hug me

"Well, how much is it?" Ji Canxi stared at the card, the amount should not be small, but he should tell Wan Mu.

He ran to the mirror and yelled for a long time, but Wan Mu never showed up.

"You ghost is too lazy, how long do you have to rest?" Ji Canxi sighed.

Suddenly, a small voice said, "More than half a year."

"What?" Ji Canxi looked again, Wan Mu swayed and landed on the sink, pale as always, "I still need more than half a year to adjust, if it's not something important, don't call me."

"It's been so long." Ji Canxi was surprised, "Didn't you only stay for one year? You still have to rest for more than half a year, so why don't you stay."

Ah no, it was just a ghost.

"What's the matter?" Wan Mu saw the card in his hand, "My mother gave it to me?"

"That's right, she came today, it's so scary, luckily it's once a year, if I lived under the same roof as her, I would definitely go crazy." Ji Canxi said. "And this, I think I need to tell you something, I—"

"You are Wanmu now, and you don't need to report to me what you get. Besides, this is in exchange for your good grades. I have never received such a reward before." Wanmu said softly.

"Oh." Ji Canxi didn't know how to respond.

The ghost reminded him, "Also, don't expect anything from my mother. She is different from other mothers. She doesn't have that so-called motherhood. Don't try to find the feeling of family from her."

Ji Canxi twitched the corner of her mouth, "I never had a family either."

The aunt's family will only make him desperately want to escape.

"That's good, at least you won't be disappointed in her." Wan Mu said, "Is there anything else you want to ask me?"

Ji Canxi thought for a while, then tore off the clothes on the back of her neck, "Does this mark represent you?"

The ghost floated behind him and took a look, its eyes were dim and uncertain, as if it wanted to touch, "It's me," he whispered, "it's a bit scary, aren't you afraid?"

"That's not true, but I think it's kind of cool." Ji Canxi said, "If you leave, will this mark disappear?"

"Yes." He sighed, "Wanmu is gone, and the imprint will disappear completely."

■

Ji Canxi really doesn't have any expectations for Zhu Yao, but when Zhu Yao looks at him with that kind of cold eyes, Ji Canxi still trembles unconsciously.

Deterrence from adults, I am still afraid.

After talking with Wan Mu, I felt a little inexplicably sad again.

Fear, sadness, in the past he had always digested these negative emotions by himself, or maybe he hadn't digested them at all, and just transformed into his violent temper, but now it's different, Ji Canxi suddenly remembered that he now has a boyfriend.

Well, he doesn't have a family, but he's safe sometimes.

Shi An, his heart softened unconsciously, it was already late, but he suddenly wanted to see him very much.

Ji Canxi sent a message - [Shi'an, I want to hug you. 】

In about a few seconds, Luo Shi'an came back - [Okay, hug you. 】

Ji Canxi turned over on the bed.

—【I want to see you, I want a real hug. 】

It was so late, Luo Shi'an opened the door and looked downstairs.

—[My parents are watching TV in the living room. 】

Oh, Uncle Luo must be chasing dramas with Aunt Yang, and Shi An couldn't find a reason to go out so late.

Ji Canxi still didn't give up, he thought of a way - [You bring Gulu out, just say, walk the dog. 】

walking the dog?Looking at Gulu who was sleeping in a daze on his bed, Luo Shi'an couldn't bear it.

—[When it's safe, when it's safe, when it's safe, when it's safe...]

Ji Canxi rolled around on the bed.

Luo Shi'an could think of that scene, he rubbed his eyebrows helplessly, okay, forget it.

"Take Gulu out so late." Luo Bowen asked as he went downstairs.

"Oh, it wants to go out." In order to prevent lying from blushing, Luo Shi'an even put on a hat to cover his face, "We'll be back soon."

"Okay." Luo Bowen agreed, and reluctantly turned his gaze back to the idiot on the screen.

■

"Oh, Gulu, be good." Ji Canxi put the dog on the bench, tied the dog on a leash, and immediately turned around and jumped on its owner.

There was no one in the park at night, so Ji Canxi rubbed against Shi An vigorously, "You smell so good, you have taken a shower." He giggled, "I didn't wash, you have to wash it again when you go back."

Luo Shi'an patted his head, "What happened?"

Ji Canxi arched his neck, "Well, I saw Wan Mu's mother, wow, it's really scary."

"What did she say?" Luo Shi'an asked.

