[Net King] Frozen Pseudo-Girl's Heart

He is Seiichi Yukimura, the Son of God once known as Rikkai Dai.

Thinking of this, he can't help but laugh, Son of God?This is too ironic.

He couldn't remember where this irony came from, and when it started.His life seemed to have taken a big turn at a certain moment, and the change caught him off guard.

So, what moment is it?Was it when he stayed in the hospital in despair day after day during the third year of junior high school, when he saw her and wanted to catch up without hesitation but was helpless?Was it when he watched his family decline day by day and had to shoulder the responsibilities he couldn't resist?Or did it start earlier, when they parted ways in the country?

He knew from a young age that he was smart, but he was more precocious and smarter than his peers.Probably his mother died from birth, which also made him more sensitive and hesitant.

Apart from these, his life has been going smoothly until his elementary school father passed away one after another. His hesitation and sensitivity still gave him a bad feeling.The feeling that something was gradually leaving made him confused but helpless.

Thinking of the girl at that time, her small body, the mischievousness she used to have no longer exists, her whole body is filled with holy and soft light, with endless tolerance and warmth.Could it be that at that time she had already become the most important but also the most vulnerable existence in his life?

He thought of that day when he held the little girl in his arms with peace of mind, this little green plum that he probably knew her better than her own, what was he thinking at that time.Is there at least one fully aware being?Or another hesitation?He didn't remember it long ago.

But while it made him sad, he also felt a little hateful. Just as he felt the warmth that he wanted to be locked by his side forever, he quietly left Kanagawa.He left in such a hurry, without even saying goodbye or asking.Of course he felt weird, but at that time, even if he was smart, he couldn't think of that much, and that trace of doubt was gradually replaced by anger when the girl never contacted him again.

Yes, he knew he was angry, and he didn't contact her in return for childish pique.It's just that maybe only he knows that as he grows up and the years go by, he has deposited the most carefree days and beauty in his heart, and he didn't even notice it.

Then, what happened.He has his favorite tennis and passionate partners. He is called the son of God. It seems that everything is developing towards the good side, but he only ignores the dissatisfaction in his heart.

Most people can't get carried away, even he himself feels that as long as he wants to do something in this world, he can't do it well, so he is slapped severely.His body is so weak that he can no longer pick up the tennis ball he once loved, and even his friends who see his blood are no longer pure joy in their hearts.

So what if he had the surgery, so what if he didn't have the surgery, he was broken after all.For life and death, for weakness.For the first time, he felt that God had made such a big joke on him, it was so ironic.

In fact, he doesn't take the surgery seriously. If it succeeds, he may not be able to hold a racket again. He is not even sure whether his body is still weak to the point of weakness. This kind of life may be more difficult for him to face than the failure of surgery.

Until that day, he took a day off from the hospital as usual to go out for a walk.Shan Xiaxi's name once again flooded into his mind like an overwhelming tide.The memory and warmth that he could hide instantly eroded all his mind.

He stood in front of the frame for a long time, until his consciousness came back, and he walked eagerly but firmly to the hospital.From this moment on, his once suppressed liking for extravagance, hope, unwillingness and anger returned again.

They once agreed that they would always be together. When they were young, it seemed that he had always spoiled her, but he also ignored the fact that she was his greatest warmth.How could he be willing to let go like this?

Resolutely decided to have an operation, and he suddenly felt that his life that he thought was collapsing at this moment seemed to be just to point him to another path, and this path was also what his subconscious wanted most.

Later, he seized the time to rebuild, and transferred to Tokyo to be with her regardless of his grandfather's threats and opposition.He should be self-willed once, right? Grandpa's words are still in his ears, but he doesn't want to hear them, and he won't listen.

It wasn't until the moment he stood at the school gate that he felt his heart beating faster, and he could only stop in place.He couldn't explain the complexity and panic in his heart. At the same time his heart skipped a beat and his face turned pale, the girl he was waiting for also came from a distance.

At that moment, he ignored the vague discomfort in his heart, but felt that the phrase "looking back suddenly, that person is in the dimly lit place" suddenly appeared in his mind.Only at this moment can he understand how ridiculous it is to be familiar with Chinese literature without knowing the artistic conception.

But it didn't take long for him to feel emotional. Although the two accompanying the girl made him pause, they still walked towards them firmly.

"Xiaoxi." When he heard his own voice, he felt as if the beating sound of his heartbeat was more obvious.He ignored all kinds of gazes from other people around him, but he couldn't ignore the momentary doubt and strangeness in the eyes of the person he was thinking of.

He thought that his face must have been ugly at that time, but he still tried his best to restrain himself.But there is endless bitterness in his heart, his persistence, the person he was thinking of, but he didn't know him, or even recognize him after only two or three years of separation?

