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The lights flicked on, and the engine hummed. Kong Ruoyu went over to put the equipment into the cabinet, while Yuan Xi stayed where he was, burying his face deep in the shadows.

Uncle Security opened the door from the outside and greeted them impatiently, "Hey! Come out!"

"Excuse me, now."

Kong Ruoyu grabbed Yuan Xi's wrist, and walked out of the classroom with their bags in the other hand.

Uncle security reprimanded them while closing the door, "Why are the two girls staying in the laboratory at night? Tomorrow is a holiday, can't you have a good rest tonight? Really... don't do this in the future."

"I'm really sorry, we'll go back to the dormitory right away." Kong Ruoyu apologized repeatedly.

Uncle Security might be really in a hurry. He walked downstairs with the two of them and then ran towards the school gate after the electricity was cut off.

Yuan Xi, who had been silent all this time, struggled a little to get hold of the hand tightly held by her senior sister, "Senior sister, give me the bag."

Kong Ruoyu let go of his hand, handed her the bag, and was about to speak when the phone rang, "Uncle Li?" Kong Ruoyu picked it up in surprise, "Are you here to pick me up? Just outside the school gate? Okay, I will immediately Come out, within 5 minutes."

She hung up the phone and looked at Yuan Xi silently, but Yuan Xi was in a complicated mood at this time, and he didn't have the courage to look her directly in the eyes, so he just lowered his head and said dryly: "Senior sister, you are going home, then I'll go back to the dormitory first, bye."

"Huh? Don't send me?"

"I, I'm afraid that the auntie in charge will close the door if I go back late, so I didn't bring my card today."

"Oh." Kong Ruoyu reached out and touched her cheek, "Alright then, happy winter vacation, I'm leaving."

"Goodbye, senpai."

Yuan Xi plucked up the courage to look up at the back of her senior sister going away, the suffocating pressure in her chest finally gradually dissipated as the distance between the two of them got farther and farther away.

Yuan Xi licked his lips and rolled the honey into his mouth.

Not sweet at all, too bitter, bitter as hell.The corners of her mouth slowly curled down.

The fine snow slowly fell between her hair, on her scarf, and also fell into her heart.

In a trance, Yuan Xi felt that he was alone in the boundless wilderness at this moment, only the boundless snow was flying unscrupulously around him, as if it would never stop.

She had insomnia again that night.

In other words, she fell into a state of anxiety from that day on. After returning home, she began to be in a daze and quarrel with others unconsciously, and her whole body was shrouded in a layer of flammable violence.

Yuan Xi was forced to slowly accept the fact that she was "homosexual". She knew what these three words represented—unreasonable, deviant, very likely to have no results, and almost impossible to get blessings from others.

She and Xu Fangzhou used to call their class monitor "little girl gay" in a joking way, but now it's good, she has a girlfriend for a long time, she is really a gay girl, and life slapped her loudly , and then educate her sincerely: You can eat things indiscriminately, but you can't talk nonsense.

She was fidgeting, and secretly searched for a lot of incredible things on the computer—although she knew about such a thing, there were such a group of people, and even expressed her understanding of their different orientation before, But when the hat fluttered and spun a few times but fell on his own head, Yuan Xi was dumbfounded, and only then did he know what despair is.

Isn't this abnormal... This shit is just like a left-handed person, what is it! ?Human experts say that there are examples of same-sex love among animals! ...No no no is this really normal? ...No, I understand the truth, but it's true...how can the people around accept it? ...

Senpai, will she... feel the same way about me?

Yuan Xi realized that she had really thought too much before, when a huge snowball suddenly fell in front of her eyes: she had been tangling with the corner of the bed sheet for several days, but she never considered Kong Ruoyu's thoughts at all.

She had no idea what Kong Ruoyu's attitude towards her was.

Yuan Xi's heart skipped a beat, and he felt as though his eyes were staring at him.If she was still in the mood to have fun in bitterness before, now she can't laugh at all.

Senior sister had a boyfriend.In the parlance, she's a straight girl.

Countless lines of flickering subtitles flashed before Yuan Xi's eyes, full of topics such as "straight break = dreaming", "don't mess with straight girls".

...But the senior sister is so kind to me, I, no, I believe she doesn't have even the slightest feeling for me.

