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Ji Canxi was so angry that her head was dizzy. When she just walked out of the school, she happened to meet Chen Yinuo, a polite and good student, who was surrounded by several classmates and walked in. When Chen Yinuo saw Ji Canxi, her eyes visibly trembled.

Ji Canxi also knew that it wasn't her fault, but he still said mockingly: "I wish you a pleasant trip, classmate Chen. When you come back, I hope you can keep your second place."

Just as Chen Yinuo was about to say something, someone left arrogantly.

Damn Ji Canxi, crazy, does this old lady have a grudge against you, you won't be happy if you don't hate me for a day!

The good boy Chen Yinuo could only vent his anger in his stomach, but as soon as he got into his car, his face couldn't hold back.

"What's the matter baby, it's not pleasant to say goodbye to your classmates." Mother Chen asked in the front seat.

"No, I met a fool."

Father Chen said with a smile, "Who would say that about my classmates, I'm leaving soon, I want to make a good impression on my teachers and classmates."

"Ah." She snorted weakly, "Mom and Dad, I'm leaving, so I really don't have to meet Ji Canxi again."

"It's the classmate who takes the No.1 exam every time."

"Hmph." Chen Yinuo clasped his hands, "I'm sure I won't pass the exam, can't I avoid it?"

Ji Canxi was wandering the streets sadly. For this trip to Japan, he specially saved up a sum of money and learned some simple Japanese, but it was a pity that it was all in vain now.

In fact, it doesn't matter where you go, the key is to leave here temporarily.When the lights came on at night, his disappointed and sad face was reflected on the window. He closed his eyes and left, leaving the place that he had to go back to every night. How nice it would be...

The phone in his pocket rang, Ji Canxi's eyes dimmed, and the voice over there was as gentle as ever:

"Chanxi, come back to eat quickly, your cousin is back today."

Ji Canxi was even more displeased, he lied casually, "Oh, then, auntie, you can eat by yourself, I've eaten outside."

"What are you eating out? Come back quickly, your cousin brought friends home." The auntie sounded very happy, "By the way, remember to buy vegetables when you come back, you need beef, carrots, green peppers... · Forget it, I'll send you the menu directly."

Ji Canxi agreed sullenly.

I returned to my aunt's house with the bought vegetables. In the living room, my cousin was playing games on the sofa. A girl next to me was eating fruit. Seeing him coming, she smiled slightly.

The aunt wearing an apron came out briskly, pushed Ji Canxi into the kitchen, and urged: "Hurry up, your cousin is already hungry."

Ji Canxi didn't speak, and after putting on her apron, she was busy in the kitchen with her head sullen.

After the dishes were ready, my aunt greeted everyone to eat, my uncle came out of the study, my cousin reluctantly left the phone, his girlfriend kept staring at Ji Canxi, teasingly said, "Ah Chao, your younger brother is much more handsome than you gone."

Cousin hugged her, "When did you have a problem with your eyes?"

At the dinner table, my aunt kept picking up food for my cousin's girlfriend, "Xinxin, eat more, you look so thin, don't lose weight like other young girls."

"Okay, Auntie, I won't stop." Han Xin turned his eyes to the silent Ji Canxi again, and said with a smile, "My brother's cooking is really delicious, especially to my liking."

Ji Canxi's eyes were fixed on the rice bowl, and she didn't even look at her.

The aunt laughed dryly: "Haha, Canxi learned from me. Boys, if they can cook, they will be able to please their wives in the future."

Han Xin pushed his cousin: "Did you hear that, you have never cooked for me."

Cousin frowned: "Haven't you heard that a gentleman stays away from the kitchen? Why should I do those bitch things?"

The aunt hurriedly said, "Yes, yes, they are different. For these two to start a family, as long as one of them knows how to do it, that's enough."

Han Xin clapped his hands pretending to be happy: "I don't know how to do it either, so let's drink northwest wind together in the future."

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After a while, Han Xin asked again: "Your brother is going to be admitted to university soon. Do you plan to study abroad like your brother?"

Ji Canxi: "I..."

The aunt hurriedly said: "Canxi didn't want to go so far, he said, just take the university entrance examination in this city, and it will be convenient to take care of the family in this way."

Han Xin: "Oh, really?"