There is a voice in my heart that is shouting, tearing and shouting, his Xi is so likely not to know him, he will be a stranger to him, if it is his girl, absolutely not.

Ignoring those emotions, he clenched his fists and naturally looked at the girl with a bright smile as usual. He kept thinking, after all, Xiaoxi was still young at that time, so it was possible that she was a stranger to him, wasn't it?But why is his heart still beating wildly, as if denying his self-deception.

"Jingshi?" Seeing the young girl calling his name in a small, doubtful voice, the originally bright smile burst into laughter unconsciously.It was the perfect mask he was so used to, covering his endless shouts of loss and anger.

Yes, he was angry, but the girl in front of him was the girl he missed, but she was so strange to him that he would die.So his anger over the years, whether he persisted or missed him, seemed to be a ridiculous one-man show.

Looking at the girl's face as she had when she was a child, it was not wrong that the person in front of her was Xi Shanxia.His eyes and reason told him so, but his heart didn't believe it, and he didn't want to believe it.He didn't want to admit that the girl who looked at her strangely and defensively was Xi Shanxia.

I don't know whether to listen to the voice in my heart or to find some traces to speculate that the girl in front of me is just a stranger who looks like the person he misses, so as to cover up his loss, anger and ridicule towards himself.

Consciously or unconsciously, he was probing, on the one hand he was evading, and on the other hand he wanted to recall the memories of his childhood as a young girl so as to shorten the distance between the two of them.But the more he tried, the more frustrated he became, until he was defeated after many times, he thought, at worst, let's start from the beginning, he is patient, his Xi still cares about him, and the relationship between them does not need others.Because of this, he ignored the slightest violation when getting along during that time.

Later, too many things happened in those two years in the advanced department, which caught him off guard.His eyes became more and more dazzling, and he also discovered the more or less unusual relationship between the Yamashita family and his grandfather, and then the inevitable eyes of Keigo Atobe, and the sudden appearance of Tsunei Isa.

He declared his sovereignty in front of others intentionally or unintentionally, until he saw the girl's eyes when he looked at Fuji Shusuke that day, and his face turned pale in panic.

He will not fail to understand what that look and eyes mean, such dazzling focus and imperceptible shyness, but it is too sudden and still makes him confused.It is precisely because of this that in the end it turned out that Buer sent Xi back, and he kept going all the way.

He was thinking all the way, he knew that there was still some difference between his Xiaoxi and his memory, and he was also puzzled, but he never thought that Xiaoxi seemed to be attracted to Buer?It was also Hengnei Isa's words that seemed to remind him. "Yamashita-san seems to like that guy named Shusuke Fuji very much."

He thought that Keigo Atobe would be the biggest enemy on the road between him and Xi, but he didn't expect that now it was the silent Fujisuke who couldn't see clearly what he was thinking.

That's why he didn't go back to Kanagawa that holiday, he just wanted to stay in Tokyo to have more chances to get along with the girl, but he only saw the girl during the whole holiday and never saw anyone again.Also because he didn't return to Kanagawa, he didn't pay attention to anything because he was ignorant, which made him helpless in all the following things, leaving him with a sense of powerlessness.

So when he was forced to go back to Kanagawa with Hengnei Isa, and stayed at the master's house for various reasons, Xi and the Yamashita couple had a car accident.He was well concealed, and he didn't know what happened two days ago until the day before he went to the mourning hall to worship.

To be honest, he felt very complicated and heavy when he saw her.At such a moment, he was not by her side, not even the last person to know the news.Seeing Keigo Atobe standing tightly by the girl's side like the owner and protector.Only then did he start laughing at himself.

Whether it's laughing at my incompetence or laughing at myself thinking that I have deep affection, in the end it's more like empty talk.He felt that standing in front of her at that time was really ashamed, and he couldn't even say a word.What can he say.

It's just that this kind of mood was wiped out by Xiaoxi who told her that he would come to visit within a few days. He was worried about her but he couldn't do anything and didn't know what to do for her.She can still come to visit at this time, doesn't she, she also has him a little bit in her heart.He didn't know and didn't dare to hope. Since when did he become so unconfident?

Seeing his grandpa staring at Xi in a daze, he had a bad premonition in his heart. Later, when his grandpa paid him out and came back, the two of them acted like nothing had happened and they were talking and laughing, which made him even more worried. Puzzled.He felt that something was getting out of control, which made him wonder and fear, but he had to explore it.

It was just when he was just thinking about whether he was too weak and should become stronger and check out all the contradictions and doubts he felt was wrong, she asked him out on his birthday.

