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It has been two full days since Xie Jing locked himself in the room without saying a word.Except for eating and going to the toilet, he didn't step out of the door. The door that was already open was now tightly closed to Liu Xuejuan.

On the surface, Liu Xuejuan was calm and calm, cooking and washing clothes as before, and opening the door to small restaurants without any change. Only Xie Jing could feel that she was relentless and oppressive to him under her silence and calmness. To her, Xie Jing is like a fish that throws itself into a net, as long as she waits until Xie Jing in the net runs out of oxygen and surrenders.

Xie Jing knew in his heart that she was waiting for him to surrender, make a promise to sever the past, and be the obedient and sensible Xie Jing before, but Xie Jing knew better that it was impossible for him to separate from Rong Min.That's why he used this method of evasion. If he didn't listen, look, or speak, he wouldn't feel the pressure, he could breathe a breath of oxygen in the exhausted struggle, and he could find a ray of courage to persevere in the endless despair. .

The mobile phone at hand rang again and again, without looking, Xie Jing knew that there were already 160 five missed calls displayed, and there was only one caller's name, Rong Min.

In the past two days, besides refusing to communicate with Liu Xuejuan, Xie Jing also cut off his contact with Rong Min, letting the other end call tirelessly, letting himself suffer in longing.In this way, he made up for the harm he did to Liu Xuejuan and the disappointment to Xie Wangshan, as if in this kind of pain, the sense of guilt in his heart was lessened.

But the more he wants to see but doesn't see, the more Xie Jing understands that Rong Min has become an existence like air in his life.When he was eating, he would think of Rong Min who said that he would make a cheese rib pot for him in a few days; when he was taking a bath, he would think of Rong Min's tender eyes when he wiped his back; when he was in a daze, he would think of Rong Min's pillow The appearance of reading a book with your lap... When a person fills up every corner of your life, what does that mean?Your life will be shared with it, inseparable.

The glass window pasted with the old school schedule made a crackling sound, and after the dense water droplets hit it, water streaks rolled out, blurring the world outside the window, and also splashing fine water droplets flew through the half-open window and fell into it. in the room.

The rain in Xiacheng is like this. It comes when you say it, and leaves when you say it.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, as if a water curtain had been set up between the sky and the earth, the outside of the window was gray, and there was a constant crackling sound on the window sill, Xie Jing hurriedly got up to close the window.

He used to grow a lot of plants on the window sill, including the most inconspicuous mint, cactus covered with burrs, jasmine with small white flowers always discreetly, and half-dead gemstone flowers picked up by the roadside, The branches of the plants that had been with him in the past were trembling and crumbling under the impact of the rain, and the water in the flower pots began to rise higher and higher.

Xie Jing couldn't help feeling distressed when he saw it, he quickly rolled up his sleeves, and put them down from the window sill one by one.

In the end, only a pot of jasmine on the outer edge of the window sill was left. Because it has been raised for the longest time, it has grown luxuriantly, with green and white leaves, and the outstretched branches pass through a row of vertical iron fences to infinite The space grows unscrupulously.

Worried about breaking the delicate branches, Xie Jing had to stretch out most of his body, exposed to the wind and rain, and use his hands to pull back the parts that grew outside.

In the bitter cold wind, the bean-sized raindrops hit his body, and suddenly chills spread all over the place. Xie Jing subconsciously lowered his head to avoid it. His eyes quickly slid across the bottom, and suddenly stopped at a certain position. After more than ten seconds of freezing, He blinked vigorously, and after repeating this confirmation twice, he rushed out of the room as if the start button had been pressed.

Liu Xuejuan in the kitchen heard the sound of his door opening, and came out of the kitchen with a handful of green onions in her hand. She lowered her head, her eyes fell on her dexterous dancing fingers, so as to conceal her With anticipation surging in his eyes, he asked in a low voice, "How about it, have you thought it through?"

Xie Jing's movement of changing shoes froze, he didn't dare to look at Liu Xuejuan, even the movement of tying the shoelaces was a lot slower, but after all he stood up and walked out of the house.

Liu Xuejuan stared blankly at the empty entrance, her arms hang down weakly, her unsupported body leaned against the wall, her tired eyes stared at the photo of Xie Wangshan on the cabinet, for a long time, as if she had accumulated enough strength, she Slowly straightened his back and walked back to the kitchen.

Xie Jing, who didn't care about anything else, rushed downstairs as fast as he could, and ran to the place he saw on the window sill just now, but there was no one there.Xie Jing was absolutely sure that what he saw was not a hallucination, he spun around like crazy in the pouring rain, searching, but he couldn't find that person.

In the end, he had no choice but to give up and squat down on the spot, with his arms tightly around his calves. He had discarded the umbrella while searching for it. He let the rain hit him, and his whole body was soaked.

Originally thought that temporarily cutting off contact was the best punishment for him, so he bit his tongue to bleed and restrained himself. However, he wanted to see him, hear his voice, and feel his body temperature. The thought is like another personality full of lust living in his body clamoring with desire and dissatisfaction, and even automatically produced the hallucination that he appeared.

This is simply a poison that can't be quit after being infected, Xie Jing smiled wryly.

At this moment, the rain that kept falling overhead suddenly disappeared without a trace, and a pair of black leather shoes appeared in front of Xie Jing's eyes.

The visitor sighed helplessly and reluctantly, and said softly, "Get up."

