There is a problem with this White Moonlight designation

That day a new colleague came to the group, only 19 years old, a college student who came to be a volunteer. Mo Chenxiao didn't care. In recent years, there have been a lot of school students who have come to volunteer, and most of them will find out about wildlife protection within a few days. The organized activities were not what they imagined, and they left soon, but unexpectedly, this one persisted, and was assigned to her subordinates. On the day when they went out together, Mo Chenxiao looked at her for the first time, and saw a timid The little girl has long black hair tied into a ponytail, white and red skin, and round eyes, like a small mammal.

In a trance, she thought of a person from a long time ago, also with a pair of timid eyes. In the youth group of the piano competition, the other party won the championship. He was crying while accepting the award. The adults next to him asked her why she was crying, but she didn’t speak. The beads fell in strings like pearls.

This was the first time she met Jin Yunru in her memory, but she didn't recognize him the second time. Maybe the situation was a bit wrong. After all, the other party stood in front of her opponent and said "rhetoric words" about herself.

——"Even if everyone in the world dies, I won't like Mo Chenxiao."

Is this the sentence?

It's been a long time, and Mo Chenxiao sometimes thinks that she may have misremembered some details, but when she thinks about it again, she feels that this sentence is indeed correct, and she can even recall the inexplicable feeling she had at that time, She should be a little annoyed, after all, she didn't know this person, but she was on a list that didn't seem to be a good one. She didn't see Jin Yunru's face from the front, but only glanced at it from the side, and saw a fleshy cheek. A child—yes, I gave myself the impression that I was still a little girl.

I don't know why, but I will focus on it later.

No, I didn’t know what was wrong at the time. In fact, I still know what’s wrong now. It’s just that I think she’s special, as if she’s different from the people around me. When I think about this incident in my free time, I feel that it is not necessarily special. It is just a coincidence that I met him, and the other party is a person who is good at communication.

She is not a person who is good at communicating. Thinking back to the time in high school, everyone probably couldn't talk about being able to communicate. They were more or less self-righteous, thinking that she was the center of the world, but at that time she had roughly grown up. If you look like a mature adult, you feel that you should already be a mature adult. The thoughts generated by the decisions you make are mature and correct, and you will not regret it. Now it seems that it is more like an embryonic stage. The idea of ​​​​carrying out a lifetime only took shape at that time.

All that aside, she's not exactly a communicator these days.

Now she is 29 years old, facing a student who is ten years younger than her, she still doesn't know what to say, so she was very silent all afternoon, and it was already evening when she finished her work. like me?"

Mo Chenxiao squinted at her, now she could tell at a glance that the person who said this had absolutely no such thoughts in mind, even though she had a timid expression on her face, Mo Chenxiao still said: "No, I just don't know what to say."

The other party said: "Then do you hate people who talk too much? In fact, my friends say that I am a talker."

Mo Chenxiao was silent for a moment, then said, "Well, I hate it."

other side:"……"

The other party's unexpected expression entertained Mo Chenxiao, and Mo Chenxiao said, "What's your name?"

The other party said with a downcast face: "You don't even remember my name? My name is Lily."

Mo Chenxiao frowned, and looked at the other party with puzzled eyes. The other party's expression changed from pretended shyness to real nervousness, and his voice trembled after a while: "What, what's wrong?"

Mo Chenxiao said: "I used to have a... friend, also called Lily."

Are you friends?When Mo Chenxiao thinks of Lily now, he will hesitate about what she is to the other party, because even if she entrusts the other party to protect her for a year, she still doesn't know anything about the other party.

But the other party is a master of disguise, so the first time Mo Chenxiao heard the other party's name, he inevitably began to wonder if the other party was Lily.

But obviously not.

Lily is a straightforward person, she said to leave, she must have left, not to mention that before she left, she also said: "Miss, I think your life is very boring, I am going to seek excitement elsewhere, the contract is now Stop it."

From that day on, Mo Chenxiao began to think about whether her life was really boring, and began to wonder if there was anything interesting about her.

