Hold on, you can't bend!

After finally calming down the torrent of emotions, Zhang Nan placed the snoring "Actor" lightly on the inside of the sofa, stood up while leaning on the armrest of the sofa, and still relying on his proficient skill of jumping on one leg, he traveled all the way to the Guest bedroom.

Sure enough, the personal belongings that he put into the suitcase and pushed to the corner to eat dirt had already been seen again, and they were placed in the place he was familiar with intact. The bedding on the bed was newly changed, Zhang Nan looked familiar , It took a while to realize - this set of sheets and pillowcases... Isn't this the same style as Fu Yuzheng's master bedroom, except that one set is dark blue and the other is dark green, just different colors.

Tsk tsk tsk, Zhang Nan repeatedly said with emotion: This sullen man is so cautious.

But at the same time, curiosity is also aroused in due course.

Fu Yuzheng said that he had put all his things back to their original places. Zhang Nan was slightly puzzled to show respect: At the beginning, he had so many personal belongings, such as figures, decorations, handicrafts, and clothes—not to mention these things that were originally put away. In the second bedroom, counting, there is still a pile of his original toiletries in the bathroom...

Curiosity didn't just kill the cat, it also healed a sprained ankle.At this moment, Zhang Nan completely forgot about the pain in his feet, and after bouncing around with one foot in the second bedroom, he slowly moved into the bathroom while leaning on the wall.

All his toiletries are neatly placed on the sink. The previous bottle of shaving water has been used up. Last time he left in a hurry and reluctantly, the empty bottle was placed next to the faucet. Now, that A new bottle of the same style of shaving water was clearly placed on the spot, and the plastic seal hadn't even been torn off.

Zhang Nan leaned against the bathroom door and remained silent for a while, obviously all of this was true, but he still felt in a daze, probably because his heart was lonely for too long, suddenly he was cherished and carefully held in the palm of his hand, but he felt a little dissatisfied Real panic and confusion.

After a while, he let out a long sigh of relief, moved slowly to the living room, took the medicine, and then went back to his room for an afternoon nap.

Instead of going back to his guest room, he walked directly into the master bedroom without hesitation.

The dark blue sheets were laid evenly without any wrinkles, Zhang Nan leaned against the bed, unconsciously thinking about everything that happened on this bed in the early morning before he left.

They confronted each other chaotically and reluctantly, their own tenacious and tentative kisses like fine needles, and Fu Yuzheng's cautious self-denial.

It's so silly - Zhang Nan leaned against the head of the bed laughing happily, inadvertently mistakenly saw the few books beside the pillow.

He is very familiar with the manuscript of the book cover - after all, it is written by himself.

Zhang Nan laid himself flat on the bed, took out a book, flipped through it, and used it as a refreshment before going to bed.

Unbiased, what he took happened to be the "Last Dream".

Zhang Nan has published his first novel "When I first met, I love you the most" in his sophomore year, and has been famous in the industry since then. Most of his works are cookies series, despite misunderstandings and entanglements between the protagonists , but in the end it must give the lover a happy ending, whether it is a happy ending for the readers, the characters, or himself.

There is no particular reason, it's just a good sustenance.

The social atmosphere is not civilized and tolerant enough. In real life, same-sex love is often accompanied by criticism, criticism, and even contempt. However, as the favored "son of heaven" in this group, he has received the support of his friends from the very beginning. , the understanding of his family, and even a fan of book fans, how lucky he is compared with many people of his kind.

However, not everyone is as lucky as him.

So, since the real situation is already so difficult, why bother to magnify this helplessness infinitely in literary works?

However, this "Last Dream" is a different existence.

The background of this story is set as "Same-sex Marriage". The main character Shou Jian Zong comes from a wealthy family, and grew up with the main character Gong Gu Li who has the same family background. The other person who plays with them is a man named Chen Xuan is a quiet and beautiful young man, the three of them grew up in the same environment and family background, and their parents are old friends who have known each other for many years, so this affection is naturally passed down from generation to generation.

The three of them finished elementary school, junior high school, and high school together. As they got older, their feelings grew deeper. They were friends, brothers, buddies, and even more... a bamboo horse with a different kind of emotion that quietly grew.

The youthful feeling created in the early stage of the manga is very strong, the white shirt stained with the fragrance of lemon, the basketball court with no one in the afterglow of the evening, the bicycles of the same style and different colors, and the three pairs of youthful eyes that are either quiet or expressive. eye.

