give you peace of mind

I grew up in an orphanage. When I was seven years old, I was adopted by my father. He was a very kind and gentle person. At that time, my father always looked at people with a smile on his face. He walked Come to me and say to me, "Son, I will be your father from now on, and I will definitely make you the happiest child in the world."

I was very happy when I heard this sentence and threw myself into his arms.I didn't know that my father had a same-sex partner until I was ushered into the house. Because the two could not have children of their own, the father decided to adopt a child.I was very lucky to be the lucky one, and my father asked me to call him Dad when he led me into the house.At the beginning, they were very kind to me, especially my father, who grew up in an orphanage, so he loved me very much. He would tell me bedtime stories every night, often take me to play football, and participate in The school's parent-child sports meeting.

Later, I found that my father spent less and less time with us, and the smile on my father's face became less and less. I didn't know what happened at first, until I came home from school one day in the second year of high school. I secretly watched through the crack of the door When the father knelt on the ground and held his hand, he cried and said

"Your wife has come to your door. How long are you going to lie to me? I thought you were really busy with the company, so the time to go home in the past two years has become less and less. It turns out that you have been married and have children, so what am I? ?”

"I have no choice. My parents have been forcing me. My mother committed suicide once because of this. I can't even give up my parents."

"Then you can tell me, we can discuss what to do, isn't Yuning okay? He will be filial to us even if he is so obedient."

"Yuning is not biological after all. I always want to have my own child. Don't mess around. I will still be with you most of the time in the future. Don't embarrass me, okay?"

"I made things difficult for you?" His father stood up abruptly and punched him after he finished speaking.At that time, I didn't know what happened, so I hid behind the door and watched the two of them fight, my whole body was cold, and I had a premonition that my happy days might be coming to an end.But I dared not go out and stop them, for fear they would drive me away.

After a long period of time, the two of them lived in a noisy life. At that time, my father spent less and less time with me, and less and less time for him to go to the company.He always follows Dad wherever he goes.Until one day I saw my father call me and say

"Yuning, your father is gone, I can't find him no matter what, does he not want us anymore?"

My father's tone at that time was extremely sad, as if he wanted to get a negative answer from me.

In fact, I received a text message at that time. He said that he felt that his father had changed and his desire to control him was too strong. He really couldn't bear it.He said he was sorry for my father.

At that time, I didn't even have time to go to school, and I always skipped classes to stay with my father at home, but my father's spirit became worse and worse, and his depression became more and more serious. He always cut his wrists and committed suicide when I couldn't see him.At that time, I was terribly afraid that my father would disappear like this one day.

Later, my father came back suddenly. My father was very happy to see him, but only I knew my father's fear. He didn't even dare to ask him why he disappeared in the first place.

In this way, the two slowly reconciled, and I went back to school to study again, but in my sophomore year, I received a call from my father again, saying that his father left him a letter and took away all his money. Savings gone.It is not known when the company was transferred to the name of his father's own son and his current wife will run it on his behalf.

When his father went to the company to find him, he met his wife. The woman said to him with a condescending look.

"I wanted to let you go when I came to you, but you are too shameless. You are still with him when you know he already has a child family. How could I let you go, how could I let him go, You see, your relationship is not indestructible. I just said that we must divorce if we still want to be with you. After divorce, he will never let his children see him. You see, he came back obediently. Do you think why he came back to you two years ago? I just said why the company you worked so hard for should be left to that child in the end. It belongs to my child. .”

The woman's words pierced into my father's heart like a sharp knife, and my father couldn't bear it at that time.The relapse of depression is also accompanied by mania. Fortunately, my university studies are not heavy and I also major in psychology, so I have been taking care of my father.

One day when I was in class, my father suddenly sent me a text message to ask me to go home. I sneaked out of the classroom and went home. I saw my father and my father sitting on the same table, and my father cooked a table of dishes. I thought it was back to the picture when I was a child, they would prepare a meal and wait for me at home every time I was out of school.

My father saw me coming in and called me, "Yuning, come and sit down."

At the time I didn't know what they were talking about but both were very calm.Father picked up the wine glass and poured each of us a glass of wine.

But after drinking that glass of wine, my father and I fell down. When we woke up, our father and I were tied to chairs, and my father had a knife in his hand.

At that time, I saw my father struggling to break free and said, "An'an, what are you going to do? Don't be impulsive."

At that time, I was frightened and stupid, just staring blankly at my father stabbing the heart with a knife.Blood flowed slowly from my father's body, so my father took a chair and sat across from us until he stopped breathing.

When An Yuning said this, he began to cry uncontrollably and curled up in Lin Yu's arms.

"Yuning, don't cry, it's all over." Lin Yu patted An Yuning's back and looked at An Yuning with distressed eyes.

An Yuning paused for a while and continued, "At that time, my father's death made my whole body collapse, and I also suffered from a serious mental illness. It was the teacher who found out what was wrong with me and took me to his home to take care of me. Me. The teacher is really kind to me, if there is no teacher, I guess I might not be able to get out at all."

An Yuning felt that his movements in Lin Yu's arms were too ambiguous, so he moved and sat up straight. He looked at the young students playing in the distance.

Lin Yu accompanied him quietly.He kept holding An Yuning's hand.

"Later, I lived in the teacher's house for a long time. Both the teacher's wife and the teacher were very kind to me. They were the best people to me besides my father. He encouraged me to finish college and arranged for me to work in the current hospital. At that time I feel that I must not let down the teacher, so I try to make myself better, but only I know that I can't trust anyone including the teacher. I am afraid that he will leave me like my father and father. Am I special? Selfish." An Yuning lowered his head and asked.

"No, I think you are very strong. If it were me, I might not be as good as you, and I might not be able to hold on long ago." Lin Yu said seriously.

"Do you know why I told you this?" An Yuning withdrew his hand and asked, rubbing his hands a little uneasily.

"No matter what the reason is, I'm very glad that you are willing to share your thoughts with me, and I am also willing to be that audience." Lin Yu replied seriously.

"Aren't you afraid of me? I may also be a radical person, and it may be very tiring to fall in love with me. And recently I found that I have become more and more irritable. Every night, it seems that someone is laughing at my cowardice in my ear What you may get is a boyfriend who is mentally ill, but I may not let you leave me." An Yuning said.

"An Yuning, look into my eyes. I won't leave you. I don't know what you can believe, but I, Lin Yu, will only love one person in my life, fall in love once, and get married once. If I If I recognize you, then I will never give up on you for the rest of my life." Lin Yu looked into An Yuning's eyes and said seriously.

"Doctor Lin, then you come and save me, I really don't want to walk alone in the dark." An Yuning said in a low voice.He hugged Lin Yu.