Hold on, you can't bend!

At 06:30 in the morning, the elders and mothers of the morning exercise in the community have not yet gathered in the small square, and the room is even more quiet as if there is no one in it.

At both ends of the sofa, two people sat on each side, silent like a stone statue.

With the complicated mood of being reborn after a catastrophe, Zhang Nan secretly looked at the person on the other side of the sofa who was sitting on the boundary between Chu and Han with him from the corner of his eye, and said to himself that he was not beaten to death directly on the bed after making such a fuss. Doctor Laifu is not only excellent in self-cultivation, but also... very tolerant.

But the two of them have been sitting in this state for 15 minutes. Fu Yuzheng went to work early today, and he couldn’t sit like this until the sun rises and the moon sets, so Zhang Nan mustered up his courage and said after a long silence One sentence: "That... I'm sorry."

After finishing speaking, I wanted to slap myself to death with my mouth-really, it was so boring.

Fu Yuzheng kept his eyes closed and looked at the corner of the coffee table, but did not respond to the words.

Zhang Nan felt bitter in his heart, and the other party's silence brought him back to the scene that happened in the bedroom just now. Although he had a sudden onset, but he couldn't help but pick up other people's clothes by hand... No matter how you say it, it doesn't look like a serious person can do it from.

"I..." Zhang Nan mulled over his words, cleared his dry throat, as if explaining to himself: "I didn't know at the time..."

After saying this, he raised his eyes again to figure out the other person's expression, only to find that a trace of emotion flashed very quickly in Fu Yuzheng's eyes that were always so indifferent that no change could be seen.

Zhang Nan rubbed the center of his brows, smiled wryly and said, "Isn't it awkward, is it still... a little disgusting?"

It's no secret that I like men, but the other party... is a straight-minded person of the same sex, who will probably be numb to the end of time by the scene just happened.

Fu Yuzheng's fingers resting on his knees slightly curled up, and finally he opened his mouth to respond: "No."

Zhang Nan was stunned for a moment, then laughed at himself and said, "Then you... have a strong sense of empathy."

Fu Yuzheng heaved a long sigh. He had just experienced a chaotic accident. Even if he was as calm as he was, he still couldn't calm down. Moreover, there were some things that he suddenly felt that he should formally verify.

It was almost time to go to work, and Fu Yuzheng was about to wash up and go out. After getting up, he asked, "Are you still leaving?"

It's all like this now, can he not leave?Zhang Nan nodded, looked up at his straight silhouette, and said, "I'll tidy up in a while, and I'll tidy up the room before I leave."

Fu Yuzheng raised his eyelids unconsciously, and glanced at the second bedroom where Zhang Nan lived, but didn't make a sound.

He strode towards the bathroom, Zhang Nan suddenly called him from behind: "Doctor Fu, can I trouble you with one last thing?"

Fu Yuzheng stopped and turned around: "What?"

Zhang Nan stroked his hair indiscriminately, his tone was seldom cautious and careful, but more of desperate courage: "If I fall into chaotic delusions again, if I can't help but run back to you, can I I can't ask you to accompany me to finish the ending of this book."

The last time he was delusional, he thought he was "Si Zehan", a college student of the Academy of Fine Arts, but when the story was nearing the end, Zhang Nan woke up suddenly, so for him, even if he was sick, what remained was a Hasty and incomplete ending.

In the comic story, "Si Zehan" and "Lu Yuxing" came together in the end, but he failed to experience those moments of real warmth and companionship.

And this time, the delusional sinking is about to come to an end again, but not only "Ling Xing" and "Ji Chen", including him and Fu Yuzheng, may be another farewell that ends without a problem.

The corner of Zhang Nan's mouth curled into a smile that was not a smile, no matter how you looked at it, it was sour and bitter: "I have been acting for so long, this time, I don't want to have any regrets, but... it's hard for you."

Fu Yuzheng looked at him scrutinizingly for two seconds, and replied, "You keep the key."

"Huh?" Zhang Nan didn't understand for a while, "How can I do that, I—"

"If you come back again, I'm not here, so go home by yourself."

Zhang Nan: "..."

