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Qiu Sheng registered a new account on the platform, and the band logo was drawn by Gu Qi—he majored in industrial design in college—very simple and rough lines, with a Chinese name underneath.

Qiu Sheng and Lu Yining had a dispute about whether to use a Chinese name or an English name.Qiu Sheng felt that Chinese was enough, but Lu Yining insisted that it would be more convenient to have an English name in the future.But when Qiu Sheng asked him what is convenient, Lu Yining stuttered, and Qiu Sheng asked again: "Did you come up with an English name? Can you come up with it?"

Lu Yining: "..."

Qiu Sheng made up the last cut: "I really lack something to think about."

Lu Yining, who failed the college entrance examination English: "I will fight with you!"

It is inevitable for band members to quarrel, but fortunately they have Gu Qi who is the best at messing with each other.He knew that it was difficult to deal with Qiu Sheng, so he grabbed Lu Yining straight away, quickly stuffed a peeled orange and handed it over: "Eat some fruit, don't be as knowledgeable as him! He only has 425 points in the sixth level!"

Lu Yining hadn't gone to college yet, so he didn't know what the fourth and sixth grades were. Hearing this, he felt that Qiu Sheng was the same as him, and felt better, so he ate an orange.

Then he was so sour that his facial features wrinkled into a ball, and he took a few mouthfuls of "peh peh peh": "What is this?"

"Donghe's specialty lime." Qiu Sheng cut open the other, opened the orange peel and ate one piece, and then ate the other piece, with a calm expression, "Don't you think it's very delicious? Appetizing, refreshing, And vitamins."

Lu Yining who was gargling: "..."

From then on, he was convinced that he and Qiu Sheng must have unrevenge in the previous life, and he had never encountered such a mismatch.

So in the end there is only the Chinese name, and the two characters are printed on the picture with a design style that feels like a paint brush.The three of them quarreled for a while before reaching an agreement, and Wen Youxia never participated in these decisions, and only expressed his opinion at the end: "Yes, yes."

The attitude is so easygoing that even if they draw a circle as a logo, Wen Youxia will say no problem.

The band's logo is used as the profile picture, and the introduction says "Established in Donghe in 2012".After Qiu Sheng finished all this, he lay down in front of the computer and uploaded the "May Rain" they recorded in the studio a few days ago.

The cover of the single couldn't be blank, so Qiu Sheng simply took a photo taken in summer, the camphor tree on the boulevard.

Listening to songs on the platform is free, and musicians can set up paid downloads after completing real-name authentication.Qiu Sheng's personal account has already been certified, but the band account has not yet, and the first song always needs to be spread, they plan to upload the second song after a while and then set up paid downloads, and it doesn't need to be too expensive , one dollar is enough.

"Our goal is to earn the cost of the third recording." Qiu Sheng joked.

After uploading, it needs to be reviewed. Qiu Sheng couldn't afford to do anything else, so he squatted in front of the computer and waited, planning to use his personal account to forward the promotion as soon as possible.He informed all the people he knew in advance, such as Julie, the livehouse part-time brother who worked together in the record store.

If it wasn't for Gu Qi who couldn't stand it anymore and ordered Wen Youxia, who was the only one who could move Qiu Sheng, to force him away, Qiu Sheng would have to squat until his legs went numb before giving up.

At the end of the rehearsal, the examination had not yet passed, so Qiu Sheng sadly carried Qin on his back and took the elevator with everyone.

Lu Yining took the bus, and Gu Qi rode a bicycle by himself.Qiu Sheng thought that Wen Youxia was going to start the car, so he waited there for a while, then turned his head, Wen Youxia was still standing there.

"Aren't you going?"

Wen Youxia shook his head, Qiu Sheng thought he might not be in high spirits: "I don't think it's too formal to release a song."

"It has nothing to do with the band."

"Is it something at home?"

Wen Youxia acquiesced, this was the hardest part for Qiu Sheng to comfort him.The two stood on the bus platform, and several cars passed by, but no one left, and the sky gradually darkened.

"There are bad things in every family." Qiu Sheng said in a rough voice.

Wen Youxia couldn't tell the difference between mourning or annoyance: "Yes."

"If you want to scold, scold."

