Window 2, Seventh Canteen

The raindrops swept by with the strong wind, and within a few minutes, the ground turned into a river.

There is a corridor between the outpatient department and the inpatient department, which looks like a bridge over the river at the moment.

Han Zilu dragged Han Zhen across the corridor, and when he arrived at the inpatient department, he was already half wet.

The raindrops hit his head and face, and even more into his heart, smashing the original An Ding into a puddle of splashing mud.

After leaving the noisy outpatient department, it became quiet as soon as he entered the inpatient department. Han Zilu ran towards the direction Han Zhen was pointing at, and his steps knocked on the ground, causing echoes in the corridor.

The energy-saving lamp looked pale against the sky, the light swayed in Han Zilu's footsteps, mixed with the echo, like a large net covering his body, sticking to his skin, blocking fresh air and making him difficult to breathe .

Finally coming to the ward, Han Zilu took a deep breath and opened the door, but still felt that there was no oxygen in his chest.

"Where's Dad?" He looked at the empty hospital bed, "Where's Dad!"

Han Qi chased after him and grabbed him, "Don't worry! Dad is still in the rescue, the doctor told us to wait here first, Liu Er, don't do this, sit down first, you sit down first."

She pushed Han Zilu a few times, but Han Zilu just stood by the door, staring at the hospital bed in a daze.

Han Qi: "Han Zilu! Don't scare me!"

Han Zilu seemed to have finally come to his senses, staring at her in a daze, "Sister?"

Han Qi had put away the panic when they first met, and forced himself to calm down, "Calm down, Dad is still in the rescue, there is a doctor, it's all right, do you hear me?" He raised his hand and wiped Han Zilu's face distressedly. Drop the rain on your face.

After Han Zilu entered the room, he looked and looked at the empty hospital bed, and walked around the small room a few times, then calmed down a little, stood against the wall, looked at Han Qi, "Where is the second sister? Where is Mom?"

Han Qi came over and held his hand, "I'm afraid Mom won't be able to take it anymore, so I asked Zhenzhen to accompany her back first."

Han Zilu looked around the room again, as if he was looking for something, but he returned in vain, "My dad is usually in good health, but his cervical spine is not so good, he occasionally suffers from waist and leg pains, and his white hair has been growing worse over the past few years. There were many before, and..." He looked at Han Qi with some guilt, "What's wrong with Dad recently? As a son, I don't know anything."

Han Zilu let out a long sigh, frowned and closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, he asked, "What's wrong with Dad? Are there no signs at all? Is it the heart or... what did the doctor say?"

He didn't really want to ask anything, but he had to find something to say, otherwise he would feel that the ward was terribly quiet once it quieted down.

"The doctor said that now is the most dangerous time. As long as our dad survives, he will be fine in the future."

Han Zilu hummed, nodded and stopped talking.

Han Qi raised his eyes to look at him, but couldn't hold back the red circles under his eyes, so he had to abruptly turn his head out of the window, looking at the dark sky and the pouring rain.

She only said half of what she said to Han Zilu.

Now that Han Tiesheng's condition is unknown, she really can't speak out, and she can't bear to tell her brother that their father is not sick, but poisoned.

Han Qi wasn't there when Han Tiesheng's accident happened, but she knew that her uncle had been at home in the afternoon. Although she didn't know what they said, Han Tiesheng committed suicide by drinking medicine that night, so he must have something to do with him.

In the afternoon, Han Zhen was the only one at home besides Han Tiesheng, and she was the only one who knew what uncle and father had talked about, but Han Zhen refused to tell, so Han Qi could only guess that it was probably related to Han Zilu.

But she couldn't guess the specific reason, and she didn't even dare to think about it, let alone tell Han Zilu.

Now I just hope that Han Tiesheng can get through the dangerous period safely, otherwise, Han Qi really can't imagine what this family will be like.

About half an hour later, Han Zhen came to the hospital and brought some breakfast for the two of them.

Rice porridge and steamed buns were placed on the small table, and Han Zhen was the only one eating, while the other two just sat aside and watched without any appetite.

Han Zilu and Han Zhen chatted a few words casually, and Han Zhen almost just nodded in response, staring at the porridge bowl in front of her, and she was going to be lost from time to time.

Han Qi wanted to ask her many things, but firstly she was afraid, and secondly, she didn't dare to mention it in front of Han Zilu, so she kept silent all the time.