The first thing that came to mind at that time was when she found the kitten in the back mountain forest. At that time, her heart beat faster and her breathing was short of breath. She was much more excited, maybe she was a late bloomer. At that time, she didn't know what it was like to have a good impression of others. Until the night of the third year of high school, she and Jin Yunru went to the back mountain to see the kitten. She vaguely remembered that night. The wind was a bit strong, and the temperature was a bit low—in fact, it was no different from the usual night, but her mentality seemed to have changed that day. In her eyes, Jin Yunru was suddenly no longer a little girl, but a beautiful girl. She even Some did not dare to look at each other, but only set their eyes on the cat.

Then they had some conversations, so Mo Chenxiao felt that the other party was special.

Many years later, Mo Chenxiao belatedly realized that love came out of nowhere. The words that Jin Yunru said could not be said by others, but she already liked the other party at that time, so she felt that what the other party said was very audible. Yes, the sentence she still remembers after the time has passed is - "There is nothing shameful about yearning for freedom".

I don’t know if it has much to do with this sentence, but for a while Mo Chenxiao started chasing freedom. This may be the reason why she chose this industry after graduating from university, or it may be because things must be reversed, because she used to be too conservative, so she wanted to To do something less ordinary.

Of course, there is a reason for everyone to make a choice. For example, the Lily in front of me will inadvertently blurt out: "...I came here because I want to add credits."

Probably because he realized that he had said something wrong, the other party immediately added: "Of course it's mainly because I like wild animals."

The evening sun fell on her hair and her eyes, she raised her eyes and looked at her with some anxiety, her pupils were like thick honey in the setting sun, Mo Chenxiao found that after two days passed, the other party saw that she was real Nervous, she touched her face and thought in confusion: Is she really so difficult to get along with?

She thought about what she should say to make the other person less nervous, so she said, "The reason why I came here to work is not so pure. At first... I wanted to experience a different life."

The other party opened his eyes wide in shock.

After Mo Chenxiao said this, he felt that he had done enough hard work, so he continued to do what he was doing, but Lily seemed to be aroused with strong curiosity. For the next two days, the other party stared at her from time to time. During the three-day dinner time, the other party seemed to have accumulated enough courage, and finally said: "Does senior also have some messy thoughts?"

Mo Chenxiao felt a little baffled: "What kind of messed up thoughts?"

"For example, I don't know why I have to fall into a competitive environment. Although I have been praised by others, I feel that this is not what I want. I have constructed a seemingly perfect appearance of myself, but it is not like this at all... "

Mo Chenxiao suspected that this was the rhythm of preparing to treat herself as a confidant big sister, and quickly said: "Do things well."

Lily: "..."

Mo Chenxiao and Lili maintained a half-baked state, just like her and other colleagues. After a few days, she received a wedding invitation from Xie Zheguang. The wedding date was set in April. Looking at the familiar She unconsciously began to fall into the memory of the name, which was too obvious, and Lily also noticed it. The other party asked her secretly: "Senior, is that a wedding invitation?"

Mo Chenxiao let out a "hmm".

Lily's expression became lively immediately, and she secretly glanced at Mo Chenxiao but didn't speak. That expression made Mo Chenxiao feel inexplicably annoyed. After dinner at night, she finally couldn't help asking: "Are you guys spreading some rumors behind your back?"

Lily said: "We didn't say anything bad, it's just...just..."

"Just what?"

"It's just that I didn't expect Senior Mo to have such a past. I'm very surprised."

Mo Chenxiao frowned. Looking back on the past, she felt that no one else knew about her and Jin Yunru, and Jin Yunru was definitely not the kind of big-mouthed person, so how could anyone know?She was about to ask, when she heard Lily say again: "...But is it because of this incident that you are more likely to have a good impression of Alpha now?"

Mo Chenxiao: "..."

Mo Chenxiao closed his eyes briefly, feeling his brain was buzzing, took a deep breath and asked, "What are you guys talking about?"

Lily said cautiously: "Didn't it mean that the reason why you are single until now is because you liked an A who pretended to be an O in high school, and you were hit?"

Mo Chenxiao: "...Who said that?"

Lily: "Ah... who said that? They all said that."

It was too shocking, and after the sense of absurdity faded, she calmed down instead. Mo Chenxiao said seriously: "It's nothing, I've never liked it..." She was stuck, not sure whether Xie Zheguang's name should be mentioned here.