"I didn't say a few words, but that look was a bit scary, but it's okay, once a year, I can still handle it. I also saw Wanmu, and he told me not to have any family affection for his mother Looking forward to it." Ji Canxi smiled self-deprecatingly, "Isn't his worry a bit unnecessary?"

Luo Shi'an gently stroked his back, "Chanxi, have you ever thought about how to get along with her in the future? What if, it won't be once a year in the future?"

"I don't know, I shouldn't need to live with her." Ji Canxi can't pretend to be obedient for long, and one of them must go crazy first.

"After that year, you still want to..."

Luo Shi'an didn't ask any further questions, and Ji Canxi didn't know how to answer, because there was no answer yet.

Do you want to be Wanmu or Ji Canxi?

"Is it alright not to talk about it now?" Ji Canxi let go of him, with her arms still around his waist.

Luo Shi'an also gave up asking, anyway, no matter who he is, as long as he is by his side and belongs to him, that's fine.

"Shi'an, I have a very vulgar question to ask you." Ji Canxi smiled and said, "When did you, um, start to feel differently about me?"

He thinks it's better to ask more politely, after all, thinking about him or coveting him doesn't seem to be in line with Luo Shi'an's style.

Luo Shi'an coughed lightly, "Guess?"

Ji Canxi stroked her chin, "I guess it was love at first sight? After all, I'm so handsome—"

"No." Luo Shi'an said, "I wasn't interested in you at first."

Heh, not interested yet, Ji Canxi narrowed her eyes: "When did you become interested? Student Luo."

■

It was probably in the first half of the first year of high school. On that day, You Ke asked for leave to visit her parents abroad, and pestered Luo Shi'an to see her off at the airport.

At that time, Luo's house was not far from the airport, and Luo Shi'an went there on his bicycle. When he was about to reach the destination, a figure suddenly jumped out from the side of the road. Luo Shi'an couldn't brake in time, and bumped into him.

"Are you okay." Logically, it was that person's fault, Luo Shi'an was still a little worried.

The people on the ground didn't say a word, they got up quickly, and ran desperately towards the airport, as if they couldn't catch anything if they slowed down.

That person must be Ji Canxi.

The first grader who has such a bad temper that even the teachers are afraid of.

It's amazing that he didn't get angry when he was hit.

You Ke was dressed up beautifully, with a shiny small bag on her shoulder, but her expression looked like she hadn’t returned for a few years, "Shi'an, don't miss me too much, even though my sister and I will be in a foreign country Missing you all the time."

"Okay." Luo Shi'an said.

"You heartless!" You Ke thumped him on the shoulder, "I wish you to quickly fall into the pit of love and never get out for the rest of your life!"

"I see you have climbed up many times." Luo Shi'an said.

You Ke shook her hair, "That's my sister's free and easy atmosphere."

"You were dumped this time." Luo Shi'an reminded.

You Ke gritted his teeth resentfully, "Luo Shi'an, you are finished, you are cursed by me. Remember to remind me when you fall into the pit, I must fill in a shovel of soil."

After seeing off You Ke, when he was walking back, he saw Ji Canxi again.

So he also came to the airport to see people off?The person who sent it was Teacher Li Zhen, Ji Canxi's class teacher, who also brought their class's Chinese.

Teacher Li Zhen will immigrate to the United States with her husband after she gets married. She has already resigned, but she did not say the specific departure time, otherwise many students will definitely come to see her off.

Luo Shi'an happened to bump into him, so he naturally wanted to go up and say something else, "Teacher Li."

When Ji Canxi saw him coming, she quickly turned her face away. Although she flashed quickly, Luo Shi'an still noticed that his eyes were red. Does he have such a deep relationship with Teacher Li?

"Are you leaving today? Why didn't you tell us?" Luo Shi'an asked.

"No need, your studies are important, what a bother." Li Zhen patted him on the shoulder, then patted Ji Canxi's, "It just so happens that both of you are my favorite students."

"Mr. Li, I wish you all the best there, and you must come back to see us when you have time." Luo Shi'an said.

"Okay, okay." Li Zhen nodded, then looked at Ji Canxi again, "Where is Student Ji, do you have anything to say to the teacher?"

"...Liar." Ji Canxi's eyes were red, her voice was low and hoarse, "You clearly said that you would bring us to graduate."

Li Zhen sighed, "I'm sorry, the teacher didn't keep his promise. Student Ji Canxi, can you forgive the teacher?"

