The whole world is knocking me and the queen's CP

The incandescent lamp in the changing room illuminated the whole room brightly, and Ye Zhuyi could clearly see Tian Ting's familiar yet unfamiliar facial expression, which was a gentleness she had rarely seen.

In Tian Ting's memory, sometimes when she is in a good mood, she will suddenly remember that she still has a daughter like her, and when she is happy, she will take her to the set. At that time, Tian Ting will also show such a gentle and kind side, squatting in front of Ye Zhuyi, He told her: "When I enter the studio later, you can't call me mom, but you have to call me auntie, do you know?"

Such a Tian Ting is too rare, and Ye Zhuyi especially cherishes the rare moments of tenderness, so even if Tian Ting introduces her to others as a child of a friend's family, she will still cooperate with Tian Ting and call Tian Ting "Auntie" ” instead of “Mom.”

Most of the time, Tian Ting looks drunk, and when she gets drunk, she will hold him in the water with a grim face, and say over and over again, "Why don't you die. How easy it is for me to die. When she sobered up, Tian Ting would cry and hold her, who was drenched and dying, and said in a broken voice, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry. It's all my mother's fault."

Whenever Ye Zhuyi shivered and curled up into a ball, grandma would hold her in her arms, sing nursery rhymes softly, and pat her on the back to comfort her: "One by one, don't be afraid, grandma is here. One by one, Don't blame your mother, it's not easy for her."

Grandma always said this to her, saying that Tian Ting was young and ignorant and misjudged the wrong person, and she was pregnant with that person's child, but that person married someone else; she said that Tian Ting suffered a lot when she was pregnant with her; Making money is also to support her.

Ye Zhuyi believed it, so even if Tian Ting drank too much and went crazy to torture her later, she still had a little expectation and hope for Tian Ting.

She looks forward to the day when her mother can let go of the past, and she hopes that her mother can accept her as a daughter one day.

Instead of treating her like a cat or a dog, tease her a few times when she is happy, and beat and scold her at will when she is unhappy, or... just give it to others.

But that glimmer of expectation and hope finally disappeared with grandma's departure.

When Ye Zhuyi first followed her adoptive mother's family to the United States, Ye Zhuyi really thought that Tian Ting would, as she had promised, make video calls with her grandmother on a regular basis, take time to visit her, and pick her up to celebrate her grandmother's birthday.

But what she waited for day after day was nothing but disappointment.

She never thought that when she said goodbye at the beginning, it would be her whole life.

She never thought that one day it would be herself who couldn't let go.

"One by one." Tian Ting whispered softly, really like a mother calling her daughter's nickname affectionately, "You entered the circle for the sake of perfection, right?"

"Don't call me that, and don't call her that." Ye Zhuyi said coldly, "Why I entered the circle should have nothing to do with Teacher Tian, ​​right?"

Tian Ting looked at Ye Zhuyi quietly for a while, and the gentleness between her brows faded a lot. She brushed her hair from the sideburns, and sighed, "Do you have to be so thorny when you talk to me?"

"I know that the decision I made back then hurt you, but it was a helpless move." Tian Ting took a breath, her eyes turned red, "I can do my best to make up for what you want now, can you forgive... Mother."

The last two words lost their final sound, so soft that they were almost inaudible.

Lu Buping is right, it is a pity that Tian Ting does not continue to act, a talented player, a natural actor.

Ye Zhuyi lowered her eyelashes, she didn't speak for a long time, the hand hanging by her side was tightly clenched, trembling, the pain of nails sinking into the palm was far less clear than the pain of the hole in her heart being torn open .

A low laugh abruptly broke the silence.

"Okay, I forgive you." Ye Zhuyi said softly.

Tian Ting's eyes lit up, and the corners of her raised lips froze on her cheeks when she saw Ye Zhuyi's red eyes, and her smile faded away little by little.

When she took Ye Zhuyi to the set before, many people would praise "this kid has beautiful eyes", Ye Zhuyi's eyes are very similar to that person, the amber pupils are like glass beads, clear and translucent.

But now the eyes are red, even the whites of the eyes are red, bloodshot and full of water, as if tears of blood will flow in the next second.

"I forgive you." Ye Zhuyi's voice was full of laughter, but it sounded sad, "Can you return grandma to me?"

Can you give her back the person who was the best to her in this world?

How can a dead person be returned?

Tian Ting suddenly remembered that in the second year after the old lady died, Ye Zhuyi finally went back to the country. When she saw the gray and white photos in the room, she was silent for a long time. When she raised her eyes, her eyes were blood red, staring at She looked, full of resentment and disappointment.