His heart contracted suddenly. At this moment, he looked at Fu Yuzheng's still indifferent side face, and was suddenly at a loss for words.

After a while, Zhang Nan said hoarsely, "Thank you."

Fu Yuzheng went out to work, and when the door slammed, Zhang Nan completely sank himself into the sofa cushions, staring at the snow-white ceiling, completely emptied.

It’s not necessarily true that he was in a daze. Every bit of the fragment he “borrowed” during this period of time is like the slow-motion lens of an old movie, which slides before his eyes frame by frame, and the final image is frozen in those calm eyes superior.

After an unknown amount of time, maybe an hour or more, he slowly moved his numb legs, rubbed his face hard, got up from the sofa, and went to the second bedroom to pack his things.

Usually ignorant, but it was only when he left that he discovered that his personal belongings had covered every corner of the house in silence, ranging from slippers and facial cleanser to cabinets full of clothes and easels The drawing board... Zhang Nan looked at the two giant suitcases that had been packed, drooping his eyes and saying nothing. After a long while, he suddenly pushed the box towards the corner of the wall. bang!

"Fuck..." Zhang Nan Fei forcefully exhaled the breath that was stuck in his heart, with a bit of self-defeating frustration, he gritted his teeth and said to himself: "Just let it go! I left all the keys, so I just let it go and what else can I do?" !"

Finally, he folded the easel, put the drawing board and those manuscripts into bags, opened the door in the warm afternoon sun, turned and left.

Fu Yuzheng returned home before seven o'clock in the evening, opened the door, and the room was quiet.

He stood in the warm shadow of the wall light in the entrance, looked at the empty home, stood still for a long time, then changed into his slippers, and walked into the second bedroom.

The door of the closet was ajar, but it was completely empty inside. The sheets and quilts were all freshly changed, so smooth that there was no wrinkle. The one Zhang Nan used before had been washed and dried on the drying rack on the balcony.

The drawing board and easel are gone, only the two suitcases in the corner stared at him silently, as if they were silent mockery——

Now that the person is gone, you will be clean and happy?

Fu Yuzheng walked over, and brushed his fingers across the handle of the suitcase. After a long while, out of some ambivalence, he gently put the suitcase down, opened it, and then put a full suitcase of clothes and a few pairs of brushes into the suitcase. Take out the shoes in the carrying bag and put them back in their original positions one by one.

Packed one and opened the other.

Zhang Nan's toiletries and some miscellaneous gadgets, the special issue of comics he usually ordered every issue, fashion magazines, and a few limited edition figures that were originally placed on the desk...Fu Yuzheng will Putting all these things back in place, and finally pushing the two suitcases under the bed.

After all this was done, the T-shirt was already half wet with sweat, and he stood up in relief before going to the bathroom to take a shower.

Only in this way can the hole in the bottom of my heart that was dug open at some point, and is now whistling cold wind pouring into my heart.

Zhang Nan came out of Fu Yuzheng's house that day, and went home with only the drawing board and easel on his back. After putting the things back in his studio and arranging them, he changed his clothes and came back to Zhang Mowen's place.

It was already evening at home, and his parents were surprised by his sudden return. Zhang Nan leaned back on the sofa with a big grin, and said lazily and tiredly: "Look, what kind of parents are these? The son returned home from illness without tears of eager welcome. , only fright without temperature.”

"Don't be poor." Zhang Mowen took off his glasses, and put Qin Youzhi's glass of water in front of him, "What's going on, please tell me frankly."

"It's okay to explain." Zhang Nan took a sip of warm water and said with a smile: "But before that, can we give him a stutter? The city detention center doesn't have a rule to let suspects starve to take notes."

"It's as if you've been there." Qin Youzhi slapped him helplessly on the leg, got up and went into the kitchen, "Your dad and I didn't cook the fresh shrimp wontons we made at night, so I'll bring you some , and another strand of egg noodles?"

"Wonton noodles..." Zhang Nan rested his head on the back of the sofa, and replied in a drawn-out voice, "That must be excellent."