Ji Canxi paused, then shook his head: "No, I haven't decided yet."

After the meal, Ji Canxi finished washing the dishes, and when she walked to the room, her cousin leaned against the wall and said while playing games, "Hey, the guest room on the second floor is for your future sister-in-law. Go and make a bed."

Ji Canxi stared at him for a while, then walked upstairs in silence.

Just as the sheets were laid and the quilt was being put on, Han Xin came in pushing the box, "I'm going to sleep in this room tonight?"

"Ah."

She came over suddenly and lay down on the bed, slightly closed her eyes and said, "It's quite comfortable."

Ji Canxi instantly wanted to throw away the quilt in her hand.

"Hey, brother," Han Xin suddenly opened his eyes, "their family are pretty bastards, aren't they?"

Ji Canxi: "..."

"At first, I thought that people as bastards like your brother are rare in the world, but it's not surprising to see their family today. His father is nothing to do with himself. He and his mother are simply It's just as disgusting."

Ji Canxi: "Then why are you still with him?"

Han Xin: "You bastard is a bastard, but you're still willing to spend money on me."

Ji Canxi stopped talking, suddenly, he felt the back of his hand was cold, Han Xin put two fingers on it, and said in a low voice and ambiguously: "I don't want to see such a handsome boy like you being wronged, they don't treat you at all. Not good, is it?"

Ji Canxi was not disturbed, and even felt a little disgusted.But he didn't push it away for a moment.

Han Xin moved closer: "You probably hate your cousin too, do you want me to tell you the best way to get revenge?"

Her hand touched Ji Canxi's strong arm...

"Damn it, are you out of your mind? I feel like throwing up when I smell your perfume, fuck you, stay away from me, and do it yourself!"

Ji Canxi threw the half-covered quilt directly onto her face, covering her tightly.

The nausea surging in his chest couldn't subside for a while, just after he came out, my aunt called him to the study again.

"Chanxi, what do you mean by what you said at the dinner table today? You don't want to stay in this city to go to university?" My aunt asked straight to the point.

Ji Canxi hummed, and said sullenly, "I never said I would stay in this city."

"Yeah, but you can't go that far, Canxi, didn't my aunt tell you? It's the same wherever you go to college. Don't run so far like your cousin. You know, the family is planning to open A noodle restaurant still needs manpower, at this time..."

Will you be tied to their family in the future?Ji Canxi shuddered all over, he had always been obedient to his aunt, and he didn't even have the slightest thought of resisting.But he couldn't compromise on this matter alone, "I can't, I can't stay in this city."

Annoyed and helpless, my aunt turned to my uncle for help. He put down the pen for correcting the students' homework, and said with a blank expression, "This matter is still up to your aunt."

There was a sudden silence in the study, Ji Canxi made up his mind, and he was not prepared to argue with them any more, anyway, it was his own job to fill in the volunteers when the time came, and no one would get in the way.

"Chanxi, there is something that Auntie wanted to wait for you to go to college, but now, I have to bring it to you first." She stood up slowly, took out a wooden box from the cabinet behind her, and took out a A yellowed note was handed to Ji Canxi.

He trembled all over, but he didn't dare to pick it up. He knew this thing too well, and he had handed it to him twice before.

IOUs...

The money his parents owed his aunt's family, the previous two IOUs, the amount was not too much, one was five thousand, and the other was ten thousand. Since junior high school, Ji Canxi has been doing various part-time jobs, and the money is always not enough, not enough!

His own tuition fees, the living expenses given to his aunt, the money owed by his parents to his aunt, the latter has almost paid off the stumbling, but now, now he took it, and saw the same handwriting on it as the previous two, and the huge amount ······He just felt dizzy and almost couldn't stand still.

Five, five million!

Ji Canxi looked at her aunt in panic: "My parents, how could my parents...how could they owe so much..."

My aunt sighed leisurely: "At that time, your mother was ill and had two major operations, and the medicines she took were all imported from abroad. It was like throwing money at the hospital... Although I couldn't save your mother later. But at least it allowed her to live for a few more years. The money was well spent... But this money was all our family’s savings at that time. Hey, we really lived in fear at that time. I'm afraid that your uncle's job will be gone, or that your cousin will get sick, I really can't even think about it..."

