Twisted melon bursts sweet [e-sports]

"...Later, I dropped out of school, and half a year later, I entered the youth training camp, and you all know what happened after that."

This past incident once made Xi Nian feel indignant and heartbroken, and it also made him wake up countless nights and then find it difficult to fall back asleep... Even in the second before he really spoke, Xi Nian thought that when he said these things, The tone must be passionate...

However, it does not.

During the narration from the beginning to the end, Xi Nian's mood was very stable, and his tone was extremely calm, so calm that... he even felt that he was actually just a bystander.

...It turned out that those things that made him feel that the sky was about to fall when he was young, looked back a few years later, and it was nothing more than that.

What he is really afraid of is not those things, but——

The subjective feeling he once had, which is still suffocating even in retrospect, and Jin Chao's views on it.

So when he understood that Jin Chao would trust him unconditionally, half of the burden was let go.

When he got the whole thing out, the remaining half of the baggage was let go.

Xi Nian didn't feel bad at all.

He even felt a kind of relief that he had never had before.

It's like the old ailment has finally been gouged out of the carrion. Although it hurts a bit, it makes people see the hope of recovery.

……

Compared to Xi Nian who was calm and calm, the one who couldn't control his emotions... was Jin Chao instead.

"Fuck! What kind of rubbish are those classmates of yours?! What kind of beast is that monitor?!" Jin Chao wished that these people were right in front of him, so that he could punch them all over!

However, it wasn't these people who made him most angry, what made him most angry was——

"Tell me the truth, did your parents pick you up?"

Before Xi Nian could answer, Jin Chao himself replied: "No, no, the ones you pick up won't be like this... Are you the son of their enemy?!"

As he was talking, Jin Chao also remembered what happened at Xi Nian's father's birthday party... His blood pressure suddenly shot up all the way, with the momentum of going straight to the sky.

"I just can't figure it out!!"

Jin Chao was so angry that he couldn't sit still anymore, so he stood up from the small bamboo stool with a "swish", and circled around the small room, making Xi Nian a little dizzy, and couldn't help but say, "Don't worry!" , you sit down first..."

"Why do you sit! The fire is burning up to my butt, can I still sit down?!"

Xi Nian: "..."

Sensing that a certain pufferfish surnamed Jin tended to vent his anger on innocent people, Xi Nian resolutely silenced his voice very wisely.

Jin Chao exhaled heavily from his nose: "I just can't figure out why there are such parents?! My child was blamed for sexually harassing classmates. I didn't even think about it for a second when I was a parent. Find evidence for your child to overturn the case, but beat and scold your child first, and then drop out of school quickly??!!"

"This tm didn't dare to think about this operation after a cerebral hemorrhage in ten years!!!"

Xi Nian: "..."

comfortable.

"And you!"

Xi Nian: "?"

... am I not a victim?

Jin Chao was so angry that his eyes were red: "How about the ruthlessness when we broke up with me in the youth training camp? How about the tenacity that scolded me openly and secretly for three years and mocked me against me? Why was someone kicking the shit out of my head at that time?" Basin just recognized it like that?! Ah??!!"

When people are angry, their thinking is always extra active, and Jin Chao is no exception. He cursed and cursed, and suddenly a thought blessed his mind——

"Don't tell me that you really had a crush on that good person at that time and didn't want to be the squad leader who insisted on being a beast...?"

Xi Nian: "..."

Jin Chao: "..."

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Seeing Jin Chao with "My teammate is beside me" written on one side of his face, and "My lord is green, green, green" on the other, Xi Nian was so embarrassed that his toes were so embarrassing. She wanted to shrink back, her mouth seemed to be stuffed with a large ball of cotton, and the sound she made was softer than a mosquito: "...It's not what you think..."

However, just as he started his explanation, he was interrupted by Jin Chao——

"Don't tell me!"

Jin Chao clutched his chest as if he was about to have a angina pectoris, gropingly sat down on the edge of the bed, leaned his head on Xi Nian's thin shoulder in aggrieved way...and rubbed it twice, and then Xizi held his heart in his arms "Weakly" said: "...Okay, I'm ready, tell me all the things you've done to me, I can still hold on..."

Xi Nian: "..."

In fact, he pretended to be quite like that...if it wasn't for his voice being too full of air.

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Relaxing the toes that had just shrunk up in embarrassment, Xi Nian pushed his big head on his shoulders to the side somewhat uncomfortably: "Get up, you're dead..."

"Oh—starting to dislike me—"

This twists and turns of resentful tone immediately gave Xi Nian goosebumps all over: "...speak well."

"Hmph," Jin Chao snorted softly, and raised his head in a compromising manner, "Would you be so vicious towards that beast squad leader before?"

Xi Nian: "..."