"...not so."

"I don't usually talk about these things, but you have never seen me talking about my parents." Qiu Sheng said, not seeing Wen Youxia's expression, as if opening the wound at dusk can confuse himself, "After I went to college And never came home again."

Wen Youxia glanced at him in surprise.

Qiu Sheng simply sat down in the waiting area: "They put me under a lot of pressure. From elementary school, junior high school, to high school, I always felt that there were quarrels at home every day-not counting, at least the quarrels came and went. It should be called unilateral scolding. You may not even think of the reason."

"For example, once I broke an eraser while I was doing my homework, and my dad found it. He thought it was because he scolded me after he found me throwing egg yolks that morning, so I held a grudge and deliberately used this method to talk to him. Demonstration, he fined me to stand at the door of my house until he went to study in the evening. I was in the third grade of elementary school at that time.

"My mother thinks she understands 'psychology' very well, and any unintentional behavior is a kind of projection in the heart. So I am always tense at home and dare not do anything, but in fact, what I think in my heart even I don't I don’t know, who knows how they can decipher so many things. And when I’m being scolded, I can’t be distracted, I can’t be in a daze, I have to listen and respond, otherwise I have to admit my mistakes and have a bad attitude.

"Writing inspections, standing as a punishment, introspecting and making reports... Do you call these physical punishments? Not counting, mental torture, I would rather they beat me up. Many times I suspect that they simply want to torture me, but they keep saying that they want to torture me. I'm good, I'm good for me-I don't want to be good at all, damn it."

Wen Youxia raised his hand and lightly pressed Qiu Sheng's shoulder, only to find that his face was pale when he said these words, and his eyes were not as lively as usual.

"...Now they say that it is impossible for me to go back. I finally got out by taking the university entrance examination." Qiu Sheng's pupils contracted for a moment, "So if there are conflicts at home, I can run away, I can escape, just leave."

These words had been accumulated in Qiu Sheng's heart for too long, and he had no one to tell them.

Perhaps he has inherited the strong side of his parents, and he refuses to easily reveal his psychological shadow. Even to Dr. Zhang, he simply mentioned that "the parents are too strict and always have trouble breathing at home."Qiu Sheng knew that that was the main reason why he was prone to anxiety and nervousness, but he couldn't solve it, he could only press them deeper and deeper.

He fights against these emotions by pressing a spring, not daring to relax for a moment, lest he be completely defeated one day.

And now tell Wen Youxia, whether out of trust or because he likes to reveal his vulnerability unintentionally, he hopes that Wen Youxia can understand himself, just like he tries to understand Wen Youxia.

"I'm different from you." Wen Youxia said, "I've never been inside."

"..."

"I didn't live up to that much expectation."

He even felt that this was expectation.

How could Wen Youxia think so?After all, Wen Youxia and himself are two different people, and they cannot empathize with his pain.And he felt that Wen Youxia had understood himself completely and thoroughly, but he didn't.

Two independent people met halfway, how can they be the other half of each other's souls.

Wen Youxia still didn't understand.

The wind in late autumn became cool, and a dark green leaf fell in the middle of the asphalt road.

A car ran over mercilessly.

Qiu Sheng trembled, as if he had also been crushed all over his body, and his bones creaked.

The hand covering the back rubbed Qiu Sheng's tension along the shoulder blades appropriately, and then pinched Qiu Sheng's neck that was almost stiff.Wen Youxia's fingertips had a not-so-thin layer of calluses, but when they rubbed against the skin, there was no pain, with a reassuring temperature, and a slight smell of tobacco.

He comforted Qiu Sheng for a while like rubbing the back of a cat's neck. The bus was about to pull over halfway. Wen Youxia took a look. It was the loop line. He stood up with his hands still on Qiu Sheng's shoulders.

"The car is here."

Qiu Sheng followed him obediently, got into the car with him, and sat in the last row with him.

In the turbulent bus, Qiu Sheng asked Wen Youxia: "Are you annoying me? You said something inexplicable today."

"It's not good to hold back."

"You won't bother me."

"will not."

Qiu Sheng covered his face: "Then just pretend you didn't hear it. You'll be ashamed to death, and it will affect my image in your heart."