Not a single tear, not a single question.

Tian Ting felt a little pain in her chest, like being pricked by a needle, and she opened her mouth, unable to speak for a while.

Ye Zhuyi turned around and walked to the door.

Tian Ting suddenly came back to her senses and recovered her voice: "You like Qin Zhizhen, right? It's not a normal liking."

Ye Zhuyi stopped, and her hands hit the lock.

"You should know how chaotic the circle is after entering this circle, and how low the public's tolerance for female actors is. Are you going to destroy her? Also, would Mr. Qin allow his granddaughter to be ambiguous with a woman? ?”

Ye Zhuyi ignored it, and the lock was turned with a "click".

"Do you know what happened to Qin Zhizhen's parents?" Tian Ting asked anxiously.

Ye Zhuyi held the doorknob with her hand, without making any further moves, she quietly waited for Tian Ting's next words.

Tian Ting breathed a sigh of relief, her shoulders slumped because of slack, "Her father cheated on a man. The traffic accident was caused by a dispute between the husband and wife, and her mother snatched the steering wheel."

This was something she didn't know, Ye Zhuyi clenched the doorknob, and asked in a hoarse voice: "So, what exactly are you trying to say?"

"So why did Qin Zhizhen even forget you? He is such a good friend, so good that he is inseparable in everything." Tian Ting stared at Ye Zhuyi's back, a trace of struggle flashed in her eyes, and continued cruelly: " Because she is afraid, and she is also afraid that you will be like her father. The pain that people have finally forgotten, your appearance and your approach may remind her of all the painful past that she has finally forgotten! So if you really like her, you should Stay away from her."

The air conditioner in the room is fully turned on, and even blowing on the body makes people feel a little cold.

The opening in Ye Zhuyi's heart widened even wider, and the cold wind poured into her heart from the open pores, her whole body was cold, so cold that her mind became more and more clear when thinking about things.

From the moment she decided to step into the entertainment industry, she stepped on Tian Ting's nerves.Tian Ting is always worried that one day the paper will not be able to cover the fire.

So from the last day of the draft competition, her votes were suppressed by half, but the "bamboo shoots" were so strong that she forced her votes to be the same as No.3 Yuwei.

So no matter how talented she is in acting, she will always be in the third line.

So Tian Ting has been a wealthy wife for so many years without acting, but she took the initiative to contact Lu Buping to play the role of Shen's mother, just to get close to her and talk to her personally.

Ye Zhuyi closed her eyes, the sourness seemed to flow from her eyes to the bottom of her heart.

So she should stay away from Qin Zhizhen, so she should stay away from the entertainment industry, this is what Tian Ting wants to say.

"Mr. Tian, ​​if you really want to make up for me, you should stay away from me. As long as you don't deliberately approach me, no one will know our relationship." Ye Zhuyi turned the doorknob, "Are you relieved?"

Tian Ting's body trembled violently. She stared closely at Ye Zhuyi's back, watched Ye Zhuyi's figure being hidden by the door, and heard Ye Zhuyi's voice so light that it was almost covered by the sound of the door closing.

Are you relieved?

She knows everything.

Something wet and cool fell on her face, and Tian Ting seemed to see in her blurred vision that her mother was holding Ye Zhuyi when she was a child, waiting for her to go home in the yard of her hometown.

This child was like an ice sculpture since she was a child. At first, when she saw her, the child would purse her lips and smile, and call her "Mom" timidly.

The moment the tears fell, Tian Ting's fantasy scene was like broken bubbles. Her mother had been dead for many years, and her first child...was given to someone else...

"Yiyi, me." Tian Ting staggered a step, and whispered to herself, "I have been looking forward to your birth, and I have tried..."

She tried to accept it in the past, but in the end she was the one who abandoned the child with her own hands, which became a painful past that the child had finally forgotten.

She couldn't even remember the day Ye Zhuyi stopped calling her "Mom".

She will never call her "Mom" again.

Ye Zhuyi outside the house was leaning against the door panel, she heard Tian Ting's last sentence, heard Tian Ting's sobs, she stood motionless like a puppet whose soul had been taken out.

She hid herself in the darkness, hunched her back and shrunk her shoulders.

When Xiao Qiao vaguely heard the movement and came out to check, she almost felt distressed when she saw this scene.

The child is so fragile that it looks like it will shatter when touched, but he still pretends to be strong and says, "I'm fine."

Over and over again, fooling ourselves.