Wake up, Yuan Xi, you idiot, open your eyes and read the stories of those people carefully, what is the difference between you and those girls who ask for it but secretly feel sad? "I do not believe"? ——It’s up to you not to believe it.

No, it’s not like this, senior sister hugs me, cooks for me, cares about me, goes shopping with me, comforts me, she takes me with her wherever she goes, she does a lot of things for me, she even... touches my lips , I am different from others, really, really, what if?

Don't take the chance, Yuan Xi, can you afford to lose?You bet all your belongings, and what you get in return may be just an apology from her.Can you afford to lose?

Kong Ruoyu called her every now and then, and text messages came even more frequently. Yuan Xi was afraid that he would be exposed if he said a word, so he always kept silent.She was full of worries on the other end of the phone and no one said anything, and the senior sister on the other end of the phone also noticed her obvious depression.

"What's wrong? Not happy?"

Senior sister's gentle voice rang in her ears.

"I've been having a cold recently, and I'm not feeling well."

"Oh, well, you should take good care of your illness first, and I'll call you when you recover, okay?"

"…Um."

Yuan Xi tossed and turned in the night, and finally sat up and grabbed her phone and began to scan some useless things. The more she scrolled, the sadder she became, and the more annoying she became. One second before she dropped her phone, she glanced at Weibo, then retracted her hand and clicked in. .

When she was a freshman, she honestly swiped Kong Ruoyu's Weibo from the first to the last one, and even read the comments. After two years, she felt the need to do it again, not because of her brother, but because of her brother. for herself.

Yuan Xi looked at the beautiful pictures that her senior had reposted in the past, and her mood gradually calmed down. After scanning for most of the night, she thought it was time to go to bed, and she would go to sleep after reading ten more pictures.

Turning to the eighth article, it was one afternoon four years ago, and the senior sister wrote only one word: rosenmontag.

Yuan Xi paused, and copied it to Baidu.

"Rosenmontag, Rose Monday, is the first part of the traditional German carnival..." There are many more behind, but Yuan Xi only saw two words, Germany.

She remembered that the senior sister was going to Germany to study for a master's degree. She was sent by the government to study abroad. She knew it a long time ago, so why did she keep forgetting it?

How did you forget it?The school of architecture is a five-year system, and the senior sister will be in her fifth year in the next semester. She has not been busy looking for a job, and I always thought that she was a bold person with high skills. It turned out that it was because of this... Calculated in this way, there is only half a year left. .

Maybe less than half a year, I don't know how many years it will take to study there, maybe they can meet again when the senior sister comes back, so doesn't she have to study here for graduate school?I just finished my studies at the Polytechnic University, and it is close enough to my senior sister’s home. I can still take care of Aunt Kong. She will also be taken to her senior's father's house... Yuan Xi was overwhelmed by her godlike ability to associate, lying on the quilt and laughing so hard that she couldn't straighten up, laughing and laughing became choked up.

How did that happen?How can we face separation before we start?

The next night, the whole family was sitting on the sofa watching TV. The news was broadcasting a report that a certain country passed the same-sex marriage law. People all over the street were wearing rainbow flags and cheering, hugging and kissing affectionately in front of the camera.

Yuan Xi had a ghost in his heart, and unconsciously lowered his head, turned on and locked the phone, even if her mother sat in front and asked her to ignore it.

Yuan's father clicked his tongue, turned his head and said to Yuan's mother: "This country is really brave, and it is not afraid of having no successors." He glanced at the scene again, and continued to shake his head, "I don't know why there are so many perverts now, Look, look, that man is still wearing a skirt, my God."

When Yuan Xi heard "perverted", his mind exploded.The phone went dark two seconds later, and she saw her dull expression.

"Dad—" Yuan Qi dragged his voice, obviously a little unhappy, "Don't do this, do you understand that this is called discrimination? My colleague in the department next door is like this, but he is very good and capable. There's nothing to say about character."

Father Yuan was taken aback, "What's so special, you have to stay away from him from now on, don't tell me I don't know yet, what kind of company is that? How do you recruit people? This is called destroying public safety !"

Yuan Qi was about to reply, but was interrupted by Yuan's mother with a black face, "Qiqi, you are obedient, your father is doing it for your own good, we can't talk about discrimination now, it's just prevention, you support others, but people are unpredictable, how can you Do you know what other people think of you? You stay away from him and bring a girlfriend back, and we will all be happy."