This jam is really a fatal one. Lily immediately showed an expression of "I understand" and sighed: "Senior, if you don't admit some things, you can't get out. Isn't there a saying in psychology, desensitization , to desensitize."

Mo Chenxiao brushed her hair back. At this time, she remembered the first time she knew that Xie Zheguang was an Alpha. To be honest, the mood at that time was a little forgotten, but she remembered the thought that came to her at the first time. She thought at that time——Sure enough That's right.

When the truth was revealed, Mo Chenxiao realized that she had doubted this matter before, maybe it came from some clues or some natural intuition, and then she regretted it, regretting why she didn't pay attention to this matter earlier. Where did the guess come from? If you can realize it earlier, can you have more opportunities?

I used to have such thoughts, but later I figured it out. Some things are not because she has less opportunities, but are destined long ago, especially emotional matters.

Mo Chenxiao sighed, she suddenly felt that what Lili said might make sense, maybe it was because she always thought of herself and never said it, which made this young heart seem fresh forever, she said: "It's not that Man, I like the other one."

Lily didn't understand, "Huh?"

Mo Chenxiao slid his finger on the table, first drew a circle, then drew a straight line, connected to another circle, when the other circle ended, Lily seemed to understand something, and suddenly realized: "You like brides?! "

Mo Chenxiao was stunned, she thought of another outsider in this world who knew about this matter, that person's name was also Lily - of course it must be a fake name.

Mo Chenxiao nodded, and Lily asked, "Do you still like her?"

Mo Chenxiao hesitated, shook his head, Lily pouted: "I'm lying."

Mo Chenxiao said: "That happened many years ago."

Lily burst into tears suddenly: "You are so in love."

Mo Chenxiao was speechless again.

Lily looked really moved, and even came up to try to grab Mo Chenxiao's hand, but Mo Chenxiao quickly dodged it, and Lily was not embarrassed, and clasped her hands together: "Senior, I have a tight mouth, and your thoughts are all in the air." You can tell me."

Mo Chenxiao didn't speak, but he couldn't help but think in his heart: Usually hearing such words, isn't it more people don't want to talk about their thoughts?

So she simply took out the earphones from her bag and put them on to listen to music. She showed a state of refusal to communicate, and the other party really died down, looking at her with a sad expression on her mouth, blinking her round eyes, looking at her. Looking like a white weasel, Mo Chenxiao sighed, rolled up the document in his hand and hit the other person on the head, saying: "Stop making trouble, let's finish processing the data in your hand first."

The other party was taken aback for a moment, then suddenly his expression was blank, and he obediently left.

One month later, the other party started school and left. Mo Chenxiao also ushered in a long vacation. She went home and rested alone in her residence for two days. On the third day, she returned to Mo's house to see her parents and younger sister. Her younger sister, Mo Yujian, was already in elementary school. , still knew her sister, and threw herself into Mo Chenxiao's arms when they met. Mo Chenxiao had the impression that the other party was a little girl who only reached the bottom of his thigh, but now she was able to bury her head on her waist, so even she couldn't help it. Feeling that time flies, obviously mother also thinks so. After a meal, she satirizes her with no future at work and can't find a partner. After so many years away from home, my mother is still like this. She returns to her home in the evening, Xiao Hua rubs her feet when she opens the door, and white gloves sleep on the sofa. After so many years, the kitten in memory also Become an old cat.

After resting at home for the sixth day, she began to feel weak and wanted to do something, but when she searched the circle of friends, she found that she couldn’t find any local friends. After hesitating for a long time, she clicked on Xie Zheguang’s name, Xie Zheguang My profile picture is now a silhouette, and people I know can see that it is the profile of Jin Yunru. Looking at this profile picture, Mo Chenxiao began to hesitate. While hesitating, she suddenly received a strange call. She usually does not answer such missed calls. I called, but I was distracted at the moment, so I answered it casually. There was a familiar voice on the phone, but I couldn't remember where I heard it, and said in a surprised tone: "You actually answered!"

Mo Chenxiao said: "I don't buy a house, I don't buy insurance, and I don't do renovations."

Opposite said: "Senior, I am Lily!"

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Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!