Who in the end is being weird?

Seeing his speechless face, Jin Chao squinted his eyes and dragged out his tone: "It seems that he won't..."

Just when Xi Nian was about to explain, his words suddenly changed:

"Then it seems that yin and yang strangeness is my patent?"

"It's almost there!"

The voice sounded a little flattering.

Xi Nian: "..."

...was he stimulated and got mad?

Xi Nian was still in doubt, but the person beside him who made him wonder explained self-consciously: "I found out a long time ago, you are always acting weird to me, since you were in the youth training camp three years ago. The youth training camp was still the same, and then I got into a team by accident, and it became even more eccentric! At first I was almost pissed off by you, but then I found out—"

"Your yin and yang strangeness is targeted."

Speaking of this, the corners of Jin Chao's lips curled up involuntarily: "And I am the one you targeted!"

The words were filled with pride.

Xi Nian: "..."

...Sure enough, I was stimulated and got mad.

Jin Chao turned his head cheerfully. He thought he would see a rare shy expression on someone's face, but he didn't expect——

Xi Nian looked at him like a fool.

"...What's your expression?"

"...the expression of caring for the mentally retarded."

Jin Chao: "..."

Jin Chao took a few deep breaths, trying to persuade himself not to get angry - after all, Xi Nian was "obsessed with the authorities", and he, a "bystander", naturally wanted to help him clean up.

He cleared his throat, pretending he didn't hear what Xi Nian said just now, and continued his previous words: "You have been in the LPL circle for three years, do you know how everyone evaluates you?"

Xi Nian didn't speak.

"They all say that you are cold, or even indifferent. You have a cold face when you win, and you have a cold face when you lose. You look at your teammates and opponents equally—they are the same as looking at Chinese cabbage. Emotional robots, they say you are no wonder robots play well, because they are all of the same kind..."

Xi Nian couldn't listen anymore: "Stop talking..."

"Why don't you say it? These are the truth."

The affirmative voice without hesitation made Xi Nian immediately angry: "Then you also think..."

"I don't think so."

The same unhesitating affirmation made Xi Nian lose his temper.

"That's why I know—"

"I'm different from you."

Xi Nian suddenly raised his head——

There seemed to be some other kind of brilliance in those gray-blue clear eyes.

Jin Chao also felt that Xi Nian was unreasonable at first, until the two got closer and got along better, until he inadvertently learned about Xi Nian's family situation, and saw the couple who had never brought Xi Nian a little love. Warm parents, until he saw more and more unknown sides of Xi Nian...

He suddenly realized:

If a person grew up in a cold environment without the slightest temperature.

If you have been surrounded by money since childhood, it is not the warmth and warmth of human relationships.

If a person who has been emotionally closed for many years finally plucks up the courage to build a bridge called "friendship" with others one day, but is cut off by the person who worked with him not long after the bridge was built...

The goshawk is willing to soar because it sees the vast blue sky; the butterfly is willing to stay because it sees the flowers competing in beauty and beauty; the white rabbit is willing to drill out of the cave because it smells the direction of the green grass brought by the warm wind... …And what if they see darkness and smell a stench?

Xi Nian is like a snail that has been shrunk in its shell since childhood. When he came out of the shell for the first time, what he faced was not the warm sunshine...but a basin of cold and dirty water with countless razor blades !

The blade scratched countless wounds on the soft body, and the cold, smelly and dirty water made the countless wounds infected and inflamed... The little snail was in pain and helpless, no one helped it, and no one listened to it... ...It can only slowly retract into the narrow and dull shell, quietly feeling the wound slowly rotting and smelling...

There was a dense pain in the depths of the heart, as if being stabbed continuously by countless needle points.

Jin Chao thought, how could they give up such a good Xi Nian?

"It's not that you don't want to get along with other people."

"You just don't dare."

"right?"

These few words are like a double-edged knife, one cuts the heart of the speaker, and the other cuts the heart of the obedient, causing invisible blood to flow all over the ground...

His fingertips were trembling slightly, Xi Nian opened his mouth, but couldn't say a word.

A gust of energy was rampaging in his chest, like that little soul hidden deep in his body that hadn't dared to see the light for many years crying and crying heartbreakingly, or like the little soul buried in the most inconspicuous corner of the bottom of his heart. The screams and screams when the malignant sores and tumors that he didn't realize were finally uprooted...

Under the shock of his mind, Xi Nian was even in a daze——

If the person in front of me is the compensation and reward I got after suffering all these hardships...

Then it's all worth it.

作者有话要说：没想到吧，其实傻x打野是个头顶光环的小天使哦_(:з」∠)_感谢在2021-01-2115:48:48~2021-01-2214:20:03期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: =-=10 bottles;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!