After breakfast, the ward was silent, and the three of them struggled for time, and waited another 10 minutes before the doctor opened the door, and the nurse pushed Han Tiesheng in.

The three stood up at the same time and looked at Han Tiesheng.

The doctor glanced at them, "The situation is temporarily stable, but the patient is still in a coma and has not passed the critical period. I will arrange to stay in the hospital for a week first, and the family will pay the fee with the nurse in a while."

After he finished talking, Han Zilu hurriedly stepped forward, "Doctor, what's wrong with my dad?"

The doctor glanced at the three siblings strangely, "Didn't they tell you? It's not illness, it's poisoning, and they drank a lot of pesticides. Fortunately, they were discovered in time, and they would be gone 10 minutes later."

The thunder and lightning intertwined outside the window seemed to strike Han Zilu as well. He looked at the doctor and opened his mouth in disbelief, but made no sound.

"Be careful in the future." After the doctor ordered, he turned and left.

Han Zilu looked at his two sisters, "Poisoned? Drinking pesticide?"

Han Qi shook Han Zilu's hand with a complicated expression.

Han Zilu's voice trembled, "Sister, you have something to hide from me."

Han Qi: "I'm afraid you're worried. Besides, I only know that Dad was poisoned. As for the cause and effect, I really don't know anything."

Han Zilu wanted to say something more, but Han Zhen interrupted him, "I sent Dad to the hospital."

Han Zilu turned around, and wanted to ask her what she knew, but when his eyes fell on his father's face, he couldn't look away, and he couldn't hold anything else in his mind for a while, only seeing that dim and haggard face.

Han Zilu's nose suddenly became sour, and he almost burst into tears. He opened his eyes forcefully, walked to his father's side, and called out, "Dad."

Han Tiesheng was still in a coma, so naturally he didn't respond, but Han Qi cried out in response, and Han Zhen's lips became tighter and tighter.

Han Zilu took another half step forward, trying to get as close to Han Tiesheng as possible, and tried to reach out to touch him several times, but his body seemed to be rusted, and he couldn't lift his hand no matter what.

He looked at Han Tiesheng's face, and suddenly realized that he hadn't seen his father like this for a long time, and he didn't know that there were so many wrinkles around his eyes.

"Dad—" Han Zilu called again softly.

I don't know if Han Tiesheng really heard Han Zilu's voice, his breath suddenly became heavy, the oxygen tube in his nose trembled, and then he opened his mouth slightly and uttered a few broken syllables.

Several people approached at the same time, each calling for Han Tiesheng.

Han Tiesheng didn't wake up, but his eyes were slightly opened, and tears came out suddenly.

Almost at the same time, Han Zhen let out an uncontrollable cry, "Dad!" She threw herself on Han Tiesheng, her voice hoarse, "Why are you so overwhelmed! Uncle talks like that, why are you serious with him! You make Mom like this! What should we do? What should we do? Dad..."

Han Zhen cried so much that she couldn't speak anymore, Han Qi hurriedly stepped forward to comfort her, only Han Zilu turned and left the ward.

It was raining heavily and the ground was muddy.

When Han Zilu arrived at Han Tielin's house, he was soaked and his shoes were filled with mud.

It was dinner time when he arrived, and Han Tielin's family gathered around the table, and they all showed surprise when they saw him enter the door.

Regardless, Han Zilu stepped forward and grabbed Han Tielin by the collar, abruptly pulled him up from the stool, and asked fiercely, "What did you do to my dad!"

The smile in Han Tielin's eyes turned into anger in an instant, and he pushed Han Zilu hard, "It's against you! I'm your father! You're not afraid of lightning strikes!"

"You're not." Han Zilu made a gesture to punch Han Tielin in the face, but before his fist arrived, Han Tielin screamed, "Why did I give birth to such a son, I'm dead!"

At this moment, other people came to their senses, Han Jiye grabbed Han Zilu's wrist, "Liu'er! Stop messing around! This is our father!"

Han Zilu still looked at Han Tielin fiercely, "You are not! I only have one father, definitely not you! Tell me, what did you do to my father!"

"What can I do to him? If I can do anything to him, he won't be robbed of his son!"

"Still saying no!" Han Zilu broke away from Han Jiye and landed a punch on Han Tielin's chest.

He didn't have much strength, but Han Tielin was afraid, so he backed up half a meter and knocked over the stool.