Wen Youxia seemed to be smiling: "Okay."

The bad side of Qiu Sheng is only showing the tip of the iceberg, Qiu Sheng is keenly aware that Wen Youxia's view of himself is not as comprehensive as he imagined.So now he doesn't want Wen Youxia to understand too much, if he tells the other party everything when he is not ready, Wen Youxia will be frightened by him.

He has never been sick in front of Wen Youxia, he controls his own reality, and refuses to change love beyond recognition.

So one day he can reveal his whole self to Wen Youxia?

Wait until one day.

"I love you, but I'm sick."

...Will Wen Youxia push him away?

A certain station on the ring road is a little far from the university town, Wen Youxia got off at this station and pulled Qiusheng.During the nearly one-hour drive, he held Qiu Sheng's shoulder all the time, as if he was not the one who needed comfort.

The two of them ate some noodles and wontons in the snack bar in silence.

"I want to change the place." Wen Youxia said in a low voice at this moment, "Remove the garage and change to a place where you can stay overnight."

Qiu Sheng raised his head: "Huh?"

"Find a good place to tell you."

Wen Youxia sent him back to school after dinner, because he was an off-campus person and couldn't show his student ID card, so the teacher at the security office didn't let him enter the school gate.He bid farewell to Qiu Sheng, and watched Qiu Sheng return to school with Qin on his back.The guitar seemed to crush Qiu Sheng, and the ginkgo trees on both sides of the school road were green, green, yellow and yellow.

When Qiu Sheng was about to turn a corner, he looked back without expecting, and sure enough, Wen Youxia had already left.

That night, "May Rain" passed the review, with Qiu Sheng's crazy recommendation first, and a small number of fans on his personal account came to listen to it, but it didn't cause as much splash as expected.

I think so, after all, it is a new band, just be normal.

In the first week, "May Rain" was recommended on the homepage of the website's "Indie Music" category, with a very small line of characters.

In the second week, the font size was slightly larger, and the number of downloads exceeded [-].

Beginning of winter in early November, and a week later, the ginkgo scenic spot in Donghe will turn golden yellow, especially brilliant in the sun.

Qiu Sheng helped Wen Youxia move that day, and they were standing in the new house with "bare walls", testing the effect of the sound insulation panels, when Julie's phone rang——

"Xiao Qiu! Your band's new song was recommended by Mo Sen!"

Qiu Sheng was taken aback, before he could answer her, he smashed the phone first, sat on the floor and opened the laptop, Wen Youxia came over.There is no broadband connection in this place, so Qiu Sheng turned on the hotspot with his mobile phone, but the network card was dying, he struggled a bit before finally logging in, and then he saw the explosive news.

The top one in the comment area was replaced by a user named "Mosen Mori": very imaginative style, the pure music in the middle is absolutely amazing!

There are a lot of comments later, including about two hundred replies to comments.

"I haven't heard this style for a long time. It's lyrical but has a sense of tearing. The sound of rain mixed with vocals is so clean, dreamy and light. The lead singer's voice is also very fresh. I like it!"

"The bass is so, so good! This sense of presence, I would like to call it the light of the bass player."

"The final music climax combined with the effect of pouring rain is really nice."

……

And the number of downloads suddenly doubled the sum of the previous days.

Qiu Sheng flipped through the comments one by one, and felt that "it's just that" and "it's all leftovers from a certain band", but it's normal to have a variety of listening sensations.He turned his head to look at Wen Youxia, who was more calm than him: "Look at the private message."

"Ok?"

"Mawson may contact you."

Wen Youxia's rationality affected him, Qiu Sheng took a deep breath, and then opened a series of private mailboxes with red dots.

At the bottom of the first page, there is indeed a portrait of Mosen's iconic ink.

At the beginning, he formally introduced himself as the manager of the "Fish Thief" independent music label. After a series of sincere and gorgeous rhetoric, he finally expressed the purpose of sending a private message:

"If you have the intention to sign a contract, please contact my work email with your work."

The author says:

*About the song release platform, lh ticket price, music festival, etc., the time span of this article is about 2012-2017. I tried my best to restore some details with my thin memory, but there must be a discrepancy with the reality. You can see Just be happy and don't go into it, thank you! !

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