Simple addition of male gods and male gods

Cheng Yuexi walked in front of Zeng Qi, only a few steps away from him. After Zeng Qi asked this, Cheng Yuexi also stopped and looked back at Zeng Qi.

The weather turned cold at the end of October, the leaves of the ginkgo trees planted in the community were turning yellow, the morning sun penetrated the thin mist and sprinkled on the road, a little girl who was going to go to cram school ran past the two of them with her schoolbag on her back , the child's mother chased the child and said, "Run slower."

The little girl said, "Mom, hurry up, or I'll be late."

The voices of other people spread into the world of Cheng Yuexi and Zeng Qi. Cheng Yuexi saw that the mother and daughter had gone away, and said to Zeng Qi: "Zeng Qi, I think, you don't understand me, and I don't understand you very well either. meaning. If you want, we can talk."

This was what Zeng Qi wished for, but he was a little afraid of Cheng Yuexi's painful words.

Zeng Qi already understood his feelings for Cheng Yuexi, but only when he was an undergraduate, he was full of blood, and he had a strong desire to pursue and possess Cheng Yuexi, but at that time, he also understood that Cheng Yuexi had no love for him.

Zeng Qi is not a reckless person. After some weighing, he gave up pursuing Cheng Yuexi and put all his mind on his studies; after that, he often thought of his feelings for Cheng Yuexi. This feeling is like a bodhi tree The bowl of clear water on the mirror platform, when he didn't pay attention to it, seemed to be empty, but as long as he put his attention away, it illuminated his mind so clearly.

Zeng Qi even thought that maybe he would fall in love with someone else in the future. He had met so many outstanding women, and some people had given him signals. Or at least feeling more than friendship for one of these people, but really not at all.

He thought that he was originally a person with not strong feelings, and he liked to cross the river, and because of this, he had experienced so many thoughts, tossings, jealousy and fear, it was really difficult to have such feelings for another person again.

The most important thing is that he doesn't really put much of his mind on love, and he really doesn't want to get in touch with another person and fall in love with him.

When he suddenly learned that Zhao Jingxin had passed away, he could pursue Cheng Yuexi. Zeng Qi didn't have time to fully sort out his thoughts. What was he going to do?

Before yesterday, Zeng Qi never thought that he would spend his life with another person. He had his own career plan and life plan, but there was no picture of living with another person and going to the end of life together, even if that People are Cheng Yuexi, it is one thing to love someone, but it is another thing to spend a lifetime with this person.

It was last night that Zeng Qi started to think about this question.

He found that he actually longed to live and live with Cheng Yuexi in his heart, but this expectation was as fragile as a blown soap bubble, although it was colorful under the light, it could collapse in the blink of an eye.

Zeng Qi thought that it would be good to talk, so as not to waste time.

Cheng Yuexi said: "OK, let's talk while walking."

He put his hands in the pockets of the windbreaker, and stared back at Zeng Qi. Although he was not in a good mood, his eyes were as gentle as ever.

The two went to the underground parking lot, Zeng Qi drove the car, Cheng Yuexi sat in the passenger seat, and said: "Zeng Qi, I don't know if I misunderstood, you want to tell me, you..."

He hesitated for a moment, then turned to look at Zeng Qi's face and said, "Do you like me?"

"That kind of liking is not just the feeling of a friend." When Cheng Yuexi said this, there was a trace of pain in Cheng Yuexi's eyes.

Zeng Qi was going to reverse the car out of his parking space, but he didn't move at this time. He thought, it's better to say drive, because he and Cheng Yuexi are both at this age, and the time of "acting on emotions" has long passed.

In his senior year, Cheng Yuexi could hide from him for several months because he invited him to bed together. Now, even if the two quarreled today, the next day, if there is a possibility of cooperation at work, the two of them Face to face as always.

Zeng Qi said solemnly: "That's right."

If the relationship is talked about like a negotiation on the negotiating table, and even everything is put on the bright side, then some people will think that there is nothing to talk about in this relationship, and it is too boring.

But neither Cheng Yuexi nor Zeng Qi seems to be the kind of person who likes to test their relationship.

It's better to say something, Cheng Yuexi turned his eyes slightly, not daring to look directly at Zeng Qi, he can play Tai Chi with anyone else for his own benefit, but he hopes that there will be no twists and turns in his relationship with Zeng Qi Winding around, the relationship between the two can be like a mirror.

Cheng Yuexi said: "Zeng Qi, why do you... like me, I don't quite understand."

Zeng Qi: "I don't understand better than you, why don't you like me? You can actually like Zhao Jingxin, why don't you like me? Aren't you and I closer and have more conversations than Zhao Jingxin?"

Cheng Yuexi was stunned by his words, Zhao Jingxin passed away, Cheng Yuexi didn't want to talk about him with others, if he talked about Zhao Jingxin, Cheng Yuexi would feel sad and breathless.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Zeng Qi got a little annoyed and said, "Look at you, think about the things between the two of us. Since high school, we have been together, eating together, reading good books together, Discuss questions that you don’t know how to do, play basketball together, swim together, watch movies together, if I tell you anything about me, I know it, you won’t betray me, you won’t be jealous of me, you won’t have Any thoughts that harm me, any difficulties I encounter, you will stand by my side and help me... Don't you think so?"

