Window 2, Seventh Canteen

The boys around burst into laughter.

"What do you pay for?"

"You idiot, you deserve it."

Jiang Wei stood in the center of the crowd, facing the reporter face to face. The reporter was anxious and grabbed his leg, "It's you! You pay!"

Jiang Wei was also angry, and took out his wallet from his pocket without saying a word.

With a "bang", he slammed the wallet on the reporter's face, "I'll pay you!"

When he did this, the surroundings were instantly quiet.

Zhao Siyuan didn't bring a wallet, so he grabbed a pile of change from his pocket and threw it at the reporter's head.

This time it was good, the second and third wallets were thrown over, and there was a rain of wallets at the gate of 612, which made the reporter stare at the eyes. .

The boys were yelling, and the scene got out of control for a while. The female reporter was caught in the crowd and tried to persuade her, but it didn't work.In the end, the dormitory manager came to break the deadlock.

Jiang Wei and the other instigators, needless to say, were all called away by the instructor for questioning and reprimand, and each was fined a [-]-word inspection.

This turmoil didn't completely subside until the evening. When Jiang Wei returned to the dormitory, those high-spirited pride had long since passed, and he just felt tired.

Just physically and mentally exhausted.

He sat and texted for a while, and then sent a text message to Han Zilu.

Just like usual, when the message is sent, it will disappear, and Han Zilu will not reply until he has time to read it.

Jiang Wei stared at Han Zilu's name on the phone, hesitating whether to call him, but finally held back.

I know he's busy and don't want to disturb him, but he really wants to talk to someone now.

He didn't know what to say, probably anything would do, the content was not important, he just wanted to find someone to spend time with, because of Chen Yang's matter, he had been feeling uneasy all day long.

After waiting for another 10 minutes, Jiang Wei went to Zhao Siyuan without waiting for a reply.

When Jiang Wei entered the door, Zhao Siyuan was pointing his chin at the computer. Seeing Jiang Wei coming, he raised his head and said, "Hey, I said, should you write those [-] characters for me?"

Jiang Wei: "Okay."

Zhao Siyuan: "Really? I just said, I got involved in this matter entirely because of you, and you wrote it for me..."

"Then you help me write my share, let's change it." Jiang Wei finished what he hadn't said.

Zhao Siyuan knocked on Jiang Wei's head.

Jiang Wei smiled, punched Zhao Siyuan back, then sat down on the stool and chatted with Zhao Siyuan.

The atmosphere was harmonious, and Jiang Wei felt much more at ease.

Jiang Wei always felt that Zhao Siyuan hadn't joked with him for a long time, let alone touched his hands. Some time ago, the relationship between the two seemed to be really inexplicable, but after today's incident, it seemed to be back to normal .

He remembered that some time ago, when he and Han Zilu were not together, Zhao Siyuan often yelled at him not to value sex over friends and alienate his buddies. emotion.

It's just that he felt that it was Zhao Siyuan who was alienating him, not him. After all, although he and Han Zilu were in a relationship, they didn't actually meet each other very much.

Jiang Wei always felt that there was something wrong with Zhao Siyuan, and he couldn't find a chance to mention it before. Today, because of the harmonious atmosphere between the two of them, he asked what he had been wanting to ask recently.

Jiang Wei put his hand on Zhao Siyuan's shoulder, "Yuanzi, did I offend you somewhere? Just a while ago, why did I feel that you had something against me?"

Zhao Siyuan was still grinning just now, but when he heard this, the smile disappeared immediately, and he asked unnaturally: "Is there? Why do you ask? What did you do to make me sorry?"

Jiang Wei: "I just asked if I didn't think so. If I want to know what I did wrong, I must apologize early in the morning."

Zhao Siyuan pouted and made a grimace, "It's nothing, don't think about it."

"Really?"

"Why are you lying to me?"

He didn't say anything, and Jiang Wei didn't ask any more questions. He took out his mobile phone to check the time, but when he saw Han Zilu's text message back, he got up and left immediately.

When he returned to the dormitory, he clicked on the message.

Han Zilu asked him where he wanted to go on the weekend.

Jiang Wei just remembered that he hadn't planned how to spend the weekend yet.

Because of Chen Yang's matter, he completely forgot about the weekend, or in other words, he was not in the mood to think about it.

The mood that had just returned to normal, because this text message was surrounded by haze again, Jiang Wei didn't care whether Han Zilu was busy with work, so he called him directly.

It took a long time for the phone to ring.

Han Zilu: "I was busy just now and didn't hear."

