Hun Ye

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After taking two cold medicines, Ji Qianfan felt dizzy again, so he went to bed.In his sleep, he felt powerless in his limbs, as if he was in water, trying to grab something, but there was nowhere to grab it.This feeling made him very uncomfortable, like drowning.

This feeling made him sweat profusely.

When I woke up, it was already evening.

The sunset glow poured in from the window, turning the ground into a yellowish haze.

Ji Qianfan felt that his mind was in a daze, and the picture in front of him was coated with a sense of dream.

He sat on the bed and stared blankly at the streamer on the floor, and it took him a while to come back to his senses.

I got up, took the clothes from the closet, and went to the bathroom to take a shower.

Hot water sprayed out from the shower and sprinkled on his body, creating a hazy mist of water vapor.

After taking a shower, Ji Qianfan sat in front of the desk, dried his hair with a hairdryer, and felt much more comfortable.

He waited for the sunset to completely set and the evening breeze to blow slowly before going out to have dinner.

On the way, I ran into some colleagues from the dance troupe, who nodded and said hello, talking and laughing.

Probably because of sleeping all day, Ji Qianfan felt that he was too perfunctory.

But knowing that he was perfunctory, he couldn't take it seriously.

Walking to the door, he was about to turn left to go to the restaurant he often went to, when he caught a glimpse of a figure.

Counting carefully, Ji Qianfan has not seen Gu Ye for three months.The last meeting broke up badly, after that, Gu Ye never came again.Several times at the end of the performance, Ji Qianfan subconsciously went down the stage to search for him.He thought that Gu Ye should appear.but none.In the dark crowd and applause, he was not there.Every time he couldn't see him, Ji Qianfan would feel a gust of emptiness in his heart.

I haven't seen him for three months, but Gu Ye reappeared. Under the setting sun, he got out of the car, closed the car door very neatly, and pushed it lightly. muscle lines.The setting sun shone on him, showing a layer of honey-colored luster.He came around from the car, as if he was about to go in, against the setting sun, he also saw Ji Qianfan who was looking at him.

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Ten minutes later, the two sat down in the restaurant.

There are many people in the restaurant and it is quite noisy.

The waiters were busy moving between the tables.

It was meal time, and the lighting in the restaurant was also very good, just right and mild.

The dishes are exquisite and beautiful, and bring together the rich aroma of Chinese food.

Ji Qianfan often comes to this restaurant, and he has a soft spot for the roast goose and steamed sea bass.

But today he has no appetite at all.

Not because of illness, but because of this person sitting in front of him.

In fact, after such a long time, Ji Qianfan gradually realized his hypocrisy.If it is because of Xu Bohong's avoidance that he no longer dared to believe in love, then Gu Ye showed a completely different side from Xu Bohong.Although Gu Ye has a bad temper and often quarrels with him, there is one thing he never backs down.He made his attitude clear, not giving Ji Qianfan any room for hesitation.Ji Qianfan realized more and more clearly in his heart that the reason why he repeatedly refused and gave in was not because he was afraid that Gu Ye would run away like Xu Bohong.On the contrary, Gu Ye's persistence and firmness were the reasons why he dared not accept it.

There is always a voice in his heart reminding him: Ji Qianfan, do you think you have the ability to bear such a love now?

Two years ago, it became clear to him that he couldn't.

His career was once ruined, but he finally got better. He will not let himself be dragged down by love again.

But two years later, his career is solid and no one can hurt him anymore.

At this time, Gu Ye came back again.

What about him?

Why are you still timid, cowardly, and afraid to accept it?

Ask yourself—but ask yourself, and you can never ask why.

"Gu Ye, you eat." Ji Qianfan heard his own voice coming out of his throat, "This restaurant tastes very good."

Gu Ye was stunned for a moment, with an expression of disbelief on his face.Don't blame him for fussing, it's really that Ji Qianfan's attitude towards him is too indifferent, so that such a simple sentence is full of richer meanings than the sentence itself.He was already ready to be driven back by Ji Qianfan again, and even this time he decided that no matter what Ji Qianfan said or did, he would never get angry or lose his temper.Now Ji Qianfan's attitude has changed so much that he was surprised and didn't know what to say.He picked up the chopsticks, picked up a piece of bacon, hummed, his voice was low and deep, as if he was trying to cover up something deliberately, short, and he couldn't hear any emotion, but the slight upturn in the end finally betrayed the irresistible part in his heart joy.