Yuan Qi couldn't laugh or cry, "Mom, I'm a girl, I already have a girlfriend!"

Father Yuan looked terrified, and changed the channel without saying a word.

Mama Yuan's face flushed and turned pale, "Girl? Hey, it's a pity...then you can't get too close to her...you two are so annoying, I'm talking to Yuan Xi, don't be noisy."

She turned her head and said to Yuan Xi: "Yuan Xi, you're a junior this year, right? You'd better go home to find a job next year, and let your dad help you find a place to relax."

Yuan Xi looked up at her mother, Yuan's mother felt a little strange, and then heard Yuan Xi whisper, "I want to take the postgraduate entrance examination."

"What?" Father Yuan and Yuan Qi also turned around in unison.

Yuan Xi coldly glanced at the three people with different expressions in front of him, and said louder, "I said, I want to take the postgraduate entrance examination of the University of Technology."

Mama Yuan frowned, "You want to take the postgraduate entrance examination? How tired are you? Why don't you go to work early? It's fine for your brother to stay in Yicheng, why don't you want to go home?"

"It's the same as how worried you are about my suffering." Yuan Xi snorted.

Seeing that this posture was wrong, Yuan Qi hurried over to stand between his mother and sister, "Speak up if you have something to say."

Yuan Ma sighed helplessly, "Yuan Xi, what's wrong with being so good?"

Father Yuan stared at Yuan Xi with a worried expression, "Don't talk to mom like this, apology, Yuan Xi."

But her neck was stiff, her eyes were wide open, her mouth was tightly closed, her upper and lower teeth were clenched, and she confronted her relatives without saying a word.

"She's in a bad mood today, I'll educate her." Yuan Qi dragged Yuan Xi halfway back to her bedroom with a headache, closed the door again, and looked back, Yuan Xi was sitting by the bed, still with that unfriendly look Looking dead, he sighed in his heart, walked over resignedly, and sat beside her, "What did mom say to provoke you? Will you tell me?"

Yuan Xi pursed her lips, as if she wanted to pull out a smile, "...Don't she think that I don't know why she asked me to come back to work early, isn't she just trying to sell me? After so many years of raising her, it's time to put a price tag on it."

Yuan Qi wanted to hit her. Thinking about the disparity in strength between the enemy and us, he gently hugged Yuan Xi into his arms and touched her head, "Did I tell you many times? Don't think about Mom like that, she is Love you, you think too badly of her, and mother will be sad."

"Am I not sad?" Yuan Xi's tears were about to overflow her eyes, "If it weren't for you staying in Yicheng, why would she want to let me go home? Don't make excuses for her, you don't have a word You must say, or you will get out for me."

Yuan Qi knew that his sister was really out of anger, so he didn't continue the topic just now, "Hey, little friend Yuan Xi who hasn't grown up, can you only say this sentence? Since childhood, you can only Let me get you out."

"Originally, if you make me angry, you go out!" Yuan Xi buried her head in his arms and said sullenly.

Yuan Qi didn't take it seriously, and smiled softly: "I was afraid of you when I was young, but now you want me to go out, you have to think of a way."

Yuan Xi didn't say anything.She closed her eyes and felt Yuan Qi's hand stroking her head again and again, which reminded her of Kong Ruoyu who was thousands of miles away, and the tears that hadn't shed began to swirl back and forth in her orbits again.

Her brother was rambling over their heads about their childhood, perhaps because of the emotional time and tears, the childhood memories that made her snort at ordinary times were also extremely heart-palpiating at this time.

"...One night you had a fever, and your parents were not at home. I carried you to the small clinic downstairs. Fortunately, you didn't mention me in the composition. You really have a conscience."

Yuan Qi noticed that the younger sister in his arms had already grabbed his clothes and cried quietly, so he shut his mouth and focused on patting her back, hoping to have some comforting effect.

Yuan Xi was too desperate. She hated herself for arguing with her parents, but she couldn't ignore their preference for Yuan Qi. She believed that Yuan Qi, who had been interdependent with her since childhood and adjusted the relationship between her and her parents, had too many of her. She didn't even have the courage to tell him. She was afraid of her feelings for Kong Ruoyu, but what she was more afraid of was the separation that was in front of her eyes... These things were like a bullet shot into her head, hitting her head at high speed, knocking her Her thoughts were in such a mess that she couldn't think anymore.