Jiang Wei: "It's okay, I know you're busy." After saying this, she fell silent.

Han Zilu was also silent for a while, and during this time, Jiang Wei walked to the balcony.He intended to go out to get some air, but as soon as he looked downstairs, he remembered that Chen Yang jumped to his death, and he felt a twinge in his heart.

Han Zilu: "Why didn't you speak? Obviously you called first."

Jiang Wei: "Zi Lu..."

Han Zilu's voice became obviously serious, "What's the matter? What happened? Wait, I'll tell you at the door."

A faint voice could be heard over there, it was Han Zilu explaining the work.

Jiang Wei waited and couldn't help sighing.

He thought that Han Zilu didn't hear it, but Han Zilu immediately asked, "Why are you sighing? What happened?"

Jiang Wei didn't know where to start, and thought for a while, "Can you get off work on time tonight? I'll go to your house and wait for you."

Han Zilu: "Okay, I'll leave as soon as possible, and then take a taxi back, but you have to tell me, what's the matter?"

Jiang Wei looked at the students who were running in circles on the playground downstairs, and felt uncomfortable as if something was stuck in his heart. He took another deep breath and said, "One of our classmates committed suicide."

Han Zilu was silent for a while, didn't ask anything, just said: "I'll go and ask if I can leave early, please wait for my text message, we will meet and talk."

Jiang Wei responded, and the two hung up the phone without saying a few words.

Jiang Wei took another breath while clutching the phone, she seemed to feel a little better, but she was still stuck.

After receiving the text message, Jiang Wei set off directly to Han Zilu's house.

Han Zilu was far away, not so fast. Jiang Wei waited downstairs for half an hour. When he saw Han Zilu, his face was frozen and his hands were even colder.

Although it is already April, it is colder than winter in the past few days because of the late spring cold.

Han Zilu frowned as soon as he touched his hand, "Why don't you wear gloves?"

Jiang Wei: "I'm in a hurry to go out, I forgot."

Han Zilu: "Then why don't you put it in your pocket?"

Jiang Wei: "I'm afraid you'll call me, so I'm clutching my phone."

Han Zilu sighed and reached out to touch Jiang Wei's hair.

That movement was very gentle, which made Jiang Wei's heart skip a beat for a moment, and he couldn't hold back his tense expression, the whole expression dimmed, and the corners of his mouth drooped.

He looked at Han Zilu like a wounded animal.

Han Zilu frowned, Jiang Wei stepped forward, hugged Han Zilu in his arms, and let out a long, slow breath.

Breathing a white cloud of water vapor in the cold wind.

Jiang Wei hugged Han Zilu tightly. At this moment, no words can compare to a hug.

Han Zilu didn't say anything, just stroked Jiang Wei's back.

The two stood in front of the street lamp downstairs for five or six minutes.

Most of the depression in Jiang Wei's heart dissipated. Looking at Han Zilu, he saw the street lamp shining on him, painting a layer of gold on his whole body, especially the eyelashes and the bridge of the nose, which were outlined by the warm light, dazzlingly beautiful.

They stood in front of an unknown dwarf tree, the branches had sprouted new buds, and the green dots, under the night lights, were also so beautiful that people couldn't take their eyes off them.

There is still a unique breath of spring in the air, everything is so beautiful.

Jiang Wei couldn't help sighing, "It's good to be alive, why do you have to die?" It seemed to be asking a question, and it seemed to be talking to himself.

Han Zilu was silent for a while, then slowly said: "We cannot choose to be born, but at least we can choose to die. This is the last freedom."

Jiang Wei looked at Han Zilu with some doubts, and Han Zilu took Jiang Wei's arm and led him upstairs.

Amid the creaking footsteps, Han Zilu said: "I don't know what happened to your classmate, but since it was suicide, I chose it myself. I know you are sad, but maybe you can think about it from a different angle. This is your classmate's death." Will, he chose death himself, and should be respected."

Jiang Wei: "A few days ago, just three days ago, when I was returning to the dormitory after class at night, I met him in the corridor and greeted him, and he smiled at me. I really don't understand. How could he not think about it for a few days? Really, I just can’t figure it out. He was fine three days ago, but suddenly disappeared. Actually, I don’t know him very well, but I always thought he was smiling and very cheerful. , not a person who would seek death at all, it must be a momentary thought, just a mistake. I read some articles before, saying that many people regret at the moment of suicide. Regret, maybe he regretted it when he jumped? But he couldn't come back, he fell down..."