Luo Shi'an had never seen the appearance of the first grader, and he couldn't tell anything from his face, but he was really surprised in his heart.

The airport broadcast was urging over and over again, but Li Zhen didn't wait for his answer. She pushed the box and walked to the boarding gate silently.

Ji Canxi also clenched her fists, and walked in the direction of the exit, running in the opposite direction from her, getting further and further away.

Luo Shi'an stood there for a while, he didn't need anyone to follow, but when he moved his feet, he still chased after that person's back.

In the bathroom at the airport, he heard the cries in the cubicle. It was like a grievance that had been suppressed for a long time, and it broke out completely, completely ignoring it.

Even if he saw Ji Canxi's red-eyed look outside, he still couldn't believe that the crying person inside was that tough college bully.

Ji Canxi cried inside for a long, long time, until Luo Shi'an stood at the door until his legs became numb. He wanted to bring him a tissue, but was embarrassed to find that he didn't bring it.

I can only listen to him cry, listen to the voice slowly subside, and listen to him scolding himself, "Fuck, I'm dizzy, I'm crazy!"

On the second day of the insanity, he returned to his bad face as usual, everyone looked like you owed me money, their class had a new head teacher, and no one could tell that Ji Xueba was sad because of the departure of the superior teacher .

Only he knows.

From this point on, Luo Shi'an gradually paid attention to Ji Canxi, and then it got out of hand. It turned out that that person has always been so dazzling that people can't take their eyes off him. He has always worked so hard. Apart from studying and working, he has always loved管闲事，爱打架，连揍人的样子，都那么帅。

Not long after, he sent a message to You Ke who was far away in the United States, "As you wish, I fell into the trap."

You Ke asked who that person was countless times, but Luo Shi'an remained silent, unwilling to reveal any information.

Because he is also panicked, he doesn't know how to place his love, Ji Canxi's current life obviously cannot accommodate love, and he is still a boy, so shouldn't he say it?Shouldn't it be kept as a secret forever...

He was good at hiding, but he vaguely felt that he couldn't hide this matter for too long, and it was out of his control.

■

"So it was then." Ji Canxi hugged Luo Shi'an, "You heard me cry? Uh, it's too embarrassing, why are you here every time I make a fool of myself."

"I'm glad I'm here." Shi An said.

Ji Canxi smiled embarrassedly, pulled him to sit down on the bench, and stood next to him, "Teacher Li Zhen, she probably doesn't remember me now. She is my favorite teacher, so I will I remember one time, my aunt went to a parent-teacher meeting. You don’t know that my aunt pretended to be the most selfless and magnanimous in front of others, secretly saying that I was an uneasy child and made them work hard. Teacher Li was the only one who refuted her words,

She said with a straight face: "Student Ji Canxi has tried his best in all aspects. As his teacher, I admire him very much, but I really don't want him to lose so much precious learning for part-time work." time.Ms. Fang Hen, you are very good at speaking, but I really don't feel your concern for Ji Canxi.Of course, you must have contributed, and I can't judge you. I just want to remind you that Ji Canxi is very talented. Even if you want to pay back, you should look at it in the long run.It is not worthwhile to rush to squeeze something out of him for a while. '"

Ji Canxi smiled and said: "Didn't you see my aunt's face is so stern, and she never went to the parent meeting where Teacher Li Zhen was still there. Really, although what she said didn't change my life much, I I still work part-time, but I just feel that it is good if someone is willing to stand by me. So when I knew she was leaving, I was not angry, but I was afraid. Teacher Li Zhen is also very stupid, so I will go I sent her off at the airport, and asked me if I had forgiven her. I also like to dig into corners, and the teacher has his own life, how could he stay for a certain student. "

After a while, Luo Shi'an patted his head, "Still sad now?"

"No more, I just hope that everything is fine for her." Ji Canxi leaned on Shi An's shoulder, "I have you, and I am quite important in your life, isn't it?"

"If you still can't feel it, you are really stupid." Luo Shi'an said.

Ji Canxi smiled, "Do you like me the most? Do you still have feelings for me? I will ask many times in the future. Don't get annoyed by me. I just want to be sure. I'm not safe. feel."

Luo Shi'an sighed softly: "Okay, just ask."

For the next few days, Luo Shi'an used the pretext of walking the dog to come out at night, and secretly had trysts with Ji Canxi. The two of them did nothing but take a walk, talk, or hug each other, to feel the baptism of the autumn wind at night.

Ma'am... so fucking innocent.

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