Hearing that Zeng Qi still talked about his youthful feelings in the tone of his youth, Cheng Yuexi was indeed moved, but he had to say to Zeng Qi: "That's right, but this is friendship, Zeng Qi."

Zeng Qi waved his hand and said, "You asked me why I like you, because I have the same affection for you as you do for me. And I don't think it's friendship. I saw you and Zhao Jingxin together, I'm so jealous that I wish Zhao Jingxin was such a scumbag, you don't like him any more immediately, and you still only play with me."

Cheng Yuexi said helplessly: "Zeng Qi, this may not be love."

Zeng Qi said: "You insisted on asking me why I like you, so I told you that. Why do you think mine is not love?"

Cheng Yuexi smiled bitterly: "Because you are not gay. You just value me too much."

Zeng Qi said: "You already know I'm not?"

Cheng Yuexi couldn't laugh or cry, put his hand on Zeng Qi's shoulder, and said, "Yes, I knew you were not."

Zeng Qi frowned, he wanted to be angry, but seeing Cheng Yuexi's distressed expression that seemed to be helpless for him, he couldn't be angry anymore, so he could only say: "Then why did you think that Zhao Jingxin loved you before? Because he wanted to To sleep with you? You are so good-looking, such a nice person, anyone could want to sleep with you. Is there anything special about that? I think I have a better body than him. Wouldn't I be more attractive to you? "

Cheng Yuexi was about to be dizzy by his logic, so he had no choice but to say: "You haven't thought about what it means to live with a man; you haven't thought about what it means for other aspects of your life. What influence; you have never thought about why you like men instead of women; you have never thought about how your liking for men affects you and why you are like this. You have never thought about these, Isn't it? Your mind has never turned on these things. Your thoughts are just what you want and whether you can get it. You don't think about what this kind of thinking means in other people's concepts. "

Although what Cheng Yuexi said about him was all on point, Zeng Qi didn't think there was anything wrong with thinking like this, and he didn't know what it had to do with loving Cheng Yuexi.

He pondered for a moment, and said, "Do you have to think about it? Because you have thought about it?"

Cheng Yuexi leaned on the back of the chair and said, "Yeah, because I have thought about it. But you have never thought about it, so you are not gay at all."

Zeng Qi had no choice but to think about it for a while, and he said: "That can only mean that I don't have the social attributes of being gay, or that I don't have social thoughts about loving you. I don't think so, I didn't think about it. , I lose the qualification to love you. Of course, since you reminded me, I will think about those things you just mentioned, because those are things you have thought about, so, I think if I think about it too, I can understand why you have no love for me."

Cheng Yuexi was even more helpless, and said: "You are not gay, you don't need to think about that. Don't you understand what I mean? You are not gay. I don't even understand why you keep staring at me. I think, You are simply too busy at work, and you never thought about falling in love with other people, or wanting to admire girls, so you are entangled in my matter. Zeng Qi, you are wasting your eyes on me. time."

He looked at Zeng Qi sincerely, "You make me feel very guilty towards you, do you understand? Why did you get married abnormally, but keep your eyes on me."

Zeng Qi asked: "Yuexi, is that why you are going to Beijing? Because you don't want me to focus on you."

Cheng Yuexi said: "There's nothing wrong with going back to Beijing. I used to settle in City S, but I only spend a month or two in City S every year at most. Most of the time I'm still in Beijing, or on business trips elsewhere."

Zeng Qi raised his hand and rubbed his forehead, and said, "You just made me dizzy by talking so much."

Cheng Yuexi said in his heart that I was going to be fainted by you.

Zeng Qi said: "Let's not talk about those social attributes for the time being, shall we?"

Cheng Yuexi: "I didn't mean to talk about that."

Zeng Qi: "Then don't talk about that."

He looked at Cheng Yuexi eagerly, and said: "Yuexi, I love you, and I want to try to live with you. Although I am busy with work, I may not have that much thought to keep thinking about your thoughts, but, I really love you, you know, I am willing to give you everything I have. Will you give me a chance and try to be with me? If you really have no love for me in the future, there is no way to be with me , I have nothing to say, I will not ask you like this again, we just continue to be brothers."

Cheng Yuexi: "..."

After all, Zeng Qi still meant the same thing.

Cheng Yuexi didn't wait for him to continue, and refused sternly: "Zeng Qi, I'm afraid I want to make you sad, but I don't want to."

Zeng Qi's disappointment and pain couldn't be concealed at all. Seeing him so sad, Cheng Yuexi's heart seemed to be broken at that moment, and the pain of his soul was like a crack opened in clear glass. Seeing that there was only one, but it immediately It spread with lightning speed until it covered all corners.

His original intention was clearly that he didn't want Zeng Qi to suffer any harm.