Xie Jing didn't raise his head and didn't move, "You hide, why don't you hide, isn't it funny to see me being stupid?" He wanted to question him loudly for avoiding seeing, but the words turned into a nasal voice With heavy complaints, Xie Jing scolded himself for being spineless in his heart.

Rong Min squatted down with him, and looked at him secretly.His cheeks were slightly red, his breathing was strong, and he seemed to be in good health, but the two touches of blue under the eyelids and the slight maroon color on his lips proved that he was not in a good mental state.

I couldn't see it for a while, but it made me feel so distressed. Rong Min's heart was moved, but his expression was still calm. He stretched out his thumb to wipe off the mud splashed on Xie Jing's face, and said in a gentle tone that the two of them understood each other. Xuan fact: "I thought you wouldn't want me to show up."

"I..." Seeing his own figure reflected in those eyes as deep as the sea, Xie Jing opened his mouth and closed it again, with a dejected expression on his face.He also told himself the same, but all his persistence completely collapsed the second he saw Rong Min. It turned out that he longed for Rong Min's appearance more than anyone else. It turned out that lies of this level had never deceived Rong Min, nor did he over himself.

Rong Min stretched out his hand and pressed Xie Jing's head on his shoulder, his fingers ran through his wet black hair, and combed it over and over again, his lips lightly pressed against Xie Jing's cold earlobe, and whispered: "It's okay , I know, I know, so it doesn't matter."

"Really?" Xie Jing Xu grabbed Rong Min's collar.

Putting his bluish-white fingers into his palm, Rong Min said with an unquestionable certainty, "Of course." If this is the price he has to pay for reaping the final fruit, then he doesn't mind tasting this kind of sweet pain torment.

Received Rong Min's affirmative answer, Xie Jing avoided his gaze and rubbed his eyes.After a while, he held Rong Min's hand holding the umbrella and stood up, opened his red eyes, looked carefully at Rong Min's whole body, and said, "Go back."

Rong Min nodded, and added, as if worried, "Go back and take a hot bath immediately, dry your hair, and don't forget to take cold medicine. No matter what, you still have to eat well and sleep well." , I can’t do such a stupid thing like running out to find me in the rain..."

Hearing Rong Min's concern as before, Xie Jing smiled, "Understood, you can go back and wait for me at home."

Rong Min smiled and said, "I'll wait for you at home."

Xie Jing finally took a deep look at Rong Min, turned around and rushed into the rain.

Rong Min's gentle breath still lingered on his fingertips. In the cold winter rain, Xie Jing's body felt warm and harmonious. However, after seeing the things at the door of his house, his heart felt as if a bucket of ice water had been poured on his head. The hair is cold.

His backpack was thrown on the concrete floor in the aisle, and the phone was broken in half, and even the back case fell out. It is conceivable how disgusted the person who threw them out was.

Xie Jing's heart skipped a beat, and an ominous premonition popped up in his head. He didn't bring the key with him when he went out, so he could only slam on the door and slam it hard, and shouted inside: "Mom, open the door for me, Mom !mom!"

These repeated calls did not call out Liu Xuejuan, but the neighbor next door opened the door. Grandma Li asked Xie Jing through the anti-theft iron door: "Xiao Jing, what's wrong?"

Both Xie Jing and Liu Xuejuan were unwilling to let others know about their conflicts, so they made an excuse temporarily, "It's nothing, I'm going back to school, and I want to talk to my mother again."

"That's it." Grandma Li pointed at her home, "I'm sorry, my two little grandchildren are here and they are sleeping now. Please speak softly!"

Xie Jing quickly apologized and promised that he would not disturb Grandma Li's two little grandchildren, so she closed the door.

Looking at the closed door to him, Xie Jing felt extremely desperate. He picked up the phone without giving up, put the back cover on, and after trying to turn it on, he called Liu Xuejuan.

This time, Liu Xuejuan did not press Xie Jing's words but picked up. Before Xie Jing could speak, she was the first to speak out, "Where did you go just now?"

Facing Liu Xuejuan's questioning, Xie Jing's whole body was so stiff that he couldn't speak a word.

"I saw it all."

Liu Xuejuan's second sentence was like a thunder that exploded in his ears, causing him to completely lose the ability to think, and the blood flow in his body seemed to have stopped.

"I thought you were just lost for a while, and there was still hope. I didn't expect that after so many days, you haven't reflected on yourself at all, you are still obsessed, and you still have to go all the way to the dark." I don't know if it was because of anger or disappointment, Liu Xuejuan's voice trembled. Powerful, "In this case, you can go, go wherever you like, and be with whoever you like. Your father and I will treat you as our son, and you will never appear in front of us again."

After saying this, Liu Xuejuan cut off the call, Xie Jing stared blankly at the screen that displayed "The call has ended", and it took him a while to react, and when he called back, there was a busy signal that could no longer be connected.

There is no home.

After clearly realizing this, the blood in Xie Jing's veins seemed to be emptied in an instant, his face was terribly pale, he squatted on the ground, his teeth clenched on the back of his hands and he dared not make a sound, but the tears in his eyes were uncontrollable The ground surged out, and one after another small dark flowers bloomed on the gray concrete floor.

After an unknown amount of time, familiar footsteps sounded from behind him, and a warm jacket fell on his shoulders.

"We go home."

Hearing these words, the tense string in Xie Jing's mind suddenly broke, his eyes suddenly went dark, his body lost control and fell forward, and fell into an embrace that made him feel safe when he lost consciousness.