However, the turning point of the story happened in the summer vacation when the college entrance examination ended.

In the summer that marked the coming-of-age ceremony, Jian Zong confessed his love to Gu Li for the first time, and it was also in that season of cicadas singing and noisy, Chen Xuan died suddenly in a car accident.

The grand youth quietly ended at the end of July, and the threesome who used to be together have long disappeared, and the rest are two double figures who have changed from "brothers" to "couples".

Time is the medicine for forgetting and redemption.

Later, Jian Zong and Gu Li graduated from university and chose the same business school abroad for further studies. After returning from their studies, they both took over the family business. In the second year, they finally joined hands and walked into the palace of same-sex marriage.

In the eyes of outsiders, they are an enviable couple. They grew up together, each has a successful career, and they have been together for many years to fulfill their wishes. They are the perfect two people who can live together for the rest of their lives.

And it is true from Jian Zong's point of view.

He has a free and easy personality since he was a child, and he was the most extroverted and uninhibited one among the "Three Musketeers". Gu Li, on the contrary, was calm and introverted in his youth, and rarely showed his emotions. At the "coming-of-age ceremony" banquet held by the family for the three brothers, the smile at the happiest moment was nothing more than a deep crooked eye.

After adulthood, Gu Li's temperament became more and more deep and reserved, especially after Chen Xuan's death, he was depressed for a long time, until Jian Zong confessed his love rashly on a rainy night.

It rained heavily that night. They were in the outdoor basketball court that the three of them used to go to. Jian Zong was drenched all over. After finishing a "bullfight" with Gu Li, he suddenly threw the basketball in his hand outside the court, facing the rain Waterfall, wrapped his arms around Gu Li's neck, raised his head and gave a kiss with bitter water vapor.

After the kiss, he said: "Xuan'er is gone, we are the only two left, we must get along well, the buddy is watching from the sky - but Gu Li, I have loved you for so many years, and now I don't want to have a good relationship with you." You are a brother."

The abrupt and reckless confession, but Gu Li just looked at him deeply for a long time, and then agreed.

After marriage, Mr. Gu, who was stern and stern in front of others, spoiled him like that young man when outsiders could see or couldn't see him.

Jian Zong once thought that life has come to this point, what more can a husband ask for.

So he reciprocated Qiong Yao, treated Gu Li well, treated Gu Li well, treated Gu Li well.

However, where in life will there be no regrets?

On the anniversary of the third year of marriage, there was a lingering affair, and it was already midnight when she woke up again, but the place beside Jian Zong was empty, only the silk sheets were cold to the touch.

He went downstairs in his nightgown, but the housekeeper said that Mr. Gu drove out.

Jian Zong was surprised and puzzled, but no one answered Gu Li's phone calls. Fortunately, his and Gu Li's cars were made to order of the same model. For safety reasons, an induction locator was specially installed.

Jian Zong got in the car, turned on the ignition, and the icon showed that Gu Li's car was parked somewhere in the suburbs.

That location was very familiar, but Jian Zong couldn't remember the specific location for a while, so he kicked the accelerator and blasted the sports car out of the garage.

The night was as cold as water, and finally, he stopped at the gate of a cemetery on the outskirts of the city.

Even though he already had a subtle and unspeakable premonition in his heart, he still didn't dare to judge lightly. Step by step, he walked along the bluestone steps to the outside of a private memorial pavilion located deep in the cemetery.

There is only one tombstone in the pavilion, where the eternal Chen Xuan sleeps deeply.

Besides, there was the man who sat in front of the stele and didn't notice it until Jian Zong approached.

Jian Zong stared at the familiar silent figure, belatedly remembered that today is not only their third wedding anniversary.

It is also Chen Xuan's 30th birthday.

It turned out that every moment of his three years of happiness after marriage was filled with the shadow of another person.

He heard Gu Li say to the black and white face on the tombstone in a very soft and slow voice: "Xuan'er, I miss you so much."

It was a gentle tone that even he had never experienced before.

So far, this movie of two people has finally engraved the name of the third person.

In other words, the relationship between the three of them has always been entangled with each other and entangled.

It was also on that night that Jian Zong knew from Gu Li's intermittent whispers like memories——

This person, from the beginning to the end, is the same young man with a quiet smile.