After eating a steaming bowl of noodles and eating seven or eight small wontons, Zhang Nan finally regained the feeling of returning to his original real life. He went back to the bathroom in his bedroom and took a shower. When he went out, he saw Zhang Mowen and his wife waiting in the In the living room on the first floor.

Knowing that they were worried, Zhang Nan wiped his hair and went downstairs, sat down opposite the coffee table, and only then fully revealed his situation during this time.

Of course, individual details must be omitted.

After listening, Qin Youzhi let out a long sigh of relief, patted his heart and said, "God bless you."

Zhang Nan laughed and said, "You are too unmaterialistic."

"As long as you are well, your dad and I can eat vegetarian food and recite Buddhism from now on, we don't care about materialism." Qin Youzhi said, "You too, since you are back, I will stay at home for a while this time, and I can see you every day , and let us rest assured."

Unexpectedly, Zhang Nan agreed simply: "Okay."

Zhang Mowen and his wife looked at each other in surprise.

"Tsk... What kind of eyes do you two have? Zhang Nan said with a smile, "I'm afraid that if one day I suddenly get sick again, I will walk to Dr. Fu's house with bare feet--foot pain is nothing to worry about." Well, the key point is that in this scorching July, the road is so hot! "

Qin Youzhi couldn't hold back, and was teased by him to burst out laughing, Zhang Mowen also laughed and shook his head.

"So, Doctor Fu really promised you that if the situation gets out of control again, you can go back to him?"

"Yes." Zhang Nan nodded, and after two seconds he couldn't help curling the corners of his mouth, and laughed at himself: "If you don't look for him, who else can I look for? , he...is unlucky enough."

"Don't talk about him like that." Zhang Mowen sighed, "Doctor Fu is a good person."

There was a smile on Zhang Nan's face, but he didn't make a sound.

So, am I going to drag such a good person to eternity and not let go?

There were no more disturbances in the following days. Although he returned to normal life, Zhang Nan still took his medicine on time and went to Lin Jie for psychotherapy regularly. After the early morning at Fu Yuzheng's house last time, he really seemed to have fully recovered. , Never fell into mental delusions again.

The world says it's small, it's really small, it's so small that two people who have never met before can meet and get acquainted in a square inch. The person I missed, but never met again.

In the evening, Zhang Nan came out of Lin Jie's consulting room, stood at the door and said goodbye to him: "Doctor Lin, please stay, there is no reason for a doctor to send me this patient when he comes back."

Lin Jie stood by the door and smiled gracefully: "You are welcome, we are not only a doctor-patient relationship, but also friends."

Zhang Nan Yile: "Isn't it true that doctors in your psychiatric department are not allowed to establish any personal relationship with patients outside the clinic?"

"How can you be so rigid and strict as you said." Lin Jie waved his hand and smiled like a spring breeze: "If you can chat with the patient more easily and become a trusted friend of the patient, it will also be of great help to the rehabilitation treatment. In the situation you mentioned, It's more about professional norms between doctors and patients of the opposite sex."

Zhang Nan didn't know what to think of after hearing this, and said with a light smile, "Tsk, that's biased, isn't it?"

Lin Jie reacted, he was taken aback for a moment, and then immediately patted his chest to reassure: Don't worry, I'm straight!

"Don't worry too..." Zhang Nan smiled lazily, "This is yours...it's really not my style."

The raging fire of gossip was instantly ignited, and Lin Jie almost blurted out and asked, "Then that dish of yours, is the chef's surname Fu?"

Fortunately, a strong work ethic stopped him.

However, Zhang Nan was quiet for a few seconds, and the smile on his mouth gradually faded. He raised his eyes and asked seriously: "There is something I haven't asked, just... in my current situation, suitable, cough... suitable Falling in love or developing an intimate relationship?"

Lin Jie looked him straight in the eyes, and replied word by word: "Why not? That is your right, moreover freedom."

"That's it." Zhang Nan was stunned for a moment, and a relieved smile appeared again, "See you next time for treatment, thank you."

After speaking, he waved his hand, turned around and left chicly.

The author has something to say: Zhang Xiaonan: If you don’t go, I’ll go!

Fu Xiaozheng: ...Give me a way out?

Nineteen: I've already given you the keys, so stop duplicity, right?

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