Window 2, Seventh Canteen

When they met, Han Zilu's face was frighteningly cold.

Jiang Wei knew what he wanted to say and just waited for him to speak.

Han Zilu stared at him for a while, "Let's go, pick up the captain first."

Jiang Wei hummed, and the two followed a volunteer girl into the door.

That girl is good at speaking, and she is the type who never stands coldly, but Jiang Wei and Han Zilu didn't say a word, so she still didn't perform well.

When she arrived at the hut where the new cat was placed, the girl picked up a fat tortoiseshell, "It's him, he was just neutered, and he's been a little unhappy these days."

Han Zilu approached, "Captain?" After looking carefully, he touched the top of his head.

In fact, you don't need to approach it or call it by name to tell that this tortoiseshell is not the captain, regardless of its appearance, if the captain saw Jiang Wei and the others, he would have jumped on it long ago, and there is no need to wait for the owner to claim it himself.

"This is not the captain we are looking for." Han Zilu said to the volunteer girl, but he still took the tortoise shell and hugged it gently.

Seeing this, Jiang Wei tentatively asked, "Why don't you take him away? The cats here are also waiting for adoption."

Han Zilu suddenly frowned and looked at Jiang Weiyi, "The captain is lost, can you replace him by raising another one?"

"It's not a replacement, I'm just... Hey, forget it, pretend I didn't say it."

Han Zilu sent the tortoise shell back to the volunteers, "I'm sorry."

Volunteer: "It's okay, keep an eye on us, maybe the next one will be the captain."

Leaving Tumao and taking a taxi home, the two of them didn't speak during the journey. Jiang Wei was waiting for Han Zilu to ask questions, but Han Zilu was silent, wondering what he was thinking.

Jiang Wei didn't know for whom he was silent, he was still the captain.

All the way home without a word, Han Zilu took the cat food as soon as he entered the house, turned around and went out again, Jiang Wei had to follow.

It was nearly midnight, and stray cats of all colors roamed the neighborhood, white, yellow, black, and spotted, but there were no tortoiseshell cats.

Han Zilu filled up the food bowls at each feeding point, and finally returned to the pomegranate tree, squatting there watching a big white cat that came to eat in a daze.

Looking at the cat, Jiang Wei suddenly remembered the captain's brother, Xiaobai, and then Han Zilu's overreaction when he brought a few kittens home.

"Yes, you said earlier that you would not keep pets. I insisted on keeping the captain. If you didn't keep pets then, you won't be sad now."

Han Zilu still looked at the white cat, "What do you want to express?"

"Captain, do you blame me for this matter? After all, if you don't keep it, you won't lose it."

"What you said is also unreasonable."

"Maybe. Actually, I also regret it a little bit. If I knew I would lose it, I shouldn't have raised it in the first place."

"Oh, really." Han Zilu's words were cold and hard.

"what happened to you?"

"It's nothing."

Jiang Wei sighed, "Forget it, if it doesn't work this time, there will be a next time, maybe next time we will find the captain."

"Didn't you just say you regret it just now, what else do you want him to do?"

"Isn't that a pity, and I have raised it, how can it be the same as when I didn't raise it, and there is nothing I knew earlier. If I knew it earlier, I would have no regrets."

"Yeah, how could there be so many people who knew it earlier? If there were, they would have known that there would be so many troubles with me, so they wouldn't be together."

"What do you say!"

"Tell me why you are in Beijing, didn't you go to Chaozhou? Did you just come back, or have you never been there? Is it fun to lie to me?"

Jiang Wei was at a loss for words, and took Han Zilu's hand in silence for a moment, "We'll talk when we go home."

Han Zilu shook off Jiang Wei, "Go back, I want to be alone for a while."

"Come home with me, you've been alone for three days."

"I said, I want to be alone for a while, is there a problem?"

"Then I'll stay with you."

"Oh, don't understand? I said, alone."

"Then you stay here, I'll go far away."

"Jiang Wei! I said, you leave me alone for a while!"

Jiang Wei's face was ugly, and he tightly held Han Zilu's wrist, "I know you feel uncomfortable, but you say it, why are you upset, you are unhappy, you say it, you have a temper, and your heart is suffocating. You can send it to me, but every time you either hide or drive me away, what do you make me think? Am I so untrustworthy? If you can’t trust me so much, why are you still with me? You talk to yourself every day Don't you feel uncomfortable sleeping with someone you don't trust?"

Han Zilu's expression changed again and again, and he finally said, "Let me calm down first."

Han Zilu's eyes were red when he spoke, but Jiang Wei still held his wrist firmly, "No."

Han Zilu's expression changed suddenly, he grabbed Jiang Wei's wrist and forced him to let go, then he struggled hard, turned around and ran away.

Jiang Wei was stunned for a moment, and immediately chased after him.

"Han Zilu! Come back!"

Jiang Weiyi ran all the way, went straight out of the gate of the community and caught up with Han Zilu, reached out to grab his shoulder, but he dodged and jumped on his back in desperation, and fell to the ground with him.

The concrete floor was like sandpaper, Jiang Wei's arm was burning, and a layer of skin was filed off.

Han Zilu struggled, "Let me go!"

"Stop messing around!" Jiang Wei pressed Han Zilu firmly, "You want to be alone, fine! That's fine! I'll take you home now! Then I can go!"