The more Jiang Wei talked, the more confused he became, and finally he couldn't listen anymore.

During the process, Han Zilu stood with him at the door of the house, using his mobile phone to light up the light, until he stopped, and then took the key to open the door.

After they both entered the room and sat down, Han Zilu stroked Jiang Wei's hair soothingly, "You think too much, don't worry about what a dead person thought, it's not good."

Jiang Wei: "But——"

Han Zilu made a silent gesture, leaned over to hug Jiang Wei, and stroked his back.

"Listen to me, don't assume that he is impulsive, and don't think of yourself as him. Everyone's life is different. What you think is a good life may be purgatory for others. He will I choose to die because it can be liberated."

Jiang Wei: "Is there anything that can't be solved? Do you have to seek death? Isn't this an escape?" As soon as he said this, Jiang Wei's face froze, and he actually said something similar to Nail.

Han Zilu: "I also agree that it is true courage to face the difficulties of life. However, there are indeed many sufferings in life, and everyone has the right to be weak and compromise... He just chose to end his current life. What about the beginning of a life?"

Jiang Wei: "I don't believe in ghosts and gods."

Han Zilu: "Then believe that death can bring eternal peace."

Jiang Wei: "But he usually smiles..."

Han Zilu: "In life, happiness and pain are almost equal. Everyone has their own suffering, but outsiders can't see it."

Jiang Wei was silent for a long time, then suddenly said: "My classmate, Chen Yang, is also gay, do you think he can't think about it, does that have something to do with it?"

Han Zilu looked complicated, "Maybe." He stroked Jiang Wei's hair, "Don't think about it, go to bed early, and wake up will be much better."

Jiang Wei: "Sleep can solve the problem?"

Han Zilu: "It can't be solved, but it can make people forget. Time and sleep are the best medicine."

Jiang Wei: "If Chen Yang gives him more time..."

Han Zilu pinched Jiang Wei's face, "There is nothing if."

Jiang Wei hummed and stopped talking.

Han Zilu asked him to wait for a while, and he just sat there and waited. Not long after, Han Zilu took out a set of very old-looking flying chess.

"Come on, let's play this until you're sleepy."

The two didn't continue Chen Yang's topic, they tossed the dice again and again, playing simple and childish games.

After five games, Jiang Wei no longer thought about Chen Yang.

After another five games, Jiang Wei was actually sleepy. Han Zilu asked him to take a bath and helped him prepare his pajamas. It wasn't until this time that Jiang Wei remembered that he had completely forgotten about Chen Yang during the play.

He felt a little emotional in his heart, even if he struggled with this, in the final analysis, Chen Yang was just a classmate he didn't know very well, not someone close to him, even if he died, the attention he could give , that's all.

Even less, rather than saying that he was saddened by Chen Yang's death, it was better to say that he was saddened by the incident itself. Many of the emotions in it were not all for Chen Yang.

After figuring this out, another emotion rose in Jiang Wei's heart, which was dull and unclear.

Maybe the reason for his chest tightness is because he has never encountered the death of his peers, and Chen Yang is the first one.

This has nothing to do with Chen Yang himself, it's just because he was the first one, and it's the same with others.

Thinking of this, he couldn't help feeling indifferent.

What if it's not someone who doesn't matter?Like Zhao Siyuan?Like Han Zilu?

Jiang Wei's heart twitched suddenly, then he shook his head violently, stopped thinking about it, and went straight to take a shower.

This night was the first time he stayed at Han Zilu's house.

Sleeping in Han Zilu's bedroom, lying on his bed, wearing his pajamas, holding him in his arms.

After the desk lamp was turned off, Jiang Wei rubbed Han Zilu's shoulder.

It's impossible to hug each other on the bed like this and say that there is no reaction, but he doesn't want to do anything.

Sexual desire seemed to be suppressed by other desires, delicately balanced in his heart.

The scent of shower gel on Han Zilu's body, mixed with the body odor on the quilt, surrounded Jiang Wei's senses, making people feel warm and at ease.

The dick between the crotch has been stiff, but Jiang Wei clearly felt that compared with it, more blood from the body flowed into the heart.

A heart was beating unhurriedly in the chest, and every time it trembled, something seemed to touch the softness of the heart.

After a while, Han Zilu turned over in his arms, embraced him face to face, and kissed him lightly on the forehead.

say good night."

The voice was as gentle as water, reaching Jiang Wei's heart.

It made him feel that something in his heart had been ripped off.

Slight pain.

He kissed Han Zilu softly back and said, "Zi Lu, I like you so much."