Han Zilu wanted to chase, but was stopped by Han Jiye, "Liu'er, calm down, and speak slowly if you have something to say!"

Han Zilu: "What can I say? My dad is still in the hospital because of him!"

At this moment, Han Tielin suddenly understood the reason for Han Zilu's visit, and the panic on his face turned into complacency, "What? Did you go to the hospital? Are you angry? Hahahaha!"

Seeing his schadenfreude, Han Zilu's lips trembled with anger, and he really wanted to throw himself on him and beat him up, but there was a voice in his heart that kept repeating.

That's what Han Tiesheng said year after year: He is your real father after all.

Han Zilu's fist didn't land after all, he only picked up Han Tielin again, "You are not allowed to come to my house again!"

Han Tielin laughed strangely, "Hey, don't let me go? Don't you ask why your fake old man is angry? Is it because of me? It's not because of you! It's not because you ran to be a shameless dead glass!"

When Han Zilu heard this, there was a loud bang in his head, "What did you say?"

As soon as Han Tielin was about to say more, Han Jiye stopped him, "Dad, don't say a few words!" Then he said to Han Zilu, "Second Uncle, is he okay?" Half the responsibility.

Yesterday Han Tielin stabbed him again, but he couldn't hold back and replied, "No matter how bad I am, I'm better than the one who lost all children and grandchildren!"

It was just a moment of anger, but he didn't expect that Han Tielin would ask him to find out the truth, and he finally told the truth, but he didn't expect that his fearful father would directly kill his second uncle's house to make trouble, and even made the second uncle go to the hospital.

At this moment, Han Zilu's mind is full of what Han Tielin said just now, and he can't hear anything else at all. Seeing that Han Tielin didn't answer, he asked again, "What did you say to my dad?" Uncontrollable fear.

Han Tielin broke away from his son, pointed at Han Zilu's nose and scolded, "What's wrong? Are you afraid of being criticized if you can do it yourself? Yes, you think I'm not as good as your second uncle, you look down on me, but I didn't raise my son into a glass!" Han Tiesheng Into the hospital, that’s what he deserves! My good son asked him to raise a glass. I’m still out of breath, but he’s out of breath. He deserves it! He deserves it! And you, you still have the face to argue with me, and you don’t want to Think about whose fault it is, if he is not angry with you, can he go to the hospital? You should reflect on yourself as soon as possible!"

Han Tielin wanted to say more, but was pushed back on the stool by Han Jiye, and shouted: "Stop talking!"

Han Tielin immediately yelled, "You've gone against it too! You're the one who is worthless, and I'm taking care of you!"

"What's wrong with you! I don't even look at what you look like now!"

The father and son refused to give in to each other, and immediately fell into a dispute.

Although Han Zilu looked at them, he didn't take them into his eyes. It was as if there was a layer of fog in front of his eyes. What emerged from the fog was the figure of Han Tiesheng lying on the hospital bed.

Han Zilu suddenly understood everything. The reason why his father was in a severe coma and drank the pesticide was not because of his uncle, but because of him.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the dark clouds were swelling and falling, as if they were going to crush the whole world.

Walking in the rain, Han Zilu felt his whole body getting heavier and heavier, and his breathing became heavier and heavier. Everything in front of him was soaked by the rain and melted into a gray-black mud, dragging him down.

He didn't know how he got back to the hospital, he only knew that when he opened the door of the ward, he didn't see Han Tiesheng.

Han Zilu stood in front of the hospital bed and watched for a long time, until Han Qi came to pull him and finally regained some consciousness.

"Sister, where's Dad?"

Han Qi wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, "Dad is fine, he is going for dialysis, and the doctor said his condition is stable, why did you get drenched like this? Go home and change clothes, so as not to catch a cold."

Han Zilu stood still, and Han Qi had no choice but to drag him out and get into the taxi home.

After getting off the car, Han Qi suddenly grabbed Han Zilu's hand, "Liu'er, I know you're feeling uncomfortable, and I know you shouldn't say this now, but..." She choked up, "Wait until Dad wakes up." Are you staying at home for a while?"

Han Zilu nodded dully.

Han Qi was full of torment, but she still decided to say what was on her mind. She had already learned what happened from Han Zhen, so even if she didn't want to say it, she couldn't keep it in her heart.

She said, "You and Jiang Wei, let's separate for a while, shall we?"

