring down at the file details on the computer screen.

The dead are gone, but they can't pretend nothing happened when they know about it.

"Why did you refuse Bai Yanhui to meet just now?" Qiu Sheng asked abruptly.

Wen Youxia tilted her head, as if she didn't understand.

When Qiu Sheng mentioned these things, he was suddenly sharp: "I said, he asked you to meet and talk, why didn't you?"

Wen Youxia asked back: "What do you think Bai Yanhui will talk about?"

Qiu Sheng was stunned, speechless.

"So there's no point in talking to him."

After a while, Qiu Sheng whispered, "I'm sorry."

Surprised, Wen Youxia: "Huh?"

"I signed the contract without discussing it with you. I did it wrong."

As soon as Qiu Sheng finished speaking, all the strength that had been holding him up was suddenly drained.

He never thought of apologizing to Wen Youxia, whether it was sincere or formal, he felt that there was nothing wrong with Wen Youxia in what he did.These three words do not belong to Qiu Sheng's dictionary, they are synonymous with "cowardly", and Qiu Sheng does not admit that he has a weakness.

A mistake is a mistake, and an apology is useless, let alone an admission.

As long as he takes responsibility and bears the consequences of all decisions, whether or not he says "I'm sorry" is not that important.

But the consultant advised him, "You can try to admit your mistakes, and don't always feel that what you do is good for others." Walk into the safest place, you have to believe that you can do it."

"Admitting mistakes is not pretending to be pitiful, nor is it seeking sympathy." Doctor Zhang seemed to see through Qiu Sheng's inner thoughts when he said this, "No one will sympathize with you, because you are already strong enough, Qiu Sheng."

He was just admitting his mistake to the past.

Although it is a bit difficult to say, it seems to be not as difficult as imagined.Wen Youxia's eyes were full of surprise. That day he told Gu Qi "you decide for yourself", and Gu Qi was similar.

"What are you doing?" Qiu Sheng hid his panic with a dry smile, "I can't say this word?"

Wen Youxia closed the laptop: "But that's over."

Qiu Sheng was startled, and understood Wen Youxia's implication - what they are doing now is not just for two people and one song, there are more people, it sounds a little exaggerated, but others can't do it for them.

"...Okay." Qiu Sheng said in a low voice.

"I really didn't blame you."

"I know, you blame yourself more than me." Qiu Sheng wanted to smile to comfort Wen Youxia, but his mind was heavy and he couldn't lift the corners of his thin lips.

Wen Youxia said: "Actually, now I know a lot of things, endless summer, what Luo Tuo said, Anton's songs, and our situation at that time, I can probably imagine how he threatened you in 'White Camellia'. If it were me , may not be able to change anything, and will make the same decision as you."

Qiu Sheng's fingers tapped the table uneasily.

"I'm always denying myself, but you have a bravery and persistence in everything that I don't deserve." Wen Youxia mentioned this to Qiu Sheng for the first time, "You asked me why I left, because there was nothing at that time Now, I'm not like you, I can't start all over again, if I continue like this, I will... be broken, then I will definitely become your drag."

"No!" Qiu Sheng yelled at him fiercely, "Why do you think so?"

"Because I am indeed a person who is not worthy of your compromise." Wen Youxia said, "I hurt you but I didn't have the confidence to heal you. I was cowardly and impulsive, and I just walked away. I didn't mean to anger you, it's true I hope you can take care... If we continue to be together, the result will only be worse, and you understand that, so you didn't dare to come to me before."

Afraid of getting the wrong meaning, Qiu Sheng hurriedly cut it off: "Wen Youxia, you can just change it, you can change it, but now, you can't say you still want to leave! Every time I hear you say this, I'm afraid that you will..."

"I won't go, Qiu, I'm by your side."

"Because I'm sick?" Qiu Sheng said, shaking his head, "I don't need your sympathy, and don't feel sorry for me!"

In the dusk of Donghe, the sun is gradually dimming, the lights are not turned on, and the room seems to be covered with a layer of old film filters. In a trance, I mistakenly think that the time is overlapping, and I don’t know where it falls when I go back.

Behind the clouds, the last moment of sunset is extremely brilliant.

Wen Youxia sighed softly, he put the earphones on Qiu Sheng - they just met several years ago, he reminded Qiu Sheng to pay attention to protecting the ears, and then took out a pair of earplugs from the piano case.

"Listen to you a song."

Qiu Sheng stared at him, grabbed the front of Wen Youxia's clothes with one hand, and twisted the buttons on the shirt uneasily with his fingertips.

In the next second, there were a few gears turning in the earphones.

Qiu Sheng was speechless again.

The moment the familiar piano melody sounded, his eyes suddenly became hot and his lips trembled uncontrollably.

Qiu Sheng imagined the scene of hearing this song again countless times.

Although it has been lying in the depths of the computer folder, Qiu Sheng has never gathered enough courage to open it.For Qiu Sheng, it is not a simple "song", it represents Qiu Sheng's best and most painful, and ended when the bass was split into two and smashed into pieces.

The songs that have not been performed before were remixed by Wen Youxia at some point, with many strange sound effects added:

The bus announces the stop, "We've arrived at the Guangming intersection of the boulevard."

The footsteps were mixed and the conversation was messy and noisy.

Beer was poured into glasses, gurgling.

The rehearsal room doorbell.

The noisy crowd waited for the show to start on time.

The sea breeze whipped up the white waves and beat the reefs.

The motorcycle roared away.

……

At 5 minutes and 37 seconds, the last sound effect was the sound of clinking glasses, which echoed in the empty streets, and then it began to snow.

Before we got together, Qiu Sheng said that he wanted to try it out, "Match our songs with a lot of samples and put them all together" "You and I do it together".He didn't expect that Wen Youxia had already done it behind his back, the melody seemed to blend into their past life, using the old melody, old memories.

But all the details say "I love you".

Qiu Sheng took off his earphones and asked dumbly, "What do you mean?"

"If it was out of sympathy, I wouldn't take the time to do this." Wen Youxia squinted her eyes, then looked at Qiu Sheng again, "During the few days you were resting, I walked around the places we wanted to go before and collected these voices ...When the remix is ​​finished, call it 'roaming', okay?"

The man he loved was inarticulate, silent, withdrawn and made stupid mistakes.

But he is also soft and gentle, trying his best to convince himself of his cowardice, bear the pain and get out of the predicament.

He spent many nights that Qiu Sheng didn't know about, walking through the corners of their memories that were unforgettable or hastily passed by, compiled a past melody, and placed it in front of Qiu Sheng, as if saying to him: I have a lifetime with you now. Be brave.

Qiu Sheng bit himself painfully, and then his dry thumb brushed his lips.

"If it was pitiful, I wouldn't want to kiss you so much." Wen Youxia ordered him in a low voice, "Close your eyes."

The stagnation accumulated for many years turned into a deep-rooted stubborn stone, which turned into powder on the spot.

The author says:

Today I had a quarrel with the irresponsible class leader, because I was not in school some time ago and almost missed the paper and uploaded it, I was so mad

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