"You said I don't trust you, but do you trust me!" Han Zilu threw his elbow back suddenly, Jiang Wei instinctively dodged, but Han Zilu broke free.

Han Zilu faced him, panting heavily, his eyes were red, "Jiang Wei, do you believe me?"

"Why don't I believe it?"

"Do you believe it? I said I would go to the doctor on time, I said I would take good care of myself, and I said I would never touch those things again. Do you believe it? You don't believe it at all, otherwise why would you come back? Isn't it just to monitor Me? Aren’t you just afraid that I’ll touch those again? I said I won’t, but I won’t! I don’t need you to monitor me!”

Jiang Weiyi was at a loss for words, Han Zilu turned around and left, looking in the direction that he was going home.

"Zi Lu, I'm worried about you."

"It's no use."

"Zilu." Jiang Wei chased after Han Zilu and stood side by side, "It's not that I don't believe you."

Han Zilu stopped suddenly, "Jiang Wei, can't you leave me alone?"

Jiang Wei shook his head, "No, I don't worry."

Han Zilu suddenly smiled, "Yes, don't worry, you should. I'm like this, no one can rest assured after seeing it, I don't feel relieved myself, but I beg you, can't I beg you? You just Can’t you just leave me alone? Can you give me a month, two months, and I’ll go to you when I feel okay? I’m like this now, I feel disgusting and worthless, so you have to let me be by my side Do you feel worse about yourself?"

Jiang Wei's heart twitched, "Don't talk about yourself like that, I don't like to hear it."

"Don't follow me if you don't like to hear it. This is the truth. Even if you don't say it, I know how much trouble I have caused you."

"you have not."

"Yes, no, then why are you in Beijing now?" Han Zilu clenched his fists tightly, "If you didn't find out at the time, nothing would have happened. Why did you come back suddenly? Why did you have to see me like that? Now you know What kind of person am I, why don't you go? Do you have to stay and watch my jokes?"

"I do not have."

"Then don't follow me, go back to Chaozhou immediately!"

"No, and there's no need to go back, I'm taking a break from school."

Jiang Wei thought it would be difficult to end like dropping a bomb when he said this, but he never thought that Han Zilu just fell silent after hearing it.

He was completely different from the aggressive Han Zilu before, and returned to a state of quiet and silence.

Jiang Wei didn't expect Han Zilu's reaction to be like this, and what's more, Han Zilu's silence lasted for a week, and it was only aimed at him.

With Dr. Su, Han Zilu is in normal condition.

Or rather, normal too much.

There was no communication between Jiang Wei and Han Zilu, so he could only call Dr. Su to ask about the situation. One day, Dr. Su suddenly said that Han Zilu took the initiative to talk about many things about his childhood.

Jiang Wei doesn't understand psychology, but she always has a general impression that the patient's willingness to confide is the beginning of recovery. Unexpectedly, Dr. Su said that it is recommended to suspend the consultation.

As for the reason, Dr. Su's original words are as follows, "Psychotherapy is a gradual process, and there is no need to rush. This is the reason why I did not receive short-term treatment.

Generally speaking, the causes of psychological problems are deeply buried, and the patients themselves do not know or only know part of them, and their cooperation with the counselor is very limited, or even deliberately concealed, but Han Zilu is different, he cooperates actively with the treatment, or Said, too positive, he told me everything since he can remember, which should have been a good thing, because talking is the best way to decompress, but his situation is quite special, obviously, he is forcing himself to tell me These things, force yourself to get better, I don't know how you get along, but you may have to reflect on whether you have put too much pressure on him.His psychological problems were not serious at all, but the accumulated pressure reached a peak and needed to be released. In fact, if it was released normally, it would be fine with a little counseling, but he was too resistant to his problems and wanted to get better. Instead, it made the problem worse. "

According to Han Zilu's current situation, Dr. Su's suggestion is to let him return to a normal life, get in touch with family and friends more, and let nature take its course.

Jiang Wei has never been in touch with Han Zilu's family, and rarely even heard Han Zilu mention it. As for friends, he can only think of Doudou and Erhei.

On the eighth day of the cold war, Jiang Wei lay in the small bed and didn't sleep all night. Early the next morning, he washed honey water and walked to the master bed, and put the cup on the bedside table.

"Zi Lu, let's talk."

Han Zilu had already woken up, listening to him, he only turned his head to look at him, just like the past week, he just didn't speak.

Jiang Wei: "Let's do this, I also want to understand, since I am annoying you by staying by your side, why not let you adjust for a while."

Han Zilu finally said, "So you don't stop studying?"

Jiang Wei shook his head, "There is nothing to say about the suspension of school. I don't think there is anything wrong with me on this issue. Instead of just graduating, I might as well do it again next year. I can stop looking for you for the time being, but on condition, you You must go to Yunnan, when I am not with you, you must stay with Doudou and the others."

Han Zilu's eyes gradually widened, "You already told them, didn't you?"

Jiang Wei: "I said you were going to go there, but I didn't say anything about your situation. If you want, you can tell them yourself, or hide it. It's up to you. During the time you go to Yunnan, I will Find something to do by yourself, and when you figure it out one day, you can call me and I will be there on call."

Han Zilu was silent for a long time, "Okay."