Ji Canxi only felt his head buzzing, this long and dark tunnel was about to come out with great difficulty, but he was about to walk into the darkness again.

In the end there is still a long way to go.

"Chanxi, Auntie didn't bring this out to urge you to pay back the money. I just hope that you can think about your future carefully and don't let us down, okay?"

ok, ok?Ji Canxi only felt chills all over his body, the space in the study was so cramped and the air was so thin, he almost couldn't breathe, so he could only leave.

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It was very late, and the children at home had already gone to bed at the urging of their parents.Ji Canxi has no home. Since he can remember, he has lived in that small, dark basement. He was told to be responsible for his own life and the debts owed by his parents.

I really want to leave, I really want to leave...

Before he knew it, he had arrived at Weixin Bridge in Lucheng. Leaning on the bridge, he looked at the rolling river under the bridge again. The dark and boundless water seemed to be able to swallow all the sorrow and happiness. Return to calm.

Ji Canxi thought many times, if he left this world, what would be the reaction of others?

Some people will feel sorry, some will feel relieved, some will feel happy, all kinds of reactions, but he just can't think of it, can't think of it - there will be one person who will be sad because of Ji Canxi's departure.

The real sadness is the kind of pain when the most important thing is taken away from the heart.It hurts so much.

That is the biggest emotional bond between people.

He wants to, but he doesn't.

Ji Canxi, you are living a miserable life.He said to himself, looking at the dark river, he felt that part of his body had jumped into it, and when there was another wave of heavy blows, he would push the rest of the body in.

He looked down for so long that his neck was sore, he raised his head to look at the sky - the stars are so fucking idle, they all come out and twinkle.

All his desire to die disappeared.

"Tomorrow must be a sunny day. Now that I'm dead, I won't be able to see it." Ji Canxi muttered, turning over and leaning her back against the bridge.

Only then did he notice that an old man in ragged clothes was also standing on the bridge deck seven or eight steps away from him. He seemed to have been observing the situation here. When he saw him turn around, he turned his head and sat cross-legged.

Beggars can open anywhere.

Ji Canxi recognized this beggar, but he never saw his face clearly. He always wore a straw hat with holes, and held a cane. His hair was drooping in curls, and he did not know how much dust he had suffered.

The bakery where Ji Canxi worked before, and the convenience store where he is now, at night, the old man always silently guards the door, waiting for Ji Canxi to bring him the expired food, and then leaves quietly.

But he didn't come these few days, and Ji Canxi was worried that he might be sick.

"Hi." Ji Canxi walked over, he wanted to talk to someone, no matter who it was, but when he got in front of this old man, he didn't know where to start.

"Did something happen to the young man?" A hoarse voice came from under the brim of the hat.

Ji Canxi smiled, "Oh, I want to grow old quickly."

"Hmph, childish."

"I really want to grow old quickly. I wish I could pass the present day quickly." Ji Canxi closed his eyes, and the evening wind blew across his face. It was a face favored by God, dazzling, but Life, but always like to tease him and suppress him.

"Is your...family member treating you badly?"

"Oh, okay?" Ji Canxi said bitterly, "I don't know either, there is no comparison between good and bad, how do I know if it is good or not? All I know is that I want to escape from my current life, all I know is that I don't want to be Ji Canxi. Uh, It would be fine if I didn't become Ji Canxi."

"You are so young, how can there be... cough cough cough cough..." The old man suddenly coughed violently.

"Are you okay, old man?"

Ji Canxi hurriedly squatted down, trying to check his face, but the old man forcefully pushed him away, "Dare to touch anyone, in case the disease is contagious!"

Ji Canxi shrugged with a smile, "Then consider me unlucky. Uncle, do you want to go to the hospital?"

"Don't worry about it." The old man stood up with backbone, picked up his tattered clothes and carried them on his back, and gave him a meaningful look, "Take care of yourself."

Watching his short figure gradually go away, Ji Canxi suddenly felt powerless.

He is still burdened with huge debts, and the future is dim and there is no light, so whose life can he be responsible for?

The author has something to say:

Ji Canxi, pitiful, hug the little pitiful

感谢在2021-03-3117:16:34~2021-04-0213:19:12期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: 1 Daqing;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!