She said this very gently, her tone was full of discussion, but the look on Han Zilu's face still made her feel heartbroken, "Just for a while, wait until Dad has figured it out, okay?"

Han Zilu looked at her with red eyes, and after looking for a long time, he suddenly smiled, "Okay, I will listen to my sister."

Han Qi said that he touched Han Zilu, but he felt uncomfortable, sighed, and touched Han Zilu's face, "Go up and change clothes, I will go back to the hospital first, and keep in touch with you at any time, come over after you pack up, but Stop showering."

Han Zilu still smiled slightly, "Sister, take care of Dad."

Han Qi patted his hand, said relieved, turned around and boarded the taxi again.

Han Zilu took a hard breath, then let it out slowly, and raised his head to look up.

Jiang Wei was tired all night yesterday, sleepy and tired, but woke up after only two hours of sleep, no matter how much she wanted to sleep, she couldn't fall asleep anyway.

He had something on his mind, he changed the channel with the remote control, rummaged through the phone with his phone, and stared out the window in a daze, but no matter how much he tossed about, he couldn't suppress the uneasiness in his heart.

I really want to call Han Zilu and ask, how is it going, are you all right?

But he can't fight, Han Zilu said that he will contact him when he has time, but he hasn't contacted him until now, he must be unable to get away, I'm afraid the situation over there is not optimistic.

Jiang Wei thought wildly, and took out another cigarette and lit it. Seeing that the pack was empty, he wanted to go downstairs to buy it, but seeing the rain, he hesitated.

Halfway through a cigarette, the phone rang suddenly, and the ringtone instantly overwhelmed the thunder outside the window in the quiet room.

The screen displayed "Sister Qi", which was Han Qi.

Jiang Wei had a bad premonition, and immediately frowned, holding the phone with some hesitation.

"Sister Qi, how is uncle?" No matter why Han Qi came to him, he asked the question he wanted to ask first.

"Jiang Wei! It's you, right? Jiang Wei!"

Han Qi's voice was hoarse and anxious, Jiang Wei became nervous instantly, "It's me, what happened?"

Han Qi: "Call Liu'er quickly! Call him! Call now. If I call him, he won't answer. Call him soon to persuade him. Hurry up!"

There was a lot of noise on the other end of the phone, as if there were a lot of people making noise, Jiang Wei heard her voice change, "What's the matter, please explain clearly, what's wrong with Zilu?"

Han Qi burst into tears, "He's on the roof! God, he can't think about it! What should we do? You can persuade him, only you can persuade him, you can persuade him! Call him!"

Jiang Wei was overwhelmed with shock, but there was no trace of panic in his mind. He seemed to be surrounded by a dazzling white light. He didn't say anything else, but asked Han Qi where he was, and rushed out of the room.

On the way, Jiang Wei made several phone calls to Han Zilu, but there was no response. Countless thoughts flashed through his mind, but in the end, only a white light remained.

From the hotel to Han's house, the short 5-minute drive is as long as a whole century.

When he finally arrived, Jiang Wei had already seen the crowd watching in the rain before getting out of the car.

Downstairs, the firefighters raised their loudspeakers to persuade them, and upstairs, a vague figure stood.

The white light in Jiang Wei's mind exploded into a puff of smoke in an instant, and he yelled and rushed into the crowd.

The Han family lived in an old building with only five floors. The stairs leading to the roof were usually not locked. Old people often went to plant flowers on the roof, but now, the iron gate was locked on several floors.

Han Qi and Han Zhen were blocking the iron gate, covering their mouths to avoid making a sound, for fear of irritating Han Zilu, while several policemen were busy sawing off the chain.

Jiang Wei glanced at them, and his eyes immediately fell on Han Zilu. He looked at the roof through the iron fence, and could only see his back, standing on the edge of the roof, like a kite with a broken string hanging on the top of a tree. Will be blown away again anytime.

Han Qi had seen Jiang Wei's photo, rushed over as soon as he saw him, choked up and couldn't speak, Jiang Wei had no intention of comforting him, just waited for the door lock to be unlocked, and passed everyone up the stairs.

Han Qi and the others wanted to follow, but were stopped by Jiang Weiyi, "No, leave this to me, and you all go down."

Then he briefly explained a few words, and stepped on the roof in the rain.

Although he didn't want to believe it, Jiang Wei knew deep down that he couldn't persuade Han Zilu.