His good mood also fell to the bottom when he saw the other two uninvited guests at that time, and he glanced at Xiao Xi at that time with some unknown meaning.Even if she explained it later, it was for the sake of excitement or embarrassment.At this moment, he didn't want to admit it. He actually understood it instantly when he saw the other two.

At that time, looking at the girl's still soft face, the anger he felt when he left for the first time covered up the feeling that his heart was being grabbed.

But she still went to the arena with her fiancee who became Keigo Atobe in name, but she didn't even give him a look, and her eyes were full of comparisons with others.These are not worth mentioning when hearing that her disappearance is uncertain.And her disappearance seems to be inextricably linked to the Yukimura family.

He just wanted to make a powerful move and investigate everything, but he couldn't move an inch. He didn't have the strength and courage at all.Only at this time did he realize how ridiculous he was before, he was no match for the powerful Keigo Atobe or even the Fuji Shusuke who was always by her side when she had an accident.

This feeling was so bad that he couldn't wait to find his grandfather even if he had only a little doubt.Even he looks like the most suspicious one.

Although he didn't have evidence, just like what the Ministry of History said, there are some things that he can't think of.His aggressive look made him even more suspicious.

He knew some of the past, and seeing his grandfather's appearance, his doubts became hesitant.He has nothing to do now, although grandpa doesn't seem to have a problem, but it must have something to do with their Yukimura family.It's just that now, not to mention continuing to search for clues, even he himself has no way to be forced to marry.

Yes, since he was a child, he knew that children in big families would have this day, but he thought his result would be what he wanted, but it was just his thinking.

He doesn't have the ability to resist now, and Hengnei Isa's method appeared in a timely manner, which is tempting, but he also knows that it is not that simple.

It's just that now, he's too busy to take care of himself, so he can only think again.

After more than a year passed like this, many things became logical. Although it was late, he was also working hard to become stronger.There has been no news from Xi for so long, although he has never given up, he is still powerless.Is it going to go on like this?

Just when he was about to give up completely, a woman appeared, the sudden heir of the Kaga family, Kaga Yingzhi, who looked exactly like Xiao Xi.

He investigated her, and saw the indifferent expression and chilling eyes on the face of this woman named Kaga Yingzhi.He hesitated for the first time, is she his Xi?His impression has always been of the girl obediently calling him 'Brother Jingshi' and looking at him softly.But no matter what, he had to check for himself.

Later, the Yukimura family began to experience crises in all aspects, and the main family began to decline.Grandma also became strange and unexpected, until he gradually realized the difference, and stayed in Tokyo as if he didn't know anything.

He did not return to Kanagawa, but his heart was bitter.Sometimes it's really hard to choose between left and right.Is not it.

The last time he saw that woman, Kaga Kageyuki for the first time, was at the banquet where Sato and Kaga's family got engaged.

He admitted what kind of purpose and complicated mood he had come here, he stopped her, and asked a seemingly impolite question in the cold and strange eyes of the other party.

He checked her, but it didn't stop him from wanting to see and ask her in person.This is an obsession he will not give up.

Later, she went back and forth to take the initiative to answer his question, but he was in a trance for a while. When he watched her raise the glass for the first and last time and watched him drink with him intently, he still couldn't refuse. Drink the wine in your hand.He can't get rid of her, can't he, even if Kaga Kageyuki is just Kaga Kageyuki, he can't get rid of her as long as she looks like this.

After leaving the banquet, probably only one random word can be used to describe it.He was tempted to say he didn't remember anything about that crazy night.Probably only he himself knows that he still has a trace of clarity, he remembers a lot.It's just that the figure possessed by him is the face he misses day and night.

After that, things were logical and smooth and boring.He felt that his heart had never been so calm at this moment. He knew that he could only put all his thoughts and thoughts in his heart in the future, and he could no longer take any action.

Heng Nei got pregnant, unexpected and expected, and then got engaged and married.At the end of his freshman year, he had a son.His facial features are three-dimensional, and he is a good-looking child.He thought he would educate him to be a future worthy heir.

"Father!" A delicate voice came from not far away, breaking his distant thoughts.Habitually squat down and hug the little man who rushed up.He unconsciously smiled in Fangrou's voice: "Xiaoxi, do you miss Dad?"

"Yeah, Xiaoxi misses Dad." The delicate little girl put her arms around his neck, her facial features were soft and very similar to his.It's just the warm and soft breath all over his body that made him feel at ease.

His youngest daughter, Yukimura Yaki.From the moment she was born, when the little baby opened his eyes and looked at him, the brilliance of his soft gaze softened his entire mind.

He thinks that his little daughter is all his hope and sunshine, making his past 30 years draw a perfect ending.