Window 2, Seventh Canteen

He took out the key and opened the door. As soon as he entered the room, Jiang Wei smelled a strange smell. He had a vague impression, but he couldn't remember where he smelled it.

After walking around the house, Han Zilu was not at home.

Jiang Wei had a very bad feeling in his heart, so he broadcast Han Zilu's call directly.

After two beeps, the familiar ringtone of the mobile phone came from the small bedroom. Jiang Wei followed the sound and found Han Zilu's mobile phone lying on the small desk. The screen flickered, but what was displayed was not his name, but a string of numbers. .

Jiang Wei frowned, put down his mobile phone, and picked up Han Zilu's. He didn't understand why his number was deleted. He clearly saved his name before, but now it became a string of numbers.

What exactly does Zilu want to do?

Just as he was thinking, he heard a soft noise from the next door, and Jiang Wei hurried over, "Zi Lu?"

When he arrived, he saw the closet door half open, and Han Zilu was sitting neatly in the closet. When he saw Jiang Wei, his eyes were filled with surprise.

"Jiang Wei?"

The surprise on Jiang Wei's face was no less than that of Han Zilu, and he grabbed his hand and pulled him out of the closet, "What's wrong with you? Don't scare me, what's wrong with you?"

Han Zilu looked extremely haggard, his eyes were bloodshot, his eyes were black and blue, there was a layer of stubble on his chin, and even his hair was extremely messy, obviously it hadn't been taken care of for a long time.

"Speak!" Jiang Wei was startled.

The surprise on Han Zilu's face faded away, and he became expressionless, he just said: "It's really you, why did you come back suddenly?" His tone was steady and gentle, just like what Jiang Wei heard on the phone.

He was deceived by the voice.

"Come back to see you! What's wrong with you? Tell me, who are you going to die of?"

"I'm fine."

"What a ghost!" Jiang Weiwei hugged Han Zilu, and suddenly smelled him, which was the same as when he entered the door, but much stronger.

He suddenly remembered, this smell is nothing but marijuana.

When he was in high school, he went to Canada to visit his cousin, who took him to try it once. Although it has been a long time, he still remembers the taste.

Jiang Wei's expression changed immediately, "Han Zilu!"

"What's the matter?" Han Zilu smiled slightly, but his face turned paler.

Seeing him like this, Jiang Wei felt indescribably frightened, terrified of being lost, and unable to say anything about education, so she just dragged Han Zilu to the door, "Follow me to the hospital first, and then talk slowly."

Han Zilu walked out of the bedroom with him, but suddenly broke free from his hand in front of the door, and walked towards the bathroom.

Jiang Wei chased after him, and Han Zilu reached the door to block him out.

"Zi Lu, what are you doing!" Jiang Wei knocked on the door, his heart pounding, thinking that as long as Han Zilu disappeared from his sight for even a second, he might disappear forever.

Han Zilu smiled at him, "What can I do? Take a shower and change clothes, it's so dirty, wait for me for a while."

"No, go to the hospital with me first! Who knows if you have touched anything other than marijuana, go and see with me first!"

Han Zilu: "Don't worry, it's just marijuana. It's not a drug, it's just strong. I just want to take a bath."

Jiang Wei looked into his eyes and felt that he was speaking these words soberly, but his appearance was so bad that he couldn't let him take a bath alone.

He pushed open the door hard, "I'll wash it for you."

Han Zilu stopped leaning against the door, and jokingly said, "I just came back, why are you so anxious?"

Jiang Weiyi had no intention of joking at all, and went into the bathroom with Han Zilu without taking off his clothes, adjusted the water temperature and flushed him.

Han Zilu just stood there naked, motionless and let him manipulate him, the expression on his face became colder, like an empty shell.

Jiang Wei felt depressed for a while, and threw down the shower head suddenly, "What do you mean? You didn't say anything about quitting your job, and you didn't say anything about smoking marijuana at home. Now I'm coming back to find you, don't you Talk! What the hell are you thinking? You don't tell me anything! Who the hell do you want to talk to!"

When Han Zilu heard this, his body trembled slightly, and he turned his head away from Jiang Wei's sight.

Jiang Wei forced him to look at himself, "Did I provoke you? Did I make you feel uncomfortable? I made you suffer? What do you mean by this? If you want to break up, just say so! What do you mean by deleting my number?" !"

Han Zilu suddenly frowned and took two steps back, hitting his back against the wall with a soft sound, "I'm sorry." After finishing speaking, he squatted down against the wall, grabbed his wet hair with both hands, and kept tugging, "I'm sorry, the captain lost it. , you have to go too, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Only then did Jiang Wei understand why he felt something was wrong from the moment he entered the room. It turned out that the captain was missing.

There was a chill in his mind, but Jiang Wei didn't show it, the important thing now was Zilu.

He knelt down on one knee next to Han Zilu, and said in a gentle tone, "What's the matter? Tell me slowly, I'm here, the captain lost us and we'll find him. It's all right, everything will be fine. Tell me, don't hold back." In my heart..." He said comforting words, but every time he said a word, Han Zilu's face darkened.

Jiang Wei couldn't continue, Han Zilu looked wrong, completely wrong, definitely not just because he lost the captain, he knew he had something on his mind, but if he didn't say anything, he could only be in a hurry.