After getting along for more than two years, he knows Han Zilu's temper better than anyone else. Because of this, after getting on the roof, he didn't say a word of dissuasion, but just ran straight forward and crossed the road before Han Zilu found him. The guardrail is stepped on a cement slab with a width of more than half a meter.

He and Han Zilu stood side by side, ten meters apart.

When he ran over, he was afraid of being discovered by Han Zilu, so he didn't dare to get too close, and chose a safe position as a foothold, but when he really stood in this position, he realized that he was too far away from Han Zilu.

And Han Zilu had already seen him.

The two of them couldn't see each other's expressions clearly through the heavy rain curtain.

Jiang Wei walked towards Han Zilu, and as soon as he took a step, he heard him shout, "Don't come here!"

Jiang Wei kept walking, and at the same time said loudly: "I won't stop you! But as long as you dare to jump, I will immediately follow!"

Once the words were uttered, they were immediately weakened by the sound of rain, but they still reached Han Zilu's ears. His body trembled slightly, as if he would fall at any time, but he subconsciously stretched out his hand to grab the guardrail beside him.

Jiang Wei's chaotic heartbeat stabilized immediately, and he continued to move forward. When he was about five meters away, Han Zilu took half a step back and shouted again, "Don't come over!"

Seeing him looking downstairs subconsciously, Jiang Wei knew that he was thinking of jumping, so he slowed down and pushed forward half a step, "Okay, I won't go, but you don't move either."

Following his steps, Han Zilu also retreated slowly. The two of them advanced and retreated, maintaining a distance of three or four meters, until Han Zilu had no way to retreat, and once again resolutely stopped Jiang Wei.

Jiang Wei's heart trembled, he stopped, his eyes swept across the downstairs, and fell on Han Zilu's face again.

"I can't tell, you are so cruel, you jumped from here, have you considered me?"

Han Zilu's chest rose and fell, he stared fixedly at Jiang Wei for a long time, then suddenly said, "I was afraid of you coming, and I wanted to see you for the last time, but you still came."

Jiang Wei's eyes were sore from the rain, "Zi Lu, come home with me, the captain is still waiting for us."

Han Zilu shook his head, "Jiang Wei, I'm sorry, you go back and take good care of the captain."

Regardless of whether Han Tiesheng can recover or not, Han Zilu cannot forgive himself after knowing the cause and effect. No matter what the result is, his father almost died because he was angry with him. This is an irrefutable fact.

If he is not with Jiang Wei now, but simply found out that he is gay, then he can give himself a reason to atone for his sin, and spend the rest of his life with his father, without thinking about it emotionally.

But not now, let him break up with Jiang Wei and live up to his feelings over the years, he can't do it no matter what.

All the possibilities about the future are like trapped beasts. They are forced into a dead end. There is no way to escape or turn back. There is only one dead end.

He was raised by Han Tiesheng, his life is his, now, it's time to give it back to him.

Han Zilu was thinking, but his eyes met Jiang Wei's burning eyes, he couldn't help but trembled all over, staggered back half a step, almost stepped in the air, but instinctively stabilized his figure, and when he stood still, Jiang Wei was already approaching again He stretched out his hand towards him and said loudly: "You said you would never leave me first! Han Zilu! You must keep your word! Everything will be fine, come back!"

Han Zilu just shook his head, "I said before, I won't leave you unless I die."

Seeing him turning his body outward half a circle, Jiang Wei was startled, and ran towards him with big strides, but the distance of two meters seemed to have been extended countless times, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't keep up with Han Zilu's speed.

Jiang Wei saw that Han Zilu finally turned his head towards him and smiled.

An apology was blown away by the wind.

Han Zilu's figure flickered in front of Jiang Wei's eyes.

Jiang Wei didn't think about anything in a hurry, he just tried his best to chase after that figure, and he was about to miss it, but fortunately they bumped into each other.

Jiang Wei grabbed Han Zilu in mid-air, and his heart that had been hanging for a long time suddenly felt at ease.

In a blink of an eye, I felt a crystal clear water in front of my eyes, and everything in the world crashed into my field of vision through the rain curtain, and then passed by in a flash. In just a second, countless pictures flashed in my mind, and various emotions burst out in my heart, but nothing was important anymore .

Jiang Wei hugged Han Zilu tightly, protected him in his arms, and closed his eyes.

Under the bursts of exclamation, there was a muffled splash in the rain.