"I heard that you are sick." Gu Ye said.

Ji Qianfan looked at Gu Ye in surprise, "How did you know?"

He only found out that he was sick in the morning, and no one else saw him except Nan Qiu.

"Did Nan Qiu tell you?"

Gu Ye nodded and said, "Actually, she has been telling me about your situation."

Ji Qianfan opened his mouth in surprise, but couldn't speak.

Nan Qiu actually secretly told Gu Ye about some situations in his life behind his back, Ji Qianfan couldn't think of it.After all, these two people can't get in touch with each other at all.

What's more, Nan Qiu also clearly knows the relationship between him and Gu Ye.

Why did Nan Qiu do this?

Gu Ye looked at Ji Qianfan seriously, and said, "She said you refused to go to the hospital, is that true?"

Ji Qianfan lowered his eyebrows helplessly, and said, "It's not a serious illness. It rained a little when I came back last night, so I caught a cold. I took some medicine, slept a little, and I'm fine now."

He was a little annoyed that Nan Qiu even told Gu Ye about this.

"Don't underestimate the cold."

"Ah."

The people who eat around are chatting while eating, just like them.

In such an atmosphere, Ji Qianfan felt that it would not be good if he kept silent like this, so he asked, "What are you busy with these days?"

After asking this sentence, Ji Qianfan immediately regretted it.

Asking this way seemed like he was complaining that Gu Ye hadn't shown up.

Sure enough, Gu Ye's eyes lit up a little, and he asked meaningfully: "Are you asking why I haven't come to you these days?"

Ji Qianfan didn't know how to refute.

He pursed his lips, hesitated for a moment, and said, "You really haven't shown up for a long time."

Gu Ye smiled.

"I've been flying abroad a few days ago, and I have a few business deals to discuss," he said.

"So it is."

This dinner was eaten very slowly. When the two of them left the restaurant, it was already eight o'clock in the evening, and the night had completely fallen.This neighborhood is not a bustling area, the street lamps are lit up, and a road runs straight ahead, extending under the plane trees on both sides.

Ji Qianfan and Gu Ye walked forward together, and after walking for a while, Ji Qianfan stopped.

"I rejected you a few times before, I'm sorry, it's not because of you, but because of me." Ji Qianfan summoned up his courage and said what he had always wanted to say.

Gu Ye took a deep look at Ji Qianfan and said, "I failed to impress your heart because I wasn't good enough."

Ji Qianfan: "No, you—I said before, I have a crush on you, but it's just my own problem, and it has nothing to do with you."

"Qianfan, the more polite and polite you are, the more alienated I feel." Gu Ye chuckled softly, "Seriously, if you really can't take that step, it doesn't matter, we just want to be friends. Seriously Yes, I haven't seen you these days, I miss you very much. Seriously, now I don't ask so much anymore, and I am content to see you every day. "

The lights of the street lamps staggered among the shadows of the trees, and the sound of the wind was gentle.

Ji Qianfan was silent for a moment, covered his face with his hands, and smiled quietly and soundlessly.

"Gu Ye, do you know? I had a dream today." He said softly, "I dreamed that I was sinking in an ocean. Fish, no coral, no light. Then, I woke up. When I woke up, I opened my eyes and saw the orange sunset. The sunset was very warm, a little unreal. But at that moment, I suddenly I thought, it would be great if you came. If you came, I would hug you and tell you, okay, let’s try together. But that kind of thought only existed for a while, and soon, I hesitated again. Do you know? For countless moments, I wanted to try with you. But in the end, I was timid."

Gu Ye quietly looked into Ji Qianfan's eyes.

After a few seconds of silence, Gu Ye stepped forward and hugged Ji Qianfan, his voice became a little hurried, "Qianfan——"

"Look, I have the courage to tell you everything in my heart, but I don't have the courage to be with you." Ji Qianfan said this with a smile, tears streaming down his face.

Gu Ye refused to let go this time, "If you just don't have the courage, then I won't let go, I will be your courage."