It was as if the door was closed and the entrance could not be found at all. Han Zilu's refusal made him helpless.

"Zi Lu, we've been together for a year, so you can't trust me?" Jiang Wei reached out and stroked Han Zilu's wet hair, just like what Han Zilu used to do to him, hoping to comfort him.

Unexpectedly, as soon as his hand touched it, Han Zilu grabbed his wrist forcefully, raised his head suddenly, and looked at him with red eyes, like grabbing a life-saving straw.

What the hell happened...

Just as Jiang Wei was about to speak, Han Zilu hugged him by the neck, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not good, I lost the captain, don't leave me, don't leave me, don't leave me, don't leave me, don't leave Me, don't leave me-"

Jiang Wei also hugged Han Zilu back forcefully, feeling his body trembling in his arms, his heart ached so much that he didn't know what to do, and he comforted him repeatedly, "I won't go, I won't go anywhere, I'll just stay here with you, I won't go anywhere , not going anywhere."

Han Zilu: "Sooner or later you have to leave, just like the captain, but don't go, don't go."

Han Zilu in his arms was a stranger, and Jiang Wei felt that everything was like a dream.

He wanted to get the normal Han Zilu back, but he couldn't do anything, he could only comfort him, "I promise you, I won't leave, I will never leave, Zilu, trust me, listen to me, trust me. "

Han Zilu suddenly turned his head and turned his face to the wall. Jiang Wei pulled him back, and saw that his eyes were full of tears, and the eye sockets were shockingly red.

Han Zilu pushed Jiang Wei, "Go out, I'll be alone for a while."

Jiang Wei refused, and grabbed Han Zilu tightly, "I said I won't leave, but I won't leave for a moment. No matter what you want to do, I'll stay here with you."

Han Zilu stared at Jiang Wei for a long time, gritted his teeth and endured it, but in the end he couldn't hold back and cried out.

With the first tears rushing out of the eyes, it was Jiang Wei and Han Zilu's inexplicable emotions. Something had been suppressed for too long, as if it had finally found a breakthrough, it surged like a tsunami, instantly destroying the traumatized embankment.

Han Zilu hugged Jiang Wei tightly, crying hoarsely, like a child abandoned by the side of the road.

Seeing Han Zilu crying, Jiang Wei felt relieved. He always felt that Han Zilu was suppressing something. Although he still couldn't communicate properly, at least Han Zilu was no longer hiding.

No matter what the emotion is, it will deteriorate if it is suppressed for a long time. There must be a chance to vent it, so that people will regain their health. No matter what makes Han Zilu become like this, Jiang Wei feels that there is nothing that cannot be solved.

But the premise is to start to solve it, instead of suppressing and denying your own heart.

Jiang Wei hugged Han Zilu tightly, patted his bare back, and some emotions gradually arose in her heart, which had nothing to do with love.

He felt that Han Zilu was a responsibility to him.

After the storm of emotions passed, Han Zilu's expression returned to normal. Although his face was still pale and tired, there was light in his eyes.

Jiang Wei took off his soaked clothes, stood with him under the shower, rubbed the bath flower into foam, and carefully applied it all over his body.

When Yuhua passed under his armpit, Han Zilu suddenly laughed.

Jiang Wei: "Itchy?"

Han Zilu shook his head, "I just remembered my dad giving me a bath for the first time."

Jiang Wei: "Tell me, I want to hear it."

Han Zilu nodded slowly, and said eloquently, "It was winter, the water was a bit cold..."

After a long bath, Han Zilu no longer smelled of marijuana, and Jiang Wei no longer insisted on telling him to go to the hospital.

He pulled Han Zilu onto the bed and covered him with the quilt, but he didn't sleep and sat beside him.

"Are you not sleepy?" Han Zilu asked.

"Not sleepy, stay with you, I will sleep when you fall asleep."

"Then you won't be able to sleep."

"You don't want to sleep? Then I'll talk to you and talk about my childhood. It's very interesting."

Han Zilu shook his head, "It's not that I don't want to sleep, it's that I can't sleep. I never told you that I'm taking sleeping pills."

Jiang Wei's face darkened, "Sleeping pills? When?" He thought that Han Zilu had only recently started taking them, but unexpectedly, Han Zilu told him that he had been taking them for almost a year.

It turned out that this person had been pushing himself ever since they started living together.

Jiang Wei couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, and wanted to ask if it would be better for you if I moved out, but he didn't say it out, he promised Han Zilu that he would stay with him and stay with him until Until he gets better.

There are still many things to say in my heart, but I decided not to say anything, Han Zilu finally stabilized, let him sleep well first, and save what I have to say until tomorrow.

"Where did you hide the medicine? I'll get it for you."

"You won't stop me?"

Jiang Wei: "Eat and sleep well." After a pause, he continued, "Tomorrow, let's go to the hospital to check our health first, and then go to the psychiatrist? If you can't tell me something, just tell the doctor." , they will keep it secret for you."

Jiang Wei was afraid that Han Zilu would not agree, so he stared at him nervously.

Han Zilu only replied softly: "Okay, it's time to see it."