Later, Jian Zong also yelled and questioned hysterically: "Since you don't like me, why did you agree to be with me and why did you want to get married?"

Once the emotions hidden for 12 years were revealed to the world, there was no way for Gu Li to escape, but his answer made Jian Zong fall into the abyss again.

"Because he likes you."

The shade of the locust trees is beautiful, the summer is like yesterday, and the mighty and bright feast of youth between them finally came to a belated curtain in their thirties.

After a period of time, Jian Zong moved out of the two's home and returned to the small villa outside the city where he lived before marriage. He was depressed and indulgent, and used all methods that could numb his nerves in exchange for a moment of peace of mind.

After getting drunk again, Gu Li, who was called by his friend, picked him up at the door of the bar. Gu Li took him back to their home to take care of him for a night. After he woke up, he said to him——

"It's nothing more than the fact that the person you love doesn't love you, so you can't live?"

Jian Zong asked sarcastically, "How does it feel to lose the person you love the most? How can a heartless person like you understand?"

Gu Li was silent for a long time, and said: "I understand, because my loss was before you."

Jian Zong was speechless.

That was the last word they said and listened to each other.

"Do you know what it's like to lose someone you love the most?"

"Yeah, I lost that too."

A few days later, Jian Zong resigned from all his duties in the company, left a signed divorce agreement for Gu Li, and flew abroad alone, and never set foot in this land with the words "Gu Li" written on it. .

Three days later, Gu Li found the agreement in his study, and a simple parting note——

"I love you for a long time, and you gave me a last dream."

He had already experienced 12 years ago what it was like to lose the person he loved the most.

But the heart-wrenching pain at this moment is like a reminder of irony.

Look, the person who loved you the most, you lost too.

A big dream, three lifetimes of regret.

No matter who intends it or who doesn't—

That's where they end up.

In the afternoon, the room was quiet and peaceful, with the breeze sneaking in through the gaps in the white gauze curtain, blowing the snow-white corner like nameless waves rippling lightly.

Zhang Nan rubbed his sore eyes, put the "Lost Dream" back on the bedside table, and sighed deeply.

In fact, in these years, he seldom reads his own works in private, because every creator is harsh on himself, and he will never feel that the illusory world constructed by himself is perfect, but Zhang Nan firmly believes that the first The importance of inspiration, he believes in his first instinct for a story script and character creation, so in order to avoid disrupting his creative nature, he rarely looks back at his completed works.

Just like this "Lost Dream", as he expected, it caused a frenzy among fans and book fans as soon as it was released. Everyone is used to Zhang Nan's previous cookie style. For such a story, such an exciting After sighing and sighing at the end, one after another said——

"Abused to the bone!"

"After watching the ending and then watching the part after the marriage, I realized what is sugar wrapped in glass shards! Ahhhhhhhhh! My tears are worthless!"

"This Gu Li is a scumbag, Jian Zong did a great job!"

"Actually, none of the three of them is right, they just missed each other..."

"Isn't Jian Zong the most innocent?"

"This 'Chen Xuan' is the contemporary 'Chun Yuan', right?"

"Jane. Yixiu. Zong——If you cross time, just blink..."

……

However, regardless of praise or criticism, Zhang Nan accepts everything, because in his opinion, such a pair of protagonists, such an ending of the story is their fate that they have no choice but to accept.

Not all deep love is reciprocated.

The person who loves you the most will not wait for you forever.

Therefore, this "Remaining Grief" is equivalent to another test of his narrative and painting style transformation. As a result, he doesn't care much about how the outside world judges him. At least I am satisfied with the completion of this story, but—that is, this After Ben, he suddenly fell into a lack of inspiration.

"Ah..." Zhang Nan pressed his swollen temples, closed his eyelids slightly, and said depressedly, "This is the so-called 'torturing others and finally torturing oneself', did you get backbited..."

Outside the window, the fire was burning in July and the sun was shining brightly. He slowly closed his eyes and fell into a dream full of undigested melancholy.

On the other side of the city, Doctor Fu, who was filling out the work log in the medical office——

In the hot summer, why do I suddenly feel chills on my back?

The author has something to say: Fu Xiaozheng: ... Suddenly, I had a subtle premonition.

Zhang Xiaonan: ...Isn't it, the next chapter will be...

Nineteen: Hehehe...the leading role is in place!

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