Ye Zhuyi adjusted her mood, and waited for the redness in her eyes to fade before returning to the hotel.

When she went back, the suite was not as dark as she thought. There was a small mushroom lamp in the living room emitting a faint warm light. Qin Zhizhen nestled on the sofa, heard the sound of the door opening, and looked over sleepily.

"I thought you were abducted?" Qin Zhizhen pressed the screen of his mobile phone, it was one o'clock in the morning, and he came back late enough.

Ye Zhuyi was stunned: "Are you waiting for me?"

Qin Zhizhen hummed lightly, and said awkwardly, "I got up to drink water."

After returning from the set, Qin Zhizhen's unhappiness has faded a lot. She attributed the unhappiness to Ye Zhuyi's thinking about others through her, but after thinking about it, because a forehead kiss seems to be excusable when thinking about her ex... ... ex, it is normal to have an ex.

But she put on a face to Ye Zhuyi because of this kind of thing, and deliberately didn't wait for Ye Zhuyi to come back together.

The more he thought about it, the more he felt that something was wrong. Qin Zhizhen wanted to wait for Ye Zhuyi to come back and invite her to watch the stars together for a while, so as to ease the current relationship.But after waiting and waiting, Ye Zhuyi didn't come back. When she got a little sleepy, she left a small night light for Ye Zhuyi in the living room, and then went back to bed.

As a result, Qin Zhizhen tossed and turned on the bed and couldn't fall asleep. He opened and closed the door several times and looked at the dark living room in a daze.

In the end, it became like this, she nestled on the sofa in the living room, waiting for Ye Zhuyi to fall asleep.

But Qin Zhizhen wanted to save face, and she didn't want to admit it.

Ye Zhuyi glanced at the coffee table. There was no water cup on the coffee table. She curled her lips and did not expose Qin Zhizhen.Ye Zhuyi walked up to the small mushroom lamp step by step and squatted down, the warm yellow light fell on her hands, warm, dripping down her fingertips into her heart.

Is the little mushroom lamp that I have never seen before, is it specially reserved for her by Zhenzhen?Ye Zhuyi poked the mushroom lamp with his hand, and the dimples on his cheeks opened.

What Tian Ting said suddenly jumped out of her mind, and Ye Zhuyi curled up her fingers in panic as if she had been electrocuted.

This woman is always the most aware of her weaknesses, and knows how to make her compromise... Just like how she cruelly reminded her that Qin Zhizhen no longer remembered her in order to let her go abroad.

Now it was like this again, spreading another truth in front of her.

So for Zhenzhen, is she also trying to forget the painful past?

"What's the matter? Got electrocuted?" Qin Zhizhen saw that she suddenly withdrew her fingers, from a happy face to a painful expression, without caring much, grabbed Ye Zhuyi's hand and examined it carefully.

The beam of the night light slanted on Qin Zhizhen's face, and Ye Zhuyi could clearly see the worried expression on Qin Zhizhen's face.

The hand holding her was so warm, she couldn't bear to break free at all.

Ye Zhuyi rolled her throat, "Zhenzhen, can you..."

Can she be allowed to be selfish?

She can carefully hide other feelings, just want to return to the original friendship, is that okay?

Can you go back to her side.

Can you not let go of her hand...

"Huh?" Qin Zhizhen carefully looked at Ye Zhuyi's fingers and confirmed that there was nothing wrong with them, so he let go, "Can you do something?"

Ye Zhuyi looked away and looked at the little mushroom night lamp: "Can you give me this little mushroom?"

"Yes." Qin Zhizhen didn't think about it.

Ye Zhuyi smiled, she turned off the light of Little Mushroom, unplugged it, put it in her arms like a treasure, and looked deeply at the person in front of her in the dark: "It's getting late, go back to sleep."

Qin Zhizhen nodded: "You too."

The two went back to their rooms.

Qin Zhizhen suddenly thought that she forgot to invite Ye Zhuyi to watch the stars together. When she turned around, Ye Zhuyi had already entered the room and closed the door.

Forget it, let's talk about it tomorrow.

Thinking so, Qin Zhizhen entered the room, and before closing the door, she glanced at Ye Zhuyi's door again, and pursed her lips.

Someone seemed to have forgotten to say good night to her too.

Qin Zhizhen didn't know that behind that door, Ye Zhuyi curled herself up into a ball, hugged the dim mushroom lamp and melted into the darkness, whispering softly:

"Zhenzhen, good night."

The author has something to say: QAQ sorry for being late

家里出了点事感谢在2021-01-1923:42:22~2021-01-2104:17:27期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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